Disclaimer: you know it, I know it, the owners of RK know, it. That all rights belong to them, not me. Just borrowing the character, nothing else.
Dear Kenshin,
Misao and Aoshi visited earlier this week. Misao's presences seemed to really lift Kaoru's spirits. She reminds me of what Kaoru used to be like a long time ago. Before you guys got married and had Kenji. Always smiling and bouncy. Even when bad things were happening, both managed to be in great spirits. But they have both grown differently. Misao is a little older and wiser, but she still has her moments. They just aren't ever two seconds. She's so different from Kaoru now though. You know what I mean. Kaoru, even though she is still always smiling, its not all rainbows and bubbles. There is more sophistication there, and it seems more like its there for assurance rather than to cheer you up. I don't think I can really explain it.
Lately, she seemed to use that tendency more often. She smiles to please people. She's not filled with happiness anymore Kenshin. Not like Misao. And I have to wonder if its because of you.
Both girls found what made them most happy. Their true loves. But the difference between Kaoru and Misao's situations is that Aoshi has never left Misao's side. Either because she won't let him, or he doesn't want to. Maybe both.
But you did leave Kaoru, maybe not for good, but you have left her too many times. And I don't understand why she lets you go. She never used to. She clung so hard, and was determined not to let you wander before you were married. So why does she accept it now? She believes so bad that you will come back. But what if something terrible happens? What if this last time, you don't come back? No matter how much you want to come home, things happen.
I'm sorry. I suppose I am still angry at both of you for how you are behaving. How you two have always behaved when it came to matters of your relationship. I just want to see Kaoru smile for real again. I think you know that the world is pretty dark when she doesn't smile. At least the dojo is. Just come back. Make her smile. I can't do it. Besides, when I try, she thinks I'm up to something.