Saiyin-jin Lust
Disclaimer: I Do Not Own Dragon Ball Z/GT. I do not do this for profit of any kind. I do this for the amusement of my self and the people who decide to read this
Chapter 7 - Trying to Move On
Gohan has just taking to the sky when Pan woke up to the sound of her name. She thought the last ten minutes had been a dream, then that empty feeling resurfaced assuring her that all of this was in fact real. Pan asked Trunks to put her down. He complied and soon she was bombarded by questions from Chi-Chi, but they were not directed towards her not yet.
"Why did someone kill my baby? Why would they want to kill him? He never hurt anyone." Chi-Chi rambled on crying into her husband's gi. "O- basan there is something you need to know about all of this. Goten died because of me and Gotenks. Tousan got angry with him and saw killing him as the only way to right a wrong" Pan looked at the ground. She knew that it was going to be hard, but she had to tell them all this. Chi-Chi was crying louder and louder as the minutes passed. Pan calmed her down just enough for her to listen.
Pan explained the whole situation with Goten and her father in every detail. From the day of that party the year before to what happened just minutes before. She did not let anybody get a word in. Everybody except her grandparents where calm. Chi-Chi did not have anything to say for a change, so Goku said something. "What do we do now? From the way you described it Goten died before the blast hit him. Shenlong can't revive him." Everyone just looked at something other than each other, but they all had the same thought 'I don't know' they all thought in unison. Soon afterward they decided that it wasn't doing them any good standing there. They left for their homes.
Pan, Videl and Trunks went to Goten's apartment to pick up Marron and Gotenks. As soon as Pan entered the home she broke down crying she saw Marron and her son lying on the couch sleeping. She did not want to wake them up so she held back her tears. Trunks picked up Marron, careful not to wake her. He said his goodbyes and condolences to Pan before leaving. Videl walked over to Gotenks and picked him up. She turned to find Pan curled up on the floor sobbing with everything she had. "Pan dear let's go. I don't think it is a good idea for you to stay here any longer. Why don't you come home and get some sleep and we can talk about this tomorrow after you've rested?" Videl pleaded. All she got was a whisper "It smells just like him." Pan muttered. Videl didn't know what to do. Her mother's death never hurt her that much she was still a young child when it happened that she barley even remembers it. Pan got up and walked over her and began to run her hand over Gotenks head. "Kasan, I want you to take Gotenks with you for the night and probably most of the day tomorrow. I just want to be alone right now. OK?" Videl gave her small smile "I understand, but I wish you would come home with me. And possibly talk to your father about this and try to make him understand." Pan just shook her head trying to hold back the tears threatening to spill. "I don't want to even think of him right now. Maybe in a little while, but for right now I am staying here. I will get Gotenks sometime tomorrow afternoon, along with my things. I don't think I will be staying there anymore." Pan said while the tears rolled down her face. "But where will you go? You don't have enough money to get a house and support the baby right now. How will you survive?" "I am going to stay here and Trunks offered me a job at Capsule Corp. the other day. I am going to take it and start as soon as I am able. As for a place to live I am just going to live here. I owe it to Gotenks to be near as possible to his father and this is the closest thing I have right now. I'm sure I will be able to take over the lease with out a problem since Capsule Corp. owns the building." Pan said while looking around the room at nothing. "OK dear, I will go now make sure you call before you come over that way I can get rid of your father for a few hours." Videl said. Pan nodded and gathered the baby's things for her mother.
She walked her mother out to the parking lot and threw a capsule car out. The packed the baby in securely and said their goodbyes. "Listen baby if you need me just call I will come right away, OK?" Videl reassured her daughter. "I will, I promise." Pan said. "You should get going it is almost feeding time for Gotenks and he won't eat while driving." "OK, dear take care" Videl hugged her daughter tight then let go. She got into the air car and waved goodbye as it took off. Pan just stood there looking at the stars and wondering why they couldn't grant wishes like in the stories she read as a child.
Pan stood there till the cold of the night began to take its toll on her. She walked back into the apartment and noticed the smell that forced her to cry. It smelled just like him. It was decorated the same way it was a year ago. The only thing different was that it was much cleaner now. Pan walked around the room looking at all the pictures around the room. She stopped on one that just screamed to be looked at. It was taken at her graduation party from high school. It was Goten handing her a present. Pan remembered that very well it was the only piece of jewelry that she would wear. It was a platinum dragon charm with an amber ball in its mouth. The ball was the black four star dragon ball on a gold chain. She still wore it all the time like she promised him. Pan pulled it out of her shirt and began to caress it with loving care. "I guess that I will have to give this to Gotenks now since he never had gotten anything from him. I hope you will understand Goten." Pan put the pendant back in her shirt and the picture back on the table.
