Disclaimer: I own Kenshin!! I own Kenshin!!! I own Kenshin!!! See, there he
is!!! (her friends walk up and whisper into her ears and give her a paper)
Huh, what's that? I DON'T OWN KENSHIN?! Geez, just go and squash my
dreams!!! Oh well, there you have it, I STILL DON'T OWN KENSHIN!!! But in
my little world I own his clone. clone #2..
Authors Notes: Yes, this is chapter 19. I suppose it's gonna be somewhat waffy and angsty and I hope you guys like it. Yay, it starts out really dumb at the beginning and I'm sorry about that. It's got a little of everyone. But I truthfully have no ideas. I just started writing it and decided it would be the next chapter once I reached 3 pages. So it's still not done as of this moment, but it started. I hope you like it, tell me and I WANT TO THANK KAGOME KIA FOR OFFERING TO MAKE ME SOME FANART FOR MY FIC!!! I'm so happy now. I'd make it on my own, but I can't draw worth crap. I draw like a 4th grader, it's horrible!!! Hehehe!!!! I've always wanted some fanart, now, if only I had a website I could post it up. I will see about that, I might actually find a way to make a sight. hehehe..
~Coming of the Dawn~
(and you were left off with.)
He silently prayed that Kaoru would be fine. This was the first time he had saved life instead of taken it. He didn't want to fail her.
He wouldn't fail her. Not this time, not ever.
***Chapter 19- Silent Confessions***
They danced across the midnight blue sky, spotting themselves as the brightest stars to grace the sky on that night. Flying with grace and fading slowly only to brighten once more, they entranced into the nightly dance, flowing from one end of the endless sky to the next, one by one. It was not a new thing, yet to any viewer it seemed to be mystifying and strangely beautiful, as if nothing in nature even compared the beauty of these small, often forgotten creatures. Each emitted their own happy glow, spreading their innocence down onto one onslaught viewer who took the time to watch their intricate yet comforting tango that unfolded amidst the background of blue.
But yet the comfort they emitted did nothing to help the lost soul that followed their movements from his perch on the roof. The moon's glow upon his distant face gave him the appearance of someone who had just left a battle that had lasted for days. When in truth that had been the case, it had only been a few hours of battle. But the scars he held within him and the stress evident with the worry lines that etched their way into his face told his story as tried to lose himself in the dance the fireflies were performing.
Yet they only brought forth more memories, and he recounted his worry and fear, and the sin he had committed that night. He pictured the woman that was now inside that very building he was sitting upon, and the state she had been in when he had found her. She didn't not look much different from then, yet it had only been a few days since he had avenged her pain and set yet another sin upon his already troubled heart. Yet, he did not feel any remorse for this sin. So many others had left him with inner scars for their deaths that seemed senseless. And until now, he figured any death was.
His eyes moistened, remembering the meaning of the fireflies. Every intimate he had with that woman had taken place with some form of a fire. Whether it is a blazing fire or gentle firefly, fire was always something that seemed to turn up when he got close to her. And now, as he remembered, his heart constricted. The pain she had gone through appeared to be too much, and he knew the only thing he could never forgive himself for that dealt with that battle was not being able to prevent her pain in the first place.
Silently, as he watched the fireflies move around him as a new part in their confusing waltz, he scolded himself for tearing up. There was no reason to, for she was still alive, and not in pain after being given many painkillers to numb the piercing pains that had overtaken her body. Yet he wished to cry.
"A hitokiri is not supposed to feel, yet alone shed tears for someone." He told himself allowed, as if answering a silent question the small creatures that were surrounding him had asked. "I cannot feel or hold any form of emotion. Weakness will not be tolerated, and that is the reason in which will lead to my separation form this earth."
It all made sense to the man, who knew where he stood as an assassin. And inwardly, he thought he could follow through with it. But the little voice inside his troubled mind had other ideas.
'So you're just going to drop her. Kaoru thinks you're her friend, Battousai. You can't just leave her there. You care about her. Even if you lose your status as the Battousai, isn't it worth it to see her happy? That's the entire reason you risked everything to save her, why when Shishio dropped that heart in your hand you felt all those emotions and let them show. This isn't going to help. You'll just be paranoid, and it's going to eat away at you. You can't do this. You don't want to,' the voice told him.
He shook his head. 'I can't do this anymore. I took a big chance letting myself even show any emotion besides anger towards her. Look what it brought. I'm sorry, but I can' t be Himura Kenshin if I'm only bringing pain to Kaoru. I'm going to be Battousai. That is who I am.'
'Or is that who you think you are?' the voice persisted.
Kenshin shook his head again, trying to get the annoying voice out of his head. That voice was the reason for all of this. The only problem was that it was always right. He shielded his violet eyes with violent amber, his tears not falling. He had made up his mind. It had been a compromise between himself and the voice in his head.
He wouldn't push Kaoru away. He'd still be her friend, but the new emotions he had started feeling for her- undeniably they were a love of a higher form- would stay hidden within the deepest reaches of his shielded heart. Kenshin knew revealing that would either bring her rejection, or a new slew of enemies wishing to get revenge on him for their losses or long time grudges.
One firefly flew around his skull, and with skillful speed he caught it in his hand, watching as it's light peaked through his fingers as it sat inside, awaiting it's chance to escape and rejoin it's dance with it many partners. In his silence and his focus on the small lights that flickered on and off within his hand, he wished. Silently and selflessly, he made his wish and let the small creature go.
Kenshin knew that as long as he lived, fireflies would remind him of Kaoru. The night would remind him of her grace and the fireflies of her innocence, and how easily she had drawn him into her world with her defiance and trusting nature. He would always remember her in this way. And now, as he placed a hand on his cross-shaped scar as one bug flew up to his cheek.
His hand ran over it, and he realized that now, that scar would not remind him of Tomoe. It would remind him of Kaoru and how she now shared the same scar for separate reasons, and the scar would remain with her as long as his would remain with him. That was another thing that connected them, bound them together.
Now he had to admit it. Whether he liked it or not, he and Kaoru were connected, and they would be for life. A part of each other's lives, weaved together by fate's hand and bound to one anther until the end. Too much had happened in the short period they had known one another for him to attempt completely pushing her out of his shattered life. For now, as she was his enemies main target, he had no choice but to protect her. And he would, with his life.
He would not fail her.
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Aoshi walked slowly down the cold, dark, distant streets of Kyoto. He had his shredded trench coat lazily drawn over his shoulder to cover his bandaged back since it had proven fruitless to place his blood drenched shirt on again. He walked slowly as he drew nearer and nearer to the Aoiya. Part of him fluttered with fear that Misao was still awake. He didn't exactly want to face her right now.
At least not in this condition, because he didn't want know how she'd react. But knowing Misao, she was probably still up waiting for him to come home. A small smile graced his lips as he thought of her sitting up waiting for him. She really did love him, and he knew it. He just kept pushing her away.
He didn't want her to know that he loved her just as much as she did him.
Aoshi found himself suddenly in front of the Aoiya, and he just stood there silently for a while, looking at the place as if it was new. Finally he stepped forward and entered slowly and quietly, hoping he didn't wake anyone up. He dropped his bloody trench coat to the floor and picked it up before continuing on his trek to his room. He entered slowly and quietly, gently shutting the shoji door that separated it from the rest of the Aoiya.
Upon turning around, a full-hearted smile that reached his eyes spread across him face. The site before him warmed his heart.
Never did he know someone could have such devotion for another, especially one that they didn't know loved them in return.
There was Misao, asleep on his futon, and wearing on of his sleeping yukatas as she silently curled up under his blankets.
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Sano lay in the dimly lit clinic room, staring at the ceiling that had suddenly become oddly interesting. 'Ha. that knot in the wood looks like a duck.' he thought, a goofy grin spreading across his face. 'Wonder if fox has ever paid attention to that before.'
