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Summary:Yohji muses late at night about his life.Songfic.
Lyrics:Bottom of a Bottle-Smile Empty Soul.
/lyrics/ "Speech" ~Thoughts~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ /Been scared and lonely,I've asked myself
Is something wrong with you,My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues/
Yohji put down the bottle."Why do I even bother.....?" He knew the answer,although he didn't want to admit it. ~I haven't had a date in weeks. None of the women are like Asuka anyway..They just aren't enough~ The women had stopped seeing him because they thought he needed "help".
/Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find/
He puts the bottle to his lips,finishing it. ~Nothing's ever enough.....~
/I do it for the drugs,I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love,That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle/
He digs out another bottle,opening it.~I guess this is what i've resorted to.... ..Pathetic.~
/You always call me,And ask me how I make it throught the day
I'm always fallin,I guess it's just god's way of
Making me big/
~Omi's been coming up to my door lately.The chibi's pretty worried...He comes and leaves food by my door....And a few hours later to pick it back up.~ He sighs leaning against the window frame,not really caring about the cold draft. ~Thank god there haven't been any missions.....I'm in no shape for them....~
/Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find/ ~I need SOMETHING to give me a reason to live....anything...~
He leans his head back to blink away the tears.
~I need a focus...no one cares............I need someone........~
/I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle/ He quickly chugs back half the bottle,letting the tears fall.
~No one cares...Not even me..........~ /And I,I wonder why I try
And I,Wonder why I bother
And I,I wonder why I cry
Why I,I go through all this trouble I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle./
He turns ,dropping the bottle and faces the open window.As the bottle hits the floor and shatters, Yohji feels something inside himself give way. ~Is it really worth it?........~ A wall of emotion hits him hard as he realizes the implications of what he just thought. /I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle./ He crumples to the floor,in tears and whispers to himself."Even if it isn't worth it....I'll hang on..." ".....For now......"
Summary:Yohji muses late at night about his life.Songfic.
Lyrics:Bottom of a Bottle-Smile Empty Soul.
/lyrics/ "Speech" ~Thoughts~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ /Been scared and lonely,I've asked myself
Is something wrong with you,My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues/
Yohji put down the bottle."Why do I even bother.....?" He knew the answer,although he didn't want to admit it. ~I haven't had a date in weeks. None of the women are like Asuka anyway..They just aren't enough~ The women had stopped seeing him because they thought he needed "help".
/Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find/
He puts the bottle to his lips,finishing it. ~Nothing's ever enough.....~
/I do it for the drugs,I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love,That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle/
He digs out another bottle,opening it.~I guess this is what i've resorted to.... ..Pathetic.~
/You always call me,And ask me how I make it throught the day
I'm always fallin,I guess it's just god's way of
Making me big/
~Omi's been coming up to my door lately.The chibi's pretty worried...He comes and leaves food by my door....And a few hours later to pick it back up.~ He sighs leaning against the window frame,not really caring about the cold draft. ~Thank god there haven't been any missions.....I'm in no shape for them....~
/Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find/ ~I need SOMETHING to give me a reason to live....anything...~
He leans his head back to blink away the tears.
~I need a focus...no one cares............I need someone........~
/I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle/ He quickly chugs back half the bottle,letting the tears fall.
~No one cares...Not even me..........~ /And I,I wonder why I try
And I,Wonder why I bother
And I,I wonder why I cry
Why I,I go through all this trouble I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle./
He turns ,dropping the bottle and faces the open window.As the bottle hits the floor and shatters, Yohji feels something inside himself give way. ~Is it really worth it?........~ A wall of emotion hits him hard as he realizes the implications of what he just thought. /I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle./ He crumples to the floor,in tears and whispers to himself."Even if it isn't worth it....I'll hang on..." ".....For now......"