Pan wondered around the apartment taking in every sight and smell trying to burn them into her memory. She knew eventually that the smell would change without him around. She didn't want to let it go. She continued her tour and found herself in the bedroom. "This is where it happened. This is where it all started. This place is the reason he is no longer here" Pan whispered to her self. Pan noticed something different in the corner next to the bed. It was a crib "He must have bought this for Gotenks" She walked over to it and noticed it was elaborately carved with dinosaurs one that looked like the picture on the desk out in the living room. It was purple with two horns and wings that looked to small for it to be able to fly. It was sitting next to what looked like a child. The crib looked hand carved. The mobile above it was seven orange balls with stars in them. The body of the mobile looked like Shenlong himself, but he did not look terrifying like the real thing. It looked like it was just gazing over the crib with love in its eyes. "This must have cost him a fortune" Pan said to her self as she sat on the bed.
Pan looked to the floor. She noticed some roles of paper under the crib. She picked them up and opened them. She gasped at what she saw. It was hand drawn plans for the crib, plus the notes where written in Goten's handwriting. Pan started crying harder "He made this. This was supposed to be a present for Gotenks. Goten's first present for his son." Pan dropped the plans and fell onto the bed crying like it was never going to stop. All she could think of was that her son would never know his father and this was not right no matter the circumstances. "I guess I should remember what Goten told me to do. I will tell him everyday Goten you don't have to worry about it. He will know." Pan felt something on her side. It was one of Goten's shirts, the one he wore earlier that day. She held it close to her as she continued to cry. "I have to be strong for Gotenks now I can't give up." She continued to cry until she fell into a deep slumber.
Pan dreamt of Gotenks, Goten and her self out in a field. They were laughing and having fun and there was no sign of it ending. She was smiling at Gotenks who had just caught a lizard and began to chase after it to play. Goten was next to her when he turned and looked her in the eye. He was down on a knee and pulled something out of his pocket...
~On the Look Out~
"What am I going to do? I didn't mean for any of this to happen. Goten was my friend and I let him die." Dende sighed to him self. Mr. PoPo walked into the room and noticed the predicament the god was in. He turned away to go to his garden, while talking to the man behind him "Dende, I know you will do the right thing" Mr. PoPo left to god to his thoughts.
"I have to go and talk with Pan hopefully she won't kill me. I will do it in a couple of days. That way she can have some time to come to terms with all of this. I don't want to make her even more upset." Dende went to his garden to think of the days events and to think of how to undo this. He was in there for quite some time when "I know!! Mr. PoPo I have to leave for a couple of days on business I need you to look over things while I'm gone." "Of coarse Dende-sama, will you be going?" the little black genie asked. Dende started to phase out of sight "It is a surprise hold down the fort, it is only for a few days and I will be back." Dende disappeared. "I hope you are right sir." Mr. PoPo returned to his work
~The Next Day~
Pan went to get Gotenks late in the afternoon. Her father arrived home just as she had the last of her things capsulated and packed in the car. She did not even look in his direction much less talk with him. Videl told him what had happened, and Goten was right. As soon as the whole thing was explained he understood crystal clear. This only hurt Gohan even more. Now he started to stray away from his family thinking they all hated him. He was back on the 'If only I had listened to him kick' that he went through the time his dad died at the Cell Games.
"I killed him. Because of my anger I killed my own brother, the man I helped raise myself. I thought that I could never do them any harm worse than when tousan died and then it happened. Pan won't even speak to me, Videl lost that spark in her eyes that was even brighter when I was near her and kasan won't stop crying. I have to find a way to fix this" Gohan said to himself while floating in front of a water fall. The same water fall that Piccolo used to meditate by. This place was always special to Gohan. It made him feel like his former sensei was there with him. He only wished Piccolo was there to give him advice, spar or just to talk to. Any thing to take his mind off the situation at hand. Then he figured if he could not have Piccolo he would settle on the next best thing, He blasted off towards the look out as fast as he could. Dende was his best friend ever since they were children. He arrived a short time later to find Mr. PoPo tending to his gardens.