He moved his head to the side and let his gaze set upon Megumi, who was tending religiously to Kaoru until someone would come and take her place. Megumi herself couldn't sleep until someone came to watch Kaoru's delicate state. Sanosuke felt sorry for the tired doctor who had been up for the past 3 days non-stop trying to tend to Kaoru's wounds along with his, Aoshi's, and Battousai's. She had only let Aoshi leave that night and Battousai refused to stay in the clinic.
When she wasn't slaving over Kaoru, she was watching Sano like a hawk. Not that he could complain, he liked having the fox worry over him, it was funny to him. He liked the attention she would grant him. But right now, he felt sorry for her. He knew she just wanted to sleep, but she rightfully couldn't until Kaoru at least showed some sign of getting better, or someone just as skilled in the medicine trade came to take over watch. For now she had to settle for either Hinoki or Tae, since Tsubame had been pushed into kitchen work.
Sano wanted to tell her that he'd gladly watch Kaoru for her, but he knew that attempt would prove fruitless since she didn't even want him move. So all he could really do was watch her. He had run out of things to talk about a long time ago, and neither dared to argue like they usually would since Megumi couldn't loose her attention on Kaoru. But Sano just wanted her to sleep.
Soon enough, Tsubame found her way into the room, and took Megumi's place. Megumi sat at the table in the corner, sorting through medicines. Sano shook his head. She needed to sleep.
"Megumi." He started.
Megumi lifted her tired eyes off of Kaoru.
"Get some sleep. No if's, and's, or but's." he told her.
Megumi nodded. She didn't want to argue with him. She plopped down onto a futon next to his, and after turning to face him; she immediately succumbed to the abyss that was sleep.
Sano grinned. It had worked. She had gone to sleep. Now he himself could sleep. Because secretly, he had been staying up just as long as she had, waiting to see if she'd go to sleep herself.
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Battousai stayed perched on top of the slopping roof, even as the sun started to rise. He had not slept that night. Sleep had not come easily to him at all since he had discovered Kaoru's bloody room. And yet, he still couldn't sleep even though he knew that she was in Megumi's care inside the same building as him. For some reason, none of that was assurance enough.
Finally he stood and jumped down off of the roof and onto a balcony. He entered his room through the window below that balcony, and plopped himself down on his futon. Thoughts swimming through his mind, he knew it was a losing battle to try and sleep now. He wouldn't sleep until Kaoru woke up. He knew that.
'Maybe you should go see her,' his little voice suggested.
He shook his head. No, he wouldn't do that. He had restrained himself from seeing her ever since they first got back. When they had first returned, his immediate reaction was to stay by her side until she got better. But after he had thought it out, he realized he was going soft and decided to distance himself.
At the moment, neither option seemed to outweigh the other.
'Go see her! Don't you think that maybe she IS awake and no one has said anything to you? Maybe she's waiting for you to talk to her! Come on, just do it! Even if she's not awake, at least you could whisper things to her that you'd never tell her if she was awake because, you, even as the Battousai, are SCARED to admit that you l.' the little voice persisted.
He didn't let the voice finish his sentence. He decided that the only way it was going to shut up was if he did what was asked of him. So slowly he stood up and walked out of the room he had enclosed himself in for the past 3 days and made his way down to the clinic room of the Inn.
He waited outside the door. Kenshin didn't hear any movements from inside, so he entered quietly. He saw Sano asleep, half on his own futon and half over towards the one that Megumi had passed out on. He looked over towards Kaoru's futon and saw that Tsubame had curled up on the futon next to Kaoru's and fallen asleep herself. He couldn't blame any of them, they were probably all tired, but part of him didn't like the fact that they had all fallen asleep without trying to keep their attention on Kaoru.
He moved in closer and kneeled down next to Kaoru, his red ponytail falling over his shoulder as he looked at her sleeping form. He supposed she was still unconscious, so he just looked at her, not exactly knowing what to do.
"You don't have to worry." He told her. "No one is ever going to come back and hurt you. I'm going to protect you."
Kenshin didn't really know why he was talking, but he just continued. That little voice urged him on, so he continued with his speech.
"From now on, I will protect you. Always." He promised her unresponsive form.
Battling within himself, he finally just leaned forward and gave her a kiss- directly on her lips. He pulled back after a moment, and looked down at her. She didn't seem to have noticed anything, so he continued with his safe assumption that she was out cold.
"I love you."
He got up and walked out of the room, heading for some food before he retired back to his room. He decided that now, he could sleep.
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When she was sure he was gone, Kaoru cracked open an eye and grinned, her fingers slowly tracing their way up to her lips.
"Two can play at that game, Battousai." She stated. "You pulled that one on me, and I just pulled it on you."
She grinned. She had gotten more than she had bargained for, but all the same, she felt better. At least now she was certain of his feelings. Kaoru had inwardly wondered if he was just a friend to her or not. Her feelings for him had been proven to her the night she was taken. she was madly in love with him, and she knew it.
But part of Kaoru winced. She knew how distant he could be- was he going to tell her again when he knew she was awake? Or would Kenshin back away from her like he had done before? She didn't want to dwell on it.
Kaoru was still weak, and soon she found herself falling asleep again.
Authors Notes: Sorry that is SO short. I couldn't think of anything else to write. I need to come up with an idea!!!! Grrrr. I'm working on it, but I don't know what's gonna happen because I'm still trying to think. All I know is that the story isn't over yet. Nope, not yet, and this chapter was extremely shorter than the other ones. But then again, that's nothing I can help. I tried!!!! Oh well, I'm gonna make the next chapter longer than this one. It may not be the longest chapter, but it'll be longer.
Well, here's your review responses:
Aino Saori: Some people seem to like the heart part. Personally, I love it. I have this sick and twisted thing in my head. The more violence in the story and the more fluff in it the more I love it. I'm LOVING working on this fic SOO much. You have no idea. And Kenshin and Kaoru will get their fair share of fluffiness, I'm working on Chapter 19 as I write this. AND THERE IS A GAINT BUG ON MY WALL. and I'm really just writing whatever comes to my head. I think that my non-thought out chapters just have more description to them to make them longer (lol. chapters like that are as follows: 8- Baths of Blood, 12- Firefly Wishes and Butterfly Kisses, Chapter 13- Simple Gifts Mean Most, and this one. There are a few others but I'm just too lazy to go find them right now. hehehehe. I'm glad you like the story!!!!
Black Twilight: I always respond to every reviewer I can, and I try to do a good job at it too!!! I don't think I've missed anyone yet. maybe I have. but I don't think I have!!! Aww. thanks for sticking up for me!! I haven't received any flames yet, but I know that somewhere out there someone has to disagree with me (he. it's impossible not to oppose me) so thanks for that!!! And nah, you ain't sick and twisted. Chapter 8 with Kaoru in the room with all the bodies was sick and twisted. Shishio's plan to kill Kaoru was twisted. Kenshin holding "Kaoru's" heart was sick and twisted. Yes, Aoshi's letting Enishi bleed to death was sick and twisted. But you have to think, those ideas all came from MY head, so I must be pretty sick and twisted myself, ne? LOL. I KNEW I SPELLED THAT WRONG!!! In one of the earlier chapters I said I thought I spelled it wrong but no one corrected me, so I just kept spelling it Futae-no-Kiwami!!! Thanks for alerting me to that, now I'm gonna go through all my chapters and fix my mistake and repost them, -k-? Your poor Sano, yes. I like Sano, but I like Kenshin just a LITTLE more. Sano's my friend. I like to pick on him. LOL!!!
Kenshinsgrl: AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH she's gonna kill me!! NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! If you kill me, I can't update, now can I? (sticks tongue out) so :p !!! But I'm gonna be sure to have my Kenshin clone protect me tonight just in case. he's gonna sleep at the end of my bed. and he's gonna make sure no one cames and kills me in the middle of the night!!! That is, once I get him back from evil Sireta who stole him from me!!! You get one too,ya know that? And I need the real Kenshin back (I gave him to you for the day a few chapters back) so I keep writing my story!!! And are you gonna send me somemore info on your story? If you do I can help you out!!!! I think Kaoru should freak and liked beat the crap out of Megumi like she's always wanted to do and then kick Kenshin's defenseless butt if you're still working on that story. I like Kaoru kicking people's butts, it's hilarious.
