Snow
-Squirrel Tamer


Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts.



Chapter 6: While you sleep.



Point of view: Squall/Leon.





I can't get her out of my head. Ever since I yelled at her I feel different. I wish she would just hit me and tell me I'm a jerk so that things can get back back to the way they were.

Somehow I'm not so sure that's possible anymore.

I know she hates me...or at least a part of me...but that's the problem. I don't know which part she hates.

And what if she hates Leon? Is it right that I'll turn back into Squall just because she wants me to? Leon is everything now. Squall is...disappearing.

Do I want Squall to go? I do and yet...Squall existed long before Leon. Does that mean that Squall has the right to exist more than Leon? But Leon is everything I want to be, he hasn't ever let anyone down. Squall has. Cloud and Kairi.

So doesn't that mean that Leon is in fact the better half? But Leon is...overprotective. Leon has refused to let me see Yuffie grow up. Leon has tried to convince me that nothing has changed.

Squall wants Yuffie to grow up. He doesn't want to rush her, but he'll feel better when he's sure she can fend for herself.

Leon wants her to be a child forever. He wants to be the hero forever. He wants the girls to notice he's strong. He wants them to adore him.

Squall wants only one person to love. He's just not sure he's found her yet.



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"Squall?! Wake up Squall! Wake up!"

I slowly begin to focus on the figure in front of me. Yuffie is cowering in front of me whimpering. I feel my arms above my head, raised in an attack stance. Its completely dark out, the only light coming from the lightning when it crashes down. The Hotel Room I share with Yuffie is a mess. Chairs are flung everywhere.

"What happened?" I ask bewildered.

Yuffie doesn't answer.

"What happened I said?!" Why won't she answer me?

"Squall?" She asks quietly.

I realize what she was staring at. In my hands is my Gunblade. Its raised above my head as though I was about to attack.

"What did I--" I can't say anything else.

"No," She whispers, "It wasn't you, it was Leon."

"But I'm..." I still can't finish my sentences. Instead I kneel down beside her and pull her into my arms. I can feel her whole body shaking.

I almost killed her. I almost killed Yuffie.

I slowly pull away from her and whisper:

"Sleep with Aerith tonight and lock the doors. I'll clean up in here. If this happens again I-" I swallow hard, "I want you to do whatever you can to wake me up and stop me."

She nods and pulls herself up. Some of her clothing is singed and she has a long gash on her leg. She turns to leave but pulls back for a minute.

"How do I wake you if you aren't asleep?"

Then she turns and walks away. I sit there for a while and eventually I pull my knees to my head and begin to weep.




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I stare at the water in the Waterway. Its quite deep in some places. Deep enough to drown myselves. Both of them. They'd finally shut up for good.

The weather is strange in Traverse Town. One week it snows, the next is extremely warm. I don't believe that there are actually any real seasons here. That's why the water's already thawed.

I stare at the water debating whether I'll do it or not. Finally I decide its for the best.

I look around for the deepest part of the water and head towards it. I look around to make sure no ones watching and then I dunk my head under.

Only to be yanked out by my hair.

"Squall Leonhart!" I hear Yuffie cry out. I begin struggling to get my head back under. Eventually all I manage to do is soak both me and Yuffie.

She comes up gasping for air and then dunks me. So I come up from underneath her and then I throw her into a deep area. She comes up glaring and then flings herself on top of me using all of her weight to submerge me.

Twenty minutes later we lay gasping on the floor of the Waterway.

"Thanks Yuffie."

"For what?" She asks.

"For reminding me of who I used to be."

She seems slightly upset with my answer.

"Squall, I did that to show you who you are."

"That's Leon."

"You're impossible!" She cries and then splashes me.

So I splash her back. So she leans forward and grabs my face and...

Kisses me right on the lips.

The kiss is making me become whole. I feel more real then I've felt in years, and yet...

I pull away from her and groan.

"Squall?"

"Leon..." I manage to choke out. My voice is different. Its still mine but its harder, harsher.

"Leave Squall alone!" She screams at me. I don't understand. I'm Squall.

"There is no more Squall..." I can't believe what I'm hearing. I didn't make myself talk. But if I didn't who did?

I look at Yuffie for help but when I look at her I'm overcome by this urge to kill her. She's holding onto my hands as tight as she can. I'll kill her. I know I will. I have to make her run, she has to be safe.

"Run...Yuffie..." I manage to say before my world goes black.




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A/N: Oh no, they finally kiss and now he's gone crazy...Guess you'll have to wait and see what happens.