"Hello Gohan, how are you holding up?" Mr. PoPo asked in that sweet voice that he always had. Gohan got straight to the point "I came to see Dende and see if he could offer any advice to my current situation. Is he here?" "No he left last night. He didn't tell me where though. He should be back in a few days though, if you want to stop by then." Mr. PoPo said. "Maybe I can be of some help. I am a lot older than Dende and I have been here since the place was created. Maybe you can benefit from what I have to say." Mr. PoPo said with care in his voice. He had seen Gohan grow up and from all the time he spent with Piccolo he knew he would be able to help. "I guess. I just needed help to think of some way to get Pan to talk to me again." Mr. PoPo nodded knowing all to well about the situation. "Well my friend why don't you just go to Pan and tell her what you have to say. She doesn't have to say anything back, just let her know how you feel about this mess. If she doesn't talk to you after that, then at least you won't feel bad about not apologizing to her. Even if she does forgive you it will take a while for her to come to you, but it will never be the same. So just play it be ear and give it your all and hope for the best." Mr. PoPo patted Gohan on the back. "Your right Mr. PoPo, I should just come out and say it. That way she knows. I will go and do that now." Gohan ran to the edge and jumped off. "THANKS AGAIN, YOU'RE THE BEST" Gohan yelled as he flew towards his daughter.
Mr. PoPo turned back to his gardening "I knew this job wasn't as hard as Dende makes it out to be." Just then he got a message from Dende. 'Mr. PoPo I won't be back for a while.' Dende sent. 'What do you mean are you OK? Where are you?' Mr. PoPo sent back. 'I'm fine, but something has come up and I won't be back for another two months. Just make sure everything is OK with earth and I will be back as soon as I can.' 'Dende you have to tell me where you are, what if something comes up and it needs your attention.' 'You don't have to worry; I am in a safe place right now. I think since I have to wait, I will take an extended vacation. Don't worry if you need me just call. And don't let the others know. I will keep you updated, see you later and take care.' Dende cut off the link before Mr. PoPo could ask more questions. "This is going to be a long two months...Where is the key to that liquor cabinet. I think I am going to need it" Mr. PoPo went off in search the only thing Dende had to make him forget the stress of being a god. "And to think they all thought he was an alcoholic."
~At Satan City Park a Week Later~
Pan was sitting on a bench feeding Gotenks while looking at the children on the swings a little ways off. She sighed to her self "I was going to bring Goten with me for this. This is Gotenks first time to a park, Goten was supposed to be here for this." Pan noticed that the baby had stopped eating. She looked at him and saw that he was asleep. "I guess your Obasan wore you out today" Pan cooed. "I think its time to get you home, and into bed." Pan got up and started walking down the path. "Can I walk you home?" a low voice came from behind her.
Pan froze on the spot. She didn't want to turn around because of who was behind her. "No I can manage well enough. It's only a block away." Pan said not moving and inch. "I wanted to tell you that I feel bad for what I have done. I know that it doesn't make up for what I did, but at the least just know that I am sorry. I hope you can forgive me one day." Gohan told her in a fearful voice. There was a moment of silence between them. Gohan just wanted her to say something, anything to stop this deafening quiet. "I will leave now. If you need anything you know where I am" Gohan turned away and started to walk. "Please, don't go." Gohan turned around to see Pan staring at him. "Tousan please don't go. I need someone now. I can't keep giving you the silent treatment, so let's talk." Gohan walked towards her "Are you sure? I can leave if you want me to. I know I'm not one of your favorite persons now." Pan just looked at the ground "I know, but we have to talk. We need to settle this. I don't know if I can forgive you, but I know we just need to put everything out there." "So does this mean I can walk you home?" Pan nodded, Gohan walked up to her. She turned to lead the way.
"Pan I know that I was wrong, but I wanted to let you know that I didn't want to kill Goten. I offered him a chance to leave, he did not take it. I thought that he took advantage of you and never thought about the whole situation. I was so angry; I should have listened to you at the pub. You know you were always my little baby. I just wanted to protect you, that was the only way I thought of." Gohan said while walking two steps behind Pan. "Tousan, I know if it weren't for Vegeta then I would have told you in time. I just needed to find a way. I know what happened then and afterward was wrong by normal standards, but it was not a normal circumstance. If the situation was normal then I would have never done it. If Goten would have tried anything, I would have made him think twice. You of all people should know that he was not like that. Yeah he tried to be a womanizer, but he had a heart of gold and would never hurt anyone if his life depended on it; especially family." "I know, I just couldn't see the situation for what it was. Then when you said it was your fault, I couldn't take it anymore. I thought you believed that because he made you think it. I just wish I could take back that night and listened to everything you said." Gohan bowed his head in shame as they rounded another corner. They were almost there. 'Not much time left' he thought to him self. "Pan listen I know that things will never be the same, but I want to try and make it up to you. I want to be your father again. I want to be there for you and Gotenks, even if it is for just an argument. Please just don't ignore me anymore." Gohan lifted his head to find they were in front of the apartment. Pan opened the door "Would you like to come in?" "Yeah" Gohan answered.
