MysticalDreamer: my oh my, what a cliffhanger we had last time. but this update was faster than usual, eh? to be honest.. this chapter has been done for a few days.. but.. @.@ oh well.. on with the chapter...

chapter nine: oh.. my .. god... what have i done?

I stared. As my claws came down, and tore out Houjo's throat. He screamed a bit, but then he was silent.

Then I snapped back into my usual self.

"Oh.. my... god..." I whispered.

I put my hands to his throat and tried to cover up the holes I had made, trying to make him breath. The blood hit my hands. It was .. weird.. I'm used to having blood on my hands.. but.. never.. never has it been human blood....

"Wake up.. stupid.." I said, desperately trying to wake him up.

"Get up!" I shouted.

His eyes were closed and he was completely still. I let go of his neck and backed away. Houjo lay there ... dead....

And I had killed him.

I returned back to my cold blooded days.

Shit...

The sky boomed again. Then it flashed. I could hear the rain. It was coming down harder now.

I stayed there, staring at the dead body of Houjo for I don't know how long. My hands were dripping with his blood.

Everything.. dammit..

I killed him. I killed Houjo. The one Kagome seemed to love.. I lost it. And now.. an innocent kid is dead... all because of my selfish ways...

I stood there, staring. I couldn't think of anything to do.

Then I heard it.

The door was opening. The kid's parents must have come home! I looked around furiously. I saw the window, and leaped outside, back into my tree.

I heard his parents call him, then heard foot steps going up stairs. The light in his room clicked on. Then I heard a scream.

"HOUJO!!!???!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!"

I turned away. I couldn't bear it.

Within seconds, there was sirens. My ears twitched towards the direction they were coming in. I watched as two of those car things Kagome told me about pulled up. They had flashing lights and sirens. Not to long after that, another car came up. Bigger this time. A bunch of people ran out, with bags of stuff. (a/n: ok.. the first two cars were cop cars, and the third was an ambulence. just in case you couldn't figure it out.. i know i probably wouldnt be able to.. :: sigh :: )

I sat in the tree, staring at my bloody hands in the pouring rain. My demon side.. it had taken over me.. and I lost control...

"Now what?" I whispered.

Then something new happened... liquid.. came out of my eyes.. tears.. came out of my eyes. And it wasn't the rain.. because the rain was cold... and these tears.. were hot...

I looked up into the sky. It flashed from the lightening. I heard the clash of thunder above the sirens coming from down below.

Then.. I felt weird...

And it clicked. Tonight was the night of the New Moon.. which meant.. I was human... I looked at my bloody hands and saw that the claws were now gone.

There was only one thing to do.. I leaped out of the tree.. and before anyone could say anything to me, I ran off.. heading for..

Kagome's house.

I ran as fast as I could. I didn't want people to see my blood stained hands. But the rain was good for once. Not many people were outside.

As I ran, those tears kept coming out of my eyes. They ran down my face.. and they didn't seem to end.

Before I knew it, I was running up the shrine stairs. The rain was keeping the blood from drying, but it was also washing it off. All the way up the stairs, there were some spots of red. Some spots of blood.

I reached the top and froze. Now what? I asked myself again.

I looked between the well and Kagome's house, Kagome's house and the well. The decision was obvious. I headed for Kagome's house.

It would be better for her to hear the truth and hate me, then to think lies and like me.

The walk to her house seemed endless. It went on and on.. until at last.. I reached the door to her house.

As I went to open the door, there came a loud wail from inside. It was .. Kagome. She was crying. I listened.

"No!" she shouted through tears. "Houjo!!" she cried.

I bit my lip. Somehow, she had found out.

"Kagome?" I heard her mother say. "What's wrong?"

"Houjo-kun!!!" she shouted. I heard running as she must have dashed towards her mother for a hug. "His mother... his mother called.. and.. and and.." there was a pause and a wail, "She said...*sniff, cry* He was Killed!!!" she shouted.

The tears poured down my face even harder now. InuYasha.. Bastard.. what have you done? Damn you... damn you..

I heard footsteps, running right for the door. It flew open and there stood Kagome, still in her evergreen dress with a wet and teary-eyed face.

