MysticalDreamer: "I am known as Valetinez Alkalenala Zeehock Sushira Boherez Gombigomela Blue Stradavari Tralentrent Pierre Andry Charttenhemos E'Vonnivitchi Baldos George Doitzel Kaizer the third. Don't hesitate to call."

actually no.. thats Vash's name...

. . TURNING POINT!

chapter eight: am i losing control?

Kagome went out again a few times that day. Of course, I followed her every time. Twice she went to see her friends, so that wasn't a big deal. But the other two times, she was with Houjo...

What could she possibly see in that guy? Gods..

They did an odd assortment of things.. strange things too. For a few hours, they just did whatever. It got kinda boring...

And when Kagome finally went home, my question was STILL unanswered. Maybe this whole idea was pointless... stupid Kikyo..

I was just about to head back to my time, when her door flew open again. I stared, wondering how many times this girl could go out in a day.

But now, she was wearing something really nice. It was the prettiest she ever looked. A long, evergreen kimono type dress. Her hair was pulled back. She was.. wow...

I wanted to jump out of the tree and walk with her.. but then I'd get sat. And so far, so good. I hadn't been caught yet.

Kagome walked down the stairs slowly, as if trying not to mess up her appearance. It was kinda funny actually.

I figured I would let her have fun. She would be coming back to my time in a day or two. Who knows. Maybe this whole thing was pointless.

Then.. bad omen.

I heard thunder roll in the distance. I sniffed the air. Rain. I smelt it. It was going to rain before the night was done.

"Oh shoot!" shouted Kagome. "If it rains, my dress will be ruined!"

I smiled. It was funny, although I didn't want her dress to get ruined.

She began to dash down the stairs, picking up her pace. She reached the bottom and turned right. I followed.. again. Damn, this is getting old.

She ended up going to some party. It was an a really fancy restaurant, and there seemed to be a lot of people there.

I narrowed my eyes when she jogged over to *him*...

"Its great that you made it!" he grinned. The two hugged and I scowled.

"I wasn't sure if I could." said Kagome. "But its not every day that your school throws a party-time thing for no reason. That paycheck from whoever must have come in handy."

"I've been thinking about this for a long time!" grinned Houjo. Why the hell does he always grin? Isn't there a law about people being happy all the time? Dammit!

"Me too." said Kagome. "I was saving this dress for a special occasion.. but I don't know if it will ever come, so I figured I might as well wear it now."

"Its pretty." said Houjo.

"Thanks. My mother bought it for me." she grinned, looking down at it. "I love it so much. I've wanted to wear it for a long time, but as I said before..."

"I hear ya." grinned Houjo.

Dammit, does he ever NOT smile? Gods...

The door opened and a girl around Kagome's age peeped her head out.

"Are you guys gonna come in anytime soon?" she asked. "Its gonna start!"

Another friend appeared. "Besides, it looks like it could rain any minute!" she said. "You wouldn't want- ohmigod! Kagome! That dress is gorgeous!"

The two girls ran over to her and stared at the dress.

"Where on earth did you get it?!" asked one.

"My mom bought it.." she grinned.

"For what? Not graduation!" said the other. "You wouldn't have worn in now!"

"No! Not graduation.." said Kagome, laughing.

"Then whats it for? It looks way to expensive for just every day use."

Kagome sighed. "You really wanna know?"

Her two friends nodded furiously.

"Well.. my mom is such a romantic." started Kagome. "We were out shopping one day, when we both saw this dress and fell in love with it." she said. "Sinse it was too soon for graduation, that and the fact that my mom said it was too special, she bought it for me for a different reason."

"And that would be..?"

Kagome blushed a bit. "Well, I told you. My mom is a hopeless romantic." she said. "She told me, she would buy to wear on the day I would tell that special someone that I loved him."

Kagome's friends went into starry-eyed dream mode. "Thats so romantic!" they said, dreamily folding their hands.

I stared.. she wore it tonight.. does this mean she loved Houjo? Was he her special someone? I shuddered.. that bastard..

"Come on you guys.." said Kagome.

"So why wear it tonight?" asked a friend. She whispered something into Kagome's ear, but I heard it. "Is it Houjo?" she grinned.

Kagome smiled. "I wore because I don't know when the day will some." she said aloud. "I don't know when I'll find that special someone.. I thought I did.. but.."

"WhAt?!?!?!" shouted her two friends, getting in her face.

"I told you! I didn't find him yet.. but I couldn't wait to wear this dress any longer."

Her friends sighed. Then they jumped when the thunder clapped. "We should go inside." said one. "Its gonna pour."

They didn't go inside right away, but they talked for a bit.

Kagome.. wore the dress.. because.. she couldn't wait any longer. She thought she found her someone.. but....

I shook my head. There was no way it was me.

Her friends pranced inside, talking about who knows what.

"Shall we go?" asked Houjo. Kagome nodded.

The two went inside, arms some what linked. I sat in a nearby tree. I watched through a window, the entire time. After about an hour, it began to lightly rain. I knew it would.

