-----Angels Dancing On Her Eyelids
---------Written by Rainbow Dreamer
-----Disclaimer: Card Captor Sakura belongs solely to Clamp. I hold no claims on this fanfiction in any way. The plot, however, is mine and I would like it to remain that way. In other words, no plagiarism you evil little men out there! Hehe.
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I'm done (finally!) with my other fic, Do You Remember Me? I Remember You. Thus, I'll be concentrating completely on this one unless another crazy idea pops into my head. LoL.
Yes, I know. I left it off as a sad and cliffhanger at the end. And it was horrible of me to make you guys wait forever. Oh, and for those who are now disliking the Kinomoto family... Especially Touya, you have to see it from the parents' view. They're scared that Sakura will be blind once more, and Heaven knows they don't want that. When people are scared, they take extreme measures to protect someone. So, with that said, don't dislike them! Besides..... Whoever said that I'm leaving things this way? *Grins evilly*
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CHAPTER TEN:
-----"Give all to love; obey thy heart."
-----Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)
--- Tomoyo---
"We're not friends anymore."
The dull words echoed through my brain, not believing those words, yet I heard it clearly. I could hear those harsh words repeatedly in my mind. But I didn't want to believe it. How could one separate such a precious friendship? To Sakura, there was absolutely nothing more important than friendship. She treated them like family. And to say that it was her aunt and uncle, and Touya was even more impossible. They were the most understanding people she ever met. It almost seemed impossible. This couldn't be happening.
"Tomoyo," Sakura whimpered, her nose stuffed and red. "Tell me this isn't happening."
I glanced at her, in her teary state, and grasped her hand tightly with mine, as to reassure her, but I didn't know what words I could tell her to make the pain less. For once, I was lost with words. I didn't know what to do for my best friend, and yet she needed so much.
"Gomen, Tomoyo." My friend finally spoke up, her voice cracking with dryness mixed with a nasal voice from crying too much. "I shouldn't be piling all my troubles on you."
I shook my head furiously. "Iie!" I said in a fierce whisper. "Don't you ever say that. Oh, Sakura. I'd do anything to help you right now. What your family did was unjust. You and Li-kun are wonderful friends!"
Sakura's smile was mere ghostly reflection of her old one. "Were," She interrupted. It was eerie seeing her like this. "We were wonderful friends." I merely stared at her.
Then she sighed and whispered, "Tomoyo, he was going to come over to my house to teach me math for our test. We just decided to go have a drink. It wasn't his fault."
"I know, I know." I soothed, taking out a brush and running it through her long auburn hair. She sighed and leaned against me, her eyes closed, humming a tune from long, long, ago.
I had to bite my lip to stop myself from crying.
---Third person---
"Dear, don't you think we were too harsh? She hasn't been herself lately." Nadeshiko asked as she rested her head against her husband's shoulder. "Every time I visit her in the hospital, she has this sad aura around her. Dr. Waleigh told me not to worry, but I just can't help it." Fujitaka's arms wrapped around his wife's shoulder and squeezed it tightly.
"I don't know." He finally answered, his voice faraway. "I don't know Li. I don't know if I can trust him. I don't know if I can trust him to make Sakura happy. She's been blind for so many years that she's so much more naïve than everyone is."
"I know, but."
"Let's just wait and see." He replied, cutting her off.
"But I can't." His wife proclaimed softly. "She reminds me of me." She finally spoke after a moment of brief silence.
"Of you?" Fujitaka was surprised.
"When we first met, we fell in love, didn't we? When you caught me when I fell from the tree?" She asked softly, her eyes in a far away dreamy look. Fujitaka smiled and nodded. "And Sonomi kept telling me not to see you. I promised her not to see you, you know." She continued, her eyes turning on him instead.
"What? How come you never told me that?"
Nadeshiko laughed. "Remember the time I hardly talked to you, saying I was busy?"
"I thought you were angry at me."
"I know. That's why you sent me all those flowers." She replied, smiling happily, remembering. Then she paused, looking her lover in the eye. "That's when I finally noticed that I couldn't live without you."
Fujitaka was silent for a moment, his face in deep thought as his eyebrows drew together. "Are you suggesting that Sakura and Li are to be like us?"
Nadeshiko shook her head. "No two things can be exactly the same. We can't compare. But they love each other as much as us, yes."
He sighed, closing his eyes resting his head against the couch. "Doesn't Sakura already have a boyfriend? Lei Long?" His wife just nodded her head. "I don't want to see her hurt." He repeated.
"Oh, I know." Nadeshiko whispered. "I know. We just love her too much."
Touya stood behind the closed door, quietly listening to his parent's conversation. He didn't know what to do. The only thing he wanted was for Sakura to be happy and safe. But he didn't know what to do. Sighing, he left a note on the fridge, grabbed his coat from the sofa and decided to head for Yukito's house.
--- Li apartment---
"What?" Meiling shouted. "What's he doing?"
Wei winced a bit. "He's at work," He repeated, softly, wondering what he had said wrong in the first place. He watched amazed as Meiling walked a few steps, her anger disappearing with each step.
"Oh. Gomen, Wei. I thought you said he was training." She grinned. "You know how Syaoran is."
Wei nodded. When he had welcomed the two home, Syaoran was glaring; his eyes daggers while Meiling was a bit upset herself. He knew for a fact that whenever Syaoran touched his sword, he was totally in a fight mode...... And especially when something was going not his way. But the way he was glaring was something Wei had not seen since Syaoran arrived in Japan. And he didn't even touch his sword, like he usually would of have done back at home in Hong Kong. Instead, he went to work, something he enjoyed.
"I guess I'll go see him." Meiling spoke, slipping her shoes on. Wei blinked from his thoughts and nodded.
"Good idea," He replied.
Meiling smirked. "Yeah, I don't want him to scare off all the customers." She replied with fake cheerfulness before she walked out the door. "If looks could kill," She mumbled as she thought about her cousin, cursing the cold blast of wind that hit her right in the face and blowing her hair into ten different directions. "Damn!" She growled angrily.
She stormed into a shop; a pleasant twinkling sound rang from the wind chimes attached to the door. A young man from the counter looked up surprised.
"Why, good evening Meiling." He greeted with a smile.
Meiling grinned wryly. "Hey Xiao Lang," She replied with a smirk, as if she found something interesting that he didn't know. "How's business going?"
"Fine." He replied curtly, but still smiling pleasantly. "What are you doing here?"
"I was just walking around here and decided to come in." She replied, shrugging.
"Oh, I see." The young man with dark brown hair replied with another smile. "So how are things going?"
"Everything's going like crap." She replied harshly. She sighed, leaning against the counter. "You remember my friend Sakura right?"