Once in side Pan handed Gotenks to his grand father. "Could you put him in his crib, while I get some tea?" Pan asked. "Gohan nodded and left for the bedroom. Once he entered he noticed the crib in the corner. He walked over and lay the baby down. Gohan sat down on the bed and was about to get up when he notice the intricate designs carved on the crib. They were beautiful, like they were done by a master artist. He looked more closely and came across the same picture that Pan noticed. It was same dinosaur and child at the head of the bed. He gasped recognizing the picture. Just then Pan walked in carrying two cups of tea. She noticed her father "Do you know what that is? I can't figure it out what it means." Gohan turned his head and nodded "The dinosaur is Icarus. A pet we had when we were growing up, he died shortly before I met your kasan. Icarus was the best. The boy is me. I don't know why this is on here though. I never told you about Icarus before." "I didn't have it put on there. Goten made this him self. I found the plans for it last week. I assumed it was supposed to be some kind of guardian symbol, because of where it is and how detailed it is." "Goten made this? I didn't even know that he carved wood, but I should have guessed that he would have gone to this length for his son. I did the something similar after he was born. I carved and painted a mobile for him. It looked like Shenlong, and it had the dragon balls hanging off of it. They glowed in the dark and you could see the stars inside them. After he was out of the crib and sleeping in my room he brought it with him and hung it over his bed. I don't know what he ever did with it after I got married. I figured he got rid of it." Gohan said. He noticed Pan walk over to the closet she opened it up and pulled out a box. "I kept hitting my head on it, so I took it down and put it in here so it wouldn't get damaged." Pan said handing the box to Gohan. Gohan opened it and gasped. It was the same dragon he made all of those years ago. "He kept it. I didn't think he would after I moved. He was so upset that I wouldn't be there with him anymore." Gohan's eyes started to glaze over. "I think we should put it back up where it was. There was a reason Goten put it up there in the first place." Pan took the mobile from her father. As she finished Gotenks started to stir. They both figured that they should take the conversation else where, so not to wake him. Gohan looked one last time towards the crib after the lights were turned off. The dragon balls were glowing brightly and that made him feel more comfortable, knowing that Gotenks would be protected by the same item that protected his brother as a child. He sighed and closed the door and followed his daughter to the living room, where they talked for several more hours.
As the weeks passed things were getting better for Gohan and Pan. Pan was warming up to him again. Videl was happy for her husband and daughter. Chi-Chi stopped crying. She spent a lot of time with Gotenks and Pan. Pan had started her job with Capsule Corp, and was having quite a time trying to balance work and family. Gohan helped out in anyway that he could, he paid a bill or two while Pan wasn't looking. Marron and Trunks were over often to spend time with Pan trying to get her out of the house. Pan was still lost in thought when it came to Goten, but she would just dismiss it as soon as possible. Dende still was not around and the stress of being acting Kami was getting to Mr. PoPo.
It was now 3 days before Gotenks first birthday and everyone was preparing for it. Gohan was working the hardest of all of them. He was making sure Gotenks had the best party a child could have. He owed Goten that much he told him self. Pan was getting a little depressed. She wanted Goten there for the party, but she knew that wasn't going to happen. This thought only made her even more depressed.
September 10th was soon there. The party was just starting. A huge pile of presents lay on the picnic table, most of which were from Gohan. Next to that was a cake that could give 10 people a run for their money, supplied by Chi-Chi. The guests soon arrived and the party began.
~Elsewhere~
"Arise Dragon!!" a voice screamed to the sky.
Sorry it took me a little while to write this. It was a little hard, because I had to dig into some memories that I don't like to relive. The whole mourning Pan scene was written from my own experience when my grand father died. I am sorry if it sucked, but as I said I don't like to relive those times of my life.
I have a trivia question. Who was it that wrote and originally performed the theme for Dragon Ball GT? (Hint: They also wrote the Ending theme as well)
The Prize: I will write you into my next story, and you will have complete control of your character in it. We will work closely together on it.
