I love you . . . and I will be waiting . . .
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Heehee here is chapter 9!! And don't worry, it'll have my trademark happy ending! Well . . . okay I don't HAVE a trademark . . . and I'm not sure if all my endings will be happy . . . but whatever you know what I mean. ^^' SPEAKING OF ENDINGS! This will be the LAST chapter! And being so it will be almost twice as long! ^^ ENJOY!
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I didn't own YYH when I started writing this fic, I was hopeful . . . but I still don't.
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I wanted to know if it said anything more . . . but I didn't have time, I had to get to that terrible place they call school.
I picked up the rest of my books, along with my new favorite, Hiei's diary, wiped my eyes dry and started downstairs.
"Umm . . . mother . . . I'm late, and I'm not hungry . . . I'll be off to school now. Oh yes . . . Hiei . . . well, Hiei decided to leave . . . there's on less thing we'll have to worry about . . . goodbye." I said without looking at my mother as I quickly walked out the door and started to walk very quickly to school.
After the dreadful walk to get to school, I started the even worse one down the hall. Every one of those children was starring as usual . . . That's when I got a chill down my spine . . . but I quickly brushed it off as nothing and hurried into the classroom.
Again enclosed in the prison of over stimulated teens . . . why couldn't everyone just be more like Hiei? At least wouldn't stare like that . . .
Speaking of Hiei . . .
While waiting to class to begin I pulled out his book. I flipped to page 38 and read the first line . . . "for you." That didn't tell me anything . . . I needed the page before! I read a little further on the page but it said nothing that was really about me . . . oh well. At least I had something of Hiei's to keep his memory in my heart.
But I still missed him terribly . . .
I held back my tears well . . . if any one of these people saw me crying they'd start asking stupid questions like, are you feeling alright? What kind of normal person would be crying with a painful look on their face if they were happy?!
After a day of not paying attention to lessons, I started walking home. It was perfect out, weather wise. But I couldn't ever enjoy it like I did that one night with Hiei . . . why didn't I try harder to keep my feelings inside . . . he would still be here. I missed him so much . . .
I put my hands in my pockets and looked up at the sky, it was starting to get dark. I could only spot one star.
I thought of Hiei again . . . maybe he could see it too . . . although I doubt he was looking . . .
Then I felt around in my pocket . . . that stupid paper of Hiei's . . . why the hell would he want to keep a stupid paper with a bunch of stupid different- . . . HOLD IT!
I quickly pulled the paper out of my pocket, un crumbled it, and started to read it carefully . . .
'Kurama has always been there for me . . . and slowly, somehow, I have come to think of him as a friend . . .
Maybe more than that.
He was always the one who stood by me, even though I am untouchable, he got through to me somehow! He found my hearts deepest desire, him.
Although . . . I could never let him know this . . . could I? No, I'm sure that if I wait . . . it will pass. I could never be in love with someone!'
I stood there reading . . . mouth agape, eyes wide and a huge smile creeping in along with a blush.
But then I thought . . . Hiei was still gone!! Even if he did feel that way about me . . . what if- . . . what if it did go away?
OH NO! Is that why he looked so in pain when he told me that it would go away? Because his feelings for me hadn't!? Damn it all I should have read this paper right when he told me to look at it . . . maybe that was his way of giving in to his feelings and letting me know how he felt and I- . . . I didn't care. What he really wanted from me was for me to tell him that I knew how he felt!
Even though he knew how I feel about him . . . Hiei still wanted that. He wasn't the kind of person who would give in without a fight.
I decided to keep reading that page with the entry from the next day.
'Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe my feelings for him won't go away. It's getting harder and harder to stay around him without letting him know even the slightest bit that I might like him more than the others, in a very different way. But I still like to be with him . . . I won't deny that. We don't need training . . . at least he doesn't, he's perfect as he is right now. But I do need him . . . him being with me is all I look forward to in the day, the only thing I've ever had that really gives me joy! Hopefully this will go on forever . . . all I need . . . is Kurama by my side, for me to be truly happy.
I don't want to leave him . . . but I cannot stay with him and maintain who I am, or who I pretend to be. One day . . . I might have to leave you . . . unless I have the courage to stay, and let you know how I feel.'
And then the next day or so . . . he added something else . . . while he was staying with me.