"Yeah, the one with green eyes and brown hair. She came here before. What's wrong?"
Meiling snorted inelegantly. "Well, it seems like her and my cousin can't be friends anymore. Some accident happened and Sakura's back in the hospital, with another surgery to her eyes. She can see after two weeks, but her parents and her older brother thinks it's my cousin's fault and they can't see each other."
"Weren't the two friends?" The guy's deep brown eyes that were almost black shone with worry.
"Hai. She's one of the few he actually opens himself to. Hell, he even teases her like he does to me. And coming from him, that's a lot."
Xiao Lang nodded. "Yeah, I know. Well, I'll do whatever I can to help. Call me if you need anything."
He noticed Meiling a familiar twinkle in those ruby eyes. Sighing, he asked, "What are you plotting now?"
Meiling grinned and bend over to her friend's ear. Slowly, a smile spread upon the guy's face. "You're on." He replied. "I'll have everything ready by tomorrow."
"Wonderful. Well, ja." Meiling smiled and strolled out the shop again. She hoped things between the two weren't completely lost.
--- Hospital---
"Ms. Kinomoto, how are you this morning?" A cheerful voice asked as she pulled the curtains away from the window to let light in.
"Wonderful, arigato Lin."
The nurse laughed, "Haven't I told you to call me by my first name? You know me already. Wasn't it your brother who harassed me with questions on your first time here?" She tried to cheer up the girl a bit. After all, this was her favorite patient and she seemed too sad to be herself.
Sakura smiled a bit, remembering that moment. "But you aren't calling me by my first name," She countered.
"True, true. I'll call you Sakura and you call me Daphne. Deal?"
"Deal." Sakura echoed. Daphne smiled.
"Good. Look, I received some wonderful flowers especially for you from the famous flower shop, Mikomi Sono."
"Nani?" Sakura asked. She loved that flower shop and it was known for its great variety of flowers, carpentry, and the wonderful assortment of flowers in bouquets and such. She breathed in a wonderful smell of cherry blossoms, but they were no longer in bloom now. "Mm, Cherry Blossoms." Daphne smiled; it was amazing how much Sakura knew from her senses. "Who is it from?"
"You don't mind me reading it?"
Sakura shook her head. "Okay, then." Daphne opened the pink envelope to find a short note. "It says," then she paused, smiling. " 'Cherry Blossoms mean spiritual beauty. Things will turn for the better.'"
The girl sat in her bed, thinking over the words. It was the same exact pattern as the note on the snowdrops. And those were from the mysterious guy who told her to get an operation. Was it the same guy? It certainly sounded like him.
Daphne smiled and placed the flowers on the desk. "Seems to me you've got a secret admirer."
Sakura just nodded absently. The nurse frowned, wondering what could be possibly wrong. Her friends visited her on a daily basis, as so did her family. If it wasn't family or friend, it must was some guy problem she reasoned.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked softly, sitting on the foot of Sakura's bed. Sakura turned her head in Daphne's direction.
She waited patiently in silence as she waited for the girl's reply. "I-- I'm confused." Sakura finally spoke, her voice barely audible.
"Because?" Daphne prompted gently.
"I--," Sakura opened her mouth to talk, but was cut off suddenly by a rapid knocking on the door. Daphne jumped a little. Sakura sighed softly.
"Do you want me to tell whoever's there to come later?" The nurse asked, hearing her sigh.
Sakura shook her head quickly; she didn't thought she heard. Daphne looked at her skeptically before getting off the bed, making it creak slightly. "We'll talk later, I promise," She whispered to Sakura, patting her on the shoulder reassuringly. Sakura relaxed under her touch.
Daphne walked up to the door and opened it to see a tall young man with glistening golden hair and reddish brown eyes. He smiled at the nurse. "Ohayo. I'm here to see Sakura Kinomoto." He stated, supplemented with another dashing smile.
The nurse chuckled to herself mentally. This was some fancy guy. She wondered who he was. But scolding herself not to laugh out loud, she nodded and called to Sakura. "Saku, you've got a visitor. If you need me, just press the button okay?"
"Hai. Arigato Daphne."
"Anytime." Then she walked out and left the two to be with each other.
--- Sakura---
I could smell a strong familiar smell of cologne, the rich and expensive kind. Taking another breath in, I realized it was the Hugo cologne that he always used. My mouth turned up into a small smile.
"Took you long enough to visit me, Lei Long." I teased. "It's been a week."
Lei chuckled. "I thought you'd realize who I am." He replied. "Sorry I haven't been visiting but I've got a load of crap to get done. You don't know what my parents are forcing me to do. Anyhow, to make it up for you, I bought you some flowers."
"Arigato."
"Hey, who sent you flowers before I did?" He demanded in a joking way.
I laughed. "Many have, for your information Lei. But those cherry blossoms arrived just a bit earlier than you."
"So, whose it from?" He asked casually, dragging a chair across the floor up to Sakura's bed and sitting on it.
"Don't know. There was no name."
Lei shrugged. "So, I heard you're going to be out in another week tops."
"Yeah. I can't wait to see the sun again."
"Are you sure you don't want to see someone else?" He teased.
"Oh! That's right. My family, friends, the flowers, and all those wonderful stuff."
"You forgot something."
I smirked. "Have I? I don't recall forgetting anything." I could just imagine Lei's face annoyed. "Oh wait!" I suddenly spoke up. "I've must admit I have forgotten someone."
"Oh?" I could tell Lei was trying to act nonchalant.
"My nurse."
"You're what?" He repeated.
"Nurse. You know, the one who opened the door with the strawberry blond hair and blue eyes." I explained.
Silence.
"But there's someone else." Lei merely grunted. "You."
"Sakura," he sighed. "If you weren't in the hospital right now, I'd kill you."
I grinned. "You're just too fun to tease."
"Aren't I? Don't you love my sense of humor?" Lei replied. "Well, I'll see you when you come back to school next week."
I nodded. "Will you come visit me again?"
Lei shrugged. "We'll see. I just decided to come to see you before I went to school. The teachers are really piling up on loads of work these days." He sighed. "But you'll be back at school next week anyways right? I'll see you soon."
I had to stop myself from sighing in disappointment. "Of course. A week passes by quickly. I've been here a week already, one more week won't kill me."
"Ah, you're so brave." He complimented. "See you." He kissed the top of my forehead and then left without another word.
Once he left, I leaned against the bed rest sighing out loud. Was it just me, or was that visit extremely short? Around ten minutes at most. I sighed. Sure, I could understand the amount of stress he'd have, since finals are coming up since it's already June, but it seemed to be that Meiling and Tomoyo were always visiting after school frequently, whether it was a school day or weekend.
