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Rating: G
Season six (set before Full Circle)
Spoilers: Prophecy, Metamorphosis, Sight Unseen, and Meridian.
Characters: Jonas, Sam, other, Col. O'Neill and Teal'c.
Category: mystery, angst.
Summery: A mysterious artifact from the Ancients may lead the team to a discovery that they never envisioned possible.
Side note: This story was possible only by God's help, because truth be told. I'm not that smart to think up something like this.
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Jonas sat down in a far corner of the commissary with his tray of food. It was a little after seven. Sam had stopped by again, but he had declined going out with her and the others. He really needed to work on the translations some more, that and the fact that he just didn't feel comfortable going. Teal'c had stopped by as well and in their conversation Teal'c had stated that they all had not gone out like this in over a year. So it was either the first time since Dr. Jackson had died, or the first time since Jonas had joined the team. He just didn't feel right about going after hearing that.
"This seat taken?" A voice asked.
Jonas looked up." Amy, um it is now, sit down." She put her tray on the table and sat down opposite him," What are you doing here so late?"
"Well. I got caught up reading previous reports and I lost track of time. So I figured I would just get dinner here and then head home. It's easier anyway, I won't have any dishes to clean."
"That's one advantage to eating here, you don't have to worry about preparing it or cleaning it."
"So how come you're here all by yourself? Teal'c didn't want to eat with you, or something?"
Jonas paused," No, ah, everyone went out for dinner, so it's just me."
Amy glanced at him," Didn't they invite you?"
"Yeah, but-I-ah thought I should stay here and work on the translations." He said looking down at his food.
Amy looked at him." You're not telling me the truth. Why didn't you go?"
"What makes you think I'm not telling you the truth?" Jonas asked.
"Because you shifted your eyes, and your voice was hesitant. You do that whenever you're uncomfortable."
Jonas gave a confused look," I do not." He paused," Do I?"
Amy nodded, "Yes, you do. When you were telling me about what happened to Dr. Jackson you did the same thing, and when you were talking about Kelowna." Jonas just stared at her." Don't look so surprised, you're not the only observant person you know."
Jonas grinned." True."
"So, why didn't you go?"
Jonas sat back in his chair." They invited me, I just-I did-do want to work on the translations, but I also didn't feel comfortable going out with everyone."
"Why?"
"Because I think the last time they went out like this was before I joined the team."
Amy gave a nod," You mean when Dr. Jackson was still on SG-1?"
Jonas sighed," Yeah. I know I'm accepted on SG-1, it's just. I dunno."
"Well Jonas, if the last time they went out like this was with Dr. Jackson, and now they're inviting you, that means that you're a part of their lives, you're not just a teammate you're a friend."
"I know that, and I've known it for awhile, but it's like there's this part of me." Jonas sighed again and grew sober," It's like part of me feels like I'll never really belong, you know? That no matter what I do or what we go through as a team, I'll never really fit in here."
Amy pondered that for a moment," You don't just mean SG-1, do you? You mean in general."
"Yeah. I just don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore. I know it sounds crazy but ever since my precognitive ability, even though it was temporary, I feel like even more of an outsider. I feel like I'm caught between these worlds, like I'm out of phase so to speak. As if I just can't fit in."
"I know what you mean," Amy said quietly.
"How could you? You're from this planet."
Amy looked at him," Jonas, that doesn't mean anything, there are times when I can be around a hundred earthlings, even my own family, and I feel like I'm an alien to them all. Like I don't or can't belong. I've always felt that way since I was child. You don't have to be from an alien planet in order to feel like an alien."
Jonas was taken aback," Sorry, I guess I never really thought about it that way before."
"It's okay, just realize that we all feel like we don't belong sometimes." Amy smirked," And in all honesty you don't seem like an outsider or that strange or different to me. I think you fit in on earth just fine. I mean I have better conversations with you than I have with most people from earth, men particularly. I mean you listen, like culture, are caring, kind hearted, and accept people for who they are." Amy paused," On second thought you are strange when compared to people on earth."
Jonas started laughing," Well, thanks a lot."
"Hey, curious question."
"What?"
Amy looked at her food for a minute and then looked up at him," If you could return to Kelowna tomorrow, would you? I mean if you're work with Sg- 1 was done and you could go back home, to the exact life you had, would you want to go?"
Jonas gave a low whistle," Well, ah. You know I had thought about that so many times the first few months I was here on earth. But now, I honestly don't know. With everything I've encountered, and everything that's happened. It's not that I wouldn't want to return to Kelowna, it's just, it's like I've gotten a taste of something remarkable and I don't know if I could just go back to that life, I love the idea of traveling, and embracing new things. I don't think I could give it up forever. I mean, I've always been a dreamer of sorts, and what I've experienced the past year has been beyond my wildest dreams. Earth has also become home to me; I can't say for sure, but as of right now, no I don't think I'd want to go back. Think I'm crazy?"
