Disclaimer: wow! i guess i'm back writing again. exams have been keeping me. so anywayz, that pretty much is all. here's chapter two. by the way, x-men : evolution is not mine, so please don't sue me... ^-^ please R&R! *pleads* oh and for a spoiler: rogue's gonna play a major part next chappie! ^-^ i might even write a rogue/gambit... so wacha think? ^-^
Chapter Two: Tears and Petals
~You can call me selfish, but all I want is your love... You can call me hopeless, because I'm hopelessly in love...~
After that night, I didn't know why I even went with him to that stupid playground. I wished I was somewhere else, doing something else and not with him, asking for his emotions. Well, I think I expected too much.
The smile that was plastered on my face was fake. I would've erased it, but people would notice and ask me why. That's what I'm afraid of. Other people misunderstanding me, my feelings, my emotions, thinking that I am too immature for my age. I didn't want to be like him-- so carefree, benevolent... not caring what the world thinks of his actions, and him as well... Not minding the insults as both time and life passes him by. Or so, I thought.
I wonder what he feels right now. What he feels of his appearance. Of how people look at him differently. I know, we're all mutants, but he's-- different. I wonder if he feels judged-- mistreated by the way people look at him.
That's when I began to think... -- to start to care for that stupid blue elf. My heart started to ache as I felt hot tears rim my eyes. It made me feel... sorry for him. If I felt different, If I felt judged, If I felt mistreated... If I felt life was unfair for a mutant like me, then what did he feel?
I sighed as numerous questions filled my head over and over. I didn't know what to do. I wiped my tears dry, like he would do to me. But there was no shoulder to lean on , no chest to cry on. Because he was with her.
Somehow, a thought snapped me out of my reverie. He picked the right girl. A couple of scenes flashed right by my tear-stricken eyes. Some scenes that happened that I won't ever forget. I passed by his images, his elfish grin... and that scene from the other night... his voice shaking, his ears standing on their ends, his tail hanging tensely in the air, this three-fingered hand uneasily clasped the other, his eyes fixated straight to the ground... He opened his mouth, fangs gleaming in the moonlight.
"I think I'm in love vith-"
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"KITTY!!! What the hell are ya doing?!" Rogue let out a yelp. I looked and saw myself almost phasing through the door of my locker. I regained composure and stood straight. "What's wrong with ya, girl? Are ya out of yer mind?"
"No... I'm just, like... drifting..." I answered.
"Figures. What's up with you and Kurt?" she asked me as I started putting books in my locker, the normal way.
I almost dropped my books and cringed at the sound of his name. "What do you mean?" I asked innocently.
"Don't play with me Kitty. You know what Ah'm gettin at." I didn't mean to keep anything from Rogue. It's just that it was too personal to talk about.
"Huh?' I gave Rogue a quizzical look.
"Ya've been avoiding yer 'best friend' fer over a week now."
I paused for a while to think of another lie to tell, another story to put together. I was about to tell her 'I like don't have a best friend.', but Rogue knew me better. Sighing in defeat at Rogue's answer-me-or-you'll-be-dead stare, I replied, "Ask him." with a hint stiffness on my voice, disgusted to even say his name.
"Look, Kit, It's not that Ah care and all, but he asked me to give this to ya. He says he's really worried about ya." she said as she gave me a single white rose, a red ribbon tied neatly around it. I looked up at Rogue. "Go ahead, open it." she said, staring at an envelope. I flipped open the small card that came with it.
"dearest kitty,
for about a week now, you have been strangely avoiding me. i'm really worried about your sudden actions. if ever i did something --- anything that made you feel that way, i'm sorry. i really am. i wish you could forgive me.
your fuzzy elf,
nightcrawler "
I closed the card. Seeing Rogue, one eyebrow raised, arms folded in front of her chest, foot tapping, I simply shrugged. He was so lame.. Anger filled my veins, making my blood feel hot, and my face burned. I held the stupid envelope at its two ends and tore it apart. Peering through the crack I had made in the paper, I saw Kurt, surprised and dampened with the things I did. My brow creased as I let go, letting the two pieces of debris fly with a small gust of wind. I walked past him, letting the white rose fall on his feet. I walked away, seven feet of hard, polished marble separated me from the person I kept my innermost feelings from.
Deep inside, I was hurting. It tore my heart the way I tore that piece of paper. I simply walked away, like I always do. Ignoring the stares, the tears I felt streaming from my eyes. Ignoring the pain I was feeling, Ignoring the love I constantly gave him.
"Keety..." I heard his stupid German accent again, but it wasn't his regular voice, it was almost pleading, begging me to turn around, hug him, for him to hold me in his arms to stop me from crying, to somehow make the world feel alright. But I didn't come to him. I-- I walked away.
Minutes after--I didn't realize I was home--I flopped down on my bead, crying my eyes out. Rogue came in, sat down on the edge of my bed and sighed.
"Are ya okay, sugah?" she asked.
"Yeah." I said, my voice muffled by the sound of constant sniffling and hiccoughing.
" Ya aren't much of a liar, ta tell ya the truth." she said. I didn't answer. I heard her sigh again. "You know, he's feeling twice as much pain as you're feeling now." she said.
" What do you mean?" I asked, puzzled by Rogue's statement.
"They didn't last." Rogue looked down to the white sheets of the bed.
"Huh? Who didn't?" I asked, my head turned to her direction.
"Ya know..." she said, trapping the room in dead silence, as she wondered off to the end of the room as the window sill. She looked out, scarcely making a sound. I felt my throat go dry and tears sting my eye for no particular reason.
"She just broke up with him." she finally spoke, her voice drowned in a river of dread silence.
"Who did? Who broke up with who?" I asked in confusion.
"Amanda and Kurt. They just broke up a while ago, Kurt's really down about-" she mouthed slowly.
"What do you mean? Why?" I asked, panicked my Rogue's words. What did she mean? Why did they break up? They were going wonderful together. I didn't know what separated them. They were so... adequate... I mean, Amanda saw him for what he is-- for who he was on the inside. Kurt-- Kurt Wagner.
"Rogue, why? how? What happened to Kurt? Why did they break up?" my thoughts raced as they drowned my feeble words.
I needed to know.
I needed some answers.
"I need to know." I whispered as a tear fell down my cheek.
a/n:
hey guys! thanks for reading and reviewing the first chapter! here it is, the follow-up on the cliffhanger. hehehe. i hope you guys like this installment and i really wish you guys would review and read on to the last chapter... tell me what you guys think... RAINDROPS and I AM are very honored to have reviews, too... ^-^ hehehe...
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