If there was anything I learned from you, besides learning to love, it was
that the little voice that whispers to your heart things you can barely
hear, is always right, and that you should always listen to it, no matter
how inconceivable the things it tells you.
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Here's the 5th chapter. I think exactly what the paper is, is starting to get a little more clear to some ^^-
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YYH ain't mine I tells ya.
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This wasn't good. I couldn't be blushing! I didn't REALLY have feelings for Hiei! How could anyone even fall in love with a guy like him? Wait, guy? OH CRAP!
"What the hell are you staring at fox?!" Hiei said getting angry at my late response.
"I'm . . . nothing." I told him as I rolled over to look away from him and over at my clock.
It was only 5:11 am . . . a little too early to be up for me. I usually slept in as much as I could; it's when I had the most time to think. Actually, I usually did wake up rather early, I just lie in bed and think for hours. But, it seems that my thoughts were all planned out for me this time . . . Hiei.
Then I remembered something, I wasn't safe even with my own thoughts.
Oh yes . . . Hiei can read minds. CRAP!
Of course, I don't think he cared enough to actually take the time to snoop around my thoughts, why would he care? If he did read my mind then I could most defiantly accuse him of have feelings for me now couldn't I?
Just the thought made my spine start to tingle.
I was taken away from my blush invoking thoughts when Hiei's mocking voice asked up at me, "So Kurama . . . what cha thinking?"
My eyes widened, my heart sank. Oh god he hadn't!
"W-Why do you ask?" I asked to him rolling on to my stomach and pulling my blanket over my head.
"Oh no reason . . . I just have a sneaky suspicion that you're thinking about trying to find that paper, but I hid it well so don't even bother trying." He told me, sounding sure of himself.
I popped my head up from out of it's resting place, buried deep within my pillow, and a wide smile came across my face in relief as I turned on my back and relaxed.
"Don't worry Hiei . . . I won't go looking for your little love note." I said acting as though I knew what it was in an attempt to get Hiei to tell me something like 'HOW DID YOU KNOW!' anything along those lines.
"Ha, ha." He grunted up at me sarcastically.
That failed miserably.
Back to more important manners . . . Hiei. Those thoughts still fresh in my mind . . . when I had reached out to catch him last night . . . it was as though I hadn't even tried, like my heart had took complete control of my actions, not allowing my brain to even think it over. As though something softly whisper to my heart, 'let him know you'll always be there for him, whenever he loses control.'
I remembered I had promised Hiei I'd try and find a way for him to get out of this, but I was know thinking more along the lines of how to keep him here.
And I felt somewhere inside me . . . that even though he didn't feel the same about me, that was okay. I didn't need him to. I felt complete with him just near me. That is what had made last nice so perfect looking up at those stars, Hiei was there looking up at the same sky I was.
And at this moment, I felt something I had never felt before in my entire existence . . . I felt real and true love for another.
Not like the love I have for my mother, I wouldn't call that love, that's a different emotion all together. This is the kind of love that makes mothers . . .
"Hiei, I just wanted to tell something . . ." I started feeling myself blush. "About that paper . . . I won't ask you what's on it until you tell me first. When you're ready to tell me . . . I'll be there to listen." I said to him feeling very happy with my current situation. Nothing could beat my life as it was right now. I had found someone to love . . . what could be better than that?
I heard no response from Hiei . . . and for some reason that made me want to start laughing with joy.
"Hiei . . . Hiei did you hear me?" I asked him, hiding it well that I was teasing him.
"I heard you fox." He grunted at me quickly.
"Alright then . . . well I'm going back to sleep . . . but if you'd like to talk to me just come on over and wake me up." I said to him blushing a lot more as I rolled over on my side facing towards Hiei.
I bundled up some of my comforter and held it tight in my arms as I closed my eyes with a smile on my face . . . if only it were Hiei . . . maybe someday.
Then something dawned on me . . . there would be no someday . . . at least not one with Hiei. I never would hold him in my arms, at least not unless it were an accident like it had been last night. I'd never get to hug him or kiss him . . .
I realized something that morning . . . finding someone to love is great, but if that someone doesn't love you back . . . it will hurt very much. One sided love . . . how depressing is that?
I released the bundle from my hands and turned over on my other side, looking away from Hiei . . . I stared out the window at the sun that had raised just a few minutes ago . . . it was so beautiful . . . but it was sad knowing that before long, it would turn hot and harsh.
I guess most happiness is short lived. Like mine was . . . and the thing was I couldn't just go back to the way I was, because now . . . now I loved Hiei . . . and I'd have to live with it, and with him.
I felt myself starting to tear up. I sniffed a little in a sad attempt to hold it back but, it only made my tears fall . . .
"Shut up fox, I thought you said you were going to sleep." Hiei snapped coldly at me.
My tears were getting a little easier to hold back now; I didn't want to cry, so I dare not say anything to Hiei. I had to get him out of my mind, out of my heart! I used my blanket to wipe off my wet eyes.
"I am . . ." I said under my breath, knowing that because I had let my words out my tears that I had been able to hold back I would lose control over, and I did.
Oh Kurama . . . how could you have been such an idiot?!
. . . An . . . idiot . . .