"InuYasha?" she asked tearfully. She must have saw the tears on my face, and despite her tears, she asked, "Whats wrong?"

I broke down and the tears came out even harder. "Kagome... I'm.."

Kagome tilted her head, as her own tears continued to fall. "You're human.." she whispered.

"I wasn't.. until... recently.."

Kagome sniffed, drying her face. "What do you mean?" she asked, tears still coming down. She sniffed again.

"Kagome..." I said, sinking to the ground on my knees. My tears came out harder, that they hit the ground.

"InuYasha.." she whispered, kneeling down too.

"Kagome.. " he said. "You're.. going to hate me.. but.. I need to tell you..."

"Tell me what?"

I embraced myself for the worst. "I did it.." I whispered.

"Did what?" she asked.

"I did it!!" I shouted. "I killed Houjo!" I said.

Kagome's eyes widened. She stared at me with her big, brown eyes with a look of pure shock. "What..?"

I rang my hands through my hair furiously. "Gods, Kagome I'm so sorry.." I wailed. "My demon side took over! I couldn't stop it!" I said, talking nonstop, getting everything out. "Before I knew it.. he was just dead!"

Kagome didn't say anything. She just stared.

"I did it Kagome!" I shouted at her. I stood up. "I lost control.. I... I followed him home.. and then.. I .. I just lost it!! My mind went evil!! My demon half took over!! Gods!!" I shouted out. "Why?! Damn you, Kikyo!!"

Kagome stood up now, staring at me with tears coming out of her eyes. "You.. killed him?" she whispered.

The tears ran down my face. "Kagome.." I whispered. "I'm sorry.. I'll just go back to my time now .. and.. I guess.. this is goodbye..."

I whirled around and dashed off towards the well. There.. I said it.. Even if it means I lose her forever.. at least she knows..

I was in the middle of the big open space between her house and the well when I was stopped. A hand had grabbed my arm. I turned and saw her standing there.

"Kagome.." I whispered. I turned and faced her. "Just let me go..."

"I can't do that." she said.

"Just let go of my arm." I said softly.

"No."

I stood there, staring at her. The tears were still coming down, although not as hard as before. Kagome was still crying too.

"You should go inside." I whispered. "You'll get sick.. and you're dress is gonna get ruined."

"... What..?"

"I followed you tonight..." I whispered to her. "I heard you talking.. about the dress and how important it was to you."

"Oh.."

"Go inside..Before I ruin your life even more.."

Kagome bit her lip. "The only thing I ever wanted.. was someone to love." she said suddenly. I looked at her eyes, as they looked to the ground. "But not just anyone. I wanted someone.. who would love me back."

I looked at her face. She was.. so sad.. so depressed.. and I caused it. Dammit. "Kagome..." I whispered. "I feel the same way.. Except.. I lost her already.."

"Kikyo, huh?"

I just stared. Kagome sighed and continued

"Then.. I did. I found someone to love." she said. "I loved him so much... but I wasn't sure if he loved me back."

"Kagome.." I said. "Its.. the same for me.."

"Kikyo." she said.

"Kagome-"

"No." she interupted. "Kikyo.. is the reason.."

"Eh?"

"You were always off with Kikyo.." said Kagome, tearfully. "It was obvious you still loved her... Thats why I went off with Houjo so much.." she said.

My eyes widened.

"My heart... broke.." she whispered. "Seeing you with her all the time.. It hurt me, InuYasha. More than you could imagine."

"Listen-"

"No." she stopped me from talking again. "I .. didn't want to wait around anymore.. I was tired of waiting for you to decide.. if you loved Kikyo.. or..."

"Or?"

"Me..." she whispered. She let go of my arm. "Thats right InuYasha.. I fell in love with you... You don't know what its like to be in love with someone who doesn't love you back..."

"Kagome-"

"I waited.. and waited.." she said. "All these years..I've waited for you. But.. nothing happened... Thats why I started to go out with Houjo. He took my mind off you...And now that he's dead..." she covered her eyes with her hands. "I wanted to stop loving someone who didn't love me.."

