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Rating: G
Season six (set before Full Circle)
Spoilers: Prophecy, Metamorphosis, Sight Unseen, and Meridian.
Characters: Jonas, Sam, other, Col. O'Neill and Teal'c.
Category: mystery, angst.
Summery: A mysterious artifact from the Ancients may lead the team to a discovery that they never envisioned possible.
Side note: This story was possible only by God's help, because truth be told. I'm not that smart to think up something like this.
(WARNING: Serious Jonas angst! Tissues may be required.)
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"Have trouble sleeping, Carter? You look exhausted." Colonel O'Neill asked as Sam sat down at the table in the commissary the next morning.
Sam seemed to slump in her chair, "I am, Janet and I stood out an extra hour after you and Teal'c had left. I didn't get to bed till almost 1 o'clock."
"Well, at least you made it." Colonel O'Neill took a bite of his breakfast, and scanned the table," Which leads me to ask another question. Have you seen Jonas? I mean he wouldn't come with us last night and now he doesn't show up for breakfast. What's up with him?"
"He is working on the translations O'Neill." Teal'c reminded him.
"I know Teal'c, but still."
Sam looked at Colonel O'Neill with a slight smile," You actually missed not having him around last night didn't you?"
Colonel O'Neill shrugged," I like consistency in my life, Carter. In the past 24 hours, I haven't had any mention of the weather, odd food combinations, and that overwhelming childlike optimism of his. I'm just not accustomed to it."
Sam and Teal'c exchanged a glance." Well, he should be here for breakfast in a moment or so." Sam began," I stopped by his office on my way here and he had all his books spread out all over his desk and was sound asleep on top of his notebook."
Colonel O'Neill stopped eating and stared at her, "You're kidding?"
Sam shook her head trying not to giggle," No, I'm not sir, he was out cold. I woke him up and he said he'd be here in a few minutes. He must have worked on the writings all night."
"Yes, these writings. Carter, do you think this artifact is even worth our time? I mean the Ancients concealed it. They were keeping it hidden for a reason. What the reason is who knows, but they wanted it hidden. I mean what if this is some dangerous weapon or something? Not that we couldn't use a weapon, but if we couldn't get it to work, or even if it backfired? That's the last thing we need on our record."
"I doubt it's that sir, from what Jonas has translated so far it states that this is something precious, that the Ancients wanted to keep safe and protected."
"''Because it holds all secrets, all knowledge and all answers.'" Jonas said as he came up and sat at their table.
"Well if it isn't the long lost SG-1 member. I was about to send a search party into your office." Colonel O'Neill joked.
Jonas glanced at Sam." So, Jonas, what you were just saying is that on the artifact?" Sam asked.
Jonas nodded," Yeah, I still haven't gotten that much done, but I was able to get that at least. It's not saying what it is, though, at least not exactly."
"What does it say again?" Colonel O'Neill asked.
"'It holds all secrets, all knowledge, and all answers.'" Jonas repeated.
"What could that mean?" Sam wondered.
"Perhaps it is some great discovery that may advance a culture." Teal'c stated.
Jonas nodded," I was thinking the same thing. If it holds all answers, all secrets, and all knowledge, it could advance anyone who came across it. So the Ancients probably wanted to protect it so that it wouldn't fall into the wrong hands."
"Fact or theory?" Colonel O'Neill asked.
"Theory, I'm still just beginning to crack these writings. It's going to take a while."
"Well, I hate to tell you this Jonas, but you'd better put these translations aside and get a hold of the new mission details for our next jaunt across the galaxy." Colonel O'Neill stood up. "Teal'c want to go do some sparring? I need to work off the calories I gained from dinner last night."
Teal'c glanced at Sam and Jonas, and then at Colonel O'Neill," Very well O'Neill, if you are certain."
Colonel O'Neill paused and put his hand up, " Hold it. What do you mean if I'm certain?"
"You did ingest several alcoholic beverages last night. I was simple stating if you are certain it is not still affecting you." Teal'c said matter-of-factly.
Colonel O'Neill shook his finger at Teal'c, "Okay now for that Teal'c you better watch it." Sam and Jonas just stared at him. "Com'on."
Sam and Jonas had to stifle a giggle." I wish him luck." Sam said.
"Did Colonel O'Neill drink that much last night?" Jonas asked.
"Let's just say we all let go and had a good time last night. Of course if you had come you would have known that." Sam said in a scolding voice.