Joyce: Yeah, I never got any reviews from you!!! But that's okay, I'm glad you finally reviewed!!! ^_^. It's early and I'm tired so ignore me if I start to banter off on you. I'm glad you look forward to updates. I know I update more often than most people because I wait and wait for other authors to update and they just don't. The reason there is they have a life and I don't!!! Oh well. I'm glad you like the story. Yeah, I do have an imagination. hehehe. I told my mom yesterday that in her little world flowers dance around and shake their root things. She just looked at me like I was nuts. I do stuff like that all the time, it's so much fun!!!!! Thanks again!!!
Elisa Ang: Love ya too!!! ^_^ I'm loved!!! I don't know why but I've been all smiles today. AND OF COURSE YOUR ALWAYS RIGHT!! THE REVIEWER IS ALWAYS RIGHT!!! Kinda like the customer is. (yells at mom to hold on a minute). right. My mom wants me to take her shopping and I'm trying to buy myself some time to review to you guys before she draggs me off for the entire day. K and K all the way, that's right!! I'm so tired, I almost wrote write instead of right. hahahaha. well, gotta split, catch ya later!!!!
LittoGrrlStephie: ^_~!!!
Ame Kurayami: Yeah yeah, I know, there's a lot of blood. Do you think I should up the rating to R for extreme violence and a bit of language? I don't know. It's already at PG-13, so. OH MAN I LOVE COMMERICALS!!! Ya know the one for that livewire mountain dew stuff? With the dudes that are watching the bugs fly into the zapper and their all like 'they must be stupid' and then they turn around and see the pop and walk up to it and run into a window and say 'that was stupid'? I LOVE THAT COMMERICAL!!! LOL, I'm such a dork but the thing is I can see myself doing that. I've run around the basement screaming 'I GOT A LETTER!' and ran into the wall before (that would have been THIS summer, to be exact). I'm just stupid like that!!! Hehehehe ^_^, I need caffiene too, it's too early. (and my mom is still waiting for me. hahaha, she's gonna be waiting for a LONG time..)
Brittanie Love: (holds knife over Brittanie) HAHAHA!! YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CAN'T HIDE MY DEAR FRIEND!!! (drops knife on foot) OWWWW!!!!!!! (hops up and down and bumps into wall. Paramedics come and hook her to life support) EEEEP.EEEP.EEEP.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Okay, nuff of that!! LOL! Yes, you must update but I won't kill you. Just watch out for Sireta. (hehehe) she might do that. and I'm glad you liked the chapter!!!
HiEi FoR sALe: Cliffhangers aren't bad unless you fall of the edge, ne? Okay, stupid yet somewhat good quote from Crystal Renee!! You have to admit that there was SOME intelligence in that, considering I'm pretty stupid at times (trust me!!! I was at my friends house and we were looking up words in the dictonary and I goes (yes, I have horrible english) "Hey!! This book is wrong! It goes from R to S!! Where's Q?" and my friend looks at me and says "Good going genius, it's QRS not RQS." Okay, it was LIKE 2 IN THE MORNING and I had been drinking A LOT OF POP and I was hyper!!!). I write good cliffhangers? Aww, thank you!!! I think. ^_^ I'm glad you think I'm writing good!!! And I'm sure I'm evil. geez, I called my 10 year old sister a tramp today because I was mad at her and my mom blew up at me!! And then I wanted my 'It wasn't me it was my evil twin' shirt but my mom said no, that we were getting it for my brother. I WANTED THAT SHIRT IT'S NOT FAIR!!! Grrrrr... Oh, I could make the story a cliffhanger if you like. I could end it right now and leave you off here..hehehehe.
K+K fanatic: Humble servant, eh? Okay, go fetch me some CD's (three days grace, nickelback, godsmack. etc.) and some snacks and a pop and I'll write the next chapter while you bow down at my feet!! Hehehehe. naw. but I'm so happy you think I'm that good to be your all time favorite author!!!! YEAH THIS IS MY NUMBER ONE FAN PEOPLE AND IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT TELL ME AND WE CAN HAVE A WAR OVER IT!!! Hehehehe.. I'm gonna get you a shirt that says that. hehehe. BOW DOWN BEFORE MY BLESSED FEET!! Okay, I'm a little out of control now (that's what you get after I went shopping and I ate taco's and drank some Code Red Mountain Dew)
Azura Dea: Sad? Me sorry, but I love angsty/romancey/gorey/drama stuff. I love to write it, I don't know why. It's just fun!!!
Cutie Blossom: I would go to the counselor, but you know that my Sireta side isn't going to give up that fast. Yeah, it's the SAME guy!!! He just seems to pick out girls that seem weak (yeah, I admit it, I'm weak) and are single and he just follows us and touches us and does all this stuff that he shouldn't! He JUST MOVED HERE, I didn't even know him until the first day that school started! He really scares me. Yeah, Sano is scarier.hehehe. but I'd make him carry a sword so he was even scarier. And Kenshin could watch me at night while Sano follows me around all day!!!! Hehehe. works for me either way!! Best of both worlds, ne? I will go to the counselor if he tries any funny buisness with me. He told me once tha the doesn't hang with virgins because their no fun. and uh. iamavirgin. so I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S GOT IN THAT HEAD OF HIS!! That's mostly why I'm so scared around him because he makes these really bad advances. It's freaky.yeah, RK stories are fun. I am kinda a geek too. I was in choir until they got rid of it, and I'm kinda of a all A's and B+'s student. hehehehe. I got hook on RK because of a friend of mine. I used to watch Sailor Moon all the time. But I don't really watch much anime, I've been trying to but all the shows I wanna watch I don't know when their on. grr. and I have NO guy friends, because most of the guys at my school are jocks and they don't like me because I'm weird. I don't know, their dumb. hehehehe. but I really want a boyfriend. never had one before. all my friends have, though. I'm just not that attractive I guess!!! Oh well. I'll live. yes, SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!! I saw this shirt today that said 'spongebob groovy pants' which reminds me of another thing!! (geezz. I'm sorry.) My cousin rides my bus and then just out of the blue he yells at the top of his lungs: 'I'M WEARING SPONGEBOB BOXERS!!!' and I'm like 'oh my god.'. hehehe!!! I always look forward to your reviews because their fun to read and respond to because I just get to blab and you blab back. hehehehe. TIGHTIE WHITIES!! Okay, I'm gonna tell you another story (god, I should just E-MAIL you!!) But anywayz, today, I got these AWESOME new pants that were SO comfy I wanted to change into them. We got to our van and I got in and I changed into them while my mom drove out of the parking lot!!! Hehehe. thank Kami-sama for tinted windows, ne? hehehe. you probably didn't want to know that but I just said it anywayz. gomen!!! I can't help it, I just wanna blab!!! Don't let me scare you!!! ^_^
Lillie-chan5: If I complete it soon you'll be happy forever? What if I wanna make it a bunch longer, would you still be happy forever?! Hehehehe. ^_~
Rhapsody07: I do that all the time!! It's always a main character that dies but no one wants Battousai or Kaoru to die. hey, I never even put Battousai in a situation that he was near death like Kaoru was. hmmm... (evil grin) and no one ever said they didn't want him dead. okay, I'm NOT THAT MEAN!!! I wonder though. yeah, Kaoru is strong!! She always has been. Yeah, I always include my mom and we don't even really get along that well for real. geez. I don't know, she's just ALWAYS THERE IT'S INSANE!! Okay.. that was really dumb for me to say. geez. anywayz, you wanna know something funny? I almost got to get a shirt I need for this story, it says "It wasn't me.. it was my evil twin!" and she said I couldn't get it because she was going to buy it for my bro!! I was so mad at her because I FOUND IT FIRST AND I WANTED IT!!! But she says she'll make me a kimono someday even though she has no clue as to why I want one. hehehe. I'm such a dork. LET THE WEIRD PEOPLE PREVAIL!!! JUST IMAGINE HOW MUCH BETTER THE WORLD WOULD BE IF WE RULED IT!!!