But what was I complaining about? I'm going to be out of the hospital next week.
But what truly bugged me was that Syaoran hadn't come visit me since I told him we couldn't be friends anymore. Meiling often avoided the topic of her dear cousin, only saying that he was spending more time at his job than usual. She said it was an improvement, not having to have less sleep since he wouldn't wake up early in the morning to practice martial arts.
I missed those smirks of his. Those dark mysterious brown eyes that flicker with a sense of warmth to those he cared. His stubborn personality that made it wonderful to bicker with him. Heck, I even missed the way he'd tease me, his eyes laughing while his face expressed no emotion.
I wanted him back as a friend.
--- Syaoran---
I was up at four in the morning, practicing my martial arts move in an empty room that was made for practice with its smooth wooden floor shined everyday, two swords placed on racks on the wall, and a small alter with a piece of rice paper with four words in the bold, black Chinese calligraphy on the wall above it. I looked at the words for a while, recalling its meaning that Wei had taught me since I was small. It focused on four principles that were important in the Li family.
Strength.
Courage.
Mercy.
Love.
Closing my eyes, I let myself cool down. When I opened them, I felt fire burning in my limbs. Getting up slowly, I lashed the sword in a swift movement behind me. I was met with the sound of metal against metal in a smooth clang.
"Wei." I acknowledged.
"Xiao Lang," he replied with a smile, lowering his sword that he had quickly gotten from the wall next to us. "You've improved greatly master."
"You haven't changed, Wei." I said with a small smile.
"But you have." He replied. I looked up at him surprised. "Ever since you came to Japan two years ago, you've become more relaxed. Before, I don't think I ever saw you smile. You've changed for the better."
"Have I?" I questioned bitterly, sliding to the cool floor as the morning wind washed over us.
"May I ask what's wrong?" Wei offered.
I looked at him again. Was I that obvious?
"Xiao Lang, I've been with you since birth. I do know you." His friend confirmed, answering my silent question. "Everyone's noticed your sudden change in attitude. But, you've changed in the way you deal with anger."
I remained silent.
"Instead of lashing out your anger in hours and days of martial arts, you now instead go to your work, something you enjoy immensely."
"It's all for her." I interjected softly.
"May I ask who?"
I frowned. "Sakura. Sakura Kinomoto."
Wei looked over to his young master, whose face was written with confusion and upset. His unruly chestnut hair was in his eyes, covering those sad pools of emotions as he struggled to remain indifferent.
"I haven't seen her lately, and neither has Meiling talked about her much. I've heard she's in the hospital however. How is she?" Wei asked.
I paused. Every time I mention her name, I automatically think of her contagious laughter and twinkling emeralds as she laughs. But the whole image shatters at my feet when I know I have caused her to be where she is right now. I can't believe I took her eyesight away once more. I could only thank God that it was temporary, a mere two short weeks, but to her, it was probably the end of the world. She just had the gift to see once more for only two months. And I took her eyesight away. I couldn't blame myself more than I was right now. Why wasn't it me who was hurt god damn it!
"I don't know." I finally answered, looking Wei in the eye. I could feel those damn tears rushing to greet the world. I blinked, furiously trying to hold them in.
I. Would. Not. Cry.
"Just cry."
"Excuse me?" I asked stiffly.
Wei stared hard at me. "What kind of fool are you acting? Is this how I've taught you all these years?"
"All you've taught me is to be strong and not be weak, god damn it!" I cursed. "Emotion is a weakness!"
Wei didn't even blink twice. Once more he held me with his eyes. "You know better than that Li Xiao Lang."
I didn't answer.
"Mercy and love comes more important than courage and strength at times. William Langland once said that, 'all the wickedness in the world in which man may do or think is no more to the mercy of God than a liver coal in the sea.'" Wei smiled kindly at me, and grasped my shoulder fatherly, something I had not felt since my father died. Wei took up to be my sensei, my advisor, my fatherly friend. "You must learn to have mercy to those you believe have done wrong to you. But most of all, you must have mercy for yourself."
I didn't answer.
Wei nodded and stood up, placing the sword back on the rack. "You might want to take a shower before Meiling awakes." He suggested with another kind, forgiving smile. I found myself relaxing slowly. I looked up into those friendly gray eyes and nodded.
"Good. What would you like to have for breakfast, Xiao Lang?"
I was already walking to the bathroom. I turned around slightly. "Whatever Meiling likes best," I replied casually before entering the bathroom to shower before school started.
Meiling actually asked me to walk with her to school this morning. Ever since Sakura's accident, things were quiet between us. She'd always find some friend from school or hook up with Tomoyo.
Once we got outside and walked down our street, Meiling stopped and looked at me. "What?" I demanded.
She narrowed her eyes, as if sizing me up. Then she sighed and reached over to grab my hand. "Come on."
"Where?"
"You know where," She replied simply.
"Meiling," I growled warningly. This wasn't where the school was headed.
"No, you shut up Xiao Lang. I've had enough of this fucking nonsense." She spat, cursing. I merely raised my eyebrows. "And wipe that smirk on your face."
"We have school." I stated.
"Hooky."
"What?"
"Got a problem with that cousin?" She challenged. "What are you, a goody two shoes that's afraid of skipping school?" She taunted.
I clenched my fist, my jaw getting rigid. "Fine." I threw the word at her. She grinned smugly and continued to walk while I followed in angry silence.
When Meiling stopped, I felt my anger vanishing like water on a hot summer day into the surrounding. Instead, my emotions were replaced by a sense of insecurity and nervousness. I stood there stubbornly, looking at the huge, strongly built building of mostly white brick with many windows with light blue shades.
"Let's go." Meiling told me. When I didn't respond, she softened. "Come on, Syaoran. Didn't Wei teach you courage?"
I looked over at her, meeting her eyes that reflected worry and kindness at me I sighed and nodded. "Hai."
"We'll go in together." She comforted. "But I'm going to leave you two alone while you guys settle your thoughts."
I half smiled and nodded, entering the Tomoeda Hospital. I tried to put a cool mask over my face, to hide my emotions. It was something I was used to doing and I didn't know how to greet Sakura. It had been more than a week since I saw her or talked to her. And the last time we did, we said goodbye. But I'm still able to remember our conversation clearly in my head; the way she felt in my arms was etched in detail in my memory and soul.
I knew I missed her.
Meiling did all the talking, signing us for a visit when we got inside the hospital. I looked around for the first time. The time I rushed Sakura in here, I had hardly noticed the white polished floors, busy nurses, and lines of patients. It just gave me an eerie feeling, knowing that Sakura was in here. She didn't belong here any more than I did.
