So many things I made up to hide it from you. It wasn't right to do so . .
. I should have just accepted happiness without questioning my reasons for
it. But I lied to you . . . and you left me, without ever wanting to go.
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Alright here is the 7th chapter! I hope I don't wait as long as I did to get this chapter up with the next one . . . ^^' I don't like waiting. Heheh . . .
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Don't own nothing.
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"But I would never forgive myself if I didn't . . ." I said quietly to him, holding back tears.
"NO! I assure you . . . if you give it enough time . . . any feeling will go away." Hiei said to me looking as though he almost didn't mean it.
"Hiei . . . is there . . . or was there . . . someone you loved but didn't let them know, hoping it would go away?" I asked as I walked over closer to him and put my hand his shoulder.
Hiei jerked away and gave me a mean look. I wasn't sure if that was a yes or a no.
"Don't try and come on to me fox! Just get yourself downstairs, I'll be down when I'm ready to be!" Hiei said to me harshly.
I think I had hurt him in some way . . . perhaps something I said.
"Alright Hiei," I started backing away and gazing at him softly. "I'll be waiting."
I walked out the door and started down the stairs.
I had figured out what I would do, I would still be nice to Hiei like I was before, only with a different twist on it, one that said I love you and will always be willing to have you if ever you want me to. I wouldn't be depressed or saddened by the fact that he didn't love me. Because he might one day, you never know. And at least I did know one thing, Hiei being as cold as he was . . . I wouldn't have to be tortured by seeing him with someone else. He would be all mine, and yet not at all. It all seemed like a terribly good book . . . wait . . . BOOK!
I need my schoolbooks!
After realizing this I walked back up the stairs and into my room, to find Hiei crawling over my bed again. When he saw me he stopped dead in his tracks and quickly, clearly hoping for me not to notice, hid something under my pillow. It must be that stupid paper again. He was just ASKING for me to read it!! He made it SO tempting! The way he was trying to keep it from me!
"Hiei give it here!" I said to him playfully as I jumped over on my bed, catching him off guard.
Before he had a chance to get away I threw myself on top of him and pinned him down with my right hand and the rest of my body. I used my left hand to reach under my pillow, which was also under his head, and fish around for the paper.
I would have done a better job of trying to get it if my body wasn't so . . . on . . . Hiei. OH GOD!
I started to blush again as I look down at his beautiful, red, demon eyes. Normally I would have just quickly gotten off of him. But instead I let a soft and caring smile escape onto my lips. My eyes were fixed on him, giving off all the kindness I was offering, all the love I held for only him.
He was still. Emotionless. Until suddenly he jerked up and kissed me!
Okay . . . that was unexpected. But welcomed defiantly! Oh yes for sure.
He then grabbed my hands with his and moved them lower, making them start to remove his shirt.
It was strange . . . why was he acting like this? Whatever the reason, I didn't mind. In fact I liked it.
As soon as I had removed his shirt he started to work on mine. His hands slid across my back . . . it made me shiver. Finally he had my shirt off! I reached around him and pulled him close to me, hugging him softly overwhelmed with the joy of holding him in my arms like I had wanted so badly before.
I rested on top of him, my head lying on his should next to his ear. I slowly and soft lifted my head a little and whispered to him, "I love you . . ."
He looked up at me strangely for a second, but then he smirked at me and started laughing.
"Why do you think I did that Kurama? Did you think that maybe I had feelings for YOU!? If so you're even stupider than I thought." He said to me still laughing.
"Hiei, even if you don't have feelings for me . . . I still love you." I told him still smiling sweetly at him.
He grunted, then pushed me off of him. He lifted his head and turned to me and asked, "So then tell me . . . why do you think I kissed you?"
"Because, you don't want me to see that paper." I answered with a knowing smirk as I ducked over to reach under my bed.
"Stop it," Hiei said angrily as he reached out, grabbed my arm and pulled me back up.
"I had a feeling." I said to him mockingly.
"Well I suggest you stop trying to look at it, it wouldn't interest you anyhow." He told me letting go of my arm.
"Oh really? Tell me about it, then I'll decided what I'm not interested in."
What in Reikai's name was on that paper!! It was really starting to bug me . . .
"Fine. It's just sample handwriting in different languages, nothing to get so worked up over."
"You're lying Hiei, you wouldn't keep trying to keep it from me like this if that was all it was."
"If you don't believe me than look at it!" He told me folding his arms and looking away.
"Alright."
I reached under the bed and pulled out the paper. Hiei looked very nervous, he wouldn't look so scared if he didn't have something to hide!!
I slowly unfolded the paper and looked at it. Sure enough, there was writing on it in a few different languages . . . so . . . was this really what he was trying to hide? I didn't bother to read it . . . I just stuck it in my pocket to keep. (Well it belong to Hiei, of course I wanted it.)
"So you see no big deal." He said nervously.
He still looked very frightened, although in a Hiei sort of way, meaning it didn't show up very well.
"So Hiei, did you write that? And if so then why in so many different languages?" I asked grabbing my shirt and putting it back on. I was so going to be late for school.
"You didn't read it?" He snapped back at me in shock.
"No, not yet. I will sooner or later I just don't have the time right now. Speaking of such, we really do have to get downstairs." I said as I in a joking sort of way as I grabbed Hiei's shirt and started to put it on him.
He didn't stop me from doing it, he didn't see any danger in it.
"Okay . . . but we're not holding hands!"
"Oh Hiei c'mon it's for your own good!"
"What do you mean!? If anything it would make your 'mother' want to keep me here longer!"
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I really should have read that there and then . . .