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Yugijouoh: I'm sorry that chapter was kind of short. But sense it was I'll try and get the next one up soon ^.~ PR! (Please review)
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Here's the 5th chapter. I think exactly what the paper is, is starting to get a little more clear to some ^^-
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YYH ain't mine I tells ya.
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This wasn't good. I couldn't be blushing! I didn't REALLY have feelings for Hiei! How could anyone even fall in love with a guy like him? Wait, guy? OH CRAP!
"What the hell are you staring at fox?!" Hiei said getting angry at my late response.
"I'm . . . nothing." I told him as I rolled over to look away from him and over at my clock.
It was only 5:11 am . . . a little too early to be up for me. I usually slept in as much as I could; it's when I had the most time to think. Actually, I usually did wake up rather early, I just lie in bed and think for hours. But, it seems that my thoughts were all planned out for me this time . . . Hiei.
Then I remembered something, I wasn't safe even with my own thoughts.
Oh yes . . . Hiei can read minds. CRAP!
Of course, I don't think he cared enough to actually take the time to snoop around my thoughts, why would he care? If he did read my mind then I could most defiantly accuse him of have feelings for me now couldn't I?
Just the thought made my spine start to tingle.
I was taken away from my blush invoking thoughts when Hiei's mocking voice asked up at me, "So Kurama . . . what cha thinking?"
My eyes widened, my heart sank. Oh god he hadn't!
"W-Why do you ask?" I asked to him rolling on to my stomach and pulling my blanket over my head.
"Oh no reason . . . I just have a sneaky suspicion that you're thinking about trying to find that paper, but I hid it well so don't even bother trying." He told me, sounding sure of himself.
I popped my head up from out of it's resting place, buried deep within my pillow, and a wide smile came across my face in relief as I turned on my back and relaxed.
"Don't worry Hiei . . . I won't go looking for your little love note." I said acting as though I knew what it was in an attempt to get Hiei to tell me something like 'HOW DID YOU KNOW!' anything along those lines.
"Ha, ha." He grunted up at me sarcastically.
That failed miserably.
Back to more important manners . . . Hiei. Those thoughts still fresh in my mind . . . when I had reached out to catch him last night . . . it was as though I hadn't even tried, like my heart had took complete control of my actions, not allowing my brain to even think it over. As though something softly whisper to my heart, 'let him know you'll always be there for him, whenever he loses control.'
I remembered I had promised Hiei I'd try and find a way for him to get out of this, but I was know thinking more along the lines of how to keep him here.
And I felt somewhere inside me . . . that even though he didn't feel the same about me, that was okay. I didn't need him to. I felt complete with him just near me. That is what had made last nice so perfect looking up at those stars, Hiei was there looking up at the same sky I was.
And at this moment, I felt something I had never felt before in my entire existence . . . I felt real and true love for another.
Not like the love I have for my mother, I wouldn't call that love, that's a different emotion all together. This is the kind of love that makes mothers . . .
"Hiei, I just wanted to tell something . . ." I started feeling myself blush. "About that paper . . . I won't ask you what's on it until you tell me first. When you're ready to tell me . . . I'll be there to listen." I said to him feeling very happy with my current situation. Nothing could beat my life as it was right now. I had found someone to love . . . what could be better than that?
I heard no response from Hiei . . . and for some reason that made me want to start laughing with joy.
"Hiei . . . Hiei did you hear me?" I asked him, hiding it well that I was teasing him.
"I heard you fox." He grunted at me quickly.
"Alright then . . . well I'm going back to sleep . . . but if you'd like to talk to me just come on over and wake me up." I said to him blushing a lot more as I rolled over on my side facing towards Hiei.
I bundled up some of my comforter and held it tight in my arms as I closed my eyes with a smile on my face . . . if only it were Hiei . . . maybe someday.
Then something dawned on me . . . there would be no someday . . . at least not one with Hiei. I never would hold him in my arms, at least not unless it were an accident like it had been last night. I'd never get to hug him or kiss him . . .
I realized something that morning . . . finding someone to love is great, but if that someone doesn't love you back . . . it will hurt very much. One sided love . . . how depressing is that?
I released the bundle from my hands and turned over on my other side, looking away from Hiei . . . I stared out the window at the sun that had raised just a few minutes ago . . . it was so beautiful . . . but it was sad knowing that before long, it would turn hot and harsh.
I guess most happiness is short lived. Like mine was . . . and the thing was I couldn't just go back to the way I was, because now . . . now I loved Hiei . . . and I'd have to live with it, and with him.
I felt myself starting to tear up. I sniffed a little in a sad attempt to hold it back but, it only made my tears fall . . .
"Shut up fox, I thought you said you were going to sleep." Hiei snapped coldly at me.
My tears were getting a little easier to hold back now; I didn't want to cry, so I dare not say anything to Hiei. I had to get him out of my mind, out of my heart! I used my blanket to wipe off my wet eyes.
"I am . . ." I said under my breath, knowing that because I had let my words out my tears that I had been able to hold back I would lose control over, and I did.
Oh Kurama . . . how could you have been such an idiot?!
. . . An . . . idiot . . .
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Yugijouoh: I'm sorry that chapter was kind of short. But sense it was I'll try and get the next one up soon ^.~ PR! (Please review)