My cousin nudged me lightly on the shoulder and motioned me to follow her. I walked down the empty hall, as if in a trance. I could remember everything on that day I sent her in here in slow motion and without sound.
My heart stopped beating once I stood in front of the door. The door that would change everything. I raised a hand to knock.
--- Sakura's room ---
"Daphne, didn't I tell you that I'm not hungry yet?" Sakura called out teasingly. She waited for an answer but there was none. Frowning, she paid careful attention her to surroundings and sensed that there were two people in the room.
She identified one almost immediately. "Hey Meiling. Don't you have school?" Sakura asked with a smile. Meiling grinned, walking over to the girl.
"Yeah, but what the heck. Aren't you getting your bandages removed today?" She asked, sitting on a chair.
"Yeah. I just can't wait to get out of here."
"I bet. School is boring without you."
Sakura merely nodded her head absently. "Meiling, you brought Syaoran with you today, didn't you?" she asked softly.
Meiling sighed. "Saku," She started.
"Meiling, you should be at school right now. Don't you have physics this morning? You told me yesterday that you have a huge test." Sakura interrupted.
Meiling looked at Sakura, wondering if she should go or not. She looked over to her cousin, who was masked with a look of indifference, but she knew better. He was observing her quietly. Perhaps it was better to leave, and let the two talk. After all, they had a lot to catch up on.
"Saku, I'll come by and see you this afternoon with Tomoyo, okay?" She asked. Her friend nodded and gave her a smile, urging her to leave. "Ja ne," She leaned over and gave me a tight hug. Then, Meiling picked up her book bag, slung it over her left shoulder and walked out the door after giving Syaoran a reassuring smile.
There was an awkward pause of silence. Syaoran stood looking outside with a bored expression. Sakura, however, was soaking in his presence; her senses coming alive with him so near her. It had been so long.
"Why don't you sit?" She asked, breaking the silence. Syaoran looked over at her. Then, after a moment's thought, he sat down in the chair that Meiling had previously occupied.
Syaoran sat in the chair, studying her intently. God, she was beautiful. Even though she had on a plain light blue hospital clothing and her eyes were bandaged with white cloth, she still looked like a goddess. There was something to her, some feeling she gave out that made her seem wonderful. He suddenly smelt the rich fragrance of cherry blossoms. Spiritual beauty, that's the perfect word to describe that aura she carried around her.
"Hey, will you get your head out the clouds?" Sakura asked, her voice in a cheerful, teasing manner.
Syaoran half smiled. "Can't."
"Why not?" She asked, turning to face him.
This time Syaoran grinned. "It's already out of the clouds."
Sakura laughed, surprised at his answer. It had been so long since she heard him talk in the style he does. "You never fail to surprise me,"
"Hm." He grunted.
The two fell silent once more. There were so many things they wanted to say to each other, but both were afraid and were wondering what the other person was thinking.
"I'm sorry." Syaoran finally spoke up, breaking the ice and trying to get a conversation once more.
"It wasn't your fault." Sakura replied immediately.
Silence drifted among the room. So much to say, but they didn't know how.
"What about your parents? And your older brother?" Syaoran finally choked out what was worrying him. "I caused you to go through darkness again and if I were your parents, hell I wouldn't let myself see you once again. I don't blame you the least, if you didn't forgive me."
To his surprise, Sakura chuckled. "They've cooled off, at least my parents have. They were just overly worried and protective. They still are, but once I regain my eyesight, I'm sure things will be better." Then she smirked. "Might want to stay away from Touya for another month or so though."
Then her features softened and she felt for Syaoran's hand. She squeezed it comfortably when she found it. "And I can't forgive you."
"I understand," Syaoran said quickly.
Sakura shook her head, a small smile playing on her lips. "I can't forgive you because there's nothing to forgive. I never blamed you."
Syaoran stared at her, marveled at her kindness, her love, her ability to give mercy. "Arigato." He finally spoke up, sincerity flowing through the simple word.
"Anytime." She replied with a shrug. "I'm just glad we're friends again."
"Friends?" Syaoran repeated.
"Of course, Li-kun. Okaasan and Otosan will be keeping a hawk's eye on you, but I don't think they'd do anything drastic though Touya might."
Syaoran laughed bitterly, recalling the memory of how Touya had slammed him into the wall and how he had later punched a dent into the wall. He was surprised at his great strength that almost equaled his own with all his training. It was clear how much he cared for his young sister.
"I'll keep that in mind, Kinomoto." He replied dryly while Sakura laughed. "But I'm glad we're on talking terms once more. These days have been a drag without you to tease."
Sakura giggled happily. It was nice to be around him once again. He was a dear friend to him and those days without talking to him were painful to her. She smiled to herself, remembering how she and Okaasan had a talk the other day. Her family had finally decided, with Touya reluctantly, that they would allow her to see Syaoran once more. Of course they'd watch him closer than usual and that they weren't to be alone to places, Sakura was just glad that she could be with him once more as a friend.
Syaoran nodded in relief. "When are you getting the bandages off?" He asked, clearly worried.
"Today." She replied simply.
"What?"
"You heard me. Today." Sakura repeated with a smirk that made Syaoran sigh and shake his head. That smirk looked so much like his.
"I know, but aren't your parents supposed to be here today?" He asked, exasperated. He finally realized why other found it annoying.
"Yes, but they're both busy today at some really big conference thing Otosan has to attend to. You know, the big meeting things were all the reporters are there and such." She explained.
"What's the big news?"
"Otosan's an archeologist as you might now. Him and his crew have currently dug up some really ancient artwork, like pottery and paintings. He's holding a display today of what they have so far and such."
"Really? Have you seen them for real? Like, what time period roughly were they found? Back all the way to the time during the Peking man perhaps?"
Sakura laughed at his enthusiasm. "For a moment I thought your only interest was math. Since you're so interested, why don't you come over to my house someday? Otosan would be glad to show it to you."
"After what I did to his daughter? I don't think so." He snorted.
"Hey, I thought we had this matter settled." She scolded lightly. Then she thought thoughtfully. "Li-kun, since my family can't come and everyone has class, can you be here with me when I have my bandages removed?"
"Are you sure about that?"
"Definitely." Sakura nodded her head. "Besides, it may help to gain my parent's trust for you." She added.
"Whatever." He replied.
"Okay, now that's decided, what do you want for breakfast? There's not much to eat at the hospital, but it's something." She offered with a smile. Syaoran found himself smiling back, a full smile in the first for a long time, glad that everything between them was happy for the time being.
Outside, Daphne smiled to herself, glad that Sakura was back to her normal self. Her cheerful laughter could be heard outside her room. Looking down at the breakfast tray in her hands, she remembered that it wouldn't be enough for two and walked away to get more breakfast for the two friends who had found themselves back together again.