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Yugijouoh: Heheh ^_^ well I hope you liked that chappy! PLEASE REVIEW!
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Alright here is the 7th chapter! I hope I don't wait as long as I did to get this chapter up with the next one . . . ^^' I don't like waiting. Heheh . . .
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Don't own nothing.
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"But I would never forgive myself if I didn't . . ." I said quietly to him, holding back tears.
"NO! I assure you . . . if you give it enough time . . . any feeling will go away." Hiei said to me looking as though he almost didn't mean it.
"Hiei . . . is there . . . or was there . . . someone you loved but didn't let them know, hoping it would go away?" I asked as I walked over closer to him and put my hand his shoulder.
Hiei jerked away and gave me a mean look. I wasn't sure if that was a yes or a no.
"Don't try and come on to me fox! Just get yourself downstairs, I'll be down when I'm ready to be!" Hiei said to me harshly.
I think I had hurt him in some way . . . perhaps something I said.
"Alright Hiei," I started backing away and gazing at him softly. "I'll be waiting."
I walked out the door and started down the stairs.
I had figured out what I would do, I would still be nice to Hiei like I was before, only with a different twist on it, one that said I love you and will always be willing to have you if ever you want me to. I wouldn't be depressed or saddened by the fact that he didn't love me. Because he might one day, you never know. And at least I did know one thing, Hiei being as cold as he was . . . I wouldn't have to be tortured by seeing him with someone else. He would be all mine, and yet not at all. It all seemed like a terribly good book . . . wait . . . BOOK!
I need my schoolbooks!
After realizing this I walked back up the stairs and into my room, to find Hiei crawling over my bed again. When he saw me he stopped dead in his tracks and quickly, clearly hoping for me not to notice, hid something under my pillow. It must be that stupid paper again. He was just ASKING for me to read it!! He made it SO tempting! The way he was trying to keep it from me!
"Hiei give it here!" I said to him playfully as I jumped over on my bed, catching him off guard.
Before he had a chance to get away I threw myself on top of him and pinned him down with my right hand and the rest of my body. I used my left hand to reach under my pillow, which was also under his head, and fish around for the paper.
I would have done a better job of trying to get it if my body wasn't so . . . on . . . Hiei. OH GOD!
I started to blush again as I look down at his beautiful, red, demon eyes. Normally I would have just quickly gotten off of him. But instead I let a soft and caring smile escape onto my lips. My eyes were fixed on him, giving off all the kindness I was offering, all the love I held for only him.
He was still. Emotionless. Until suddenly he jerked up and kissed me!
Okay . . . that was unexpected. But welcomed defiantly! Oh yes for sure.
He then grabbed my hands with his and moved them lower, making them start to remove his shirt.
It was strange . . . why was he acting like this? Whatever the reason, I didn't mind. In fact I liked it.
As soon as I had removed his shirt he started to work on mine. His hands slid across my back . . . it made me shiver. Finally he had my shirt off! I reached around him and pulled him close to me, hugging him softly overwhelmed with the joy of holding him in my arms like I had wanted so badly before.
I rested on top of him, my head lying on his should next to his ear. I slowly and soft lifted my head a little and whispered to him, "I love you . . ."
He looked up at me strangely for a second, but then he smirked at me and started laughing.
"Why do you think I did that Kurama? Did you think that maybe I had feelings for YOU!? If so you're even stupider than I thought." He said to me still laughing.
"Hiei, even if you don't have feelings for me . . . I still love you." I told him still smiling sweetly at him.
He grunted, then pushed me off of him. He lifted his head and turned to me and asked, "So then tell me . . . why do you think I kissed you?"
"Because, you don't want me to see that paper." I answered with a knowing smirk as I ducked over to reach under my bed.
"Stop it," Hiei said angrily as he reached out, grabbed my arm and pulled me back up.
"I had a feeling." I said to him mockingly.
"Well I suggest you stop trying to look at it, it wouldn't interest you anyhow." He told me letting go of my arm.
"Oh really? Tell me about it, then I'll decided what I'm not interested in."
What in Reikai's name was on that paper!! It was really starting to bug me . . .
"Fine. It's just sample handwriting in different languages, nothing to get so worked up over."
"You're lying Hiei, you wouldn't keep trying to keep it from me like this if that was all it was."
"If you don't believe me than look at it!" He told me folding his arms and looking away.
"Alright."
I reached under the bed and pulled out the paper. Hiei looked very nervous, he wouldn't look so scared if he didn't have something to hide!!
I slowly unfolded the paper and looked at it. Sure enough, there was writing on it in a few different languages . . . so . . . was this really what he was trying to hide? I didn't bother to read it . . . I just stuck it in my pocket to keep. (Well it belong to Hiei, of course I wanted it.)
"So you see no big deal." He said nervously.
He still looked very frightened, although in a Hiei sort of way, meaning it didn't show up very well.
"So Hiei, did you write that? And if so then why in so many different languages?" I asked grabbing my shirt and putting it back on. I was so going to be late for school.
"You didn't read it?" He snapped back at me in shock.
"No, not yet. I will sooner or later I just don't have the time right now. Speaking of such, we really do have to get downstairs." I said as I in a joking sort of way as I grabbed Hiei's shirt and started to put it on him.
He didn't stop me from doing it, he didn't see any danger in it.
"Okay . . . but we're not holding hands!"
"Oh Hiei c'mon it's for your own good!"
"What do you mean!? If anything it would make your 'mother' want to keep me here longer!"
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I really should have read that there and then . . .
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Yugijouoh: Heheh ^_^ well I hope you liked that chappy! PLEASE REVIEW!