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Chapter 10- rape and confessions

Ruthie walked in to the church, down the hall into chandlers office. She was walking as slowly as she could. She was not looking forward to this. A tear streaked down her face and more started coming she was bawling her eyes out as she walked in.

"shut up, Ruthie" Chandler said from inside the room "get in here"

She walked in. He got up and again started to massage her shoulders.

"stop it" Ruthie screamed "you know you don't have to do that, nor are you allowed to."

He pushed her on the couch and ducked taped her mouth. You could her Ruthie's attempt to scream through the tape. He undressed her and himself and the he raped her. Just like that. Ruthie was pushing him away and trying to scream. He slapped her every time she tried to stop him. It was awful. He got off of her, got dressed and left. Ruthie got dressed and started crying so hard. She ripped the tape off and went out side to wait for Simon. He wouldn't be there for another half and hour, but she didn't want to be inside that church with Chandler. She wished he would die. She felt so dirty after what happened the first thing she was going to do when she got home was take a shower. She was still bawling her eyes out when Simon's car pulled in to the lot. She ran to the car.

"what are you doing outside, now? Where's Chandler? You still have fifteen minutes. Ruthie why are crying? What happened? Talk to me" Simon asked.

"just drive, please" Ruthie said.

Simon started the car and took Ruthie home.

"I'm going upstairs to take a shower" Ruthie said.

"I have to go to the store for mom, I'll be back in a half an hour. Were going to take then, OK? Something's up, Ruthie. And I really want you to tell me, because whatever it is, I can tell your scared and your hurt. So please talk to me later OK? Ruthie?." Simon said.

Ruthie nodded, she knew she needed to tell someone, and she knew Simon cared, she was closer to him then some others in her family because they were closer in age then she was with others and they would always play together when she was little.

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She went upstairs and into the shower. She immediately knew what she was going to do. She grabbed Lucy's razor and started cutting up her leg. She couldn't even count how many there were. Her leg was all bloody, but since they weren't very deep she knew that she'd be OK. She washed her body 7 more times and got out, she went to her room and sat on her bed. Simon came upstairs, knocked on the door.

"can I come in? can we talk?" Simon asked.

"yeah come in" Ruthie replied.

Simon walked in. He sat on Lucy's bed.

"Ruthie, please tell me what happened. Something is bothering you and I can see that it hurts you. Please talk to me, I'm your brother and I love you."

Ruthie took a deep breath. "Chandler, Chandler…" she broke into tears, unable to speak at the moment.

"what, what did Chandler do. I've always hated that guy, what did he do"

Through the tears Ruthie told Simon everything that happened from before she tried to kill herself to today. Simon cried through some of it and when she finished, he hugged her and said he was sorry.

"I have to tell mom and dad, you know that right. I'll tell them if you don't want to but someone has too. And then you'll never see Chandler again. Thank you for trusting me enough to tell me. I love you Ruthie and I'm so sorry that all this happened to you.."

"I love you too Simon, and you tell mom and dad, I'll be there, but I don't want to say it again. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you before."

Simon left the room and Ruthie followed.