Krystlsaliormoon: You would kick my stalkers ass for me? AWWW THANK YOU!! I made a new best friend!!! My friends at home goes "Oh, he's just a weird kid." They don't understand THAT HE'S SCARING THE HELL OUT OF ME!!! I sometimes wonder if they really care about me.
Crystal: Oh.. we're off to find the rurouni. the wonderful rurouni of. uh. what's the next word?
Angie: Uh, you were just making that up to the tune of 'The Wizard of Oz'.
Crystal: Oh yeah, I forgot!!! (blushes)
Kaoru: Where did HE GO!!!
Megumi: I'm sure Ken-san wouldn't have run away from me!!!! OHOHOHOH0!!!
Crystal: (glares) he would but he's too afraid to upset KAORU by running away to do it!!!
Megumi: (glares) NOT SO!!!
Angie: Stick with Sano, okay?
Kaoru: Yeah, lay off of Kenshin-anata.
Crystal: I'm gonna kick Sireta's BUTT when I find her. grrr. stupid alter ego. are you guys SURE you don't have alter egos, too?
Angie and Kaoru: (whistle innocently).
Sano: (rolls eyes) Only you can make up your own little friend and make her come to life. It's a blonde thing.
Sano mysteriously finds himself on the ground.
Crystal: Didn't Angie tell you NOT to dis the hair color?! Just because we've got blonde hair doesn't mean we're stupid!!1
Kaoru: You dyed yours red though!!!
Crystal: Well, it's faded back into blonde again.
Angie: Hey, why didn't you save any die for me? We could go undercover as KENSHIN, come ON CRYSTAL USE YOUR HEAD!!!
Crystal: (turns around and runs into a wall) Owwww.. Why didn't you guys tell me that was there?!
Megumi: You are such.
Crystal: (holds katana) Be quiet. Just because Sireta is evil doesn't mean I'm 100% nice!!!
Sano: Put the sword down or I'll futae-no-kiwami that sucker to pieces.
Angie: (pulls Crystal's sword down as she grumbles mean things to Sano) COME ON WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE.
Kaoru: LOOKING FOR KENSHIN!! REMEMBER?! We need to kick his stupid hentai butt and then we gotta drag him away from his clones before we all get confused!!!
Crystal: Angie. didn't we think that maybe he'd get confused too? I mean, there's like a bazillion of him. what if a clone gets Kaoru? He's gonna be one.
Angie: PISSED Battousai, ya, you're right. uh. oopps. so their's ONE flaw in our perfect plan to spread the love.
Kaoru: COME ON LETS JUST GO FIND HIM!!!
And they all go off to find the run away rurouni.
Hehehe!! That's so much fun to write!!! 50 MORE CHAPTERS?! Okay. I'll try!!! Seriously, I will, but I'm gonna run out of ideas. But then again, THAT'S WHERE YOU COME IN MY FRIEND!! Maybe I can bring in the Kenshin clones, ne? hehehehehe..
Ja ne!!
Disturbed-demon-gurl: I LOVED YOUR REVIEW!! Really, I didn't mind how went on and on, I liked it. Maybe I will let them take a trip to see HIKO!! Hehehehe. Kenshin's gotta learn that move SOMEDAY, ne? And your ideas don't suck. I'll go check out some of your writings ASAP, okay? I wish I watched more animes (at the moment it's only RK.hehehe. I used to watch Salior Moon but don't know when it's on anymore!!! IF IT'S ON ANYMORE!!) so I could read other fictions, too. Anywayz, I HAVE NEVER BEEN OUT OF MICHIGAN!! Yeah, I live in Michigan. geez. it sucks too because I hate the snow. but love to ice skate. I don't know I'm insane. hehehehehe. I went shopping and got new pants and I had to wear them so changed in the van on the way out of the store parking lot. LIKE YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT!! I know, I'm such a dork. hehehehe. don't let me scare you. YOU WOULD'VE STOPPED READING MY FIC?! Noooo!!! I'm trying to make you guys happy, I don't want to push you away!! Note to self: do not kill Kaoru ever. people will hate you. ^_^. YES DON'T ALTER EGOS SUCK?! I talk to myself too. no worries. sometimes even in the third person!!! I'm insane. sure you can write like me!! I really don't think I'm all that good because I can't even get a good grade on a paper I hand in to my teachers for english because I have such horrible grammer. I did write some stories for my aunt for her college class (hehehehe.) and they came back and her professor says "Wow!! That was attention grabbing!! Good word usage!" and I'm like 'YEAH!!! COLLEGE, HERE I COME!!'. That was a shock, but in my school I always get bad grades. grrr. oh well!!! You can write like I do fi you want to, all you gotta do is clear your mind and play some music (I'm a rocker right now. so yeah. but I LOVE all kinds of music. I'm not stuck to one thing, you'd be surprised. Everything from Journey, Celine Dion, Korn, Backstreet Boys (okay. not that much anymore but still, when I wanna dance that's what I listen to!!), but I'm mostly into rock now. Good Charlotte, Default, Nickelback, Three Days Grace, Smile Empty Soul. all those people and some others) and just write whatever your feeling. I like to vent my anger and other emotions into my stories. which is why I always write better when I'm at an extreme or, uh it's thattimeofmonth, so, YEAHHHHHH..
Daisymaisy2121: Thank you so very much!!!
Anime-Master 7: Well. nah. I guess you really can't blame Kenshin for being a hentai, now can I?
Kenshin: You can't? Can I have free range to be one?
Crystal: (glares) NOOOO!!! I'm not housing any hentai's IN MY ROOM. Especially ones with swords. I'm not being put in any uncomfortbale situtations.
Kenshin: (pouts) Please?
Crystal: NOOO!!! DO YOU WANT ME TO LOCK YOU UP IN A CAGE LIKE I DID TO SANO?! (points to cage suspended from ceiling)
Kenshin: (looks up) Uh. noo.
Heheehehe!! Glad you like the story and the funny converstations!!! I love writing them!!
Baka-Ryu: Yes, I am evil!! Glad you like my evil evil style!! (grins and shakes hands with Baka-Ryu). Just makes the reading all the more fun, now doesn't it? I love writing like this, I don't know why. But it's fun!!! Hey, you made a rhyme at the end of that!!! Kenshin's fine and Battousai's finer, but my heart is caught by the fighter-for-hire. Hehehe!!! Sure, why not, I'll make some Sano clones too!!! Just let me talk to my assossiate, -k-? YOU UPDATED SHATTERED AMBER?! Wha-whoo!! Hehehe. I'm gonna read it!!!! I will I will I will!! And I wrote this chapter before I got your review. does it do good enough on advances in all the realationships? Yeah, I'm sorry about the confusing endings, but it was getting hard to end things, ya know what I mean? Oh, and you can have the first Sano clone, -k-? Hehehehe...
Beriath: Was I nice enough to Kaoru? Huh? It's okay that you didn't write long reviews!! I read some of your fics. They're funny!!! I love funny stories. The birthday one was funny, and the one with Sigmund Frued or how- ever you spell it, was kinda weird but oh well, I just can't see Kenshin raping Kaoru if that was what he was doing. oh well, it was still good!!!!! I like them. I hope you liked this chapter.
Well, treats for you all!!
Kenshin: WHY DON'T WE EVER GET TREATS?! YOU'RE USING US IN YOUR STORY, THAT YOU ARE!!!
Crystal: (ponders this) Uh. because I'm fun enough to be around that you don't need treats and Sano would bet them all off if I gave you some?
Kenshin: Can't you give me a treat? (pouts)
Crystal: Do you really want one that bad?
