Hello, it's been a long time since I had updated. I wrote Ren's fic first. I really can't wait to do Lyserg's yet (for your information, he's not my fave character, it's just that it's easier to do his fic). It's really hard to search for some songs but good news, I found one for Faust and Manta. This one's kinda short. Sorry to all you Ren fans (I'm not a Ren fan, I'm the one and only HoroHoro and Joey fan!!!!)
Here it goes...
~~Ren's POV~~
It's been a hard day. But then, training helps me a lot in many ways like getting more powerful and getting away from idiots and the itako.
I went inside the house next to the onsen after my training. I need to get some relaxation, I thought. I went to my room, to the kitchen, towards the fridge and took out a bottle of milk. I drank it.
They always make fun of me whenever they saw me drink milk. I just remembered their jokes...
~~FLASHBACK~~
I was at a party in the onsen. Everybody was there, all my friends. They all sat down beside Chocoluv (the joking idiot...). I really don't want to sit there but I was forced to, by HoroHoro.
HoroHoro: Hey, Ren! Come over and sit here!
Ren: *blushes* I-I don't want to.
HoroHoro: C'mon, Chocoluv's leaving for America. It's the last time we hear his jokes. You know, his jokes are getting better.
So no choice. I sat beside him. I can't stand blushing. I wished he didn't saw it, but worse, was Yume. She was looking at me with narrowed eyes. I wasn't supposed now to fall for him, even though I am. It's not that Yume was jealous, but I agreed with her that now HoroHoro picked his girlfriend Tamao Tamamura, I should look forward to another girl. They kept pairing me with Pirika, HoroHoro's younger sister (A/N: Just like Joey Wheeler's younger sister!! Serenity!!). I don't know if she likes me, but she always shy towards me. She's currently at Hokkaido. HoroHoro nudged me on the elbow. Chocoluv was about to start his jokes. I closed my eyes and hoped that he's not going to go telling jokes about me.
Chocoluv: Oi, Ren!
Uh-oh, I thought.
Ren: What, dumb-head?
Everybody laughed except for him. I smirked. If he's going to get me, I'll get him first.
Chocoluv: Wow, I can see it's getting taller!
Woah! That's the smartest thing he said!
Chocoluv: *grinned* It's really getting taller!! Spiky is getting taller!!
Ren: Who's Spiky?
Chocoluv: The spiky thingy on the back of your head!!
Everybody laughed except for me. I felt the heat rose on my face. What's next? The shark joke?
Chocoluv: HoroHoro!
HoroHoro: Yeah!
Chocoluv: Did you know how Ren got his Spiky?
HoroHoro: How?
Chocoluv: Actually, Ren was raised by a shark underwater!
Everybody laughed again.
~~END OF FLASHBACK~~
Those jokes still gave me a sick feeling on the stomach. I hate it. I really don't wanna think about it this time. Maybe I could watch TV or listen to radio. I went to the living room. I saw HoroHoro sitting on the couch, eating prawn crackers and watching a cartoon. What a childish person.
Ren: What's that?
HoroHoro: Spongebob Squarepants. You wanna watch. It's really funny. Hahahahahahaha... look, he's eating his shoe...
Really. A sponge eating his shoe. An idiot would watch that.
Ren: No thanks. I'll just listen to the radio.
HoroHoro: Alright... Just one request.
Ren: What?
HoroHoro: Can you please put on headphones? I'm kinda hooked up on this show. Kinda long. It's 12:00 up to 3:00.
Ren: Alright.
I turned around and went to my room again. I opened the radio, put the headphones on and the CD I borrowed from HoroHoro yesterday. I put it on Track 5. The music started...
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/Confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending
Controlling/I can't seem
I had always been hated my father, since the day I knew him... he killed people, but still kept quoting that our family was good... he killed people because he wanted kyonshis to protect the family... he was so stupid... he didn't trust his family... even his own son... when I learned that I was a shaman, I trained and trained to become the Shaman King, in order to defeat him... he made me cold-hearted, even my older sister Jun... he didn't care... maybe he wasn't a father after all... he might be a kyonshi... no heart, no soul...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
My desire of beating my father was up the rate... I even had to kill people who gets in my way... I was too confident at first... I know I could defeat any shaman that gets in my way... But I was wrong... I made a mistake that made me walk a few inches away from being the Shaman King... I was defeated by another shaman, and his name was Yoh... At my first sight of him, I thought he was just an airy person, never thought of any fear and too weak to face anybody... When I saw him, I had a feeling my dreams maybe too far away to reach from my own hands, and he was taking away that dream from me... So I faced him many times... Lost and won, but still defeated... I thought I was losing hope... Maybe because I was fearless... I was in pressure...
