I do not own the song "You Look So Fine", Garbage does. *sobs quietly*
Chapter One: You Look So Fine
You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over
Squall shuffled along the golden sands of Destiny Islands. He and a few others had returned to Destiny Islands with Sora. All the time he had known Sora, Sora had babbled on and on about the beauty and happiness that seemed to exude from the islands and water that surrounded it. But when they had returned the island was a shell of what it had been.
Debris was scattered along the shores where wooden structures had been built and larger gnarled pieces stuck out of the shallow water to arch up like ugly torn fingers at the sky. Sora had been infuriated.
Squall had been the only one to come back with Sora and felt the boy's pain. He in turn had helped the younger boy slowly restore the island. It looked almost as good as Sora had described it.
In all the time it took them to rebuild it and make it what it used to be the two had begun to become closer. Squall would notice Sora's curiosity about him and his young attempts at trying to become closer to the older male.
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over
After the first year of bringing the island back to its original beauty Sora made his first move.
Squall had just finished rebuilding the bridge between the main shore and the small circular outcropping of land when Sora had approached him with a bottle of water from the waterfall and a couple of sandwiches. Squall smiled and accepted the offering before settling on the shoreline.
It was a hot day and he had removed his shirt, his muscular frame flecked with sweat. His boots with the socks stuffed into them sat neglected beside his shirt next to the shack. He looked out over the waters while Sora, who had copied Squall's moves and sat in only his red bodysuit, settled beside him to observe Squall and his seeming interest in the water.
"Do you ever regret it all?" Squall asked suddenly.
Sora looked thoughtful as he pondered the man's words. "Yeah, sometimes I wish that none of it had happened... that the heartless had never existed, that the rivalry between Riku and hadn't been so desperate for Kairi's attention. That the darkness had never formed... But then if it hadn't, I'd never have met you."
I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know
Squall had mulled over the younger male's words for nearly a month while Sora continued to do little things for him, like bring him meals and drinks when he mentioned wanting one or the other. He would also always make sure Squall was set for the night with everything necessary when they would go to sleep under the night sky staring at the stars that sprinkled the deep velvety blue.
It was just such a night that they laid down under a palm, looking up and over the stars that Squall decided to broach the topic with Sora. They were each tucked into a sleeping bag with a blanket over that and just watching the water lap at the shoreline not even ten meters away while the stars twinkled in a sort of dance above their heads.
"Sora… I was curious about something…"
"Hm?" Sora asked quietly, sleep buzzing the back of his brain. He turned his head to face Squall who was a foot away.
"Sora, how do you feel about guys in general?" Squall sucked in a breath as he looked at the other boy. He watched his eyes to judge his true feelings when he spoke.
Sora blushed lightly at the question and smiled to himself. "I like them, I mean I am one after all."
"I know that… I mean like… Do you like them in a relationship sense?"
Sora thought about that. "Well I do like two in a relationship sense, but I know for sure I can never be with one of them because it's doubtful I ever see him again…"
Squall nodded. He thought he had sensed something to Sora's urgency to wanting to find Riku, but this confirmed it. Initially he had brushed it off as the brunette's desperation for his life long best friend's comfort, but it seemed that he had indeed felt something more for the white haired boy.
"…and the other… I don't know if he sees me the way I see him." Sora blushed softly.
"What's this other guy like?"
Sora smiled. "I think you know."
Squall nodded. "So if I said that this other is interested in what you're thinking…?"
Sora beamed and in a matter of moments had scampered free of his bedding to hug Squall tight. Squall smiled softly and held him gently, one hand on the small of Sora's back to keep him close, the other pressing Sora's head onto his shoulder to be like a cradle.
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
It was another month before the island was completely restored and the few survivors had returned. Squall and Sora were officially a couple, though they had never consummated it. Squall would occasionally attempt an advance but Sora would back away with a couple of excuses, leaving Squall to himself and his imagination and hand.