"Listen Kagome.." I said. I grabbed her shoulders and turned her around. She looked right in my eyes. "I'm.. sorry.."

"Sorry? Sorry for killing Houjo isn't going to work!!" she shouted.

"Thats not the only thing I'm sorry for.."

Kagome looked at me, tears coming out of her eyes.

"Kagome..." I started. "I'm sorry I put you through all this...The truth is.."

"InuYasha.."

"I love you, Kagome."

She froze and stared at me.

"Don't play with my heart, InuYasha." she said. "I don't need this."

"Who says I'm playing?" I asked, looking right into her eyes. "Everytime you leave for your era.. I feel so lonely. I get teased by Miroku and Sango all the time for it.. "

"What are you talking about?" asked Kagome softly.

"All this time..." I said. "I've loved you..."

Kagome blinked.

"When you left.. I ran off into the forest.. to try and get my mind off of you..." I told her. "While I was in there, Kikyo showed up.. She manipulated me.. She made my mind go crazy... It was her.. She was the one.. She told me to follow you and Houjo around..."

"What?"

"She told me.. to find out.. if you trully loved him.. And if you did really love Houjo, I would forget about you.. and leave." I explained. "Kikyo told me to go with her, join her in hell... if you loved Houjo..."

Kagome remained speachless.

"So.. me being the stupid idiot I am.." I said, "I did... I followed you all around.. everywhere you went.. You were with Houjo a lot.. and it tore me to pieces.. I couldn't stand it. It was... driving me crazy..."

Kagome opened her mouth to speak, but I stopped her.

"Then.. tonight.. when you kissed..." I said, I looked down at the floor and tears rolled down my face. "My heart shattered... I lost it.. and my demon side took over... To top it off, Kikyo's words echoed in my mind..

'You know..if 'Houjo' bugs you that much.....Why don't you just kill him?'

Then.. my demon side completely took over... I lost it.. I don't even know what happened.." I said, tears flowing, I looked down at my blood stained hands. "The only thing I was thinking... was that.. I loved you Kagome.. and that was it..It was the only thing I remember going through my mind... I love Kagome..."

She picked up my hand and stared at it. Stared at the blood. Then she looked at me. "Are you.... lying to make me feel better?" she asked softly.

"Kagome! I wouldn't lie to you now.. especially after you lost the one you loved." I said, also softly. (a/n: keep in mind, he's human tonight... ^.~ )

There was silence for a bit. The two of us just stood there, in the pouring rain. Thunder clashed at one point too, although the storm seemed to be loosening up. A little. Scratch that. It was still going strong.. but the thundering had slowed down. There we go...anyway...

"I.." started Kagome. "I .. didn't lose the one... I loved tonight.."

I looked at her, unsure of what to say.

"Houjo-kun was a nice guy..." she said. "But ... I never... really loved him... the way I loved ... you, InuYasha."

Still unsure of what to say, I just stared. "Kagome.. "

She bit her lip. "I'm crushed by his.. death.. but.." the tears started to come out of her eyes hard once more. Without thinking, I reached in and hugged her tightly.

"InuYasha... do you.. still love me.. even after.. everything..?" she asked.

There was only one thing to say. "Hell yeah.." I replied. "Hell yeah."

Kagome looked up at me, and I looked down at her. Despite the fact that the killer of her boyfriend was standing by her, and hugging her, she stayed with him. With me.

Then... we both leaned in .. and we kissed for the first time.

It was.. I don't know. But when it was over, I just smiled. So did she.

"Kagome..?"

"Mmhm?" she replied as I began to walk her back to her house, with my arm around her waist.

"I guess.. you did wear that dress on the day you told that special someone you loved him."

"Yeah. I guess.. I did.." she said, smiling as she looked down at it. Soaked and all. Then she looked back at me and smiled.

And it was all I could do, but smile back.

MD: and it ends here... the chapter, i mean. ^______________^ .. there will definitely be one more chapter and an epilougue.. but depending on me, there could be one more chapter before the epilogue.. not to mention, this chapter wasnt what i was hoping it to be, but i hope its still good... anyway... review, or you shant get anymore (gah! did i just use SHANT?! in an actual SENTANCE?! oh gods.. )

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