Video Princess Blues
Chapter 16
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A/N: WOW! IT's been sixteen chapters already.....and it's still not over!!! LOL....BUT , I am running out of creative ideas with this...so please, please,please help me out by giving me any ideas that you might have. Thanks for sticking with me through this fic and reviewing along the way!!!
Chapter 16
(Harm's POV)
Harm's Apartment
Should I go after her??? Will she listen to me??? I don't know the answer to either...but I still take off running after her.
Mac!!!!! I holler as I reach the bottom of the steps and run outside to see her getting into her car.
Mac, Listen to me!!!!!!!! I plead as I run towards her car, which is speeding out of my parking lot.
Da** It! I say, mentally kicking myself. NOW I'VE RUINED OUR FRIENDSHIP! HOW stupid are you RABB???? Telling a happily engaged woman that you are in love with her THREE days before her wedding?!?
I've really screwed things up! Why won't she listen to me??? I'm so in love with her I almost let her go without telling her that I loved her!!!!!!!!! ANYTHING to make her happy! I tried to tell her before....I just couldn't find the words!!! /P
POH....and at her engagement party....I screwed up yet AGAIN by saying what I "wanted most" was to never lose her. " WHAT I WANTED MOST WAS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I hollered out to the empty parking lot and then I did something I hadn't done in quite awhile.....I cried. /P
PIf she was too mad to ever speak to me again,...I hadn't only lost the girl of my dreams...I'd lost my best friend./P
PI had to get her to speak to me. I had to make her listen./P
On the road
Same Time
(Mac's POV)
'Gosh, Mac....How did you get soo screwed up?' I asked myself...knowing there would be no reply./P
;I can think of so many times that I'd prayed to hear those words that he'd told me barely 20 minutes ago , I can also remember crying myself to sleep b/c of the many times I didn't hear them./P
;He had wanted Eternity??? That was what he had been trying to tell me??? I brush away a tear and try to focus on the road. WHY when one of us is ready to start a relationship.,.....for one reason or another, the other isn't?????? If I wasn't engaged.......Well let's not think like that./P
PI love Mic. Speaking of which, I need to call him and ask him to meet me at my place. I need to let him know that he is the one for me, and that I want to go through with this wedding. /P
Mac's Apartment
(Mac's POV)
;I just got done telling Mic that I loved him , and that no one could replace him in my life. And, then we kissed..but I just couldn't get myself into it. In fact, when he had tried to deepen the kiss...I broke it off and told him I was really tired, so Mic left. I just couldn't stop thinking about Harm.....I know its wrong....but I kept thinking about what it would be like if Harm were the one kissing me....Not mic./P
I'm probably just experiencing a completely normal case of Pre-Wedding jitters....That's all.
JAG HQ
The next Day
(Harm's POV)
I just can't bring myself to march over to her office door, and attempt to talk to her.
I'm in my office buried in paperwork, and conveniently using this as my excuse.
;I steal a glance in the direction of her office for what has to be the thousandth time this morning. She has the door closed, and the shades drawn...not a good sign , I conclude.
This is impossible! I stayed up half the night ...thinking over the events of the last few days....about how everything had gone from bad to worse.
;My lack of sleep , was making focusing very difficult. I need some coffee! So, with that thought I set aside my paperwork and proceded to the kitchen..........
Same Time
(mac's POV)
PCome on Marine! Focus..you have to get this paperwork done before leaving so you can have your day off tomorrow in preparation for the wedding!!! I scolded myself. /P
PI didn't get a wink of sleep last night....God knows I tried, but nothing seemed to work. /P
PI'm so stressed out...I'm about an inch away from insanity. /P
PI finally give in to the weight of my head and bury it in my hands......what a week! .....My engagement Party....Shopping with Renee (ATLEAST that thought made me smile) The thing with Harm....that will never be fixed...and my upcoming wedding...*sigh* /P
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PI'm not getting any work done.....I need some motivation...Coffee should do the trick, I say as I make my way toward the kitchen./P
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PI enter the kitchen to find Harm with his back turned toward the coffee maker.....OH great! the last person I wanted to see. I start to turn around...(to he** with the coffee.) but As is start to so does Harm..and I don't want to look obvious. *darn it*/P
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PI pour myself a steamy cup and turn around to see Mac standing in the doorway..'How Long has she been there???' I wonder./P
PHer eyes are unreadable as she walks toward me...(oh wait...not me..the coffee maker. *sigh*) I move over , giving her plenty of room. /P
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PThe uncomfotable silence lingered like a dark cloud. I watched her and her movements as she filled her mug with coffee..Just seeing her and knowing that she was another man's.....it..I ...I jsut can't explain it. If things could just be like they were before I opened up to her....If she would just speak to me again and let me be her best friend again.....I'd be content..not Happy..but content. I had to make an attempt...this was my chance!/P
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PHarm...she said turning to me and making eye contact, reaching up with one hand to touch my lips..as if to silence me. /P
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P I whisper..but she pretends not to hear me and walks off./P
PA tear rolls down my cheek as I come to the realization....I've lost her./P
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P(A:N/ What will happen next???? Can Harm deal with losing her??? Will he try to reach her again??? And more importantly, will Mac listen with her heart and not her head????????/P
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