Chapter 3

A few minutes into my work I recognize the familiar strains of I song I know enter the room.

The sign says "Do not touch" -you're out of bounds

Your forbidden fruit, don't come around

It says don't make plans 'cause in your hand

Is a promise made to another man

Isn't that just like somebody you know...

'Cause when you're around my defenses go down

Feelings get stronger, looks get longer

The closer you come, the weaker I get

If it ain't happened now, just ain't happened yet

So please, please, please go

I'm not strong enough to say no

Please, please don't stay

I'm not man enough to walk away

Please, please pass by

I can't resist you even though I try

So please go, I'm not strong enough to say no

This song is so true. I set down my pen, and remember all the times she and I spent together. When I think of my future, she's always there by my side. When I hear the word "wife" I think of her. When I dream of my children they always look like a mixture of her and me.

The sign says "Slow down - Slippery ice"

You've got dangerous curves, don't think twice

It says, "Not For Sale," you're spoken for

Just take your heart and walk out the door

'Cause when you're around my defenses go down

Feelings get stronger, looks get longer

The closer you come, the weaker I get

If it ain't happened now, just ain't happened yet

So please, please, please go

I'm not strong enough to say no

Please, please don't stay

I'm not man enough to walk away

Please, please pass by

I can't resist you even though I try

So please go, I'm not strong enough to say no

This song explains so eloquently what I just can't put into words. Yeah, that about sums it up, my life story.

Don't say I didn't warn you, don't say you didn't know

Don't wait till it's too late and then try to go

The closer you come, the weaker I get

If it ain't happened now, just ain't happened yet

I'm beggin' you baby please, please, please go

I'm not strong enough to say no

Please, please don't stay

I'm not man enough to walk away

Please, please pass by

I can't resist you even though I try

So please go, I'm not strong enough to say no

The song fades away. Yet as I go back to my work it plays over and over in my head. I can't stop it anymore than I can stop loving my partner and best friend.

There's a knock at my door, "Come in." I grumble still thinking about my encounter with Mac this morning and suddenly the song starts all over again. I don't even need to look up, I already know who it is..