"I know, I probably should have, but I really wanted to work on the translations, and I did make some headway. Not a lot, but some."
Sam was quiet for a moment as she ate her breakfast then she said," Jonas was the only reason you didn't come with us last night because you were working on the translations? There wasn't some other reason was there?"
"N-no, of course not. I wanted to work on the translations last night cause we're going off world tomorrow and I wanted to get as much done as I possible could."
Sam looked at him," You're not telling me the truth."
"Why do you say that?"
"You paused on one of you're words and you're eyes were shifty. You always do that when you're lying or avoiding an issue."
Jonas sat back in his chair with an odd look," Do I really do that?"
"Yeah, all the time."
"Bizarre, Amy said the same thing, last night."
Sam got an upset look and raised her voice, "You were talking with Amy, last night? You didn't have time for us but you had it for her?"
"It wasn't like that Sam, when I had dinner she was here and we had dinner together that's all."
Sam grew quiet, "So, tell me the truth, why didn't you come with us?"
Jonas sighed," Sam, I did want to work on the translations."
"I know that Jonas, but that wasn't the only reason and do not try to convince me that it was."
He put his head down," I don't know, I just-I just didn't feel right going."
"Why?"
Jonas was quiet, searching for words," I just felt- maybe- it-it would be best if I wasn't there."
"Again I'll ask why?"
Jonas stared at Sam, searching her eyes," Sam, when was the last time everyone went out like last night?"
Sam thought for a moment trying to understand what it was Jonas was asking. Then it hit her. She closed her eyes and slightly nodded her head in understanding," It was with Daniel." She looked at Jonas," That's why you didn't come? You thought that because the last time was with Daniel it wouldn't be right for you to be there?"
"I just felt, like it wasn't my place. Like maybe it just wasn't the right time."
Sam was quiet," Jonas, if we hadn't felt comfortable with you coming we wouldn't have asked, and I practically begged you to come! We wanted you to come, all of us, even Colonel O'Neill. In fact we all missed not having you around last night. You're a part of the team, Jonas. But you're also a part of our family now. You belong on SG-1, you got to stop questioning yourself."
"Sometimes, I feel like I'm really a part of the team, and then-" He stopped and looked at Sam.
"Jonas, say it."
"I remember that I'm a replacement, that I'll never really be a part of the team. I'll always be the new guy or the replacement. That's how everyone will always view me."
Sam shook her head," Jonas, that is not true and you know it."
Jonas shrugged," I know, but it's just how I feel, it's just me. I'll always have to be proving myself to no one but myself."
Sam thought for a moment," Jonas, you have often said and continue to say that you feel like you need to prove yourself. So let me ask you this question: what do we have to do to prove to you that you're a member of this team? That we care about you and accept you for you? What will prove it to you?"
"Sam, it's not you, it's me, it's how I'll always feel. I continuously doubt myself. I was this way on Kelonwa too, it's just part of my personality."
"Jonas, three months ago, you almost died in trying to prove you're worth to SG-1. If any of us had any reservations about you they were gone that day. If anything we realized how much you did mean to us and what you'd brought to the team in the past year." She paused for a moment," I know you feel like you replaced Daniel. And maybe when you were first put on the team that was what you were supposed to do. But Jonas, the truth is you didn't replace Daniel, you couldn't because Daniel was-is Daniel, and you are you. In the same respect if Daniel were to come back tomorrow, he couldn't replace you. Both of you have certain similarities, but the two of you are very unique individuals. Daniel had this really likeable personality, that even if you didn't like him at first you usually ended up liking him. And you are really likeable to, but you also have a way of working into peoples lives in such a way that after a little while they turn around and wonder if there was ever a time that they didn't know you. At least that's how I see it. Both you and Daniel are and always will be irreplaceable people, especially to me."
Jonas was quiet for a moment. For the first time in his life he felt actually acceptance from someone. On Kelowna what you accomplished was your worth, and to him it had always seemed like he could never meet the standard. That's how he had felt here, but it was finally beginning to dawn on him, that he was accepted, and that he did belong. That these people weren't just his teammates, weren't just his friends, they were his family, and it was a wonderful thing to have the feeling of a family again. His parent's had died shortly before he started college and he had no other close relatives, for over twelve years he had been on his own, proving himself to the world, finally he was in a place where people accepted and cared about him for him. Still he had to ask, " You really mean that?"
Sam gave a soft smile, "Yes, I do."
Jonas smiled," Thanks Sam."