Slowly though, Sora would make small moves, letting Squall touch him and he touch Squall, though not going past heavy kissing and touching. It was during one such event that Sora pulled back and Squall's patience broke.
Sora was lying flat on their bed, his body being pressed into the mattress by Squall's weight. Both were naked and moaning deeply as their tongues clashed together in each other's mouths. Squall's hand stealthily slipped down the younger boy's belly and under his back, then under hips and to his entrance.
Upon feeling this Sora broke the kiss and pushed Squall away gently while backing up on the bed from him. Squall moved back up to him and began his same advances while Sora squeaked and tried to move away.
"Come on Sora… it's been over a month already… I want to show you how much I love you… just let me…"
Sora shook his head. "I'm just not ready. I can't do this… Please don't make me." Sora pleaded, guilt and fear washing over his features.
Squall sighed and nodded, moving off of the other boy and padding across the room to the bathroom.
Sora pulled his knees up to his chin and listened as Squall moaned gently and grunted occasionally. Almost 15 minutes later Squall reappeared, looking a little bit flushed and relieved. Sora looked up at him.
"I'm sorry Squall, I honestly am… I just… It doesn't seem right to do it yet… I mean when Riku and I-"
"Riku and you?" Squall asked, one eyebrow flying up in question.
Sora stammered. He hadn't meant to ever tell Squall this. "I… Well, it's… I…"
Squall went and sat in front of Sora. He took his lover's hands and looked him in the eye. "Sora, did you and Riku ever…?"
Sora looked away and nodded.
Squall opened his mouth wordlessly, then closed it, lost for words. He took a deep breath and then spoke what first came to mind. "So you weren't looking for just a friend when I met you?"
Sora shook his head.
"Were you two… still… whatever when we came back, essentially?"
Sora shook his head.
Squall paused for a long moment before asking "How long was it before you and Riku first…?"
"Only a week."
He heard Squall get up and dress, but didn't move to stop him when he heard Squall open the bedroom door and walk out, then the front door slamming. He finally fell over onto his pillow and sobbed hard, able to smell Squall in the bed sheets and pillow, his scent deep and musky.
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me
Squall didn't come home for a week. He kept low and some even thought he had left the island. But when he returned, Sora was all over him, begging forgiveness and making promises to him Squall brushed it all off and didn't speak to him for almost 3 days. When he did speak though, it was to make sure Sora understood where they stood.
"Sora, I love you. I have for a while now, but I can't just stick around if you're going to toy with me. I accept that you aren't a virgin. That doesn't even bother me in the slightest. What bothers me is you jerking me around for a month and acting like a damn virgin without a clue.
"You mean a lot to me and when you start doing all those little things you like to use to turn me on, I sometimes lose it and just want to take you. But I can't keep yo-yoing around after you. Either you want to be with and want me to touch you and make love to you, or you just want me as a shield from being alone since your first is locked up on another world. I'm not trying to be cruel, but damnit Sora pick."
Sora trembled slightly and fell into Squall's arms. "I want to be with you, completely."
Squall placed a hand on Sora's shoulder. "I don't want to make love tonight. But I want to later on this week. That way you have some time to say goodbye to Riku."
I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
Later that week as planned Squall set up a romantic dinner and set up the perfect setting for their first time. He did everything he had learned Sora loved and Sora melted to him. It was the first in a long line of passionate nights for them. Except that one Squall's side, it was love, and Sora's just passion.
Little did Sora know that the experiences would lead to the change of a life time of Squall's personality. Sora himself began having these dreams that Riku was on his way home. That Riku wanted to be with him and was going to be with him again.
Sora never mentioned the dreams to Squall, and that may have proved his advantage in the beginning.
Because when Riku would return, they would need all the advantages they could get against the group that would be at their heels.
