Lo people. You see, it's not really a fic. It's just a song fic. I made before my real first one. Please have pity, just a newbie here. I picked this song of Linkin Park called "Easier to Run". It's about what HoroHoro thinks when he was still at the shaman fight, and the thoughts were coming back to him. The song was really related to it (and I love Linkin Park!!!!!!) so I picked it. This is also the theme song for the upcoming fic... I'm kind of a weirdo, because I'm putting theme songs on my fic then...
(Still preparing for the fic…)
Note: It's better to read if you have the meteora album.
Disclaimer: Dung… do we always have to tell you that we DO NOT own shaman king?????!!!!
~HoroHoro's POV~
What a sunny morning… Good thing I decided to take a walk in the park, or else I'll have to help clean up the onsen. Or maybe getting beaten up by the itako. Just thinking about her makes my hair stand on the end. I just don't understand why did she have to say that she likes me? Girls… really. I shook my head.
The other bright side too was I brought my precious CD player with me, with the new album I bought just yesterday. I listened to it yesterday, but then, I need to clean up the onsen again. It was such a great album. My head was rocking so hard when I listened to it. Yoh, my friend from the onsen and the fiancé of the itako Anna, thought I was going crazy and all. They just don't understand how I idolize this band so much.
I continued to listen. I put on track 6. Suddenly, an unmistakably familiar feeling hit my stomach. I knew this feeling before as I listened to the song…
"Easier To Run"
It was like I was going back to the past I feared… the past that hurt me so much… the one who put these wounds beneath my skin which still lives deep inside my heart… that time cannot even heal…
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I can see the time where I got defeated by Yoh… How Hao insulted us at our first meeting… the moment I felt the feeling of the lost soul possessed me to become a vampire… another offensive point where the leader of the Sabasu team told me that I was too young to become the Shaman King… Yume, telling me that she already had a fiancé… the time my twin brother told me that Yume didn't like me for being too foolish and too carried away by my emotions for her… the fight between Hao's team and Elly with the Lily Five and the way Hao attacked her… the moment I realized that I don't know what to do anymore the time I was too powerful to handle myself… how I hurt Kororo's feelings for me… the Nyorai girl telling me that I could never defeat Yoh… Hao killed himself… it was just too much for me…
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
I could sense that feeling again… the feeling that I could just wish I controlled the situation… I wished Yume just loved me… I wished I could beat Tao Ren or even Yoh… I wished I hadn't hurt Kororo's feelings… I wished she hadn't turned away… ran away from me…
I thought what I really wanted to do… if only I could change the time on my own will… if I could change everything that I wanted to…
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I wished I didn't become a shaman… if I didn't become a shaman; I wouldn't experience these wounds continuing to bleed inside me… I wouldn't have to meet her… I wouldn't have to meet anybody that could hurt me… It was too much to take… It was too easy to give up… to run… to go away and never come back… never say good-bye… I wished I just disappeared… I have no chance of meeting anybody… death, friends, injuries… or maybe worse… love for someone who has a fiancé… I wished I could have just died by the coldness inside me… totally… but she gave me warmth… even though she already had my twin brother for a fiancé…
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
I remember everything I don't want to remember… I wished I was a loner… nobody to care of or nobody to care for me… I can bear a physical injury but I can't take anymore pain that stabs the insides of me…
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
If I could only just change time I would… If I could have to forget everything I would… Not to feel anymore that I felt I would… If I could just heal the pain I would…
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change
It was all her fault then… she gave me strength to stand up to everything… even though she already had a fiancé… she does love me… but I wasn't her first love… she stood up for me… I don't why she does that for me… she gets angry with me because I was telling her that she shouldn't care for me because she already had a fiancé… worse is it was my twin brother… Yume… why do I have to meet you… but there was another girl that cared for me too… among all of them I chose her…
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
The song ended. I could feel the surroundings around me. I thought I was traveling back time, but the song carried me away. A feeling added up to my thoughts. About her… not Yume… but her…
Then I just felt hot tears on my cheek. I was REALLY too carried away. I need to get back on the onsen. If someone saw me crying here, they'll be thinking I was a nutter that just went out from the mental a minute ago. I walked back to the onsen until someone poked me on the shoulder.
Uh-oh… I thought. Somebody saw me. Dung. I need to turn around or else that someone will be poking me again…
I turned around. I saw her… Tamao Tamamura, standing in front of me.
"Hello!" she greeted me happily. I blushed then I just remembered that I agreed with her that she'll be my girlfriend.
"Hello," I greeted her back.
"What are you doing here?" she asked. "Getting away from Anna-sama?"
I saw her smirk. I narrowed my eyes to her in a how-did-you-know way. She smirked more than ever. "Well, I just came here to tell you," she started once more, her smirks fading slightly. "That I'm bound to go somewhere…"
I looked at her. It was like she was crying. But she was trying to hide it from me… "C'mon. You can't hide the tears forming in your eyes…" I told her. I patted her back.
"Are you going to miss me?" she asked me, looking into my eyes. She was actually crying.
"Of course I do," I replied. I hugged her. I can feel her shrinking on my own arms. She was like water, something you could touch but couldn't hold much better. She was fading away…
I let go of her. She smiled up to me, still crying a bit. "I wish we could see each other again…" she told me. Then she kissed me. (On the lips for sure!) Kissing was a better idea to forget my mind on those thoughts, but she was going to go away. My insides hurt more than ever.
"Good-bye," she whispered to my right ear.
"No. It's 'see you'," I corrected her.
"Well, it's all the same, right?" she smiled at me. She walked away. She turned back and waved. "Be sure to take care of yourself. If something happens to you, I'll die…"
"I know how to take care of myself," I told her. She smiled again and walked away.
