"Happy"

In the future I'll probably hate you, even though I don't want to. I'll try not to but everytime I think of you, I'll get feelings of hate and jealousy. I think I'll feel more jealousy than hatred. You'll have what I have now except you'll have it forever. I can only have it here, in a warzone.

Your husband loves me, he told me. He tells me often but he also says that he's going back to you. And ofcource, he has to go back to you. Back to you and your lovely daughter.

He could never not go back. I wouldn't allow it either. Nothing can ever come of us in the future. What we have now, will cease to exist when we're back home. You'll have him back again. You'll be happy again. He'll be happy again. And I, I'll be left all alone. But, I don't mind. Not really. Because all I want is for him to be happy. I'd do anything for him to be happy. Now, though he misses you, he's happy. I make him happy now.

I wish I could make him happy for longer than the time the war lasts, but I can't. One day soon it'll all be over and then it's your turn again.

Now, he's mine and I'm not giving him back.