Kenshin: (nods head)
Crystal: Okay, here you go!!! (hugs him)
Kenshin: I MEANT CANDY!!!! C-A-N-D-Y!!!!
Heehhehehehe...
Until the next chapter!!
Luv,
Crystal Renee
Authors Notes: Yes, this is chapter 19. I suppose it's gonna be somewhat waffy and angsty and I hope you guys like it. Yay, it starts out really dumb at the beginning and I'm sorry about that. It's got a little of everyone. But I truthfully have no ideas. I just started writing it and decided it would be the next chapter once I reached 3 pages. So it's still not done as of this moment, but it started. I hope you like it, tell me and I WANT TO THANK KAGOME KIA FOR OFFERING TO MAKE ME SOME FANART FOR MY FIC!!! I'm so happy now. I'd make it on my own, but I can't draw worth crap. I draw like a 4th grader, it's horrible!!! Hehehe!!!! I've always wanted some fanart, now, if only I had a website I could post it up. I will see about that, I might actually find a way to make a sight. hehehe..
~Coming of the Dawn~
(and you were left off with.)
He silently prayed that Kaoru would be fine. This was the first time he had saved life instead of taken it. He didn't want to fail her.
He wouldn't fail her. Not this time, not ever.
***Chapter 19- Silent Confessions***
They danced across the midnight blue sky, spotting themselves as the brightest stars to grace the sky on that night. Flying with grace and fading slowly only to brighten once more, they entranced into the nightly dance, flowing from one end of the endless sky to the next, one by one. It was not a new thing, yet to any viewer it seemed to be mystifying and strangely beautiful, as if nothing in nature even compared the beauty of these small, often forgotten creatures. Each emitted their own happy glow, spreading their innocence down onto one onslaught viewer who took the time to watch their intricate yet comforting tango that unfolded amidst the background of blue.
But yet the comfort they emitted did nothing to help the lost soul that followed their movements from his perch on the roof. The moon's glow upon his distant face gave him the appearance of someone who had just left a battle that had lasted for days. When in truth that had been the case, it had only been a few hours of battle. But the scars he held within him and the stress evident with the worry lines that etched their way into his face told his story as tried to lose himself in the dance the fireflies were performing.
Yet they only brought forth more memories, and he recounted his worry and fear, and the sin he had committed that night. He pictured the woman that was now inside that very building he was sitting upon, and the state she had been in when he had found her. She didn't not look much different from then, yet it had only been a few days since he had avenged her pain and set yet another sin upon his already troubled heart. Yet, he did not feel any remorse for this sin. So many others had left him with inner scars for their deaths that seemed senseless. And until now, he figured any death was.
His eyes moistened, remembering the meaning of the fireflies. Every intimate he had with that woman had taken place with some form of a fire. Whether it is a blazing fire or gentle firefly, fire was always something that seemed to turn up when he got close to her. And now, as he remembered, his heart constricted. The pain she had gone through appeared to be too much, and he knew the only thing he could never forgive himself for that dealt with that battle was not being able to prevent her pain in the first place.
Silently, as he watched the fireflies move around him as a new part in their confusing waltz, he scolded himself for tearing up. There was no reason to, for she was still alive, and not in pain after being given many painkillers to numb the piercing pains that had overtaken her body. Yet he wished to cry.
"A hitokiri is not supposed to feel, yet alone shed tears for someone." He told himself allowed, as if answering a silent question the small creatures that were surrounding him had asked. "I cannot feel or hold any form of emotion. Weakness will not be tolerated, and that is the reason in which will lead to my separation form this earth."
It all made sense to the man, who knew where he stood as an assassin. And inwardly, he thought he could follow through with it. But the little voice inside his troubled mind had other ideas.
'So you're just going to drop her. Kaoru thinks you're her friend, Battousai. You can't just leave her there. You care about her. Even if you lose your status as the Battousai, isn't it worth it to see her happy? That's the entire reason you risked everything to save her, why when Shishio dropped that heart in your hand you felt all those emotions and let them show. This isn't going to help. You'll just be paranoid, and it's going to eat away at you. You can't do this. You don't want to,' the voice told him.
He shook his head. 'I can't do this anymore. I took a big chance letting myself even show any emotion besides anger towards her. Look what it brought. I'm sorry, but I can' t be Himura Kenshin if I'm only bringing pain to Kaoru. I'm going to be Battousai. That is who I am.'
'Or is that who you think you are?' the voice persisted.
Kenshin shook his head again, trying to get the annoying voice out of his head. That voice was the reason for all of this. The only problem was that it was always right. He shielded his violet eyes with violent amber, his tears not falling. He had made up his mind. It had been a compromise between himself and the voice in his head.
He wouldn't push Kaoru away. He'd still be her friend, but the new emotions he had started feeling for her- undeniably they were a love of a higher form- would stay hidden within the deepest reaches of his shielded heart. Kenshin knew revealing that would either bring her rejection, or a new slew of enemies wishing to get revenge on him for their losses or long time grudges.
One firefly flew around his skull, and with skillful speed he caught it in his hand, watching as it's light peaked through his fingers as it sat inside, awaiting it's chance to escape and rejoin it's dance with it many partners. In his silence and his focus on the small lights that flickered on and off within his hand, he wished. Silently and selflessly, he made his wish and let the small creature go.
Kenshin knew that as long as he lived, fireflies would remind him of Kaoru. The night would remind him of her grace and the fireflies of her innocence, and how easily she had drawn him into her world with her defiance and trusting nature. He would always remember her in this way. And now, as he placed a hand on his cross-shaped scar as one bug flew up to his cheek.
His hand ran over it, and he realized that now, that scar would not remind him of Tomoe. It would remind him of Kaoru and how she now shared the same scar for separate reasons, and the scar would remain with her as long as his would remain with him. That was another thing that connected them, bound them together.
Now he had to admit it. Whether he liked it or not, he and Kaoru were connected, and they would be for life. A part of each other's lives, weaved together by fate's hand and bound to one anther until the end. Too much had happened in the short period they had known one another for him to attempt completely pushing her out of his shattered life. For now, as she was his enemies main target, he had no choice but to protect her. And he would, with his life.
He would not fail her.
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Aoshi walked slowly down the cold, dark, distant streets of Kyoto. He had his shredded trench coat lazily drawn over his shoulder to cover his bandaged back since it had proven fruitless to place his blood drenched shirt on again. He walked slowly as he drew nearer and nearer to the Aoiya. Part of him fluttered with fear that Misao was still awake. He didn't exactly want to face her right now.
At least not in this condition, because he didn't want know how she'd react. But knowing Misao, she was probably still up waiting for him to come home. A small smile graced his lips as he thought of her sitting up waiting for him. She really did love him, and he knew it. He just kept pushing her away.
He didn't want her to know that he loved her just as much as she did him.
Aoshi found himself suddenly in front of the Aoiya, and he just stood there silently for a while, looking at the place as if it was new. Finally he stepped forward and entered slowly and quietly, hoping he didn't wake anyone up. He dropped his bloody trench coat to the floor and picked it up before continuing on his trek to his room. He entered slowly and quietly, gently shutting the shoji door that separated it from the rest of the Aoiya.
Upon turning around, a full-hearted smile that reached his eyes spread across him face. The site before him warmed his heart.
Never did he know someone could have such devotion for another, especially one that they didn't know loved them in return.
There was Misao, asleep on his futon, and wearing on of his sleeping yukatas as she silently curled up under his blankets.
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Sano lay in the dimly lit clinic room, staring at the ceiling that had suddenly become oddly interesting. 'Ha. that knot in the wood looks like a duck.' he thought, a goofy grin spreading across his face. 'Wonder if fox has ever paid attention to that before.'
He moved his head to the side and let his gaze set upon Megumi, who was tending religiously to Kaoru until someone would come and take her place. Megumi herself couldn't sleep until someone came to watch Kaoru's delicate state. Sanosuke felt sorry for the tired doctor who had been up for the past 3 days non-stop trying to tend to Kaoru's wounds along with his, Aoshi's, and Battousai's. She had only let Aoshi leave that night and Battousai refused to stay in the clinic.
