Did you ever realize you shattered me as if I were a piece of glass that was dropped carelessly? You ate away at my beliefs like the most corrosive acid, and left them riddled with holes and smoking at the edges. You took my childhood dreams, the dreams I was raised to fill, and dismissed them with contempt, leaving them tarnished forever. You destroyed me, left me as nothing more than rubble, disintegrating everything that I was. How did you get in my defenses like that? How did you rip apart my life, and myself so easily, without once looking back?
Third Year, Gryffindor Common Room, late at night
"Admit it Remus!" snarled an angry third year with black hair and insolent good looks. "Admit you are a werewolf, we figured it out! Just tell us, we are supposed to be your friends!"
Remus Lupin hung his head in a silent admittance of guilt, unable to look Sirus Black in the eyes. The raw ferocity in his ex best friend's eyes was too much for him to bear. Remus made his way to the stairs to the dorms, hoping that out of respect for what they once had the Marauders would not tell anyone else. "Remus!" Sirus Black bellowed, coming close to waking up the others, despite the thick stone walls. "Remus get back down here, we are not done!"
Remus turned to face the guys that had once been his best, his only friends. His voice was low, but it was choked with emotion. Self loathing, anger, hurt, even a pleading note warred for dominance in his voice. "You think I don't understand? I know I am a monster! I know you want nothing more to do with me! I know you hate me now and I don't blame you at all, I hate myself. Please, just don't tell anyone. If I ever was your friend, just don't tell." Remus stared at the ground the entire time he spoke, unable to face the accusation in their eyes.
Sirus broke the silence. "I do hate you Remus" he said, his voice deadly soft. Remus nodded, not having expected another response. "I hate you because we are supposed to be friends, family, marauders, and you don't believe in us or respect us enough to even give us a chance. I hate you for not loving your FAMILY like we love you. You will give up on us this easily? You are not who I thought you were Remus. You are not a monster because you are a werewolf, we don't care about that, you are a monster because you hate yourself too much to trust US." James nodded and voiced his agreement. "We wanted to be there for you Remus, but now you are walking away from us. I thought we all meant something to each other."
Remus found the courage to look up, and saw his three best friends staring back at him. Sirus looked hurt and betrayed, but there was no hate in his eyes. James looked sad, but understanding. Peter was as always, unreadable, but with a certain acceptance as well.
End Flashback
Yes Sirus, you destroyed me that night, and I will never be more grateful for anything. The glass house of fear and hate I was living in shattered, the beliefs of my own evil smoked, and my world flipped on end. But then you gathered the shards that was left, and you glued them back together, and the glue is stronger than I ever was. I am breaking apart with your loss my friend, but the glue is holding strong. Every full moon, when I change, I avoid looking at that hateful moon, and watch Sirus, the dog star. I know you are looking back down at me, and I trust in you. Thank you my friend, for destroying me. Thank you for putting me back together. Thank you for loving me.