*cries* And so ends Disgrace, this crazy, beautiful, sometimes annoying,
but always easy to write (except for this chapter) epic of the Hellsing
family. I shall miss it quite a bit, though if enough support is out there
for a narrative or a sequel, I may decide to continue with the trials and
tribulations of Harker, Devries, Argetni, Alucard, and Seras.
Again, thank you reviewers, thank you readers, and thank you to those first few people that read this fic after using my laptop and checking my files without permission and then pushing me to continue with more than the first chapter, because we all know who that was directed at. *grin* (if you need the explanation, email me), and we all know I didn't expect anyone to even read just another Hellsing heir story.
It's been a ride. . . . .
~*~*~*~*~
August 23
To Devries Fairbrook Hellsing, the rightful blood heir to Integral Wingates Hellsing:
I have some explaining to do, for my beautiful daughter, you will hear stories of your mother that will never be told in a gracious light, as I will always be portrayed as a demon in your father's words and mind.
On the day you were born, I gave you up to your father so that I could leave the masquerade of my dual life as the leader of the Hellsing Organization and as one of its vampiric soldiers trained in the art of returning the undead to their final sleep and meeting with God or Satan, whichever would be taking their soul and placing it to rest. I am certain that my parting with you hurt Victoria's opinion of my character, but I could not bear to look upon you longer than I did, for I would have never been able to release you to the man you call your father. I have not left my quarters, nor has anyone come to visit me, since you were born, and all I can do is cry my blood-tears and pray for your safety in the sunlit world.
Please know that I, Sir Integral Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing, was one of the finest leaders the Hellsing Organization has ever known, and that my only wish was to have a child to call my own so that I could train her to be just as an effective leader as I had been. I was never hoping to cause you any pain or stress by having you, but you will never know how much I love you, or how much I wish to be near you, as the Vampiress Argetni does not show her feelings toward trivial matters of mortal humans.
Damn Alucard for turning me so that I could not be your mother.
I became a vampire before you were conceived Devries, which is the reason you will have some supernatural talent in your possession. Do not fear or loathe your powers, but embrace them, for if you are a regenerator, you can live a long life and never fear pain or injury, and if you are a dhampir, you will be able to track down your vampiric prey with more ease than any of today's technology could allow.
I did not want to be a vampire at first, but the time spent in the company of the undead has changed my opinion of the role of vampires in this world. The true undead are not demons to be feared and hunted, but creatures that wish to live their lives peacefully and in coexistence with humans. It is when a vampire becomes bored in his immortal life that he becomes dangerous, and it is those vampires which you must control and protect England from, beloved.
I will be there to help guide you in your path to greatness in the service of the Royal Family and country, as will Alucard and Seras, my companions in this earthbound existence. Feel free to contact any of us when you want guidance or any sort of information about your future studies.
I will keep this note hidden from your father's prying eyes, and I will watch over you as I tend my missions each night, when I am finally able to return to active duty, for I cannot step from this room without shedding more blood-tears, and the men of my Organization do not need to see me in this weakened state.
No one but you should ever see me shed tears Devries. You are the only one privileged enough to witness such an event.
So when you think of your mother, please remember me for the vampire I have become rather than the human that I was. I had been cold, calculating, almost cruel and uncaring before my transformation, and before I was blessed with having a child to call my own.
I have changed Devries. Please ask Alucard about this one day when you are brave enough to confront the monster that I have controlled my entire life, to which I now pledge my undead life to, and whom will serve you unconditionally until your mortal death.
As he is forever in your service, I will be forever your guardian and your mother. Please forgive me for the disgrace I have caused my family and you my child.
I love you,
Argetni
Again, thank you reviewers, thank you readers, and thank you to those first few people that read this fic after using my laptop and checking my files without permission and then pushing me to continue with more than the first chapter, because we all know who that was directed at. *grin* (if you need the explanation, email me), and we all know I didn't expect anyone to even read just another Hellsing heir story.
It's been a ride. . . . .
~*~*~*~*~
August 23
To Devries Fairbrook Hellsing, the rightful blood heir to Integral Wingates Hellsing:
I have some explaining to do, for my beautiful daughter, you will hear stories of your mother that will never be told in a gracious light, as I will always be portrayed as a demon in your father's words and mind.
On the day you were born, I gave you up to your father so that I could leave the masquerade of my dual life as the leader of the Hellsing Organization and as one of its vampiric soldiers trained in the art of returning the undead to their final sleep and meeting with God or Satan, whichever would be taking their soul and placing it to rest. I am certain that my parting with you hurt Victoria's opinion of my character, but I could not bear to look upon you longer than I did, for I would have never been able to release you to the man you call your father. I have not left my quarters, nor has anyone come to visit me, since you were born, and all I can do is cry my blood-tears and pray for your safety in the sunlit world.
Please know that I, Sir Integral Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing, was one of the finest leaders the Hellsing Organization has ever known, and that my only wish was to have a child to call my own so that I could train her to be just as an effective leader as I had been. I was never hoping to cause you any pain or stress by having you, but you will never know how much I love you, or how much I wish to be near you, as the Vampiress Argetni does not show her feelings toward trivial matters of mortal humans.
Damn Alucard for turning me so that I could not be your mother.
I became a vampire before you were conceived Devries, which is the reason you will have some supernatural talent in your possession. Do not fear or loathe your powers, but embrace them, for if you are a regenerator, you can live a long life and never fear pain or injury, and if you are a dhampir, you will be able to track down your vampiric prey with more ease than any of today's technology could allow.
I did not want to be a vampire at first, but the time spent in the company of the undead has changed my opinion of the role of vampires in this world. The true undead are not demons to be feared and hunted, but creatures that wish to live their lives peacefully and in coexistence with humans. It is when a vampire becomes bored in his immortal life that he becomes dangerous, and it is those vampires which you must control and protect England from, beloved.
I will be there to help guide you in your path to greatness in the service of the Royal Family and country, as will Alucard and Seras, my companions in this earthbound existence. Feel free to contact any of us when you want guidance or any sort of information about your future studies.
I will keep this note hidden from your father's prying eyes, and I will watch over you as I tend my missions each night, when I am finally able to return to active duty, for I cannot step from this room without shedding more blood-tears, and the men of my Organization do not need to see me in this weakened state.
No one but you should ever see me shed tears Devries. You are the only one privileged enough to witness such an event.
So when you think of your mother, please remember me for the vampire I have become rather than the human that I was. I had been cold, calculating, almost cruel and uncaring before my transformation, and before I was blessed with having a child to call my own.
I have changed Devries. Please ask Alucard about this one day when you are brave enough to confront the monster that I have controlled my entire life, to which I now pledge my undead life to, and whom will serve you unconditionally until your mortal death.
As he is forever in your service, I will be forever your guardian and your mother. Please forgive me for the disgrace I have caused my family and you my child.
I love you,
Argetni