As if my inability to write romance has not already been proven, here's
more ammo. The song "Always" by Saliva just screams Nny and Devi (no, not
literally. Then it wouldn't really be music. Just incessant screaming.) So
I don't own either of them or this song. Happy now? Don't answer.
Always
The voices in Nny's head are annoying as always. They tell him to die, to live, to kill, to leave be and everything in between. In between Reverend Meat's rants, he spots a picture of Devi out of the corner of his eye. She never gave it to him, of course. He got it out of the yearbook that a very overgrown cheerleader was carrying, still trying to live out their high school years even though they looked as though they should have graduated from college. It wasn't the best picture of her, but still beautiful in his eyes. If only she didn't hate him so.
I hear A voice saying don't be so blind It's telling me all these things That you would probably hide Am I Your one and only desire? Am I the reason you breathe? Or am I the reason you cry?
His frustration builds as he clenches his fists and squints his eyes closed, trying to keep from snapping.
Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you
He opens his eyes and springs up from his chair. "Now where are you going?" "Where do you think?"
I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore it's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you Done with you, done with you, done with you
Nny drives and listens to something in his headphones. He runs into a cat, a trashcan and an elderly lady with a walker. None of it phases the expression on his face.
I feel Like you don't want me around I guess I'll pack all my things I guess I'll see you around It's all Been bottled up until now As I walk out your door All I can hear is the sound
He pulls up beside an apartment building and looks up to a light in a room with red paint spattering on the windows. "This is it."
Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you
Devi sits at her canvas, trying to paint something when she hears footsteps coming up the stairs. "Must be Tenna again.", she thinks to herself. She opens the door, only to be greeted by Johnny. His eyes lock with hers as he backs her into the room and starts on a rather lyrical rant.
I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore it's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Devi pulls a loaded gun out of her purse and aims it at Johnny. He backs toward the window a little, but looks like he doesn't care that a potentially lethal weapon is aimed right at him.
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I wrap my head around your heart Why would you tear my world apart?
He reaches in his pocket to pull out something, presumably a knife. Devi pulls the trigger in fear and shuts her eyes for a few seconds, not wanting to look at what she just did.
Always Always Always Always
She opens her eyes, one part of her satisfied to see her attempted murderer lying on the broken glass of a windowsill and the other screaming at her for shooting the one that deep down, she knew she loved.
I see The blood all over your hands Does it make you feel More like a man? Was it all Just a part of your plan? The pistol's shaking in my hand And all I hear is the sound
With an arm over the gun wound in his side, Nny managed to get up, panting for breath and holding the thing from his pocket. He dropped the little piece of paper on the floor. "If you wanted me to leave so badly, why didn't you just tell me?"
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take any more It's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door And now I'm done with you
"No, I." Devi started to protest what he was going to do, but it was too late for words. "I'm sorry. For everything." Nny let himself fall backwards out of the broken window and onto the sidewalk far below.
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't live without you I just can't take any more It's like a solid cell I pick myself off the floor And now I'm done with you
She picked up the paper on the floor and saw through the drops of blood that it was nothing more than her picture. So she killed him for nothing? It was bad that he tried to do it to her, but she had gone beyond revenge. This was just as bad as what he had done to all the others that came before her.
Always Always Always Always
She looked down at the corpse with blood slowly seeping from its head as a tear flowed down her cheek like a miniature stream. "I love you, I hate you. But I just can't live without you." Those were her last words before she turned the gun on herself.
Always
The voices in Nny's head are annoying as always. They tell him to die, to live, to kill, to leave be and everything in between. In between Reverend Meat's rants, he spots a picture of Devi out of the corner of his eye. She never gave it to him, of course. He got it out of the yearbook that a very overgrown cheerleader was carrying, still trying to live out their high school years even though they looked as though they should have graduated from college. It wasn't the best picture of her, but still beautiful in his eyes. If only she didn't hate him so.
I hear A voice saying don't be so blind It's telling me all these things That you would probably hide Am I Your one and only desire? Am I the reason you breathe? Or am I the reason you cry?
His frustration builds as he clenches his fists and squints his eyes closed, trying to keep from snapping.
Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you
He opens his eyes and springs up from his chair. "Now where are you going?" "Where do you think?"
I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore it's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you Done with you, done with you, done with you
Nny drives and listens to something in his headphones. He runs into a cat, a trashcan and an elderly lady with a walker. None of it phases the expression on his face.
I feel Like you don't want me around I guess I'll pack all my things I guess I'll see you around It's all Been bottled up until now As I walk out your door All I can hear is the sound
He pulls up beside an apartment building and looks up to a light in a room with red paint spattering on the windows. "This is it."
Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you
Devi sits at her canvas, trying to paint something when she hears footsteps coming up the stairs. "Must be Tenna again.", she thinks to herself. She opens the door, only to be greeted by Johnny. His eyes lock with hers as he backs her into the room and starts on a rather lyrical rant.
I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore it's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Devi pulls a loaded gun out of her purse and aims it at Johnny. He backs toward the window a little, but looks like he doesn't care that a potentially lethal weapon is aimed right at him.
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I wrap my head around your heart Why would you tear my world apart?
He reaches in his pocket to pull out something, presumably a knife. Devi pulls the trigger in fear and shuts her eyes for a few seconds, not wanting to look at what she just did.
Always Always Always Always
She opens her eyes, one part of her satisfied to see her attempted murderer lying on the broken glass of a windowsill and the other screaming at her for shooting the one that deep down, she knew she loved.
I see The blood all over your hands Does it make you feel More like a man? Was it all Just a part of your plan? The pistol's shaking in my hand And all I hear is the sound
With an arm over the gun wound in his side, Nny managed to get up, panting for breath and holding the thing from his pocket. He dropped the little piece of paper on the floor. "If you wanted me to leave so badly, why didn't you just tell me?"
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take any more It's like a solid cell I guess that I'm out the door And now I'm done with you
"No, I." Devi started to protest what he was going to do, but it was too late for words. "I'm sorry. For everything." Nny let himself fall backwards out of the broken window and onto the sidewalk far below.
I love you I hate you I can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't live without you I just can't take any more It's like a solid cell I pick myself off the floor And now I'm done with you
She picked up the paper on the floor and saw through the drops of blood that it was nothing more than her picture. So she killed him for nothing? It was bad that he tried to do it to her, but she had gone beyond revenge. This was just as bad as what he had done to all the others that came before her.
Always Always Always Always
She looked down at the corpse with blood slowly seeping from its head as a tear flowed down her cheek like a miniature stream. "I love you, I hate you. But I just can't live without you." Those were her last words before she turned the gun on herself.