"Through the back window of a '59 wagon
I watched my best friend Jamie slippin' further away
I kept on waving 'till I couldn't see her"
She closed her eyes as a slow country song turned on, on the radio. Sitting on a bed at a small, quite dirty hotel, of which she didn't know the name with her hands in her lap she contimplated what had happened. *No she thought I didn't keep waving till I couldn't see him, I ran away from it, ran away from the pain...* And of course she was right, as she always was.
"And through my tears, I asked again why we couldn't stay
Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your pain"
And still she wasn't quite sure of the reason she couldn't have stayed with him. All she knew was that he was gone, and he would never come back. She'd missed out on something special, she was sure of it. Her friends were all off comforting each other, but here she was alone again....But then again she was always alone.. She convinced herself there would be others like there had been before..Time would ease her pain...And then again she remembered times where she had been wrong, and realized this may be one of those times...Her tears stained her face, as they had done so many times before, but these tears were different...
"Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same"
She nodded as the words gracefully flowed from the voice of Pam Tillis. Life was about changing, and he knew that..Somehow he did.. And she thought about the times in high school, college, and even after...Never did anything stay the same. But for some reason she was happy they didn't..She was happy she'd experienced all she did..The heartbreak, the laughter, the love, the betrayal and finally the loss.. It was all so different, yet so much the same...
"And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye?
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye?"
And then, and only then, did she break down and cry like she wanted to. Hearing that it was Ok, comforted her. But she knew no one could help her say goodbye, to another love lost, not even pursued... She would have to do that on her own as she did so many times before... Losing this love wouldn't be a first, although everytime it happened it felt just as bad...She sighed to herself *Let go...say goodbye..*..But she couldn't..
"I sat on our bed, he packed his suitcase
I held a picture of our wedding day
His hands were trembling, we both were crying
He kissed me gently and then he quickly walked away"
Ok, she thought *maybe this doesn't apply to me..* Although it still did, he had packed his suitcase, he had left before..His hands had trembled and we both cried at times... Then remembering him kissing her gently, and walking away sent shivers down her spine and she could only help but think that he knew how much she regretted everything she'd done in the past year...
"Sitting with Mama alone in her bedroom
She opened her eyes, and then squeezed my hand
She said, I have to go now, my time here is over
And with her final word, she tried to help me understand"
Holding his hands, for one moment, she held everything.. And she knew his time was over, but never did she want to let go. Something inside her made her leave.. made her turn away and run.. She replayed his bits of humour in his final words, and smiled. *Always my brave champion*, he's made her leave, she finally understood. His love for her had lead him to believing he couldn't die with her, he had to do it alone... If anything had happened to her....
She heard a knock on the door, and there was a man. A man from her dreams long ago. He stepped into the room and looked seriously about... "I'm sorry..." he whispered as the words flew off his tongue. She nodded and walked to the stereo turning it up a bit... "Life's about changing, you know" she said to him and he smiled..Life had changed in just a small frame of time and they realized it...
The final chorus came on and they both looked at each other..They knew nothing had changed between them, no matter how much they tried to deny it.....
"And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye?
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye?"
He pulled her close to him and held her...He wanted to help her say goodbye..He wanted to drive away all the pain that he and others had caused in her life..And he knew tonight was as good as a night to start as any.. And they fell asleep together, wrapped in each others arms... Her Angel held her close...And she said goodbye.....
"How can I help you to say goodbye?"
I watched my best friend Jamie slippin' further away
I kept on waving 'till I couldn't see her"
She closed her eyes as a slow country song turned on, on the radio. Sitting on a bed at a small, quite dirty hotel, of which she didn't know the name with her hands in her lap she contimplated what had happened. *No she thought I didn't keep waving till I couldn't see him, I ran away from it, ran away from the pain...* And of course she was right, as she always was.
"And through my tears, I asked again why we couldn't stay
Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your pain"
And still she wasn't quite sure of the reason she couldn't have stayed with him. All she knew was that he was gone, and he would never come back. She'd missed out on something special, she was sure of it. Her friends were all off comforting each other, but here she was alone again....But then again she was always alone.. She convinced herself there would be others like there had been before..Time would ease her pain...And then again she remembered times where she had been wrong, and realized this may be one of those times...Her tears stained her face, as they had done so many times before, but these tears were different...
"Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same"
She nodded as the words gracefully flowed from the voice of Pam Tillis. Life was about changing, and he knew that..Somehow he did.. And she thought about the times in high school, college, and even after...Never did anything stay the same. But for some reason she was happy they didn't..She was happy she'd experienced all she did..The heartbreak, the laughter, the love, the betrayal and finally the loss.. It was all so different, yet so much the same...
"And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye?
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye?"
And then, and only then, did she break down and cry like she wanted to. Hearing that it was Ok, comforted her. But she knew no one could help her say goodbye, to another love lost, not even pursued... She would have to do that on her own as she did so many times before... Losing this love wouldn't be a first, although everytime it happened it felt just as bad...She sighed to herself *Let go...say goodbye..*..But she couldn't..
"I sat on our bed, he packed his suitcase
I held a picture of our wedding day
His hands were trembling, we both were crying
He kissed me gently and then he quickly walked away"
Ok, she thought *maybe this doesn't apply to me..* Although it still did, he had packed his suitcase, he had left before..His hands had trembled and we both cried at times... Then remembering him kissing her gently, and walking away sent shivers down her spine and she could only help but think that he knew how much she regretted everything she'd done in the past year...
"Sitting with Mama alone in her bedroom
She opened her eyes, and then squeezed my hand
She said, I have to go now, my time here is over
And with her final word, she tried to help me understand"
Holding his hands, for one moment, she held everything.. And she knew his time was over, but never did she want to let go. Something inside her made her leave.. made her turn away and run.. She replayed his bits of humour in his final words, and smiled. *Always my brave champion*, he's made her leave, she finally understood. His love for her had lead him to believing he couldn't die with her, he had to do it alone... If anything had happened to her....
She heard a knock on the door, and there was a man. A man from her dreams long ago. He stepped into the room and looked seriously about... "I'm sorry..." he whispered as the words flew off his tongue. She nodded and walked to the stereo turning it up a bit... "Life's about changing, you know" she said to him and he smiled..Life had changed in just a small frame of time and they realized it...
The final chorus came on and they both looked at each other..They knew nothing had changed between them, no matter how much they tried to deny it.....
"And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye?
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye?"
He pulled her close to him and held her...He wanted to help her say goodbye..He wanted to drive away all the pain that he and others had caused in her life..And he knew tonight was as good as a night to start as any.. And they fell asleep together, wrapped in each others arms... Her Angel held her close...And she said goodbye.....
"How can I help you to say goodbye?"