Ja-ne
Disclaimer: I Do Not Own Dragon Ball Z/GT. I do not do this for profit of any kind. I do this for the amusement of my self and the people who decide to read this
Chapter 7 - Trying to Move On
Gohan has just taking to the sky when Pan woke up to the sound of her name. She thought the last ten minutes had been a dream, then that empty feeling resurfaced assuring her that all of this was in fact real. Pan asked Trunks to put her down. He complied and soon she was bombarded by questions from Chi-Chi, but they were not directed towards her not yet.
"Why did someone kill my baby? Why would they want to kill him? He never hurt anyone." Chi-Chi rambled on crying into her husband's gi. "O- basan there is something you need to know about all of this. Goten died because of me and Gotenks. Tousan got angry with him and saw killing him as the only way to right a wrong" Pan looked at the ground. She knew that it was going to be hard, but she had to tell them all this. Chi-Chi was crying louder and louder as the minutes passed. Pan calmed her down just enough for her to listen.
Pan explained the whole situation with Goten and her father in every detail. From the day of that party the year before to what happened just minutes before. She did not let anybody get a word in. Everybody except her grandparents where calm. Chi-Chi did not have anything to say for a change, so Goku said something. "What do we do now? From the way you described it Goten died before the blast hit him. Shenlong can't revive him." Everyone just looked at something other than each other, but they all had the same thought 'I don't know' they all thought in unison. Soon afterward they decided that it wasn't doing them any good standing there. They left for their homes.
Pan, Videl and Trunks went to Goten's apartment to pick up Marron and Gotenks. As soon as Pan entered the home she broke down crying she saw Marron and her son lying on the couch sleeping. She did not want to wake them up so she held back her tears. Trunks picked up Marron, careful not to wake her. He said his goodbyes and condolences to Pan before leaving. Videl walked over to Gotenks and picked him up. She turned to find Pan curled up on the floor sobbing with everything she had. "Pan dear let's go. I don't think it is a good idea for you to stay here any longer. Why don't you come home and get some sleep and we can talk about this tomorrow after you've rested?" Videl pleaded. All she got was a whisper "It smells just like him." Pan muttered. Videl didn't know what to do. Her mother's death never hurt her that much she was still a young child when it happened that she barley even remembers it. Pan got up and walked over her and began to run her hand over Gotenks head. "Kasan, I want you to take Gotenks with you for the night and probably most of the day tomorrow. I just want to be alone right now. OK?" Videl gave her small smile "I understand, but I wish you would come home with me. And possibly talk to your father about this and try to make him understand." Pan just shook her head trying to hold back the tears threatening to spill. "I don't want to even think of him right now. Maybe in a little while, but for right now I am staying here. I will get Gotenks sometime tomorrow afternoon, along with my things. I don't think I will be staying there anymore." Pan said while the tears rolled down her face. "But where will you go? You don't have enough money to get a house and support the baby right now. How will you survive?" "I am going to stay here and Trunks offered me a job at Capsule Corp. the other day. I am going to take it and start as soon as I am able. As for a place to live I am just going to live here. I owe it to Gotenks to be near as possible to his father and this is the closest thing I have right now. I'm sure I will be able to take over the lease with out a problem since Capsule Corp. owns the building." Pan said while looking around the room at nothing. "OK dear, I will go now make sure you call before you come over that way I can get rid of your father for a few hours." Videl said. Pan nodded and gathered the baby's things for her mother.
She walked her mother out to the parking lot and threw a capsule car out. The packed the baby in securely and said their goodbyes. "Listen baby if you need me just call I will come right away, OK?" Videl reassured her daughter. "I will, I promise." Pan said. "You should get going it is almost feeding time for Gotenks and he won't eat while driving." "OK, dear take care" Videl hugged her daughter tight then let go. She got into the air car and waved goodbye as it took off. Pan just stood there looking at the stars and wondering why they couldn't grant wishes like in the stories she read as a child.
Pan stood there till the cold of the night began to take its toll on her. She walked back into the apartment and noticed the smell that forced her to cry. It smelled just like him. It was decorated the same way it was a year ago. The only thing different was that it was much cleaner now. Pan walked around the room looking at all the pictures around the room. She stopped on one that just screamed to be looked at. It was taken at her graduation party from high school. It was Goten handing her a present. Pan remembered that very well it was the only piece of jewelry that she would wear. It was a platinum dragon charm with an amber ball in its mouth. The ball was the black four star dragon ball on a gold chain. She still wore it all the time like she promised him. Pan pulled it out of her shirt and began to caress it with loving care. "I guess that I will have to give this to Gotenks now since he never had gotten anything from him. I hope you will understand Goten." Pan put the pendant back in her shirt and the picture back on the table.