--- How was it? Aren't you guys glad that they're back together? Kawaii! Yep, I hope this chapter made up for all the tears you guys shed in the last chapter. And I also hope that this chapter was as well done as the last chapter. To sum it up in one sentence, I really really hope you've enjoyed this chapter. Yep. :) So, express how you feel in your review!
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CHAPTER TEN:
-----"Give all to love; obey thy heart."
-----Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)
--- Tomoyo---
"We're not friends anymore."
The dull words echoed through my brain, not believing those words, yet I heard it clearly. I could hear those harsh words repeatedly in my mind. But I didn't want to believe it. How could one separate such a precious friendship? To Sakura, there was absolutely nothing more important than friendship. She treated them like family. And to say that it was her aunt and uncle, and Touya was even more impossible. They were the most understanding people she ever met. It almost seemed impossible. This couldn't be happening.
"Tomoyo," Sakura whimpered, her nose stuffed and red. "Tell me this isn't happening."
I glanced at her, in her teary state, and grasped her hand tightly with mine, as to reassure her, but I didn't know what words I could tell her to make the pain less. For once, I was lost with words. I didn't know what to do for my best friend, and yet she needed so much.
"Gomen, Tomoyo." My friend finally spoke up, her voice cracking with dryness mixed with a nasal voice from crying too much. "I shouldn't be piling all my troubles on you."
I shook my head furiously. "Iie!" I said in a fierce whisper. "Don't you ever say that. Oh, Sakura. I'd do anything to help you right now. What your family did was unjust. You and Li-kun are wonderful friends!"
Sakura's smile was mere ghostly reflection of her old one. "Were," She interrupted. It was eerie seeing her like this. "We were wonderful friends." I merely stared at her.
Then she sighed and whispered, "Tomoyo, he was going to come over to my house to teach me math for our test. We just decided to go have a drink. It wasn't his fault."
"I know, I know." I soothed, taking out a brush and running it through her long auburn hair. She sighed and leaned against me, her eyes closed, humming a tune from long, long, ago.
I had to bite my lip to stop myself from crying.
---Third person---
"Dear, don't you think we were too harsh? She hasn't been herself lately." Nadeshiko asked as she rested her head against her husband's shoulder. "Every time I visit her in the hospital, she has this sad aura around her. Dr. Waleigh told me not to worry, but I just can't help it." Fujitaka's arms wrapped around his wife's shoulder and squeezed it tightly.
"I don't know." He finally answered, his voice faraway. "I don't know Li. I don't know if I can trust him. I don't know if I can trust him to make Sakura happy. She's been blind for so many years that she's so much more naïve than everyone is."
"I know, but."
"Let's just wait and see." He replied, cutting her off.
"But I can't." His wife proclaimed softly. "She reminds me of me." She finally spoke after a moment of brief silence.
"Of you?" Fujitaka was surprised.
"When we first met, we fell in love, didn't we? When you caught me when I fell from the tree?" She asked softly, her eyes in a far away dreamy look. Fujitaka smiled and nodded. "And Sonomi kept telling me not to see you. I promised her not to see you, you know." She continued, her eyes turning on him instead.
"What? How come you never told me that?"
Nadeshiko laughed. "Remember the time I hardly talked to you, saying I was busy?"
"I thought you were angry at me."
"I know. That's why you sent me all those flowers." She replied, smiling happily, remembering. Then she paused, looking her lover in the eye. "That's when I finally noticed that I couldn't live without you."
Fujitaka was silent for a moment, his face in deep thought as his eyebrows drew together. "Are you suggesting that Sakura and Li are to be like us?"
Nadeshiko shook her head. "No two things can be exactly the same. We can't compare. But they love each other as much as us, yes."
He sighed, closing his eyes resting his head against the couch. "Doesn't Sakura already have a boyfriend? Lei Long?" His wife just nodded her head. "I don't want to see her hurt." He repeated.
"Oh, I know." Nadeshiko whispered. "I know. We just love her too much."
Touya stood behind the closed door, quietly listening to his parent's conversation. He didn't know what to do. The only thing he wanted was for Sakura to be happy and safe. But he didn't know what to do. Sighing, he left a note on the fridge, grabbed his coat from the sofa and decided to head for Yukito's house.
--- Li apartment---
"What?" Meiling shouted. "What's he doing?"
Wei winced a bit. "He's at work," He repeated, softly, wondering what he had said wrong in the first place. He watched amazed as Meiling walked a few steps, her anger disappearing with each step.
"Oh. Gomen, Wei. I thought you said he was training." She grinned. "You know how Syaoran is."
Wei nodded. When he had welcomed the two home, Syaoran was glaring; his eyes daggers while Meiling was a bit upset herself. He knew for a fact that whenever Syaoran touched his sword, he was totally in a fight mode...... And especially when something was going not his way. But the way he was glaring was something Wei had not seen since Syaoran arrived in Japan. And he didn't even touch his sword, like he usually would of have done back at home in Hong Kong. Instead, he went to work, something he enjoyed.
"I guess I'll go see him." Meiling spoke, slipping her shoes on. Wei blinked from his thoughts and nodded.
"Good idea," He replied.
Meiling smirked. "Yeah, I don't want him to scare off all the customers." She replied with fake cheerfulness before she walked out the door. "If looks could kill," She mumbled as she thought about her cousin, cursing the cold blast of wind that hit her right in the face and blowing her hair into ten different directions. "Damn!" She growled angrily.
She stormed into a shop; a pleasant twinkling sound rang from the wind chimes attached to the door. A young man from the counter looked up surprised.
"Why, good evening Meiling." He greeted with a smile.
Meiling grinned wryly. "Hey Xiao Lang," She replied with a smirk, as if she found something interesting that he didn't know. "How's business going?"
"Fine." He replied curtly, but still smiling pleasantly. "What are you doing here?"
"I was just walking around here and decided to come in." She replied, shrugging.
"Oh, I see." The young man with dark brown hair replied with another smile. "So how are things going?"
"Everything's going like crap." She replied harshly. She sighed, leaning against the counter. "You remember my friend Sakura right?"
"Yeah, the one with green eyes and brown hair. She came here before. What's wrong?"
Meiling snorted inelegantly. "Well, it seems like her and my cousin can't be friends anymore. Some accident happened and Sakura's back in the hospital, with another surgery to her eyes. She can see after two weeks, but her parents and her older brother thinks it's my cousin's fault and they can't see each other."
"Weren't the two friends?" The guy's deep brown eyes that were almost black shone with worry.
"Hai. She's one of the few he actually opens himself to. Hell, he even teases her like he does to me. And coming from him, that's a lot."