(Drown in me one more time)
(Hide inside me tonight)
(Do what you want to do)
(Just pretend happy end)
(Let me know let it show)
(Ending with letting go)
(Ending with letting go)
(Ending with letting go)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)
Chapter One: You Look So Fine
You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over
Squall shuffled along the golden sands of Destiny Islands. He and a few others had returned to Destiny Islands with Sora. All the time he had known Sora, Sora had babbled on and on about the beauty and happiness that seemed to exude from the islands and water that surrounded it. But when they had returned the island was a shell of what it had been.
Debris was scattered along the shores where wooden structures had been built and larger gnarled pieces stuck out of the shallow water to arch up like ugly torn fingers at the sky. Sora had been infuriated.
Squall had been the only one to come back with Sora and felt the boy's pain. He in turn had helped the younger boy slowly restore the island. It looked almost as good as Sora had described it.
In all the time it took them to rebuild it and make it what it used to be the two had begun to become closer. Squall would notice Sora's curiosity about him and his young attempts at trying to become closer to the older male.
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over
After the first year of bringing the island back to its original beauty Sora made his first move.
Squall had just finished rebuilding the bridge between the main shore and the small circular outcropping of land when Sora had approached him with a bottle of water from the waterfall and a couple of sandwiches. Squall smiled and accepted the offering before settling on the shoreline.
It was a hot day and he had removed his shirt, his muscular frame flecked with sweat. His boots with the socks stuffed into them sat neglected beside his shirt next to the shack. He looked out over the waters while Sora, who had copied Squall's moves and sat in only his red bodysuit, settled beside him to observe Squall and his seeming interest in the water.
"Do you ever regret it all?" Squall asked suddenly.
Sora looked thoughtful as he pondered the man's words. "Yeah, sometimes I wish that none of it had happened... that the heartless had never existed, that the rivalry between Riku and hadn't been so desperate for Kairi's attention. That the darkness had never formed... But then if it hadn't, I'd never have met you."
I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know
Squall had mulled over the younger male's words for nearly a month while Sora continued to do little things for him, like bring him meals and drinks when he mentioned wanting one or the other. He would also always make sure Squall was set for the night with everything necessary when they would go to sleep under the night sky staring at the stars that sprinkled the deep velvety blue.
It was just such a night that they laid down under a palm, looking up and over the stars that Squall decided to broach the topic with Sora. They were each tucked into a sleeping bag with a blanket over that and just watching the water lap at the shoreline not even ten meters away while the stars twinkled in a sort of dance above their heads.
"Sora… I was curious about something…"
"Hm?" Sora asked quietly, sleep buzzing the back of his brain. He turned his head to face Squall who was a foot away.
"Sora, how do you feel about guys in general?" Squall sucked in a breath as he looked at the other boy. He watched his eyes to judge his true feelings when he spoke.
Sora blushed lightly at the question and smiled to himself. "I like them, I mean I am one after all."
"I know that… I mean like… Do you like them in a relationship sense?"
Sora thought about that. "Well I do like two in a relationship sense, but I know for sure I can never be with one of them because it's doubtful I ever see him again…"
Squall nodded. He thought he had sensed something to Sora's urgency to wanting to find Riku, but this confirmed it. Initially he had brushed it off as the brunette's desperation for his life long best friend's comfort, but it seemed that he had indeed felt something more for the white haired boy.
"…and the other… I don't know if he sees me the way I see him." Sora blushed softly.
"What's this other guy like?"
Sora smiled. "I think you know."
Squall nodded. "So if I said that this other is interested in what you're thinking…?"
Sora beamed and in a matter of moments had scampered free of his bedding to hug Squall tight. Squall smiled softly and held him gently, one hand on the small of Sora's back to keep him close, the other pressing Sora's head onto his shoulder to be like a cradle.
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
It was another month before the island was completely restored and the few survivors had returned. Squall and Sora were officially a couple, though they had never consummated it. Squall would occasionally attempt an advance but Sora would back away with a couple of excuses, leaving Squall to himself and his imagination and hand.
