Video Princess Blues

Chapter 15

A:N/ Well, here's another chapter. PLease enjoy and let me know of any ideas you have for a future chapter or chapters.

Disclaimer: (*crosses Fingers*)I am only borrowing these characters and will put them right back where I found them upon finishing.

From Chapter 14Mac's POV

.........."I couldn't let you walk down that isle, not knowing how I truly feel..."

"How do you feel, Harm?" I sigh with and gaze longingly at him........

CHAPTER 15

Harm's Apartment

(Mac's POV)

"Ma..Sarah,....There are sooo many things I need to tell you.....Let me start off by saying that Sydney was the biggest mistake of my life."

I stiffened at the mention of that fateful night...the night where he had rejected me..........and told me he was not interested in a physical relationship with me......that he couldn't let go...

Harm sees my reaction, and reaches for my hand. I withdraw it quickly, as if his touch had hurt me.

"Mac?....." Harm says trying to get me to look at him, but my eyes are too busy trying to focus on a spot in the carpet. "Sarah......Please...Maybe you didn't understand me that night."

"What was there to misunderstand, Harm?" I said sharply, still focused on the carpet.

"Everything..........I....Harm stammered for the right words... " I wasn't rejecting you Mac."

"oh, really?...Then , what were you doing Harm???" I say, on the verge of tears at this delicate subject that had brought me so much pain.

" I ....I ..there was too much at risk ..." He said sadly.

"A risk that obviously ONE of us was willing to take." I said venomously, not giving him any slack.

"Sarah...I'm sorry.....I guess..I....I just wanted more than one night with you......."He said, his voice full of emotion.

With his words, tears began to flow freely down my face..

Harm brushed them away gently with his thumb, like he had so many times before. "Don't cry Sarah....Please don't cry.....I never knew my decision that night caused you soo much pain. You have to understand why....

..I thought I loved you more than you loved me. When you presented the oppurtunity to me on the ferry, my first instinct was to take off and run with you to the nearest private spot. But, then....I thought of our friendship getting screwed up, and then I thought of how maybe all you wanted me for was one night. And, I wanted so ...so much more.....Sarah, don't you see?....that's what I was trying to tell you that night......I wanted eternity........"

The reality of his words and what he had been trying to convey .....hit me like a ton of bricks and sobs began to rack my body.

Harm put his arms around me, and brought my head to his chest. He let me pour all the pain, and anger and dissapointment out that had been bottled from that night through my tears.

When my sobs had reduced to sniffles, I withdrew myself from his arms.

I wiped my eyes , and regained my composure before asking.....

"Why did you let me run to Brumby....If you truy loved me....why not let me know ?" I said in a whisper.

"Sarah...."Harm said Pausing. " It was BECAUSE I truly loved you that I let you run to Brumby........I thought you were in love with him, and I wanted you to be happy.....EVEN IF , your happiness meant me being content to just be your best friend."

I digested his words a moment before replying. "OK..then why didn't you ATLEAST tell me how you truly felt before now???" I said pointedly.

Harm met my gaze and grabbed my left hand, holding it up for me to see.......my ring, the ring I had accepted from Brumby. My jaw dropped as I realized all of this : the dissapointment, the anger, the tears, the engagement.......had all come from a misunderstanding.

I got up quickly, grabbing my purse and jacket before heading for the door.

There was only one good reason for this: I was scared.....My wedding was in days...how dare he spring this on me now! I loved Brumby, Brumby offered what I'd always wanted...a family.

" I have to run , Harm.....see you tomorrow." I said as I rushed to the door.

"Mac! Don't go, I'm not finished!" Harm yelled for me, as I ignored him and shut the door behind me.

THE END for now.lol.

A/N: What will happen next? Will Harm find a way to get through to Mac? Or will she become Mrs. Brumby? *shudders at the thought*........IS IT TOO LATE???????

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