Amy shrugged," No more than I already thought."
Jonas rolled his eyes," Oh funny, real funny."
"So how are the translations coming?" Amy asked.
Jonas shrugged," Not so good. Haven't gotten much farther in them. It doesn't make any sense, it's as if the words are encoded. I mean it actually seems like a recent discovery, which means a recent dialect in their language. But I can't make any headway. The writings are similar to the ones we found on the artifact that enabled us to see the inter- dimensional beings, but I still can't make any sense of it."
"Hmm," Amy gave a curious frown," want a crazy suggestion?"
Jonas took a bite of his dinner," Sure, I'm up for anything. I'm on the verge of desperation here."
"Well, why don't you pray about it?"
Jonas smirked," Funny."
"I'm serious."
"Com'on Amy, first off I don't really believe in God, second off I'm not from the same planet as you, and thirdly it's not that simply that it would work."
"Why not? You say something like 'God if you exist I could use a little help down here', what's so difficult about that?"
Jonas just glanced at her," If it's that simple why don't you pray for me."
"I have been, but sometimes it helps if you're open to receive what it is God is trying to tell you."
"It's not that simple for me Amy. You grew up on this planet believing in this one particular God. It doesn't work as easily for outsiders."
"Jonas, it was just a suggestion, you said you were open for anything. But for you're information, I wasn't raised believing in God. To my family God and church was just some sort of custom if you will. It was what was done; we went to church on occasion but none of us believed a word. I actually found God and became a Christian when I went to college and started studying different philosophies and cultures. I'm not really sure how, but something along the way just clicked. I found the truth, and the more in depth I studied it the more it made sense to me logically."
"So you believe in God cause that's what logically makes sense to you?"
Amy shook her head," No. Believing in something isn't what logically makes sense to someone. It's what you just know is real. Yes, as I studied, it became even more correct logically. But even if it hadn't I would still have believed. Because the changes that have taken place in my life, and within me testify enough that this is real."
Jonas looked at her. Studying her almost, finally he said," Amy, I have to say this. You are the one person, that no matter how hard I try I cannot figure out. You do things and say things, and believe things so passionately. You make me almost want to believe by the passion you show. I'll tell you what; I'll consider your suggestion. Ok?"
"That's all I ask." Amy smiled.
"Good. Now on to the really important matters, are you going to finish those fries?"
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Rating: G
Season six (set before Full Circle)
Spoilers: Prophecy, Metamorphosis, Sight Unseen, and Meridian.
Characters: Jonas, Sam, other, Col. O'Neill and Teal'c.
Category: mystery, angst.
Summery: A mysterious artifact from the Ancients may lead the team to a discovery that they never envisioned possible.
Side note: This story was possible only by God's help, because truth be told. I'm not that smart to think up something like this.
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Jonas sat down in a far corner of the commissary with his tray of food. It was a little after seven. Sam had stopped by again, but he had declined going out with her and the others. He really needed to work on the translations some more, that and the fact that he just didn't feel comfortable going. Teal'c had stopped by as well and in their conversation Teal'c had stated that they all had not gone out like this in over a year. So it was either the first time since Dr. Jackson had died, or the first time since Jonas had joined the team. He just didn't feel right about going after hearing that.
"This seat taken?" A voice asked.
Jonas looked up." Amy, um it is now, sit down." She put her tray on the table and sat down opposite him," What are you doing here so late?"
"Well. I got caught up reading previous reports and I lost track of time. So I figured I would just get dinner here and then head home. It's easier anyway, I won't have any dishes to clean."
"That's one advantage to eating here, you don't have to worry about preparing it or cleaning it."
"So how come you're here all by yourself? Teal'c didn't want to eat with you, or something?"
Jonas paused," No, ah, everyone went out for dinner, so it's just me."
Amy glanced at him," Didn't they invite you?"
"Yeah, but-I-ah thought I should stay here and work on the translations." He said looking down at his food.
Amy looked at him." You're not telling me the truth. Why didn't you go?"
"What makes you think I'm not telling you the truth?" Jonas asked.
"Because you shifted your eyes, and your voice was hesitant. You do that whenever you're uncomfortable."
Jonas gave a confused look," I do not." He paused," Do I?"
Amy nodded, "Yes, you do. When you were telling me about what happened to Dr. Jackson you did the same thing, and when you were talking about Kelowna." Jonas just stared at her." Don't look so surprised, you're not the only observant person you know."
Jonas grinned." True."
"So, why didn't you go?"
Jonas sat back in his chair." They invited me, I just-I did-do want to work on the translations, but I also didn't feel comfortable going out with everyone."
"Why?"
"Because I think the last time they went out like this was before I joined the team."
Amy gave a nod," You mean when Dr. Jackson was still on SG-1?"