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
I always thought that Yoh Asakura was the only shaman that can beat me... But I was wrong again... I was defeated by HoroHoro, his friend... No, he didn't beat me on a battle... He beat me because he had no problems with his family, even with his friends... He made friends with Yoh easily... He was an idiot... But he has a heart... He may act first before he thinks, other than that he was still a good person... And he has a great love for nature... He wanted to be the Shaman King because he wanted to help his people, the Ainu tribe... He wants to make a vast land of coltsfoot (A/N: Sheeesh... I dunno if that's correct) so that the Koropokkuru can continue to live... As the days go by, I continue to know his own life... He had a younger sister who shares his dream and loves him much more than a brother... He had a sacred spirit and with that he can control the nature... But those were really not that important... The thing that bothered me when we were together with Yoh and the others is that I don't know if I was falling for him... Everytime I look at him, I can't take my eyes off him... When he's in trouble, I tried to save him... I even recruited him as a team mate, even Chocoluv so that they wouldn't think something's wrong with me... I kept blushing whenever I see him at Christmas day because he was smiling a lot than usual... I even almost fell for his (5-minute younger) twin-brother... I was worried at him because he was alone and went looking for Kororo... I felt so hurt when I thought he died... (A/N: All according to my fic. But I won't put them in yet coz I haven't wrote it)... I felt relieved that he was alive... I was heart-broken when I learned the truth about him and Tamao Tamamura... It was my fear that he will know the truth about how I felt for him...
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/Reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
Now that it's all over, there was nothing to do anyway... He knew the truth but he didn't reject me... He still accepted me as a friend... He was helping me to forget what I feel for him... But I still can't take it away from me... But I was wrong all over again... Pirika came to my aid... Maybe she could help me after all... I don't know if I feel something for her but I know that if I just hang with her a lot, maybe I could fall for her after all... So maybe I did fall for her for some time... She almost changed my mind when I saw her the first time... She didn't looked at me but someone's telling me that she's gonna change everything...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing/ Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/Confusing what is real
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling/ Confusing what is real
The song ended... That was so different. I can't believe I had those thoughts kept for a long time...
Suddenly, HoroHoro opened the door to my room.
HoroHoro: Pirika called.
Ren: Really?
HoroHoro: Yeah. She asked if you were OK. I told her that you are.
Ren: Is there anything more important than that?
HoroHoro: Well she said she's going to stay here. She'll be coming after a week.
I smiled.
Ren: I can't hardly wait.
FINISHED!! That was close... I never written that long. Well, next time.
Here it goes...
~~Ren's POV~~
It's been a hard day. But then, training helps me a lot in many ways like getting more powerful and getting away from idiots and the itako.
I went inside the house next to the onsen after my training. I need to get some relaxation, I thought. I went to my room, to the kitchen, towards the fridge and took out a bottle of milk. I drank it.
They always make fun of me whenever they saw me drink milk. I just remembered their jokes...
~~FLASHBACK~~
I was at a party in the onsen. Everybody was there, all my friends. They all sat down beside Chocoluv (the joking idiot...). I really don't want to sit there but I was forced to, by HoroHoro.
HoroHoro: Hey, Ren! Come over and sit here!
Ren: *blushes* I-I don't want to.
HoroHoro: C'mon, Chocoluv's leaving for America. It's the last time we hear his jokes. You know, his jokes are getting better.
So no choice. I sat beside him. I can't stand blushing. I wished he didn't saw it, but worse, was Yume. She was looking at me with narrowed eyes. I wasn't supposed now to fall for him, even though I am. It's not that Yume was jealous, but I agreed with her that now HoroHoro picked his girlfriend Tamao Tamamura, I should look forward to another girl. They kept pairing me with Pirika, HoroHoro's younger sister (A/N: Just like Joey Wheeler's younger sister!! Serenity!!). I don't know if she likes me, but she always shy towards me. She's currently at Hokkaido. HoroHoro nudged me on the elbow. Chocoluv was about to start his jokes. I closed my eyes and hoped that he's not going to go telling jokes about me.
Chocoluv: Oi, Ren!
Uh-oh, I thought.
Ren: What, dumb-head?
Everybody laughed except for him. I smirked. If he's going to get me, I'll get him first.
Chocoluv: Wow, I can see it's getting taller!
Woah! That's the smartest thing he said!
Chocoluv: *grinned* It's really getting taller!! Spiky is getting taller!!
Ren: Who's Spiky?
Chocoluv: The spiky thingy on the back of your head!!
Everybody laughed except for me. I felt the heat rose on my face. What's next? The shark joke?
Chocoluv: HoroHoro!
HoroHoro: Yeah!
