Fragilis Pondera (Fragile Balance)

Part II: Precious Metals

Silver : Bakura & Ryou

I wonder how you sleep ?
I wonder what you think of me ?
If I could go back,
Would you have ever been with me ?

//Do you think I have not thought about it ? Even before I know you existed, I cursed my own foolishness for trying to steal the Millennium Ring. I cursed the Pharaoh for sealing away the Shadow Games, even I know that was an action he hated to do, even if he doesn't remember. No… I think about it all the time. If I had not been imprisoned in the Ring… what would become of you, my Weak Light ?//

//Would you go through your life as meekly as you had before I came ? Picked on and bullied and unable to defend yourself ? Carted around countries like part of your father's luggage, unable to take charge of your life ?//

//Would you even exist ? You are my reincarnation… if I hadn't been sealed in the Ring, what form would your soul have taken ? Or would it have dissipated to the winds, never to know my presence ?//

//Would you have been happier that way ?//

I want you to be uneased,
I want you to remember,
I want you to believe in me,

/I wish you knew how much you meant to me. Every time you're unhappy, I am too, but I'm afraid, since trying to cheer you only makes it worse. You are always at your worst when I am at my best… what is it about me that scares you, yami ?/

/Every time I try to agree with you, or help you, or hint that I care… you fly into a rage, as though trying your damnedest to tear this fragile relationship to shreds and leave me in tears and tattered hopes, why is that ?/

/And when I don't condemn you for it… it's like you'd summon Hell just to prove me wrong./

/Why is it you need me to hate you ?/

I want you on my side.

//Do you hate me ?//

/Do you hate me ?/

//I don't understand you.//

/I don't understand you./

Come on, lay it down.
I've always been with you,

/Even before I got the Ring… I knew something was not quite right. Like I was somehow incomplete, missing something. But what ? I was me, wasn't I ? How whole can a person be with themselves, if there is nothing wrong ?/

/And then you came./

/ Everything fascinated you, and you told me things that held me spellbound. You were so incredibly suspicious, so wonderfully curious. You wanted to know about everything, and I laughed because everything I showed you, I only showed you once and you remembered it./

/And you were suspicious of me, too, but I understood that, and you got over it quickly, didn't you ?/

/It was wonderful… you cared, yami, damn you, I know you did./

/Don't deny it. The memory's there, shining and bright and you know it's there./

/I'm keeping it for you./


Here and now, give all that's within you.
Be my savior, and I'll be your downfall.

//No, I didn't remember much. Joining with you somehow screwed up all the memories I'd so carefully preserved from my imprisonment. I knew who I was… but little else. I remembered Egypt. I remembered nothing of the Pharaoh, nothing of the Shadow Games, nothing of the curse that sealed me within the Ring in the first place. I was empty all over again.//

//I only wanted to live again.//

//I learned. I learned everything you taught.//

//I… did care.//

//And then I remembered.//

Here we go again,
Ashamed of being broken in.

/Yes, then you remembered, you rediscovered your hatreds and your vows of revenge, didn't you ?/

/And they changed you, or maybe they just changed you back, I don't know. But you suddenly hated everything, even me. I thought it was something I had done. You wanted the Millennium Items and I agreed to help if only to return you to the way you had been./

/But you wanted to hurt my friends./

/How could you ask me to do that ?/

Getting off track.
I want to get you back again.

//Didn't you get it ? With the power of the Items I could reclaim everything that Pharaoh ever took from me ! Why should I be meek and powerless because he ruled 5000 years ago ?!//

//I only asked for your help ! I would even have brought the stupid mortals back if it troubled you so much. If it would have made you happier, I could have taken the power without destroying a single soul, but you turned on me !//

//But I guess I taught you that, didn't I ?//

//And here I thought you'd never learned a thing.//

I want you to trouble me,
I wanted you to linger,

/Even after all you did to me, I never wanted you to leave. When Yami Yugi sent you to the Graveyard, he might as well have sent me too, why stop at only half of my soul ? But you came back, I was so scared you wouldn't… you were so angry I'd betrayed you… you made me split my loyalties, I was only being strong like you swore you'd make me./

/But you weren't angry at me./

/At my actions, yes, but not at me./

/And I thought, could you be changing back ?/

/I can hope./

/I will hope./


I want you to agree with me,

//See it my way.//

/See it my way./

//It's all I've known.//

/It's all I've known./

I want so much so bad.

//Why won't you understand ?//

/Why won't you understand ?/

Come on, lay it down.
I've always been with you,

/Before birth./

//Across time.//

/Beyond death./

//Despite fate.//

Here and now,
With all that's within you.

//So what now ?//

/So what now ?/

Be my savior,
And I'll be your downfall.

///We'll make it work.///

"Downfall" – Matchbox 20