When she wasn't slaving over Kaoru, she was watching Sano like a hawk. Not that he could complain, he liked having the fox worry over him, it was funny to him. He liked the attention she would grant him. But right now, he felt sorry for her. He knew she just wanted to sleep, but she rightfully couldn't until Kaoru at least showed some sign of getting better, or someone just as skilled in the medicine trade came to take over watch. For now she had to settle for either Hinoki or Tae, since Tsubame had been pushed into kitchen work.
Sano wanted to tell her that he'd gladly watch Kaoru for her, but he knew that attempt would prove fruitless since she didn't even want him move. So all he could really do was watch her. He had run out of things to talk about a long time ago, and neither dared to argue like they usually would since Megumi couldn't loose her attention on Kaoru. But Sano just wanted her to sleep.
Soon enough, Tsubame found her way into the room, and took Megumi's place. Megumi sat at the table in the corner, sorting through medicines. Sano shook his head. She needed to sleep.
"Megumi." He started.
Megumi lifted her tired eyes off of Kaoru.
"Get some sleep. No if's, and's, or but's." he told her.
Megumi nodded. She didn't want to argue with him. She plopped down onto a futon next to his, and after turning to face him; she immediately succumbed to the abyss that was sleep.
Sano grinned. It had worked. She had gone to sleep. Now he himself could sleep. Because secretly, he had been staying up just as long as she had, waiting to see if she'd go to sleep herself.
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Battousai stayed perched on top of the slopping roof, even as the sun started to rise. He had not slept that night. Sleep had not come easily to him at all since he had discovered Kaoru's bloody room. And yet, he still couldn't sleep even though he knew that she was in Megumi's care inside the same building as him. For some reason, none of that was assurance enough.
Finally he stood and jumped down off of the roof and onto a balcony. He entered his room through the window below that balcony, and plopped himself down on his futon. Thoughts swimming through his mind, he knew it was a losing battle to try and sleep now. He wouldn't sleep until Kaoru woke up. He knew that.
'Maybe you should go see her,' his little voice suggested.
He shook his head. No, he wouldn't do that. He had restrained himself from seeing her ever since they first got back. When they had first returned, his immediate reaction was to stay by her side until she got better. But after he had thought it out, he realized he was going soft and decided to distance himself.
At the moment, neither option seemed to outweigh the other.
'Go see her! Don't you think that maybe she IS awake and no one has said anything to you? Maybe she's waiting for you to talk to her! Come on, just do it! Even if she's not awake, at least you could whisper things to her that you'd never tell her if she was awake because, you, even as the Battousai, are SCARED to admit that you l.' the little voice persisted.
He didn't let the voice finish his sentence. He decided that the only way it was going to shut up was if he did what was asked of him. So slowly he stood up and walked out of the room he had enclosed himself in for the past 3 days and made his way down to the clinic room of the Inn.
He waited outside the door. Kenshin didn't hear any movements from inside, so he entered quietly. He saw Sano asleep, half on his own futon and half over towards the one that Megumi had passed out on. He looked over towards Kaoru's futon and saw that Tsubame had curled up on the futon next to Kaoru's and fallen asleep herself. He couldn't blame any of them, they were probably all tired, but part of him didn't like the fact that they had all fallen asleep without trying to keep their attention on Kaoru.
He moved in closer and kneeled down next to Kaoru, his red ponytail falling over his shoulder as he looked at her sleeping form. He supposed she was still unconscious, so he just looked at her, not exactly knowing what to do.
"You don't have to worry." He told her. "No one is ever going to come back and hurt you. I'm going to protect you."
Kenshin didn't really know why he was talking, but he just continued. That little voice urged him on, so he continued with his speech.
"From now on, I will protect you. Always." He promised her unresponsive form.
Battling within himself, he finally just leaned forward and gave her a kiss- directly on her lips. He pulled back after a moment, and looked down at her. She didn't seem to have noticed anything, so he continued with his safe assumption that she was out cold.
"I love you."
He got up and walked out of the room, heading for some food before he retired back to his room. He decided that now, he could sleep.
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When she was sure he was gone, Kaoru cracked open an eye and grinned, her fingers slowly tracing their way up to her lips.
"Two can play at that game, Battousai." She stated. "You pulled that one on me, and I just pulled it on you."
She grinned. She had gotten more than she had bargained for, but all the same, she felt better. At least now she was certain of his feelings. Kaoru had inwardly wondered if he was just a friend to her or not. Her feelings for him had been proven to her the night she was taken. she was madly in love with him, and she knew it.
But part of Kaoru winced. She knew how distant he could be- was he going to tell her again when he knew she was awake? Or would Kenshin back away from her like he had done before? She didn't want to dwell on it.
Kaoru was still weak, and soon she found herself falling asleep again.
Authors Notes: Sorry that is SO short. I couldn't think of anything else to write. I need to come up with an idea!!!! Grrrr. I'm working on it, but I don't know what's gonna happen because I'm still trying to think. All I know is that the story isn't over yet. Nope, not yet, and this chapter was extremely shorter than the other ones. But then again, that's nothing I can help. I tried!!!! Oh well, I'm gonna make the next chapter longer than this one. It may not be the longest chapter, but it'll be longer.
Well, here's your review responses:
Aino Saori: Some people seem to like the heart part. Personally, I love it. I have this sick and twisted thing in my head. The more violence in the story and the more fluff in it the more I love it. I'm LOVING working on this fic SOO much. You have no idea. And Kenshin and Kaoru will get their fair share of fluffiness, I'm working on Chapter 19 as I write this. AND THERE IS A GAINT BUG ON MY WALL. and I'm really just writing whatever comes to my head. I think that my non-thought out chapters just have more description to them to make them longer (lol. chapters like that are as follows: 8- Baths of Blood, 12- Firefly Wishes and Butterfly Kisses, Chapter 13- Simple Gifts Mean Most, and this one. There are a few others but I'm just too lazy to go find them right now. hehehehe. I'm glad you like the story!!!!
Black Twilight: I always respond to every reviewer I can, and I try to do a good job at it too!!! I don't think I've missed anyone yet. maybe I have. but I don't think I have!!! Aww. thanks for sticking up for me!! I haven't received any flames yet, but I know that somewhere out there someone has to disagree with me (he. it's impossible not to oppose me) so thanks for that!!! And nah, you ain't sick and twisted. Chapter 8 with Kaoru in the room with all the bodies was sick and twisted. Shishio's plan to kill Kaoru was twisted. Kenshin holding "Kaoru's" heart was sick and twisted. Yes, Aoshi's letting Enishi bleed to death was sick and twisted. But you have to think, those ideas all came from MY head, so I must be pretty sick and twisted myself, ne? LOL. I KNEW I SPELLED THAT WRONG!!! In one of the earlier chapters I said I thought I spelled it wrong but no one corrected me, so I just kept spelling it Futae-no-Kiwami!!! Thanks for alerting me to that, now I'm gonna go through all my chapters and fix my mistake and repost them, -k-? Your poor Sano, yes. I like Sano, but I like Kenshin just a LITTLE more. Sano's my friend. I like to pick on him. LOL!!!
Kenshinsgrl: AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH she's gonna kill me!! NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! If you kill me, I can't update, now can I? (sticks tongue out) so :p !!! But I'm gonna be sure to have my Kenshin clone protect me tonight just in case. he's gonna sleep at the end of my bed. and he's gonna make sure no one cames and kills me in the middle of the night!!! That is, once I get him back from evil Sireta who stole him from me!!! You get one too,ya know that? And I need the real Kenshin back (I gave him to you for the day a few chapters back) so I keep writing my story!!! And are you gonna send me somemore info on your story? If you do I can help you out!!!! I think Kaoru should freak and liked beat the crap out of Megumi like she's always wanted to do and then kick Kenshin's defenseless butt if you're still working on that story. I like Kaoru kicking people's butts, it's hilarious.