Xiao Lang nodded. "Yeah, I know. Well, I'll do whatever I can to help. Call me if you need anything."
He noticed Meiling a familiar twinkle in those ruby eyes. Sighing, he asked, "What are you plotting now?"
Meiling grinned and bend over to her friend's ear. Slowly, a smile spread upon the guy's face. "You're on." He replied. "I'll have everything ready by tomorrow."
"Wonderful. Well, ja." Meiling smiled and strolled out the shop again. She hoped things between the two weren't completely lost.
--- Hospital---
"Ms. Kinomoto, how are you this morning?" A cheerful voice asked as she pulled the curtains away from the window to let light in.
"Wonderful, arigato Lin."
The nurse laughed, "Haven't I told you to call me by my first name? You know me already. Wasn't it your brother who harassed me with questions on your first time here?" She tried to cheer up the girl a bit. After all, this was her favorite patient and she seemed too sad to be herself.
Sakura smiled a bit, remembering that moment. "But you aren't calling me by my first name," She countered.
"True, true. I'll call you Sakura and you call me Daphne. Deal?"
"Deal." Sakura echoed. Daphne smiled.
"Good. Look, I received some wonderful flowers especially for you from the famous flower shop, Mikomi Sono."
"Nani?" Sakura asked. She loved that flower shop and it was known for its great variety of flowers, carpentry, and the wonderful assortment of flowers in bouquets and such. She breathed in a wonderful smell of cherry blossoms, but they were no longer in bloom now. "Mm, Cherry Blossoms." Daphne smiled; it was amazing how much Sakura knew from her senses. "Who is it from?"
"You don't mind me reading it?"
Sakura shook her head. "Okay, then." Daphne opened the pink envelope to find a short note. "It says," then she paused, smiling. " 'Cherry Blossoms mean spiritual beauty. Things will turn for the better.'"
The girl sat in her bed, thinking over the words. It was the same exact pattern as the note on the snowdrops. And those were from the mysterious guy who told her to get an operation. Was it the same guy? It certainly sounded like him.
Daphne smiled and placed the flowers on the desk. "Seems to me you've got a secret admirer."
Sakura just nodded absently. The nurse frowned, wondering what could be possibly wrong. Her friends visited her on a daily basis, as so did her family. If it wasn't family or friend, it must was some guy problem she reasoned.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked softly, sitting on the foot of Sakura's bed. Sakura turned her head in Daphne's direction.
She waited patiently in silence as she waited for the girl's reply. "I-- I'm confused." Sakura finally spoke, her voice barely audible.
"Because?" Daphne prompted gently.
"I--," Sakura opened her mouth to talk, but was cut off suddenly by a rapid knocking on the door. Daphne jumped a little. Sakura sighed softly.
"Do you want me to tell whoever's there to come later?" The nurse asked, hearing her sigh.
Sakura shook her head quickly; she didn't thought she heard. Daphne looked at her skeptically before getting off the bed, making it creak slightly. "We'll talk later, I promise," She whispered to Sakura, patting her on the shoulder reassuringly. Sakura relaxed under her touch.
Daphne walked up to the door and opened it to see a tall young man with glistening golden hair and reddish brown eyes. He smiled at the nurse. "Ohayo. I'm here to see Sakura Kinomoto." He stated, supplemented with another dashing smile.
The nurse chuckled to herself mentally. This was some fancy guy. She wondered who he was. But scolding herself not to laugh out loud, she nodded and called to Sakura. "Saku, you've got a visitor. If you need me, just press the button okay?"
"Hai. Arigato Daphne."
"Anytime." Then she walked out and left the two to be with each other.
--- Sakura---
I could smell a strong familiar smell of cologne, the rich and expensive kind. Taking another breath in, I realized it was the Hugo cologne that he always used. My mouth turned up into a small smile.
"Took you long enough to visit me, Lei Long." I teased. "It's been a week."
Lei chuckled. "I thought you'd realize who I am." He replied. "Sorry I haven't been visiting but I've got a load of crap to get done. You don't know what my parents are forcing me to do. Anyhow, to make it up for you, I bought you some flowers."
"Arigato."
"Hey, who sent you flowers before I did?" He demanded in a joking way.
I laughed. "Many have, for your information Lei. But those cherry blossoms arrived just a bit earlier than you."
"So, whose it from?" He asked casually, dragging a chair across the floor up to Sakura's bed and sitting on it.
"Don't know. There was no name."
Lei shrugged. "So, I heard you're going to be out in another week tops."
"Yeah. I can't wait to see the sun again."
"Are you sure you don't want to see someone else?" He teased.
"Oh! That's right. My family, friends, the flowers, and all those wonderful stuff."
"You forgot something."
I smirked. "Have I? I don't recall forgetting anything." I could just imagine Lei's face annoyed. "Oh wait!" I suddenly spoke up. "I've must admit I have forgotten someone."
"Oh?" I could tell Lei was trying to act nonchalant.
"My nurse."
"You're what?" He repeated.
"Nurse. You know, the one who opened the door with the strawberry blond hair and blue eyes." I explained.
Silence.
"But there's someone else." Lei merely grunted. "You."
"Sakura," he sighed. "If you weren't in the hospital right now, I'd kill you."
I grinned. "You're just too fun to tease."
"Aren't I? Don't you love my sense of humor?" Lei replied. "Well, I'll see you when you come back to school next week."
I nodded. "Will you come visit me again?"
Lei shrugged. "We'll see. I just decided to come to see you before I went to school. The teachers are really piling up on loads of work these days." He sighed. "But you'll be back at school next week anyways right? I'll see you soon."
I had to stop myself from sighing in disappointment. "Of course. A week passes by quickly. I've been here a week already, one more week won't kill me."
"Ah, you're so brave." He complimented. "See you." He kissed the top of my forehead and then left without another word.
Once he left, I leaned against the bed rest sighing out loud. Was it just me, or was that visit extremely short? Around ten minutes at most. I sighed. Sure, I could understand the amount of stress he'd have, since finals are coming up since it's already June, but it seemed to be that Meiling and Tomoyo were always visiting after school frequently, whether it was a school day or weekend.
But what was I complaining about? I'm going to be out of the hospital next week.
But what truly bugged me was that Syaoran hadn't come visit me since I told him we couldn't be friends anymore. Meiling often avoided the topic of her dear cousin, only saying that he was spending more time at his job than usual. She said it was an improvement, not having to have less sleep since he wouldn't wake up early in the morning to practice martial arts.
I missed those smirks of his. Those dark mysterious brown eyes that flicker with a sense of warmth to those he cared. His stubborn personality that made it wonderful to bicker with him. Heck, I even missed the way he'd tease me, his eyes laughing while his face expressed no emotion.