'If I still love you . . . somehow I will let you know . . .'
He really did like being with me . . . everything I did to him that I thought he would hate he- . . . he loved. And he had loved me for a lot longer time than I did him . . .
My eyes started to tear up and I started to blush a lot I know it.
I started to pick up the pace. I wanted to get home before I started crying. But then it dawned on me . . . he would let me know? But how?
I didn't do a good job with the crying part, but I did make it home. Luckily my mother was still at work, she didn't have to see me like this.
I ran up to my room, it still was a mess from earlier I had to clean it.
I opened the door and found it was already done . . . it looked good. Everything had been put away where it belongs . . .
Then I saw on my desk another piece of paper . . . writing on it in many different languages. Hiei had done this . . .
I walked over slowly and read the paper . . .
'If I had only told you when I had the chance. If I only could have swallowed my pride and came right out with it, I would have been with you. I would have loved with you. But I drove you away . . . I didn't say anything to you, but maybe that's what did it.
If only told you that I felt the same way . . . why didn't I!? I feel so incomplete and lonely. I never felt such pain before you, or such joy. I now know exactly what you meant to me. All I can do is take what knowledge I have of this human langue and perhaps maybe one day you'll 'hear' these thoughts, these feelings. I love you . . .
I must find courage within myself so that you will know. I can't say what I feel . . . but I need you to hear my words. I can only pray that you find my words soon. We will be happy then . . . if you still wish to have me.
Being with you all that time . . . I've gotten to know the real you, the same you claimed you'd done with me. How could I have been such an idiot not to see it until after I had walked away? Those deep feelings whispering to my heart "You love him . . ."
If there was anything I learned from you, besides learning to love, it was that the little voice that whispers to your heart things you can barely hear, is always right, and that you should always listen to it, no matter how inconceivable the things it tells you.
Why . . .? How could I have been such . . . an . . . idiot . . .? So blind to what I felt for you . . . although I could see it perfectly well. You loved me, and I loved you . . . but I just couldn't leave it at that.
So many things I made up to hide it from you. It wasn't right to do so . . . I should have just accepted happiness without questioning my reasons for it. But I lied to you . . . and you left me, without ever wanting to leave.
Attempting to hide it from you, how stupid that? If only I could have learned from what my heart taught me, from what you taught me. But maybe there is hope for me and for us . . . if you want there to be. Just come for me when you 'hear' my voice and my words:
I love you . . . and I will be waiting . . .'
"for you." I said out loud as I realized this was supposed to be place between page 37 and 38.
My little Hiei made things so complicated!
Oh god . . . he- . . . he still loved me . . . WHERE THE HELL IS HE I'VE GOTTA FIND HIM!!
I jumped up, almost going for the window but decided that I wanted to be able to walk when I found Hiei, so I headed downstairs and for the door.
On my way out it, I crashed into my mother who had just gotten home. I had a mental picture of what I looked like right now . . .
Watery, wide eyes, an extremely red face, and a look that seemed to read that I was really . . . umm . . . how to put it . . . ready to share something?
I started to blush even more.
"H-Hello mother . . ." I said trying to sound as normal as ever . . . oh yeah GREAT job Kurama! I sounded like in heat rabbit mixed with laughing gas.
"Shuichi . . . are you alright?" She asked taking a step inside.
There's that stupid question . . .
"Oh yes mother . . . um . . . I was just . . . going to go out for a while." I said still very nervous.
"With Hiei?" She asked with a smile.
"AHH!!! . . . Huh? OH YES!" I was losing it . . . a face first crash into interrogation.
"So . . . what exactly are you two planning to do?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
She could just see some of the naughty ideas I had running through my mind of what I planned to do when and if I found Hiei written all across my face . . . that mixed with other things like the fact that I was sweating uncontrollably and taking an incredibly long time to answer what should be a very easy question . . .
"Um . . . well I'm very hungry so-" Oh shit that was the wrong thing to say!! "I MEAN WE'RE HAVING DINNER!!!" I said quickly.
"Oh okay . . . don't stay out too late now. Is Hiei coming back with you?" She had a sweet smile one her face . . . thank god.
"Hopefully." I said returning it as I walked out the door and began to think about where he might be.
I didn't know where to begin!