By now.. I was getting really bored. Really really bored.

Thinking about it.. it was stupid. This whole thing.

Watching them just made me confused. Extremely confused. And what in the hell made me decide to listen to Kikyo anyway? Dammit...

I turned for a few last minutes of watching them. They did nothing. They just sat there.. talking. My eyes were drooping.

I was just about to turn and go back home... when...

It happened.

My eyes widened. My mouth dropped. My heart was stabbed with a sword, then broke in two. I nearly fell out of the tree.

Inside the building.. the- they.. Kagome.. Kagome and ... Ho-houjo...

They were kissing.

My insides fell apart. Every single thought in my mind was gone. I was now staring. Staring at the one I loved and the cocky bastard.. ... as they kissed....

They stopped, and continued once more in their idle chat.

But I lost all emotions. The only thing I felt now.. was hate. Hate and pain. Hatred towards the kiss... Pain from the kiss. ... Hatred for the bastard.. Pain from Kagome...

I growled a low and evil sounding growl. My eyes were narrowed. I felt a weird tingling. Everything.. was.. weird...

In about five minutes, the two of them stood up. I watched Kagome, and half heard her. half read her lips say "Oh no! Its raining!"

My eyes wandered off them for a moment, looking around. It started to rain harder now. Lightening flashed in the distance. It would hit here by midnight at the latest.

Houjo gave her his coat and popped up an umbrella. They headed out of the building in the rain. And I followed.

"That was fun, wasn't it Kagome?" asked Houjo, holding the umbrella.

"Yeah it was!" said Kagome. "Who'd ever guess a party held by the school would be so fun!" she grinned.

"I'm so glad you were able to go." he said. "I mean, you're sick so much."

"Yeah.. well.."

"I hope you'll be able to do other stuff like this more often now." grinned Houjo.

"Me too!" grinned Kagome. "When I go- I mean, when I'm sick, sometimes it can be dangerous and I don't have much time to think about fun."

Dangerous? Kagome.. you have not seen dangerous yet.

"Dangerous?" asked Houjo. "How can sickness be dangerous?"

"With a bad disease or something." replied Kagome. "You know, like the time I had that.. whats it called...?"

"Which one?" asked Houjo.

"Oh, I don't know." said Kagome. "But some are really bad and sometimes fatal, so yeah. It can be dangerous."

"I guess you're right."

"Oh! Hurry!" squealed Kagome. "I don't wanna get struck by lightening! It getting really close now!"

Houjo laughed. "Sure. Lets walk a little faster."

You better walk faster...

My senses were tingling. I was.. losing .. some of my.. control.. All the things inside.. They were surfacing.. and its.... not fun.....

I jumped into a tree, after tree.. after tree. As I had done for so long now.

The rain came down a little harder, as the two reached the Higurashi Shrine. I watched with narrowed eyes and burning feelings.

Houjo walked Kagome up the stairs, not wanting her dress to get wet. I was behind them, silently watching his every mood. I felt as if I could snap at any moment.

"Next time there is something like this, we should go together again." said Houjo.

"Yeah.. I had... fun." she grinned. "Oh hurry! I'm getting wet! The dress, I mean."

"Oh, right!" he laughed.

They reached the door and she opened it.

"Thanks Houjo." said Kagome. "My dress would be ruined if it wasn't for you. And I had a great time."

"Don't mention it." he said. "Its no problem."

Kagome smiled. "Thanks anyway though." she said. "You've been a great help."

Houjo smiled at damn cocky smile. And I scowled.

"So.. before I head home, I want to ask you something." he said.

"Yeah? What is it?"

"Your dress..."

"Oh!" said Kagome, looking down at it. "Its.. "

"I mean, why did you wear such a pretty dress tonight instead of.. .waiting for what you said you were going to wait for?"

Kagome's face went slightly red. "Well.. I guess.. I was tired of waiting.."

"Waiting? Were you waiting for someone in particular?"

"Er.. Nevermind that, Houjo." said Kagome. "I should probably get inside now. What time were your parents expecting you home, by the way?"

"Oh." her said, glancing at his watch thing. "In about ten minutes or so. I guess I should get going. They're not home, but they're gonna call to make sure I'm home."

Kagome blinked. I would have laughed, but at the moment I was too tense and felt as if I was losing my mind.

"Ok." said Kagome. "Call me tomarrow?"

"Sure." grinned Houjo.

They stood there for a second, then leaned in and hugged. Houjo looked as if he wanted to kiss her again, but Kagome nodded another goodbye and stepped inside. She waved at him, and closed the door.

Houjo sighed. He turned amd began to leave the Shrine.

As he headed for the steps, I had the urge to follow him. Silently, swifty jumping from tree to tree to tree, I followed him down the stairs.

He turned right at the bottom of the long stairway, and then made another sharp turn not to long after that.

All the while, I followed him. He was leading me back to his house. Where ever it was. And I couldn't stop myself.

No matter how hard I tried to tell myself to stop, I just couldn't. It was like something had taken over me.

No.. something DID take over.

My demon side.