I felt empty… so empty. I can't feel anything. I was dying.
I realized I was putting my headphones back. Time to listen to track 6 again…
~end of HoroHoro's POV~
That's all. Wish you enjoyed it… I'm not up to angst that much.
(Still preparing for the fic…)
Note: It's better to read if you have the meteora album.
Disclaimer: Dung… do we always have to tell you that we DO NOT own shaman king?????!!!!
~HoroHoro's POV~
What a sunny morning… Good thing I decided to take a walk in the park, or else I'll have to help clean up the onsen. Or maybe getting beaten up by the itako. Just thinking about her makes my hair stand on the end. I just don't understand why did she have to say that she likes me? Girls… really. I shook my head.
The other bright side too was I brought my precious CD player with me, with the new album I bought just yesterday. I listened to it yesterday, but then, I need to clean up the onsen again. It was such a great album. My head was rocking so hard when I listened to it. Yoh, my friend from the onsen and the fiancé of the itako Anna, thought I was going crazy and all. They just don't understand how I idolize this band so much.
I continued to listen. I put on track 6. Suddenly, an unmistakably familiar feeling hit my stomach. I knew this feeling before as I listened to the song…
"Easier To Run"
It was like I was going back to the past I feared… the past that hurt me so much… the one who put these wounds beneath my skin which still lives deep inside my heart… that time cannot even heal…
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I can see the time where I got defeated by Yoh… How Hao insulted us at our first meeting… the moment I felt the feeling of the lost soul possessed me to become a vampire… another offensive point where the leader of the Sabasu team told me that I was too young to become the Shaman King… Yume, telling me that she already had a fiancé… the time my twin brother told me that Yume didn't like me for being too foolish and too carried away by my emotions for her… the fight between Hao's team and Elly with the Lily Five and the way Hao attacked her… the moment I realized that I don't know what to do anymore the time I was too powerful to handle myself… how I hurt Kororo's feelings for me… the Nyorai girl telling me that I could never defeat Yoh… Hao killed himself… it was just too much for me…
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
I could sense that feeling again… the feeling that I could just wish I controlled the situation… I wished Yume just loved me… I wished I could beat Tao Ren or even Yoh… I wished I hadn't hurt Kororo's feelings… I wished she hadn't turned away… ran away from me…
I thought what I really wanted to do… if only I could change the time on my own will… if I could change everything that I wanted to…
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I wished I didn't become a shaman… if I didn't become a shaman; I wouldn't experience these wounds continuing to bleed inside me… I wouldn't have to meet her… I wouldn't have to meet anybody that could hurt me… It was too much to take… It was too easy to give up… to run… to go away and never come back… never say good-bye… I wished I just disappeared… I have no chance of meeting anybody… death, friends, injuries… or maybe worse… love for someone who has a fiancé… I wished I could have just died by the coldness inside me… totally… but she gave me warmth… even though she already had my twin brother for a fiancé…
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
I remember everything I don't want to remember… I wished I was a loner… nobody to care of or nobody to care for me… I can bear a physical injury but I can't take anymore pain that stabs the insides of me…
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
If I could only just change time I would… If I could have to forget everything I would… Not to feel anymore that I felt I would… If I could just heal the pain I would…
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change
It was all her fault then… she gave me strength to stand up to everything… even though she already had a fiancé… she does love me… but I wasn't her first love… she stood up for me… I don't why she does that for me… she gets angry with me because I was telling her that she shouldn't care for me because she already had a fiancé… worse is it was my twin brother… Yume… why do I have to meet you… but there was another girl that cared for me too… among all of them I chose her…
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
The song ended. I could feel the surroundings around me. I thought I was traveling back time, but the song carried me away. A feeling added up to my thoughts. About her… not Yume… but her…
Then I just felt hot tears on my cheek. I was REALLY too carried away. I need to get back on the onsen. If someone saw me crying here, they'll be thinking I was a nutter that just went out from the mental a minute ago. I walked back to the onsen until someone poked me on the shoulder.
Uh-oh… I thought. Somebody saw me. Dung. I need to turn around or else that someone will be poking me again…
I turned around. I saw her… Tamao Tamamura, standing in front of me.
"Hello!" she greeted me happily. I blushed then I just remembered that I agreed with her that she'll be my girlfriend.
"Hello," I greeted her back.
"What are you doing here?" she asked. "Getting away from Anna-sama?"
I saw her smirk. I narrowed my eyes to her in a how-did-you-know way. She smirked more than ever. "Well, I just came here to tell you," she started once more, her smirks fading slightly. "That I'm bound to go somewhere…"
I looked at her. It was like she was crying. But she was trying to hide it from me… "C'mon. You can't hide the tears forming in your eyes…" I told her. I patted her back.
"Are you going to miss me?" she asked me, looking into my eyes. She was actually crying.
"Of course I do," I replied. I hugged her. I can feel her shrinking on my own arms. She was like water, something you could touch but couldn't hold much better. She was fading away…
I let go of her. She smiled up to me, still crying a bit. "I wish we could see each other again…" she told me. Then she kissed me. (On the lips for sure!) Kissing was a better idea to forget my mind on those thoughts, but she was going to go away. My insides hurt more than ever.
"Good-bye," she whispered to my right ear.
"No. It's 'see you'," I corrected her.
"Well, it's all the same, right?" she smiled at me. She walked away. She turned back and waved. "Be sure to take care of yourself. If something happens to you, I'll die…"
"I know how to take care of myself," I told her. She smiled again and walked away.
I felt empty… so empty. I can't feel anything. I was dying.
I realized I was putting my headphones back. Time to listen to track 6 again…
~end of HoroHoro's POV~
That's all. Wish you enjoyed it… I'm not up to angst that much.