I searched all over town for HOURS!!! Until I came to a conclusion . . . he . . . he just wasn't here. Maybe he'd left and changed his mind . . . he didn't want me anymore. Hiei . . .
I decided I'd just go someplace to be alone for a while . . . why not our old training ground? I liked it there anyhow.
I began my walk through the forest and trees until I came to the spot where we did training. I lifted my head to look around when I spotted sitting in the middle of the clearing a little fire demon in black!!! WHY DIDN'T I LOOK HERE FIRST!? IT WAS SO- . . . DUH!!!
"H-Hiei . . ." I started tearing up. I had really become a nervous wreck . . .
He looked up at me with that- that FACE! The really cute one . . . eyes wide, mouth to the size of a dot. Only with this one he was blushing!
He slowly stood and took a step closer to me . . . my eyes widened . . . all the things I wanted to say to him! I had had so much time to think it over what I would say to him, it was perfect! It wouldn't embarrass him or anything but- . . . all that came out was,
"You love me . . ."
It sounded a little conceded but when it got right down to it that was the truth of the matter.
Hiei lifted his clenched fist to his chest and a really lonely look came over his face directed at me. I was jolted with a deeper love for him than I had had before . . . for once he actually showed his feelings to me without a mask to hide his true intentions.
"Kurama I- . . ." He started but then ended his statement with a small nod.
I ran over and stood in front of him, I gazed down at him with loving eyes and grasped his clenched fist with both of my hands, never taking my eyes off of him.
With my touch, Hiei's tenses melted away and he released his fist and took my left hand in it.
All my blushing turned into just a soft, deep line of pink stretching across to both of my cheeks.
"Hiei," I started in a soft caring voice. "Don't ever leave me again . . . got that?"
A smile crept over my lips and a small one made its way onto Hiei's.
He shifted his eyes sideways and to the ground still with the little smile and the wide playful eyes.
"Hey fox . . . would this be a good time to tell you that you look really beautiful . . ." Hiei said starting to blush even more so as he moved his eyes upwards still avoiding looking at me in the eye.
He was just the sweetest thing!
I moved each of my hands onto both his cheeks and moved his head exactly in front of mine. His eyes slowly moved down and met with mine.
"Hiei . . . you really hurt me . . ." I started in a serious tone.
"I know, and I'm sorry!" He forced out of him quickly and moved his arms around me just as fast to pull me close to him for a hug. "I love you Kurama."
Hearing him say that with his voice just melted me! I dropped to my knees and Hiei dropped with me, his arms still warming my back with their touch.
"Hiei . . . I cannot even begin to tell you how happy I am to hear you say that. Hiei . . ." I said to him, a lot of . . . thoughts . . . coming back into mind.
Damn youko side . . . oh well.
I gently moved my head forwards a bit and kissed his ear softly. He responded by moving his hands up under my hair and behind to rest around the back of my neck. I pulled my head back and we stared into each other's eyes for the longest time, both enjoying it completely.
Then my more . . . sentimental side took over again. My mother had made a good point . . . we didn't need to sleep together now. We would be together forever, we had plenty of time for that later. When did we ever have the time to just be with each other? I felt so comfortable. Because I could have done anything I wanted, and he wouldn't object.
"Kurama . . . tell me, what were you really thinking last night?" He asked breaking the silence.
"I was thinking about how much I loved you . . ." I answered resting my chin on his shoulder.
"That sounds so strange to me . . ." He said starting to rub my back gently.
"Don't worry; you'll understand love soon I'm sure." I told him, softly putting my arms around him.
"Kurama . . . you're the best person, or anything, I've ever known." He said moving his arms down and his hands around my waist.
I pulled my head back and looked at him again. He had the sweetest most sincere look on his face, directed at ME. I smiled and started to cry. His kind face then turned to a worried one . . . again for me.
"Don't worry Hiei . . . I'm just happy . . . happy to be with you!" I said closing my eyes and moving my head close to his, aliening my lips to his. I slowly opened my watery eyes to see a needing look on Hiei's face. And with that I took his lips with mine and kissed him passionately.
He lifted his neck little and kissed back as he pulled me closer to him. I moved my hands to the ground and pushed him down underneath me.
Slowly I took my lips away from his . . . I looked down at him, it was all exactly as I had wished.