The jealousy.

And I am one of the last people to actually admit that I'm jealous. So I must be pretty damn jealous.

My eyes were burning with fury. I was raging inside. My blood was steaming. I wanted.. to smell... blood...

No! Stop...

It seemed as if the two parts of me were fighting for control.. and it didn't look like the good, human side was going to win. My demon side was gaining complete control.

And it was not going to be pretty. At all.

After a while, he turned down a street I had never gone down in my journey through Kagome's time. It wasn't as crowded as others, so there was a less of a chance that I would be spotted. Good...

Down the street a bit, Houjo stopped and stuck his hand into his pocket. He pulled out a metal thing. Kagome called them .. .kees...or keys.. or something.

Whatever.

He stuck it in the door and twisted it. The door then opened and the bastard went inside. I wanted to follow. How I wanted to follow.

Yet I couldn't. I couldn't because he closed the door. I growled.

Not able to enter, I waited outside. Wondering what I should do next. I sat in the tree, wondering and listeing. Listening oh so carefully.

My ear twitched when I heard a click. I looked over with only my eyes and saw a light go on the second floor of the house.

Inside the window, was Houjo. He went over to a wooden chest thing and pulled out pants and a shirt. I blinked.

He disappeared again, and I waited. For about ten minutes.

When he finally reappeared, his hair was wet and he had on the clothes he pulled out. He must have taken a show-er. Those things Kagome always talked about. And how she wished she could take one everyday. I shook my head. Don't think about this now, InuYasha.

He did some more strange things and he jumped when something rang. He dashed over to his desk and picked up the thing that Kagome called a tel-eh- fone. He started to talk to it. And he talked into it for about ten minutes.

Boring.

Finally, he hung up. He disappeared again for a while and I remained hidden, in my spot in the tree.

The rain came down really hard. It was pounding everywhere. The sky boomed and flashed with light. My clothes and hair were getting soaked. Wish I could be inside and dry.. but obviously, I'm not.

After a bit and after I was completey soaked to the skin, Houjo came back into that room and sat on his bed thing. I've always wondered why they were above the ground, instead of on the ground. But lets not get off the subject. Again.

As I watched him for a while, Kikyo's words began to echo through my head once more. Those evil words...

"You know..if 'Houjo' bugs you that much.....Why don't you just kill him?"

I twitched. Not now. I don't need those evil words now. I'm not a cold blooded murderer. I'm not!

More words echoed.. dammit...

"Oh, but you used to be.....Why not go back to your old ways? It could be beneficial to you."

Why? Why the hell are Kikyo's damned words coming back now?! They echoed over and over in my mind. They wouldn't leave. It was like they were brainwashing me. No.. no no no. I won't be forced to do something!

" ... just kill him....?"

My eyes widened. I whirled and stared through his window. He had turned the light out now and looked as if he was sleeping peacefully in his bed.

The sky boomed and flashed again. And over it all, I kept hearing Kikyo's words. My heart was pounding. My blood was raging.

I leaped over towards his window and crashed through it, shattering the glass everywhere, cutting little bits of my skin.

The noise woke him up and he jumped. His eyes widened, seeing the cut on my face and the blood trickling down form it.

"Wha.. Who!?" he shouted.

The rain came down. The sky boomed. It flashed. The words echoed through my mind. And then.. I saw her. I saw Kagome's face. It was so warm. And she was smiling.

I lost it. The only thing that I knew at the moment, was that I was in love with Kagome Higurashi. The girl from the future.

And this guy in front of me was getting her love instead of me.

"What do you think you're doing?!" shouted Houjo. His eyes widened and he looked terrified. He pushed as far up to the headboard of his bed as he could.

I glared at him with red eyes.

"Forgive me.. Kagome..." I whispered.

He looked at me. "Kagome?" he asked softly.

I raised my claws in the air. His eyes widened. Everything went blank. The only thing I saw myself doing...

was bring my claws down.. ripping at the boy's throat....

MD: *dodges all the sharp, pointy and dangerous objects thrown at her* ACK! *dodges the grapefruit* erm.. cliffhanger? review or you won't get anymore

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estatic-otaku-girl : yes! of course! may kikyo die forever!! ^-^ sorry to all you kikyo fans..

Jurei : i love your reviews. i feel so loved when i read them! thanks !!

Hanyou-Girl25 : well.. inu didnt talk to her in this chapter, but in the next.. he will! i promise

Hieiluva4eva : HIEI! lol.. anyway.. hmm a freak accident? COOLNESS! i would be so happy if that were to happen... teh heh..

The Random Queen : omg your penname is so great! ^^ WHAT?! EVIL COWS?? *runs away*

Tinuviel: HAHAHAAH!! voices in inu's head.. that gives me an idea for a humor fic.. *snicker*

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Alkatrazz: YES! i agree completely! DIE KIKYO!! ::shoots lasers at her:: YOU TOO HOE JO! ::throws shovels at him:: oh wait.. i think he already died..

MJ: yes.. we allll live in a strange world.. la la la ... ^^'

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