I wanted him back as a friend.
--- Syaoran---
I was up at four in the morning, practicing my martial arts move in an empty room that was made for practice with its smooth wooden floor shined everyday, two swords placed on racks on the wall, and a small alter with a piece of rice paper with four words in the bold, black Chinese calligraphy on the wall above it. I looked at the words for a while, recalling its meaning that Wei had taught me since I was small. It focused on four principles that were important in the Li family.
Strength.
Courage.
Mercy.
Love.
Closing my eyes, I let myself cool down. When I opened them, I felt fire burning in my limbs. Getting up slowly, I lashed the sword in a swift movement behind me. I was met with the sound of metal against metal in a smooth clang.
"Wei." I acknowledged.
"Xiao Lang," he replied with a smile, lowering his sword that he had quickly gotten from the wall next to us. "You've improved greatly master."
"You haven't changed, Wei." I said with a small smile.
"But you have." He replied. I looked up at him surprised. "Ever since you came to Japan two years ago, you've become more relaxed. Before, I don't think I ever saw you smile. You've changed for the better."
"Have I?" I questioned bitterly, sliding to the cool floor as the morning wind washed over us.
"May I ask what's wrong?" Wei offered.
I looked at him again. Was I that obvious?
"Xiao Lang, I've been with you since birth. I do know you." His friend confirmed, answering my silent question. "Everyone's noticed your sudden change in attitude. But, you've changed in the way you deal with anger."
I remained silent.
"Instead of lashing out your anger in hours and days of martial arts, you now instead go to your work, something you enjoy immensely."
"It's all for her." I interjected softly.
"May I ask who?"
I frowned. "Sakura. Sakura Kinomoto."
Wei looked over to his young master, whose face was written with confusion and upset. His unruly chestnut hair was in his eyes, covering those sad pools of emotions as he struggled to remain indifferent.
"I haven't seen her lately, and neither has Meiling talked about her much. I've heard she's in the hospital however. How is she?" Wei asked.
I paused. Every time I mention her name, I automatically think of her contagious laughter and twinkling emeralds as she laughs. But the whole image shatters at my feet when I know I have caused her to be where she is right now. I can't believe I took her eyesight away once more. I could only thank God that it was temporary, a mere two short weeks, but to her, it was probably the end of the world. She just had the gift to see once more for only two months. And I took her eyesight away. I couldn't blame myself more than I was right now. Why wasn't it me who was hurt god damn it!
"I don't know." I finally answered, looking Wei in the eye. I could feel those damn tears rushing to greet the world. I blinked, furiously trying to hold them in.
I. Would. Not. Cry.
"Just cry."
"Excuse me?" I asked stiffly.
Wei stared hard at me. "What kind of fool are you acting? Is this how I've taught you all these years?"
"All you've taught me is to be strong and not be weak, god damn it!" I cursed. "Emotion is a weakness!"
Wei didn't even blink twice. Once more he held me with his eyes. "You know better than that Li Xiao Lang."
I didn't answer.
"Mercy and love comes more important than courage and strength at times. William Langland once said that, 'all the wickedness in the world in which man may do or think is no more to the mercy of God than a liver coal in the sea.'" Wei smiled kindly at me, and grasped my shoulder fatherly, something I had not felt since my father died. Wei took up to be my sensei, my advisor, my fatherly friend. "You must learn to have mercy to those you believe have done wrong to you. But most of all, you must have mercy for yourself."
I didn't answer.
Wei nodded and stood up, placing the sword back on the rack. "You might want to take a shower before Meiling awakes." He suggested with another kind, forgiving smile. I found myself relaxing slowly. I looked up into those friendly gray eyes and nodded.
"Good. What would you like to have for breakfast, Xiao Lang?"
I was already walking to the bathroom. I turned around slightly. "Whatever Meiling likes best," I replied casually before entering the bathroom to shower before school started.
Meiling actually asked me to walk with her to school this morning. Ever since Sakura's accident, things were quiet between us. She'd always find some friend from school or hook up with Tomoyo.
Once we got outside and walked down our street, Meiling stopped and looked at me. "What?" I demanded.
She narrowed her eyes, as if sizing me up. Then she sighed and reached over to grab my hand. "Come on."
"Where?"
"You know where," She replied simply.
"Meiling," I growled warningly. This wasn't where the school was headed.
"No, you shut up Xiao Lang. I've had enough of this fucking nonsense." She spat, cursing. I merely raised my eyebrows. "And wipe that smirk on your face."
"We have school." I stated.
"Hooky."
"What?"
"Got a problem with that cousin?" She challenged. "What are you, a goody two shoes that's afraid of skipping school?" She taunted.
I clenched my fist, my jaw getting rigid. "Fine." I threw the word at her. She grinned smugly and continued to walk while I followed in angry silence.
When Meiling stopped, I felt my anger vanishing like water on a hot summer day into the surrounding. Instead, my emotions were replaced by a sense of insecurity and nervousness. I stood there stubbornly, looking at the huge, strongly built building of mostly white brick with many windows with light blue shades.
"Let's go." Meiling told me. When I didn't respond, she softened. "Come on, Syaoran. Didn't Wei teach you courage?"
I looked over at her, meeting her eyes that reflected worry and kindness at me I sighed and nodded. "Hai."
"We'll go in together." She comforted. "But I'm going to leave you two alone while you guys settle your thoughts."
I half smiled and nodded, entering the Tomoeda Hospital. I tried to put a cool mask over my face, to hide my emotions. It was something I was used to doing and I didn't know how to greet Sakura. It had been more than a week since I saw her or talked to her. And the last time we did, we said goodbye. But I'm still able to remember our conversation clearly in my head; the way she felt in my arms was etched in detail in my memory and soul.
I knew I missed her.
Meiling did all the talking, signing us for a visit when we got inside the hospital. I looked around for the first time. The time I rushed Sakura in here, I had hardly noticed the white polished floors, busy nurses, and lines of patients. It just gave me an eerie feeling, knowing that Sakura was in here. She didn't belong here any more than I did.
My cousin nudged me lightly on the shoulder and motioned me to follow her. I walked down the empty hall, as if in a trance. I could remember everything on that day I sent her in here in slow motion and without sound.
My heart stopped beating once I stood in front of the door. The door that would change everything. I raised a hand to knock.
--- Sakura's room ---
"Daphne, didn't I tell you that I'm not hungry yet?" Sakura called out teasingly. She waited for an answer but there was none. Frowning, she paid careful attention her to surroundings and sensed that there were two people in the room.
She identified one almost immediately. "Hey Meiling. Don't you have school?" Sakura asked with a smile. Meiling grinned, walking over to the girl.