Pan wondered around the apartment taking in every sight and smell trying to burn them into her memory. She knew eventually that the smell would change without him around. She didn't want to let it go. She continued her tour and found herself in the bedroom. "This is where it happened. This is where it all started. This place is the reason he is no longer here" Pan whispered to her self. Pan noticed something different in the corner next to the bed. It was a crib "He must have bought this for Gotenks" She walked over to it and noticed it was elaborately carved with dinosaurs one that looked like the picture on the desk out in the living room. It was purple with two horns and wings that looked to small for it to be able to fly. It was sitting next to what looked like a child. The crib looked hand carved. The mobile above it was seven orange balls with stars in them. The body of the mobile looked like Shenlong himself, but he did not look terrifying like the real thing. It looked like it was just gazing over the crib with love in its eyes. "This must have cost him a fortune" Pan said to her self as she sat on the bed.
Pan looked to the floor. She noticed some roles of paper under the crib. She picked them up and opened them. She gasped at what she saw. It was hand drawn plans for the crib, plus the notes where written in Goten's handwriting. Pan started crying harder "He made this. This was supposed to be a present for Gotenks. Goten's first present for his son." Pan dropped the plans and fell onto the bed crying like it was never going to stop. All she could think of was that her son would never know his father and this was not right no matter the circumstances. "I guess I should remember what Goten told me to do. I will tell him everyday Goten you don't have to worry about it. He will know." Pan felt something on her side. It was one of Goten's shirts, the one he wore earlier that day. She held it close to her as she continued to cry. "I have to be strong for Gotenks now I can't give up." She continued to cry until she fell into a deep slumber.
Pan dreamt of Gotenks, Goten and her self out in a field. They were laughing and having fun and there was no sign of it ending. She was smiling at Gotenks who had just caught a lizard and began to chase after it to play. Goten was next to her when he turned and looked her in the eye. He was down on a knee and pulled something out of his pocket...
~On the Look Out~
"What am I going to do? I didn't mean for any of this to happen. Goten was my friend and I let him die." Dende sighed to him self. Mr. PoPo walked into the room and noticed the predicament the god was in. He turned away to go to his garden, while talking to the man behind him "Dende, I know you will do the right thing" Mr. PoPo left to god to his thoughts.
"I have to go and talk with Pan hopefully she won't kill me. I will do it in a couple of days. That way she can have some time to come to terms with all of this. I don't want to make her even more upset." Dende went to his garden to think of the days events and to think of how to undo this. He was in there for quite some time when "I know!! Mr. PoPo I have to leave for a couple of days on business I need you to look over things while I'm gone." "Of coarse Dende-sama, will you be going?" the little black genie asked. Dende started to phase out of sight "It is a surprise hold down the fort, it is only for a few days and I will be back." Dende disappeared. "I hope you are right sir." Mr. PoPo returned to his work
~The Next Day~
Pan went to get Gotenks late in the afternoon. Her father arrived home just as she had the last of her things capsulated and packed in the car. She did not even look in his direction much less talk with him. Videl told him what had happened, and Goten was right. As soon as the whole thing was explained he understood crystal clear. This only hurt Gohan even more. Now he started to stray away from his family thinking they all hated him. He was back on the 'If only I had listened to him kick' that he went through the time his dad died at the Cell Games.
"I killed him. Because of my anger I killed my own brother, the man I helped raise myself. I thought that I could never do them any harm worse than when tousan died and then it happened. Pan won't even speak to me, Videl lost that spark in her eyes that was even brighter when I was near her and kasan won't stop crying. I have to find a way to fix this" Gohan said to himself while floating in front of a water fall. The same water fall that Piccolo used to meditate by. This place was always special to Gohan. It made him feel like his former sensei was there with him. He only wished Piccolo was there to give him advice, spar or just to talk to. Any thing to take his mind off the situation at hand. Then he figured if he could not have Piccolo he would settle on the next best thing, He blasted off towards the look out as fast as he could. Dende was his best friend ever since they were children. He arrived a short time later to find Mr. PoPo tending to his gardens.