Joyce: Yeah, I never got any reviews from you!!! But that's okay, I'm glad you finally reviewed!!! ^_^. It's early and I'm tired so ignore me if I start to banter off on you. I'm glad you look forward to updates. I know I update more often than most people because I wait and wait for other authors to update and they just don't. The reason there is they have a life and I don't!!! Oh well. I'm glad you like the story. Yeah, I do have an imagination. hehehe. I told my mom yesterday that in her little world flowers dance around and shake their root things. She just looked at me like I was nuts. I do stuff like that all the time, it's so much fun!!!!! Thanks again!!!
Elisa Ang: Love ya too!!! ^_^ I'm loved!!! I don't know why but I've been all smiles today. AND OF COURSE YOUR ALWAYS RIGHT!! THE REVIEWER IS ALWAYS RIGHT!!! Kinda like the customer is. (yells at mom to hold on a minute). right. My mom wants me to take her shopping and I'm trying to buy myself some time to review to you guys before she draggs me off for the entire day. K and K all the way, that's right!! I'm so tired, I almost wrote write instead of right. hahahaha. well, gotta split, catch ya later!!!!
LittoGrrlStephie: ^_~!!!
Ame Kurayami: Yeah yeah, I know, there's a lot of blood. Do you think I should up the rating to R for extreme violence and a bit of language? I don't know. It's already at PG-13, so. OH MAN I LOVE COMMERICALS!!! Ya know the one for that livewire mountain dew stuff? With the dudes that are watching the bugs fly into the zapper and their all like 'they must be stupid' and then they turn around and see the pop and walk up to it and run into a window and say 'that was stupid'? I LOVE THAT COMMERICAL!!! LOL, I'm such a dork but the thing is I can see myself doing that. I've run around the basement screaming 'I GOT A LETTER!' and ran into the wall before (that would have been THIS summer, to be exact). I'm just stupid like that!!! Hehehehe ^_^, I need caffiene too, it's too early. (and my mom is still waiting for me. hahaha, she's gonna be waiting for a LONG time..)
Brittanie Love: (holds knife over Brittanie) HAHAHA!! YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CAN'T HIDE MY DEAR FRIEND!!! (drops knife on foot) OWWWW!!!!!!! (hops up and down and bumps into wall. Paramedics come and hook her to life support) EEEEP.EEEP.EEEP.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Okay, nuff of that!! LOL! Yes, you must update but I won't kill you. Just watch out for Sireta. (hehehe) she might do that. and I'm glad you liked the chapter!!!
HiEi FoR sALe: Cliffhangers aren't bad unless you fall of the edge, ne? Okay, stupid yet somewhat good quote from Crystal Renee!! You have to admit that there was SOME intelligence in that, considering I'm pretty stupid at times (trust me!!! I was at my friends house and we were looking up words in the dictonary and I goes (yes, I have horrible english) "Hey!! This book is wrong! It goes from R to S!! Where's Q?" and my friend looks at me and says "Good going genius, it's QRS not RQS." Okay, it was LIKE 2 IN THE MORNING and I had been drinking A LOT OF POP and I was hyper!!!). I write good cliffhangers? Aww, thank you!!! I think. ^_^ I'm glad you think I'm writing good!!! And I'm sure I'm evil. geez, I called my 10 year old sister a tramp today because I was mad at her and my mom blew up at me!! And then I wanted my 'It wasn't me it was my evil twin' shirt but my mom said no, that we were getting it for my brother. I WANTED THAT SHIRT IT'S NOT FAIR!!! Grrrrr... Oh, I could make the story a cliffhanger if you like. I could end it right now and leave you off here..hehehehe.
K+K fanatic: Humble servant, eh? Okay, go fetch me some CD's (three days grace, nickelback, godsmack. etc.) and some snacks and a pop and I'll write the next chapter while you bow down at my feet!! Hehehehe. naw. but I'm so happy you think I'm that good to be your all time favorite author!!!! YEAH THIS IS MY NUMBER ONE FAN PEOPLE AND IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT TELL ME AND WE CAN HAVE A WAR OVER IT!!! Hehehehe.. I'm gonna get you a shirt that says that. hehehe. BOW DOWN BEFORE MY BLESSED FEET!! Okay, I'm a little out of control now (that's what you get after I went shopping and I ate taco's and drank some Code Red Mountain Dew)
Azura Dea: Sad? Me sorry, but I love angsty/romancey/gorey/drama stuff. I love to write it, I don't know why. It's just fun!!!
Cutie Blossom: I would go to the counselor, but you know that my Sireta side isn't going to give up that fast. Yeah, it's the SAME guy!!! He just seems to pick out girls that seem weak (yeah, I admit it, I'm weak) and are single and he just follows us and touches us and does all this stuff that he shouldn't! He JUST MOVED HERE, I didn't even know him until the first day that school started! He really scares me. Yeah, Sano is scarier.hehehe. but I'd make him carry a sword so he was even scarier. And Kenshin could watch me at night while Sano follows me around all day!!!! Hehehe. works for me either way!! Best of both worlds, ne? I will go to the counselor if he tries any funny buisness with me. He told me once tha the doesn't hang with virgins because their no fun. and uh. iamavirgin. so I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S GOT IN THAT HEAD OF HIS!! That's mostly why I'm so scared around him because he makes these really bad advances. It's freaky.yeah, RK stories are fun. I am kinda a geek too. I was in choir until they got rid of it, and I'm kinda of a all A's and B+'s student. hehehehe. I got hook on RK because of a friend of mine. I used to watch Sailor Moon all the time. But I don't really watch much anime, I've been trying to but all the shows I wanna watch I don't know when their on. grr. and I have NO guy friends, because most of the guys at my school are jocks and they don't like me because I'm weird. I don't know, their dumb. hehehehe. but I really want a boyfriend. never had one before. all my friends have, though. I'm just not that attractive I guess!!! Oh well. I'll live. yes, SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!! I saw this shirt today that said 'spongebob groovy pants' which reminds me of another thing!! (geezz. I'm sorry.) My cousin rides my bus and then just out of the blue he yells at the top of his lungs: 'I'M WEARING SPONGEBOB BOXERS!!!' and I'm like 'oh my god.'. hehehe!!! I always look forward to your reviews because their fun to read and respond to because I just get to blab and you blab back. hehehehe. TIGHTIE WHITIES!! Okay, I'm gonna tell you another story (god, I should just E-MAIL you!!) But anywayz, today, I got these AWESOME new pants that were SO comfy I wanted to change into them. We got to our van and I got in and I changed into them while my mom drove out of the parking lot!!! Hehehe. thank Kami-sama for tinted windows, ne? hehehe. you probably didn't want to know that but I just said it anywayz. gomen!!! I can't help it, I just wanna blab!!! Don't let me scare you!!! ^_^
Lillie-chan5: If I complete it soon you'll be happy forever? What if I wanna make it a bunch longer, would you still be happy forever?! Hehehehe. ^_~
Rhapsody07: I do that all the time!! It's always a main character that dies but no one wants Battousai or Kaoru to die. hey, I never even put Battousai in a situation that he was near death like Kaoru was. hmmm... (evil grin) and no one ever said they didn't want him dead. okay, I'm NOT THAT MEAN!!! I wonder though. yeah, Kaoru is strong!! She always has been. Yeah, I always include my mom and we don't even really get along that well for real. geez. I don't know, she's just ALWAYS THERE IT'S INSANE!! Okay.. that was really dumb for me to say. geez. anywayz, you wanna know something funny? I almost got to get a shirt I need for this story, it says "It wasn't me.. it was my evil twin!" and she said I couldn't get it because she was going to buy it for my bro!! I was so mad at her because I FOUND IT FIRST AND I WANTED IT!!! But she says she'll make me a kimono someday even though she has no clue as to why I want one. hehehe. I'm such a dork. LET THE WEIRD PEOPLE PREVAIL!!! JUST IMAGINE HOW MUCH BETTER THE WORLD WOULD BE IF WE RULED IT!!!
