Linda continued. "I tried to forget about it, but I couldn't. Soon after,
Andrew left town, I never saw him again. A couple of months later I found
out I was pregnant, I thought about having an abortion but by the time I
found out, it was too late. Mom and Dad thought the baby was yours but I
told them it wasn't, I didn't tell them I was raped though. I've never told
anyone. So I had the baby, a little girl. The nurse handed you to me but I
couldn't hold you. I didn't want to hold you, as soon as you were born, I
could see him in you." Linda looked up at Rachel as tears rolled down her
cheeks and nodded. "I still can. So I told them I wanted you adopted and
they got the adoption people in that afternoon I signed the papers as soon
as I could and then they took you away. God, you must think I'm horrible. I
knew none of this is your fault and I wished, still wish, that I had it in
me to keep you and love you. But I didn't and I don't. Even now, I look
into your eyes and I see him and I'm reminded of what he did to me. So I'm
sorry, but if you were thinking that maybe we could get to know each other
and become Mother and daughter, I'm sorry but I can't and I won't." Linda
said looking at Rachel as tears began rolling down her and Rachel's cheeks.
Rachel nodded, "I understand, I'm just sorry that you hate me so much. Don't worry, you won't hear from me again." Rachel said as she cried. "Just one more thing. Did he know you were pregnant?"
Linda shook her head. "No, he left before I found out."
"Ok. Bye........... Mom." Rachel started walking towards the door.
"Wait!"
Rachel turned around to Linda. Linda got up off the couch and walked over to her and stood opposite Rachel. Linda looked at her for a second and embraced her in a hug. Rachel hugged her back, tears streaming down both of their faces. Linda gently pulled away.
"I'm so sorry, for everything." Linda said through her tears. "From what I see of the woman standing infront of me I can tell she was raised by a caring, honest and loving family. I could never have given you that. I did what I thought was best for you and for me. If I'd have kept you I would've ended up hating you and I didn't want that. You were a small, innocent baby who knew nothing and I didn't want to punish you for what someone else had done to me. But maybe I've done that anyway..."
Rachel nodded, "I understand, I'm just sorry that you hate me so much. Don't worry, you won't hear from me again." Rachel said as she cried. "Just one more thing. Did he know you were pregnant?"
Linda shook her head. "No, he left before I found out."
"Ok. Bye........... Mom." Rachel started walking towards the door.
"Wait!"
Rachel turned around to Linda. Linda got up off the couch and walked over to her and stood opposite Rachel. Linda looked at her for a second and embraced her in a hug. Rachel hugged her back, tears streaming down both of their faces. Linda gently pulled away.
"I'm so sorry, for everything." Linda said through her tears. "From what I see of the woman standing infront of me I can tell she was raised by a caring, honest and loving family. I could never have given you that. I did what I thought was best for you and for me. If I'd have kept you I would've ended up hating you and I didn't want that. You were a small, innocent baby who knew nothing and I didn't want to punish you for what someone else had done to me. But maybe I've done that anyway..."