"Kurama . . . I still think it would be best if I didn't live in your house. Sooner or later your mother would find out about everything . . . and I just wouldn't feel comfortable." He said lifting his hand to rub my cheek.
"Don't worry Hiei I understand . . . but, would you just like to come for tonight? Then I could explain to my mother." I replied with a smile.
"Alright," He said relaxing a little on the grass.
"Hmm . . . Hiei . . . I'm hungry," I started but stopped when I saw his eyes go wide. "NO! What I meant was that well . . . I just thought that maybe we should go and get ourselves something to eat." I finished with a convincing look on my face.
"Okay . . ." Hiei answered sitting himself up.
I backed away a little and turned my back to him just for a moment to hide the wide, excited, slightly devilish smile that had over taken my face. I got a hold of it and then turned back around to see Hiei was standing up over me holding out his hand to help me to my feet.
I smiled lovingly at him and quickly took his hand. I couldn't believe how happy I was . . . I never knew you could feel this good.
"We can just go to my house, Shiori must be getting worried." I said starting to walk.
Hiei nodded and quickly came over to stand beside me.
He looked up at me and I smiled back with a pinkish color taking over both my cheeks. After seeing it, Hiei reached up with one of his arms and rested it around my far shoulder. He then leaned his head down on my upper arm and other shoulder. I felt so warm with him with me . . .
I put my own arm around him and started to rub his elbow.
We continued walking like this. Somehow I was then able to take my eyes off of Hiei and looked towards the sky. So many more stars were visible! Just like they had been last time . . . I felt the same way. So complete!
After a short walk we finally arrived home, neither if us really wanting our walk to end.
I opened the door and we both let go of each other and walked inside.
"Shuichi! Oh good you two are home! Well I know you two already ate but, would you like anything?" Shiori greeted us as she quickly hurried into the kitchen, followed by the both of us.
"Sure mother." I said to her with a smile.
Hiei and I took a seat at the table, next to each other.
"So did you two have a good time?" She asked as she began to make something that looked like spaghetti.
"Great." Hiei answered before I was able to say anything. The way he said it made me smile. So innocently.
"I'm glad you had fun." She said turning to look at us.
After our meal had been finished, which was really rather funny because I had to show Hiei exactly how to eat spaghetti without it seeming strange to my mother, I told my mother that we had to be off to bed. She nodded with a smile and said she would be two and she went to her room, as did we.
I closed the door softly behind us, took out my clothes and slowly started for the bathroom. (Hmm . . . I never minded Hiei watching me before . . . oh well)
"Hiei, if you want to wear something to bed there are clothes you can use in that drawer." I said to him before walking in to my bathroom to change. "Not that I expect you would wear nothing . . . I just meant-"
"I know fox." Hiei grunted with a laugh.
I smiled and closed the door behind me. I swiftly changed and walked out to find Hiei in some of my bright blue pajamas, which were a little too long for him, which made it look really cute.
Hiei let out a sarcastic laugh after seeing my expression. He then moved over to his little inflatable mattress and lied down.
"Night." He said quickly and sarcastically as he closed his eyes, folded his arms and put on a sleeping look.
I laughed a little and walked over to him.
I bent over him and he opened up one of his eyes and gave me a smirk.
"Hiei, you don't have to sleep on that thing if you don't want to, it is rather noisy and wobbly." I said to him with a certain smirk as I started to blush.
"Just what are you suggesting?" He asked still with his own smirk.
"C'mon Hiei . . . if it's your last night here we should spend it together." I told him smiling softly and lifting him to his feet by taking his hand.
"What if your mother finds us?" Hiei asked looking a little concerned.
"We'll explain something to her." I said pulling down my blankets and motioning for him to crawl in, which he did.
He lied near the center, crossed his legs and put his hands behind his head.
"Alright." He said blinking with a crooked smiled.
I slowly moved into my bed next to him and pulled up my covers over the two of us. I turned onto my side facing towards Hiei and gently wrapped my arms around his upped body and hugged close to me. He turned on his side to face me and he two wrapped his arms around me. Hiei moved a little lower so his head rested against my chest and my hands were placed softly on his shoulders. I smiled to myself and put my head on his and closed my eyes in pure peace.
"I love you Hiei . . ."