Jonas sighed," Yeah. I know I'm accepted on SG-1, it's just. I dunno."
"Well Jonas, if the last time they went out like this was with Dr. Jackson, and now they're inviting you, that means that you're a part of their lives, you're not just a teammate you're a friend."
"I know that, and I've known it for awhile, but it's like there's this part of me." Jonas sighed again and grew sober," It's like part of me feels like I'll never really belong, you know? That no matter what I do or what we go through as a team, I'll never really fit in here."
Amy pondered that for a moment," You don't just mean SG-1, do you? You mean in general."
"Yeah. I just don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore. I know it sounds crazy but ever since my precognitive ability, even though it was temporary, I feel like even more of an outsider. I feel like I'm caught between these worlds, like I'm out of phase so to speak. As if I just can't fit in."
"I know what you mean," Amy said quietly.
"How could you? You're from this planet."
Amy looked at him," Jonas, that doesn't mean anything, there are times when I can be around a hundred earthlings, even my own family, and I feel like I'm an alien to them all. Like I don't or can't belong. I've always felt that way since I was child. You don't have to be from an alien planet in order to feel like an alien."
Jonas was taken aback," Sorry, I guess I never really thought about it that way before."
"It's okay, just realize that we all feel like we don't belong sometimes." Amy smirked," And in all honesty you don't seem like an outsider or that strange or different to me. I think you fit in on earth just fine. I mean I have better conversations with you than I have with most people from earth, men particularly. I mean you listen, like culture, are caring, kind hearted, and accept people for who they are." Amy paused," On second thought you are strange when compared to people on earth."
Jonas started laughing," Well, thanks a lot."
"Hey, curious question."
"What?"
Amy looked at her food for a minute and then looked up at him," If you could return to Kelowna tomorrow, would you? I mean if you're work with Sg- 1 was done and you could go back home, to the exact life you had, would you want to go?"
Jonas gave a low whistle," Well, ah. You know I had thought about that so many times the first few months I was here on earth. But now, I honestly don't know. With everything I've encountered, and everything that's happened. It's not that I wouldn't want to return to Kelowna, it's just, it's like I've gotten a taste of something remarkable and I don't know if I could just go back to that life, I love the idea of traveling, and embracing new things. I don't think I could give it up forever. I mean, I've always been a dreamer of sorts, and what I've experienced the past year has been beyond my wildest dreams. Earth has also become home to me; I can't say for sure, but as of right now, no I don't think I'd want to go back. Think I'm crazy?"
Amy shrugged," No more than I already thought."
Jonas rolled his eyes," Oh funny, real funny."
"So how are the translations coming?" Amy asked.
Jonas shrugged," Not so good. Haven't gotten much farther in them. It doesn't make any sense, it's as if the words are encoded. I mean it actually seems like a recent discovery, which means a recent dialect in their language. But I can't make any headway. The writings are similar to the ones we found on the artifact that enabled us to see the inter- dimensional beings, but I still can't make any sense of it."
"Hmm," Amy gave a curious frown," want a crazy suggestion?"
Jonas took a bite of his dinner," Sure, I'm up for anything. I'm on the verge of desperation here."
"Well, why don't you pray about it?"
Jonas smirked," Funny."
"I'm serious."
"Com'on Amy, first off I don't really believe in God, second off I'm not from the same planet as you, and thirdly it's not that simply that it would work."
"Why not? You say something like 'God if you exist I could use a little help down here', what's so difficult about that?"
Jonas just glanced at her," If it's that simple why don't you pray for me."
"I have been, but sometimes it helps if you're open to receive what it is God is trying to tell you."
"It's not that simple for me Amy. You grew up on this planet believing in this one particular God. It doesn't work as easily for outsiders."
"Jonas, it was just a suggestion, you said you were open for anything. But for you're information, I wasn't raised believing in God. To my family God and church was just some sort of custom if you will. It was what was done; we went to church on occasion but none of us believed a word. I actually found God and became a Christian when I went to college and started studying different philosophies and cultures. I'm not really sure how, but something along the way just clicked. I found the truth, and the more in depth I studied it the more it made sense to me logically."
"So you believe in God cause that's what logically makes sense to you?"
Amy shook her head," No. Believing in something isn't what logically makes sense to someone. It's what you just know is real. Yes, as I studied, it became even more correct logically. But even if it hadn't I would still have believed. Because the changes that have taken place in my life, and within me testify enough that this is real."
Jonas looked at her. Studying her almost, finally he said," Amy, I have to say this. You are the one person, that no matter how hard I try I cannot figure out. You do things and say things, and believe things so passionately. You make me almost want to believe by the passion you show. I'll tell you what; I'll consider your suggestion. Ok?"
"That's all I ask." Amy smiled.
"Good. Now on to the really important matters, are you going to finish those fries?"
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