"Hello Gohan, how are you holding up?" Mr. PoPo asked in that sweet voice that he always had. Gohan got straight to the point "I came to see Dende and see if he could offer any advice to my current situation. Is he here?" "No he left last night. He didn't tell me where though. He should be back in a few days though, if you want to stop by then." Mr. PoPo said. "Maybe I can be of some help. I am a lot older than Dende and I have been here since the place was created. Maybe you can benefit from what I have to say." Mr. PoPo said with care in his voice. He had seen Gohan grow up and from all the time he spent with Piccolo he knew he would be able to help. "I guess. I just needed help to think of some way to get Pan to talk to me again." Mr. PoPo nodded knowing all to well about the situation. "Well my friend why don't you just go to Pan and tell her what you have to say. She doesn't have to say anything back, just let her know how you feel about this mess. If she doesn't talk to you after that, then at least you won't feel bad about not apologizing to her. Even if she does forgive you it will take a while for her to come to you, but it will never be the same. So just play it be ear and give it your all and hope for the best." Mr. PoPo patted Gohan on the back. "Your right Mr. PoPo, I should just come out and say it. That way she knows. I will go and do that now." Gohan ran to the edge and jumped off. "THANKS AGAIN, YOU'RE THE BEST" Gohan yelled as he flew towards his daughter.
Mr. PoPo turned back to his gardening "I knew this job wasn't as hard as Dende makes it out to be." Just then he got a message from Dende. 'Mr. PoPo I won't be back for a while.' Dende sent. 'What do you mean are you OK? Where are you?' Mr. PoPo sent back. 'I'm fine, but something has come up and I won't be back for another two months. Just make sure everything is OK with earth and I will be back as soon as I can.' 'Dende you have to tell me where you are, what if something comes up and it needs your attention.' 'You don't have to worry; I am in a safe place right now. I think since I have to wait, I will take an extended vacation. Don't worry if you need me just call. And don't let the others know. I will keep you updated, see you later and take care.' Dende cut off the link before Mr. PoPo could ask more questions. "This is going to be a long two months...Where is the key to that liquor cabinet. I think I am going to need it" Mr. PoPo went off in search the only thing Dende had to make him forget the stress of being a god. "And to think they all thought he was an alcoholic."
~At Satan City Park a Week Later~
Pan was sitting on a bench feeding Gotenks while looking at the children on the swings a little ways off. She sighed to her self "I was going to bring Goten with me for this. This is Gotenks first time to a park, Goten was supposed to be here for this." Pan noticed that the baby had stopped eating. She looked at him and saw that he was asleep. "I guess your Obasan wore you out today" Pan cooed. "I think its time to get you home, and into bed." Pan got up and started walking down the path. "Can I walk you home?" a low voice came from behind her.
Pan froze on the spot. She didn't want to turn around because of who was behind her. "No I can manage well enough. It's only a block away." Pan said not moving and inch. "I wanted to tell you that I feel bad for what I have done. I know that it doesn't make up for what I did, but at the least just know that I am sorry. I hope you can forgive me one day." Gohan told her in a fearful voice. There was a moment of silence between them. Gohan just wanted her to say something, anything to stop this deafening quiet. "I will leave now. If you need anything you know where I am" Gohan turned away and started to walk. "Please, don't go." Gohan turned around to see Pan staring at him. "Tousan please don't go. I need someone now. I can't keep giving you the silent treatment, so let's talk." Gohan walked towards her "Are you sure? I can leave if you want me to. I know I'm not one of your favorite persons now." Pan just looked at the ground "I know, but we have to talk. We need to settle this. I don't know if I can forgive you, but I know we just need to put everything out there." "So does this mean I can walk you home?" Pan nodded, Gohan walked up to her. She turned to lead the way.
"Pan I know that I was wrong, but I wanted to let you know that I didn't want to kill Goten. I offered him a chance to leave, he did not take it. I thought that he took advantage of you and never thought about the whole situation. I was so angry; I should have listened to you at the pub. You know you were always my little baby. I just wanted to protect you, that was the only way I thought of." Gohan said while walking two steps behind Pan. "Tousan, I know if it weren't for Vegeta then I would have told you in time. I just needed to find a way. I know what happened then and afterward was wrong by normal standards, but it was not a normal circumstance. If the situation was normal then I would have never done it. If Goten would have tried anything, I would have made him think twice. You of all people should know that he was not like that. Yeah he tried to be a womanizer, but he had a heart of gold and would never hurt anyone if his life depended on it; especially family." "I know, I just couldn't see the situation for what it was. Then when you said it was your fault, I couldn't take it anymore. I thought you believed that because he made you think it. I just wish I could take back that night and listened to everything you said." Gohan bowed his head in shame as they rounded another corner. They were almost there. 'Not much time left' he thought to him self. "Pan listen I know that things will never be the same, but I want to try and make it up to you. I want to be your father again. I want to be there for you and Gotenks, even if it is for just an argument. Please just don't ignore me anymore." Gohan lifted his head to find they were in front of the apartment. Pan opened the door "Would you like to come in?" "Yeah" Gohan answered.
