By Hannio
Chapter three
And we all fall down
DISCLAIMER:I don't own either Heero or Trowa but I do own the characters of Katie and Kevin
AUTHOR NOTE: Well here's chapter three of this 1x3 story. It slightly dark and sad and you may think that Trowa is over reacting but I don't think he is. He's just had the biggest shock that the man he loves has a child and that to be the dad meant he cheated on him, so he's kinda gonna want to get away from it all to think about it.
Anyway I hope you enjoy it and I'll see about chapter four shortly, it will probably be in Heero's view cause we all wanna know his thoughts right?
Trowa's world collapsed, there was no other way that he could think of describing it. It felt as if this woman had taken his heart in her small hands and squeezed it until it burst. He leaned heavily against the door as his vision blurred slightly
"Hey are you ok?" the girl Katie's voice broke through the swirling thoughts of his mind and Trowa forced himself to look at her. He had to give her credit, for someone who had just ruined someone else's life she definitely looked calm about it even though she had a look of worry in her eyes as she watched him. She reached out her hand to touch his arm in comfort but he snatched it away before she could touch him.
"I'm fine" he said his face and voice expressionless. She looked surprised
"Are you sure?" she queried again "For a moment I thought you were going to collapse or something" Trowa looked at her carefully making sure he placed a wall over his eyes to stop her seeing the pain inside
"You were wrong" he replied. She was obviously uncomfortable as she kept shifting her weight from one foot to another and dry washing her hands. Trowa almost felt sorry for her. Almost. He now spoke calmly "As I have told you… what was your name again?" he questioned she looked up and licked her lips through nervousness again
"Erm my full name is Kathryn but all my friends and acquaintances call me Katie instead" Trowa smiled slightly but there was no warmth in it, it was a bare movement of the lips
"Well Kathryn as I have told you Heero isn't here and I'm not aware of a time he'll be back. There is no point of you waiting here, your child" he glanced back at the boy ignoring the pain in his heart "Will get cold, if you give me a number I'll tell him to get in contact with you" Katie started Trowa noticed, obviously she had expected him to invite her and her son in and his calm refusal had taken the wind out of her sails for a moment.
"Oh of course, it is quite late and Kevin should be getting off to bed" she said as she searched through her bag for a pen and paper. Trowa remained silent "Oh there you are" she said to herself and pulled out the two things she needed. She leaned the pad against the doorframe and wrote it down. She handed it to Trowa with a smile "Thank you for your help what was your name sorry I didn't catch it" Trowa shrugged
"It's not important after all your business is with Heero not with me" again she looked startled and looked away
"Anyway thank you and please make sure Heero gets the message. Bye"
"Goodbye" Trowa replied automatically and closed the door firmly. He stared at the paper for a long time resisting the urge to rip it to shred. Instead he dropped it by the phone and went into the living room dropping down on the coach. He stared blankly ahead of him, focusing on controlling his breathing.
What the hell had that woman done to them both, why now after everything did she have to come and ruin it all for them both? They had tried so hard to rebuild a normal life and she came and had to shatter it. He bit his lip and looked down. Of course it meant that Heero had cheated on him. The pain in his chest expanded to the point he clutched at it. He desperately wanted to cry but his training didn't allow for tears, even after all this time. He was glad for it at times likes these. It was the only way he had managed to talk to her without killing her, as he wanted to do.
A grim smile came to his lips. He couldn't believe how much it hurt. It brought back all the memories with a painful clearness about why he refused to let people grow close to him in the first place but instead he had been fooled again trusting them all. He gave a small bitter laugh. Of course he had trusted Heero the most, after all it was Heero he loved not any of the others.
He looked around him at the home they had created. What was he going to do now? He'd have to move out. He had been foolish once to let them all in but he wasn't going to make that mistake again. He would leave that very night and not give Heero an address. He'd let Heero settle down with Katie and his son it was the only thing he could do now. He stood up and walked to the bedroom and began packing. It didn't take too long, he left all the things that reminded him of Heero and had taken only what he needed.
He'd go to Quatre and take some time to heal than move on. He couldn't return to the circus, if Heero could be bothered to look for him then that would be the first place he would look.
"I'll think about it later" he muttered and even to himself his voice sounded hollow and lifeless. He didn't bother looking in the mirror because he already knew exactly what he would see.
He gave a final glance round his bedroom and picked up the suitcase and walked towards the door, as he approached it opened. His heart exploded in pain again as he saw Heero look up at him, the Prussian blue eyes he loved sparkled while the well cut lips, he had kissed countless of times, curved into a warm smile. The smile he had thought was strictly for him.
"Trowa" he said then his eyes dropped to the suitcase, Trowa's hand tightened automatically on it, then he brought them back up to stare into Trowa's eyes. He could tell that he had startled the other boy by the expression in the blue eyes "Where are you going?" he asked in surprise "You going on a trip?" Trowa shook his head and the expression on Heero's face went emotionless though his eyes took on a look of dread "are you leaving me?" he asked softly, the voice reflecting the face Trowa looked at him memorising every inch of his face, from his features to the small scar above his eyebrow
"Yes" there was a harsh silence as they continued to stare at each other. Trowa almost smiled for an instant he thought he saw Heero's heart break in his eyes but it must have been his imagination. For the first time he questioned whether he was being too rash and stupid came to his mind but it was crushed by the image of Heero's son.
"Why?" Heero asked suddenly as Trowa went to pass him, Trowa looked down on him but Heero continued to stare straight ahead refusing to look at him
"You know why" he replied, Heero's mask dropped to show a look of confusion, Trowa walked on and opened the door that Heero had shut as he entered. "While I remember" he said a bitter edge coming to his voice that he couldn't hide, Heero turned his head towards him but nothing else "That number on the side you need to ring it. It's some girl called Katie, she wants to introduce you to your 4 year old son. Goodbye Heero" and with that he walked out and closed the door firmly behind him
There you go, kinda an abrupt ending I know but just go with it, next chapter will be Heero I think unless you want me to carry on doing it all in Trowa's like I have been doing? Put it in a review what you want but no flames though. Poor Old Trowa but remember people it is 1x3 for a reason