Slowly though, Sora would make small moves, letting Squall touch him and he touch Squall, though not going past heavy kissing and touching. It was during one such event that Sora pulled back and Squall's patience broke.
Sora was lying flat on their bed, his body being pressed into the mattress by Squall's weight. Both were naked and moaning deeply as their tongues clashed together in each other's mouths. Squall's hand stealthily slipped down the younger boy's belly and under his back, then under hips and to his entrance.
Upon feeling this Sora broke the kiss and pushed Squall away gently while backing up on the bed from him. Squall moved back up to him and began his same advances while Sora squeaked and tried to move away.
"Come on Sora… it's been over a month already… I want to show you how much I love you… just let me…"
Sora shook his head. "I'm just not ready. I can't do this… Please don't make me." Sora pleaded, guilt and fear washing over his features.
Squall sighed and nodded, moving off of the other boy and padding across the room to the bathroom.
Sora pulled his knees up to his chin and listened as Squall moaned gently and grunted occasionally. Almost 15 minutes later Squall reappeared, looking a little bit flushed and relieved. Sora looked up at him.
"I'm sorry Squall, I honestly am… I just… It doesn't seem right to do it yet… I mean when Riku and I-"
"Riku and you?" Squall asked, one eyebrow flying up in question.
Sora stammered. He hadn't meant to ever tell Squall this. "I… Well, it's… I…"
Squall went and sat in front of Sora. He took his lover's hands and looked him in the eye. "Sora, did you and Riku ever…?"
Sora looked away and nodded.
Squall opened his mouth wordlessly, then closed it, lost for words. He took a deep breath and then spoke what first came to mind. "So you weren't looking for just a friend when I met you?"
Sora shook his head.
"Were you two… still… whatever when we came back, essentially?"
Sora shook his head.
Squall paused for a long moment before asking "How long was it before you and Riku first…?"
"Only a week."
He heard Squall get up and dress, but didn't move to stop him when he heard Squall open the bedroom door and walk out, then the front door slamming. He finally fell over onto his pillow and sobbed hard, able to smell Squall in the bed sheets and pillow, his scent deep and musky.
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me
Squall didn't come home for a week. He kept low and some even thought he had left the island. But when he returned, Sora was all over him, begging forgiveness and making promises to him Squall brushed it all off and didn't speak to him for almost 3 days. When he did speak though, it was to make sure Sora understood where they stood.
"Sora, I love you. I have for a while now, but I can't just stick around if you're going to toy with me. I accept that you aren't a virgin. That doesn't even bother me in the slightest. What bothers me is you jerking me around for a month and acting like a damn virgin without a clue.
"You mean a lot to me and when you start doing all those little things you like to use to turn me on, I sometimes lose it and just want to take you. But I can't keep yo-yoing around after you. Either you want to be with and want me to touch you and make love to you, or you just want me as a shield from being alone since your first is locked up on another world. I'm not trying to be cruel, but damnit Sora pick."
Sora trembled slightly and fell into Squall's arms. "I want to be with you, completely."
Squall placed a hand on Sora's shoulder. "I don't want to make love tonight. But I want to later on this week. That way you have some time to say goodbye to Riku."
I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
Later that week as planned Squall set up a romantic dinner and set up the perfect setting for their first time. He did everything he had learned Sora loved and Sora melted to him. It was the first in a long line of passionate nights for them. Except that one Squall's side, it was love, and Sora's just passion.
Little did Sora know that the experiences would lead to the change of a life time of Squall's personality. Sora himself began having these dreams that Riku was on his way home. That Riku wanted to be with him and was going to be with him again.
Sora never mentioned the dreams to Squall, and that may have proved his advantage in the beginning.
Because when Riku would return, they would need all the advantages they could get against the group that would be at their heels.
(Drown in me one more time)
(Hide inside me tonight)
(Do what you want to do)
(Just pretend happy end)
(Let me know let it show)
(Ending with letting go)
(Ending with letting go)
(Ending with letting go)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)
(Let's pretend happy end)