Once in side Pan handed Gotenks to his grand father. "Could you put him in his crib, while I get some tea?" Pan asked. "Gohan nodded and left for the bedroom. Once he entered he noticed the crib in the corner. He walked over and lay the baby down. Gohan sat down on the bed and was about to get up when he notice the intricate designs carved on the crib. They were beautiful, like they were done by a master artist. He looked more closely and came across the same picture that Pan noticed. It was same dinosaur and child at the head of the bed. He gasped recognizing the picture. Just then Pan walked in carrying two cups of tea. She noticed her father "Do you know what that is? I can't figure it out what it means." Gohan turned his head and nodded "The dinosaur is Icarus. A pet we had when we were growing up, he died shortly before I met your kasan. Icarus was the best. The boy is me. I don't know why this is on here though. I never told you about Icarus before." "I didn't have it put on there. Goten made this him self. I found the plans for it last week. I assumed it was supposed to be some kind of guardian symbol, because of where it is and how detailed it is." "Goten made this? I didn't even know that he carved wood, but I should have guessed that he would have gone to this length for his son. I did the something similar after he was born. I carved and painted a mobile for him. It looked like Shenlong, and it had the dragon balls hanging off of it. They glowed in the dark and you could see the stars inside them. After he was out of the crib and sleeping in my room he brought it with him and hung it over his bed. I don't know what he ever did with it after I got married. I figured he got rid of it." Gohan said. He noticed Pan walk over to the closet she opened it up and pulled out a box. "I kept hitting my head on it, so I took it down and put it in here so it wouldn't get damaged." Pan said handing the box to Gohan. Gohan opened it and gasped. It was the same dragon he made all of those years ago. "He kept it. I didn't think he would after I moved. He was so upset that I wouldn't be there with him anymore." Gohan's eyes started to glaze over. "I think we should put it back up where it was. There was a reason Goten put it up there in the first place." Pan took the mobile from her father. As she finished Gotenks started to stir. They both figured that they should take the conversation else where, so not to wake him. Gohan looked one last time towards the crib after the lights were turned off. The dragon balls were glowing brightly and that made him feel more comfortable, knowing that Gotenks would be protected by the same item that protected his brother as a child. He sighed and closed the door and followed his daughter to the living room, where they talked for several more hours.
As the weeks passed things were getting better for Gohan and Pan. Pan was warming up to him again. Videl was happy for her husband and daughter. Chi-Chi stopped crying. She spent a lot of time with Gotenks and Pan. Pan had started her job with Capsule Corp, and was having quite a time trying to balance work and family. Gohan helped out in anyway that he could, he paid a bill or two while Pan wasn't looking. Marron and Trunks were over often to spend time with Pan trying to get her out of the house. Pan was still lost in thought when it came to Goten, but she would just dismiss it as soon as possible. Dende still was not around and the stress of being acting Kami was getting to Mr. PoPo.
It was now 3 days before Gotenks first birthday and everyone was preparing for it. Gohan was working the hardest of all of them. He was making sure Gotenks had the best party a child could have. He owed Goten that much he told him self. Pan was getting a little depressed. She wanted Goten there for the party, but she knew that wasn't going to happen. This thought only made her even more depressed.
September 10th was soon there. The party was just starting. A huge pile of presents lay on the picnic table, most of which were from Gohan. Next to that was a cake that could give 10 people a run for their money, supplied by Chi-Chi. The guests soon arrived and the party began.
~Elsewhere~
"Arise Dragon!!" a voice screamed to the sky.
Sorry it took me a little while to write this. It was a little hard, because I had to dig into some memories that I don't like to relive. The whole mourning Pan scene was written from my own experience when my grand father died. I am sorry if it sucked, but as I said I don't like to relive those times of my life.
I have a trivia question. Who was it that wrote and originally performed the theme for Dragon Ball GT? (Hint: They also wrote the Ending theme as well)
The Prize: I will write you into my next story, and you will have complete control of your character in it. We will work closely together on it.
Ja-ne