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Rating: G
Season six (set before Full Circle)
Spoilers: Prophecy, Metamorphosis, Sight Unseen, and Meridian.
Characters: Jonas, Sam, other, Col. O'Neill and Teal'c.
Category: mystery, angst.
Summery: A mysterious artifact from the Ancients may lead the team to a discovery that they never envisioned possible.
Side note: This story was possible only by God's help, because truth be told. I'm not that smart to think up something like this.
(WARNING: Serious Jonas angst! Tissues may be required.)
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"Have trouble sleeping, Carter? You look exhausted." Colonel O'Neill asked as Sam sat down at the table in the commissary the next morning.
Sam seemed to slump in her chair, "I am, Janet and I stood out an extra hour after you and Teal'c had left. I didn't get to bed till almost 1 o'clock."
"Well, at least you made it." Colonel O'Neill took a bite of his breakfast, and scanned the table," Which leads me to ask another question. Have you seen Jonas? I mean he wouldn't come with us last night and now he doesn't show up for breakfast. What's up with him?"
"He is working on the translations O'Neill." Teal'c reminded him.
"I know Teal'c, but still."
Sam looked at Colonel O'Neill with a slight smile," You actually missed not having him around last night didn't you?"
Colonel O'Neill shrugged," I like consistency in my life, Carter. In the past 24 hours, I haven't had any mention of the weather, odd food combinations, and that overwhelming childlike optimism of his. I'm just not accustomed to it."
Sam and Teal'c exchanged a glance." Well, he should be here for breakfast in a moment or so." Sam began," I stopped by his office on my way here and he had all his books spread out all over his desk and was sound asleep on top of his notebook."
Colonel O'Neill stopped eating and stared at her, "You're kidding?"
Sam shook her head trying not to giggle," No, I'm not sir, he was out cold. I woke him up and he said he'd be here in a few minutes. He must have worked on the writings all night."
"Yes, these writings. Carter, do you think this artifact is even worth our time? I mean the Ancients concealed it. They were keeping it hidden for a reason. What the reason is who knows, but they wanted it hidden. I mean what if this is some dangerous weapon or something? Not that we couldn't use a weapon, but if we couldn't get it to work, or even if it backfired? That's the last thing we need on our record."
"I doubt it's that sir, from what Jonas has translated so far it states that this is something precious, that the Ancients wanted to keep safe and protected."
"''Because it holds all secrets, all knowledge and all answers.'" Jonas said as he came up and sat at their table.
"Well if it isn't the long lost SG-1 member. I was about to send a search party into your office." Colonel O'Neill joked.
Jonas glanced at Sam." So, Jonas, what you were just saying is that on the artifact?" Sam asked.
Jonas nodded," Yeah, I still haven't gotten that much done, but I was able to get that at least. It's not saying what it is, though, at least not exactly."
"What does it say again?" Colonel O'Neill asked.
"'It holds all secrets, all knowledge, and all answers.'" Jonas repeated.
"What could that mean?" Sam wondered.
"Perhaps it is some great discovery that may advance a culture." Teal'c stated.
Jonas nodded," I was thinking the same thing. If it holds all answers, all secrets, and all knowledge, it could advance anyone who came across it. So the Ancients probably wanted to protect it so that it wouldn't fall into the wrong hands."
"Fact or theory?" Colonel O'Neill asked.
"Theory, I'm still just beginning to crack these writings. It's going to take a while."
"Well, I hate to tell you this Jonas, but you'd better put these translations aside and get a hold of the new mission details for our next jaunt across the galaxy." Colonel O'Neill stood up. "Teal'c want to go do some sparring? I need to work off the calories I gained from dinner last night."
Teal'c glanced at Sam and Jonas, and then at Colonel O'Neill," Very well O'Neill, if you are certain."
Colonel O'Neill paused and put his hand up, " Hold it. What do you mean if I'm certain?"
"You did ingest several alcoholic beverages last night. I was simple stating if you are certain it is not still affecting you." Teal'c said matter-of-factly.
Colonel O'Neill shook his finger at Teal'c, "Okay now for that Teal'c you better watch it." Sam and Jonas just stared at him. "Com'on."
Sam and Jonas had to stifle a giggle." I wish him luck." Sam said.
"Did Colonel O'Neill drink that much last night?" Jonas asked.
"Let's just say we all let go and had a good time last night. Of course if you had come you would have known that." Sam said in a scolding voice.