Chocoluv: Did you know how Ren got his Spiky?
HoroHoro: How?
Chocoluv: Actually, Ren was raised by a shark underwater!
Everybody laughed again.
~~END OF FLASHBACK~~
Those jokes still gave me a sick feeling on the stomach. I hate it. I really don't wanna think about it this time. Maybe I could watch TV or listen to radio. I went to the living room. I saw HoroHoro sitting on the couch, eating prawn crackers and watching a cartoon. What a childish person.
Ren: What's that?
HoroHoro: Spongebob Squarepants. You wanna watch. It's really funny. Hahahahahahaha... look, he's eating his shoe...
Really. A sponge eating his shoe. An idiot would watch that.
Ren: No thanks. I'll just listen to the radio.
HoroHoro: Alright... Just one request.
Ren: What?
HoroHoro: Can you please put on headphones? I'm kinda hooked up on this show. Kinda long. It's 12:00 up to 3:00.
Ren: Alright.
I turned around and went to my room again. I opened the radio, put the headphones on and the CD I borrowed from HoroHoro yesterday. I put it on Track 5. The music started...
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/Confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending
Controlling/I can't seem
I had always been hated my father, since the day I knew him... he killed people, but still kept quoting that our family was good... he killed people because he wanted kyonshis to protect the family... he was so stupid... he didn't trust his family... even his own son... when I learned that I was a shaman, I trained and trained to become the Shaman King, in order to defeat him... he made me cold-hearted, even my older sister Jun... he didn't care... maybe he wasn't a father after all... he might be a kyonshi... no heart, no soul...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
My desire of beating my father was up the rate... I even had to kill people who gets in my way... I was too confident at first... I know I could defeat any shaman that gets in my way... But I was wrong... I made a mistake that made me walk a few inches away from being the Shaman King... I was defeated by another shaman, and his name was Yoh... At my first sight of him, I thought he was just an airy person, never thought of any fear and too weak to face anybody... When I saw him, I had a feeling my dreams maybe too far away to reach from my own hands, and he was taking away that dream from me... So I faced him many times... Lost and won, but still defeated... I thought I was losing hope... Maybe because I was fearless... I was in pressure...
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
I always thought that Yoh Asakura was the only shaman that can beat me... But I was wrong again... I was defeated by HoroHoro, his friend... No, he didn't beat me on a battle... He beat me because he had no problems with his family, even with his friends... He made friends with Yoh easily... He was an idiot... But he has a heart... He may act first before he thinks, other than that he was still a good person... And he has a great love for nature... He wanted to be the Shaman King because he wanted to help his people, the Ainu tribe... He wants to make a vast land of coltsfoot (A/N: Sheeesh... I dunno if that's correct) so that the Koropokkuru can continue to live... As the days go by, I continue to know his own life... He had a younger sister who shares his dream and loves him much more than a brother... He had a sacred spirit and with that he can control the nature... But those were really not that important... The thing that bothered me when we were together with Yoh and the others is that I don't know if I was falling for him... Everytime I look at him, I can't take my eyes off him... When he's in trouble, I tried to save him... I even recruited him as a team mate, even Chocoluv so that they wouldn't think something's wrong with me... I kept blushing whenever I see him at Christmas day because he was smiling a lot than usual... I even almost fell for his (5-minute younger) twin-brother... I was worried at him because he was alone and went looking for Kororo... I felt so hurt when I thought he died... (A/N: All according to my fic. But I won't put them in yet coz I haven't wrote it)... I felt relieved that he was alive... I was heart-broken when I learned the truth about him and Tamao Tamamura... It was my fear that he will know the truth about how I felt for him...
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/Reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
Now that it's all over, there was nothing to do anyway... He knew the truth but he didn't reject me... He still accepted me as a friend... He was helping me to forget what I feel for him... But I still can't take it away from me... But I was wrong all over again... Pirika came to my aid... Maybe she could help me after all... I don't know if I feel something for her but I know that if I just hang with her a lot, maybe I could fall for her after all... So maybe I did fall for her for some time... She almost changed my mind when I saw her the first time... She didn't looked at me but someone's telling me that she's gonna change everything...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing/ Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/Confusing what is real
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling/ Confusing what is real
The song ended... That was so different. I can't believe I had those thoughts kept for a long time...
Suddenly, HoroHoro opened the door to my room.
HoroHoro: Pirika called.
Ren: Really?
HoroHoro: Yeah. She asked if you were OK. I told her that you are.
Ren: Is there anything more important than that?
HoroHoro: Well she said she's going to stay here. She'll be coming after a week.
I smiled.
Ren: I can't hardly wait.
FINISHED!! That was close... I never written that long. Well, next time.