"Yeah, but what the heck. Aren't you getting your bandages removed today?" She asked, sitting on a chair.
"Yeah. I just can't wait to get out of here."
"I bet. School is boring without you."
Sakura merely nodded her head absently. "Meiling, you brought Syaoran with you today, didn't you?" she asked softly.
Meiling sighed. "Saku," She started.
"Meiling, you should be at school right now. Don't you have physics this morning? You told me yesterday that you have a huge test." Sakura interrupted.
Meiling looked at Sakura, wondering if she should go or not. She looked over to her cousin, who was masked with a look of indifference, but she knew better. He was observing her quietly. Perhaps it was better to leave, and let the two talk. After all, they had a lot to catch up on.
"Saku, I'll come by and see you this afternoon with Tomoyo, okay?" She asked. Her friend nodded and gave her a smile, urging her to leave. "Ja ne," She leaned over and gave me a tight hug. Then, Meiling picked up her book bag, slung it over her left shoulder and walked out the door after giving Syaoran a reassuring smile.
There was an awkward pause of silence. Syaoran stood looking outside with a bored expression. Sakura, however, was soaking in his presence; her senses coming alive with him so near her. It had been so long.
"Why don't you sit?" She asked, breaking the silence. Syaoran looked over at her. Then, after a moment's thought, he sat down in the chair that Meiling had previously occupied.
Syaoran sat in the chair, studying her intently. God, she was beautiful. Even though she had on a plain light blue hospital clothing and her eyes were bandaged with white cloth, she still looked like a goddess. There was something to her, some feeling she gave out that made her seem wonderful. He suddenly smelt the rich fragrance of cherry blossoms. Spiritual beauty, that's the perfect word to describe that aura she carried around her.
"Hey, will you get your head out the clouds?" Sakura asked, her voice in a cheerful, teasing manner.
Syaoran half smiled. "Can't."
"Why not?" She asked, turning to face him.
This time Syaoran grinned. "It's already out of the clouds."
Sakura laughed, surprised at his answer. It had been so long since she heard him talk in the style he does. "You never fail to surprise me,"
"Hm." He grunted.
The two fell silent once more. There were so many things they wanted to say to each other, but both were afraid and were wondering what the other person was thinking.
"I'm sorry." Syaoran finally spoke up, breaking the ice and trying to get a conversation once more.
"It wasn't your fault." Sakura replied immediately.
Silence drifted among the room. So much to say, but they didn't know how.
"What about your parents? And your older brother?" Syaoran finally choked out what was worrying him. "I caused you to go through darkness again and if I were your parents, hell I wouldn't let myself see you once again. I don't blame you the least, if you didn't forgive me."
To his surprise, Sakura chuckled. "They've cooled off, at least my parents have. They were just overly worried and protective. They still are, but once I regain my eyesight, I'm sure things will be better." Then she smirked. "Might want to stay away from Touya for another month or so though."
Then her features softened and she felt for Syaoran's hand. She squeezed it comfortably when she found it. "And I can't forgive you."
"I understand," Syaoran said quickly.
Sakura shook her head, a small smile playing on her lips. "I can't forgive you because there's nothing to forgive. I never blamed you."
Syaoran stared at her, marveled at her kindness, her love, her ability to give mercy. "Arigato." He finally spoke up, sincerity flowing through the simple word.
"Anytime." She replied with a shrug. "I'm just glad we're friends again."
"Friends?" Syaoran repeated.
"Of course, Li-kun. Okaasan and Otosan will be keeping a hawk's eye on you, but I don't think they'd do anything drastic though Touya might."
Syaoran laughed bitterly, recalling the memory of how Touya had slammed him into the wall and how he had later punched a dent into the wall. He was surprised at his great strength that almost equaled his own with all his training. It was clear how much he cared for his young sister.
"I'll keep that in mind, Kinomoto." He replied dryly while Sakura laughed. "But I'm glad we're on talking terms once more. These days have been a drag without you to tease."
Sakura giggled happily. It was nice to be around him once again. He was a dear friend to him and those days without talking to him were painful to her. She smiled to herself, remembering how she and Okaasan had a talk the other day. Her family had finally decided, with Touya reluctantly, that they would allow her to see Syaoran once more. Of course they'd watch him closer than usual and that they weren't to be alone to places, Sakura was just glad that she could be with him once more as a friend.
Syaoran nodded in relief. "When are you getting the bandages off?" He asked, clearly worried.
"Today." She replied simply.
"What?"
"You heard me. Today." Sakura repeated with a smirk that made Syaoran sigh and shake his head. That smirk looked so much like his.
"I know, but aren't your parents supposed to be here today?" He asked, exasperated. He finally realized why other found it annoying.
"Yes, but they're both busy today at some really big conference thing Otosan has to attend to. You know, the big meeting things were all the reporters are there and such." She explained.
"What's the big news?"
"Otosan's an archeologist as you might now. Him and his crew have currently dug up some really ancient artwork, like pottery and paintings. He's holding a display today of what they have so far and such."
"Really? Have you seen them for real? Like, what time period roughly were they found? Back all the way to the time during the Peking man perhaps?"
Sakura laughed at his enthusiasm. "For a moment I thought your only interest was math. Since you're so interested, why don't you come over to my house someday? Otosan would be glad to show it to you."
"After what I did to his daughter? I don't think so." He snorted.
"Hey, I thought we had this matter settled." She scolded lightly. Then she thought thoughtfully. "Li-kun, since my family can't come and everyone has class, can you be here with me when I have my bandages removed?"
"Are you sure about that?"
"Definitely." Sakura nodded her head. "Besides, it may help to gain my parent's trust for you." She added.
"Whatever." He replied.
"Okay, now that's decided, what do you want for breakfast? There's not much to eat at the hospital, but it's something." She offered with a smile. Syaoran found himself smiling back, a full smile in the first for a long time, glad that everything between them was happy for the time being.
Outside, Daphne smiled to herself, glad that Sakura was back to her normal self. Her cheerful laughter could be heard outside her room. Looking down at the breakfast tray in her hands, she remembered that it wouldn't be enough for two and walked away to get more breakfast for the two friends who had found themselves back together again.
--- How was it? Aren't you guys glad that they're back together? Kawaii! Yep, I hope this chapter made up for all the tears you guys shed in the last chapter. And I also hope that this chapter was as well done as the last chapter. To sum it up in one sentence, I really really hope you've enjoyed this chapter. Yep. :) So, express how you feel in your review!
Oh. And sorry for all those curses Meiling yelled in this chapter. She just expresses her emotions and her thoughts straightforwardly. One of my favorite traits about her, if you ask me! :)
Hehe. Enough said. Review please! Arigato. You guys are the best.
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