Krystlsaliormoon: You would kick my stalkers ass for me? AWWW THANK YOU!! I made a new best friend!!! My friends at home goes "Oh, he's just a weird kid." They don't understand THAT HE'S SCARING THE HELL OUT OF ME!!! I sometimes wonder if they really care about me.
Crystal: Oh.. we're off to find the rurouni. the wonderful rurouni of. uh. what's the next word?
Angie: Uh, you were just making that up to the tune of 'The Wizard of Oz'.
Crystal: Oh yeah, I forgot!!! (blushes)
Kaoru: Where did HE GO!!!
Megumi: I'm sure Ken-san wouldn't have run away from me!!!! OHOHOHOH0!!!
Crystal: (glares) he would but he's too afraid to upset KAORU by running away to do it!!!
Megumi: (glares) NOT SO!!!
Angie: Stick with Sano, okay?
Kaoru: Yeah, lay off of Kenshin-anata.
Crystal: I'm gonna kick Sireta's BUTT when I find her. grrr. stupid alter ego. are you guys SURE you don't have alter egos, too?
Angie and Kaoru: (whistle innocently).
Sano: (rolls eyes) Only you can make up your own little friend and make her come to life. It's a blonde thing.
Sano mysteriously finds himself on the ground.
Crystal: Didn't Angie tell you NOT to dis the hair color?! Just because we've got blonde hair doesn't mean we're stupid!!1
Kaoru: You dyed yours red though!!!
Crystal: Well, it's faded back into blonde again.
Angie: Hey, why didn't you save any die for me? We could go undercover as KENSHIN, come ON CRYSTAL USE YOUR HEAD!!!
Crystal: (turns around and runs into a wall) Owwww.. Why didn't you guys tell me that was there?!
Megumi: You are such.
Crystal: (holds katana) Be quiet. Just because Sireta is evil doesn't mean I'm 100% nice!!!
Sano: Put the sword down or I'll futae-no-kiwami that sucker to pieces.
Angie: (pulls Crystal's sword down as she grumbles mean things to Sano) COME ON WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE.
Kaoru: LOOKING FOR KENSHIN!! REMEMBER?! We need to kick his stupid hentai butt and then we gotta drag him away from his clones before we all get confused!!!
Crystal: Angie. didn't we think that maybe he'd get confused too? I mean, there's like a bazillion of him. what if a clone gets Kaoru? He's gonna be one.
Angie: PISSED Battousai, ya, you're right. uh. oopps. so their's ONE flaw in our perfect plan to spread the love.
Kaoru: COME ON LETS JUST GO FIND HIM!!!
And they all go off to find the run away rurouni.
Hehehe!! That's so much fun to write!!! 50 MORE CHAPTERS?! Okay. I'll try!!! Seriously, I will, but I'm gonna run out of ideas. But then again, THAT'S WHERE YOU COME IN MY FRIEND!! Maybe I can bring in the Kenshin clones, ne? hehehehehe..
Ja ne!!
Disturbed-demon-gurl: I LOVED YOUR REVIEW!! Really, I didn't mind how went on and on, I liked it. Maybe I will let them take a trip to see HIKO!! Hehehehe. Kenshin's gotta learn that move SOMEDAY, ne? And your ideas don't suck. I'll go check out some of your writings ASAP, okay? I wish I watched more animes (at the moment it's only RK.hehehe. I used to watch Salior Moon but don't know when it's on anymore!!! IF IT'S ON ANYMORE!!) so I could read other fictions, too. Anywayz, I HAVE NEVER BEEN OUT OF MICHIGAN!! Yeah, I live in Michigan. geez. it sucks too because I hate the snow. but love to ice skate. I don't know I'm insane. hehehehehe. I went shopping and got new pants and I had to wear them so changed in the van on the way out of the store parking lot. LIKE YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT!! I know, I'm such a dork. hehehehe. don't let me scare you. YOU WOULD'VE STOPPED READING MY FIC?! Noooo!!! I'm trying to make you guys happy, I don't want to push you away!! Note to self: do not kill Kaoru ever. people will hate you. ^_^. YES DON'T ALTER EGOS SUCK?! I talk to myself too. no worries. sometimes even in the third person!!! I'm insane. sure you can write like me!! I really don't think I'm all that good because I can't even get a good grade on a paper I hand in to my teachers for english because I have such horrible grammer. I did write some stories for my aunt for her college class (hehehehe.) and they came back and her professor says "Wow!! That was attention grabbing!! Good word usage!" and I'm like 'YEAH!!! COLLEGE, HERE I COME!!'. That was a shock, but in my school I always get bad grades. grrr. oh well!!! You can write like I do fi you want to, all you gotta do is clear your mind and play some music (I'm a rocker right now. so yeah. but I LOVE all kinds of music. I'm not stuck to one thing, you'd be surprised. Everything from Journey, Celine Dion, Korn, Backstreet Boys (okay. not that much anymore but still, when I wanna dance that's what I listen to!!), but I'm mostly into rock now. Good Charlotte, Default, Nickelback, Three Days Grace, Smile Empty Soul. all those people and some others) and just write whatever your feeling. I like to vent my anger and other emotions into my stories. which is why I always write better when I'm at an extreme or, uh it's thattimeofmonth, so, YEAHHHHHH..
Daisymaisy2121: Thank you so very much!!!
Anime-Master 7: Well. nah. I guess you really can't blame Kenshin for being a hentai, now can I?
Kenshin: You can't? Can I have free range to be one?
Crystal: (glares) NOOOO!!! I'm not housing any hentai's IN MY ROOM. Especially ones with swords. I'm not being put in any uncomfortbale situtations.
Kenshin: (pouts) Please?
Crystal: NOOO!!! DO YOU WANT ME TO LOCK YOU UP IN A CAGE LIKE I DID TO SANO?! (points to cage suspended from ceiling)
Kenshin: (looks up) Uh. noo.
Heheehehe!! Glad you like the story and the funny converstations!!! I love writing them!!
Baka-Ryu: Yes, I am evil!! Glad you like my evil evil style!! (grins and shakes hands with Baka-Ryu). Just makes the reading all the more fun, now doesn't it? I love writing like this, I don't know why. But it's fun!!! Hey, you made a rhyme at the end of that!!! Kenshin's fine and Battousai's finer, but my heart is caught by the fighter-for-hire. Hehehe!!! Sure, why not, I'll make some Sano clones too!!! Just let me talk to my assossiate, -k-? YOU UPDATED SHATTERED AMBER?! Wha-whoo!! Hehehe. I'm gonna read it!!!! I will I will I will!! And I wrote this chapter before I got your review. does it do good enough on advances in all the realationships? Yeah, I'm sorry about the confusing endings, but it was getting hard to end things, ya know what I mean? Oh, and you can have the first Sano clone, -k-? Hehehehe...
Beriath: Was I nice enough to Kaoru? Huh? It's okay that you didn't write long reviews!! I read some of your fics. They're funny!!! I love funny stories. The birthday one was funny, and the one with Sigmund Frued or how- ever you spell it, was kinda weird but oh well, I just can't see Kenshin raping Kaoru if that was what he was doing. oh well, it was still good!!!!! I like them. I hope you liked this chapter.
Well, treats for you all!!
Kenshin: WHY DON'T WE EVER GET TREATS?! YOU'RE USING US IN YOUR STORY, THAT YOU ARE!!!
Crystal: (ponders this) Uh. because I'm fun enough to be around that you don't need treats and Sano would bet them all off if I gave you some?
Kenshin: Can't you give me a treat? (pouts)
Crystal: Do you really want one that bad?
Kenshin: (nods head)
Crystal: Okay, here you go!!! (hugs him)
Kenshin: I MEANT CANDY!!!! C-A-N-D-Y!!!!
Heehhehehehe...
Until the next chapter!!
Luv,
Crystal Renee