"I know, I probably should have, but I really wanted to work on the translations, and I did make some headway. Not a lot, but some."
Sam was quiet for a moment as she ate her breakfast then she said," Jonas was the only reason you didn't come with us last night because you were working on the translations? There wasn't some other reason was there?"
"N-no, of course not. I wanted to work on the translations last night cause we're going off world tomorrow and I wanted to get as much done as I possible could."
Sam looked at him," You're not telling me the truth."
"Why do you say that?"
"You paused on one of you're words and you're eyes were shifty. You always do that when you're lying or avoiding an issue."
Jonas sat back in his chair with an odd look," Do I really do that?"
"Yeah, all the time."
"Bizarre, Amy said the same thing, last night."
Sam got an upset look and raised her voice, "You were talking with Amy, last night? You didn't have time for us but you had it for her?"
"It wasn't like that Sam, when I had dinner she was here and we had dinner together that's all."
Sam grew quiet, "So, tell me the truth, why didn't you come with us?"
Jonas sighed," Sam, I did want to work on the translations."
"I know that Jonas, but that wasn't the only reason and do not try to convince me that it was."
He put his head down," I don't know, I just-I just didn't feel right going."
"Why?"
Jonas was quiet, searching for words," I just felt- maybe- it-it would be best if I wasn't there."
"Again I'll ask why?"
Jonas stared at Sam, searching her eyes," Sam, when was the last time everyone went out like last night?"
Sam thought for a moment trying to understand what it was Jonas was asking. Then it hit her. She closed her eyes and slightly nodded her head in understanding," It was with Daniel." She looked at Jonas," That's why you didn't come? You thought that because the last time was with Daniel it wouldn't be right for you to be there?"
"I just felt, like it wasn't my place. Like maybe it just wasn't the right time."
Sam was quiet," Jonas, if we hadn't felt comfortable with you coming we wouldn't have asked, and I practically begged you to come! We wanted you to come, all of us, even Colonel O'Neill. In fact we all missed not having you around last night. You're a part of the team, Jonas. But you're also a part of our family now. You belong on SG-1, you got to stop questioning yourself."
"Sometimes, I feel like I'm really a part of the team, and then-" He stopped and looked at Sam.
"Jonas, say it."
"I remember that I'm a replacement, that I'll never really be a part of the team. I'll always be the new guy or the replacement. That's how everyone will always view me."
Sam shook her head," Jonas, that is not true and you know it."
Jonas shrugged," I know, but it's just how I feel, it's just me. I'll always have to be proving myself to no one but myself."
Sam thought for a moment," Jonas, you have often said and continue to say that you feel like you need to prove yourself. So let me ask you this question: what do we have to do to prove to you that you're a member of this team? That we care about you and accept you for you? What will prove it to you?"
"Sam, it's not you, it's me, it's how I'll always feel. I continuously doubt myself. I was this way on Kelonwa too, it's just part of my personality."
"Jonas, three months ago, you almost died in trying to prove you're worth to SG-1. If any of us had any reservations about you they were gone that day. If anything we realized how much you did mean to us and what you'd brought to the team in the past year." She paused for a moment," I know you feel like you replaced Daniel. And maybe when you were first put on the team that was what you were supposed to do. But Jonas, the truth is you didn't replace Daniel, you couldn't because Daniel was-is Daniel, and you are you. In the same respect if Daniel were to come back tomorrow, he couldn't replace you. Both of you have certain similarities, but the two of you are very unique individuals. Daniel had this really likeable personality, that even if you didn't like him at first you usually ended up liking him. And you are really likeable to, but you also have a way of working into peoples lives in such a way that after a little while they turn around and wonder if there was ever a time that they didn't know you. At least that's how I see it. Both you and Daniel are and always will be irreplaceable people, especially to me."
Jonas was quiet for a moment. For the first time in his life he felt actually acceptance from someone. On Kelowna what you accomplished was your worth, and to him it had always seemed like he could never meet the standard. That's how he had felt here, but it was finally beginning to dawn on him, that he was accepted, and that he did belong. That these people weren't just his teammates, weren't just his friends, they were his family, and it was a wonderful thing to have the feeling of a family again. His parent's had died shortly before he started college and he had no other close relatives, for over twelve years he had been on his own, proving himself to the world, finally he was in a place where people accepted and cared about him for him. Still he had to ask, " You really mean that?"
Sam gave a soft smile, "Yes, I do."
Jonas smiled," Thanks Sam."
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