Fragilis Pondera (Fragile Balance)
Part II: Precious Metals
Gold : Yami & Yugi
Run, running all the time.
Running to the future,
With you right by my side.
//What did I ever do to deserve you ?//
//What god deigned itself to make a creature of perfection ?//
//And what fate was spiteful enough to try and taint you with your other half ?//
//And yet, here we are. Bonded together, partners, aibous, yami and hikari and perfectly balanced, now.
//… Maybe not the last part. But I try, aibou, I try.
Me, I'm the one you chose ?
Out of all the people,
You wanted me the most.
/But why ?/
/Why me ?/
/I was a nobody, little -- in more ways than one -- Yugi Motou. The one nobody noticed. Or if they did notice, it was for the wrong reasons. But that was the way things were. And then…/
/You intimidated me at first, your confidence, your pride, your skill. I saw you at first as… as a better version of me, and that scared me. All I could think was that I was not good enough, and you had been sent or summoned to replace me. I was scared and angry and ashamed./
/Besides… how could I have known, then, what you were ? You were… me./
/Yet you weren't. You're not. You need me the way I needed you, to complete
each other, you were Dark and I was Light and it all made perfect sense once we
were together, didn't it ? In fact, I couldn't imagine
ever being apart again, it seems so ridiculous to imagine it. Wouldn't that be
just like… being half a self ? Who would ever
want to be half a self ?/
And I'm so sorry that I've fallen.
Help me up, let's keep on running.
Don't let me fall out of faith.
//I've tried not to betray your trust, but I've kept so much from you… tell me it's not too late. I only did it to protect you… I didn't want to hurt you.
//I didn't want you to fear me.
//Even when I feared myself, what creature had I become, you latched onto me and dragged me back from the edge of an abyss I could not fathom, and you did it without earning a single taint and that frightened me, for how could I compete with something so pure and innocent ?//
Running, running as fast as we can.
Do you think we'll make it?
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running, keep holding my hand,
So we don't get separated.
//I can't even ask for forgiveness, what's the point ? Forgiveness is for those who deserve it, though you've never kept to that particular tenant, have you, my precious hikari ? You forgive anyone and everyone, before they even ask, always willing to see some brightness within them that no one else can see -- and it's hurt you before. I've watched your eyes fill with tears when you've been betrayed. It hurts you and your pain is mine, doubled, because what comfort can I offer you then, my little Light ?//
//They betray you and you are always, always ready to forgive them, time after time, naively, hopefully, waiting for a change.//
//I would punish them and shatter them for daring to hurt you and yet you won't let me, because you've already forgiven them and are waiting for them to see things your way, and you are the only thing that restrains me, because you know I would never go against you.//
/I know./
//You don't fear me ?//
/Maybe. Maybe I do. It's more, I fear what you can do, not you. But it's a healthy fear. Hehehe, I don't have a conscience, I have a yami instead ! A wiser voice than my own, who tells me to be careful when I'd usually get myself into trouble./
//Because I care.
/I know./
Be, be
the one I need.
Be the one I trust most,
Don't stop inspiring me.
/Everything was so… hard before you came./
//I know.
/I thought that was the way it was going to be, forever. I thought it would never change, why should it change, I thought I deserved it --/
//Never !//
/I know that now ! But I didn't then ! Sometimes, I still think it'd be that way, without you. If you were ever to go away, do you think it would start again ? Do you think that things would go back to the way they were before ?/
//I will never leave.
/I'm still asking./
//I will never leave you.
/I was too weak to change things on my own. You had to help. You always help. You're always there. When I need help you're always there -- the things I could have never, ever done on my own…/
//Please stop !//
/But it's true ! And you know it's true !/
//Aibou, please !//
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running,
We work so much to keep it going.
Don't let me want to give up.
/I'm sorry./
/Yami ?/
/Yami, answer me./
//I'm here…//
/Yami… tears ?/
//You were upset.
/Tears over me ?/
//Yes.//
/Why ?!/
//How can I not ? I've upset you.
/No, no, no…/
Running, running as fast as we can
I really hope we make it
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated
/Please… it's all right. I got a little carried away. It's not your fault. It's no one's fault./
//Some days I wonder how you can stand me at all, after all we've been through.//
/After all we've been through, I can't stand to be apart from you. You're always worried about hurting me, aren't you, harming me in some way ?/
//Yes.//
/But you would never./
//I'm still afraid. You've seen what I can do. You've seen what I've done. I should not… I dare not.
/Shhh… I'm not scared of you, Yami./
//… No ?//
/No./
//… My meri-ket.//
/Hehehe, I don't know what that means./
//Do you wish me to tell you ?//
/No, I kind of like not knowing. It sounds nice, though -- hey, I made you laugh !/
//You always seem to, aibou.
Running
as fast as we can
I really hope we make it
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated
/Everything ok now ?/
//Yes.//
/You scare me when you do that./
//Do what, hikari ?//
/Go all guilty on me. You blame yourself for everything, even things you can't control./
//I just don't want to see you hurt.///
The future…
/Yami ?/
//Yes ?//
/Thank you./
//… For what ?//
/Just… thank you./
//…You're welcome, my meri-ket.//
"Running" – No Doubt
meri-ket - "little love"