"I love you too Kurama. . ."
I pulled away and looked him in the eye, all my lights were turned out and I could barely see him but just knowing he was there warmed my heart.
I leaned my head towards his and kissed him gently. He warmly started to rub my back and then when the kiss finally broke he buried his head in my chest.
Something's were just so much better than words.
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Yugijouoh: I hope you liked the ending to that one ^^- Don't you just love it when they're together? Me too ^_^ PLEASE REVIEW!
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Heehee here is chapter 9!! And don't worry, it'll have my trademark happy ending! Well . . . okay I don't HAVE a trademark . . . and I'm not sure if all my endings will be happy . . . but whatever you know what I mean. ^^' SPEAKING OF ENDINGS! This will be the LAST chapter! And being so it will be almost twice as long! ^^ ENJOY!
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I didn't own YYH when I started writing this fic, I was hopeful . . . but I still don't.
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I wanted to know if it said anything more . . . but I didn't have time, I had to get to that terrible place they call school.
I picked up the rest of my books, along with my new favorite, Hiei's diary, wiped my eyes dry and started downstairs.
"Umm . . . mother . . . I'm late, and I'm not hungry . . . I'll be off to school now. Oh yes . . . Hiei . . . well, Hiei decided to leave . . . there's on less thing we'll have to worry about . . . goodbye." I said without looking at my mother as I quickly walked out the door and started to walk very quickly to school.
After the dreadful walk to get to school, I started the even worse one down the hall. Every one of those children was starring as usual . . . That's when I got a chill down my spine . . . but I quickly brushed it off as nothing and hurried into the classroom.
Again enclosed in the prison of over stimulated teens . . . why couldn't everyone just be more like Hiei? At least wouldn't stare like that . . .
Speaking of Hiei . . .
While waiting to class to begin I pulled out his book. I flipped to page 38 and read the first line . . . "for you." That didn't tell me anything . . . I needed the page before! I read a little further on the page but it said nothing that was really about me . . . oh well. At least I had something of Hiei's to keep his memory in my heart.
But I still missed him terribly . . .
I held back my tears well . . . if any one of these people saw me crying they'd start asking stupid questions like, are you feeling alright? What kind of normal person would be crying with a painful look on their face if they were happy?!
After a day of not paying attention to lessons, I started walking home. It was perfect out, weather wise. But I couldn't ever enjoy it like I did that one night with Hiei . . . why didn't I try harder to keep my feelings inside . . . he would still be here. I missed him so much . . .
I put my hands in my pockets and looked up at the sky, it was starting to get dark. I could only spot one star.
I thought of Hiei again . . . maybe he could see it too . . . although I doubt he was looking . . .
Then I felt around in my pocket . . . that stupid paper of Hiei's . . . why the hell would he want to keep a stupid paper with a bunch of stupid different- . . . HOLD IT!
I quickly pulled the paper out of my pocket, un crumbled it, and started to read it carefully . . .
'Kurama has always been there for me . . . and slowly, somehow, I have come to think of him as a friend . . .
Maybe more than that.
He was always the one who stood by me, even though I am untouchable, he got through to me somehow! He found my hearts deepest desire, him.
Although . . . I could never let him know this . . . could I? No, I'm sure that if I wait . . . it will pass. I could never be in love with someone!'
I stood there reading . . . mouth agape, eyes wide and a huge smile creeping in along with a blush.
But then I thought . . . Hiei was still gone!! Even if he did feel that way about me . . . what if- . . . what if it did go away?
OH NO! Is that why he looked so in pain when he told me that it would go away? Because his feelings for me hadn't!? Damn it all I should have read this paper right when he told me to look at it . . . maybe that was his way of giving in to his feelings and letting me know how he felt and I- . . . I didn't care. What he really wanted from me was for me to tell him that I knew how he felt!
Even though he knew how I feel about him . . . Hiei still wanted that. He wasn't the kind of person who would give in without a fight.
I decided to keep reading that page with the entry from the next day.
'Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe my feelings for him won't go away. It's getting harder and harder to stay around him without letting him know even the slightest bit that I might like him more than the others, in a very different way. But I still like to be with him . . . I won't deny that. We don't need training . . . at least he doesn't, he's perfect as he is right now. But I do need him . . . him being with me is all I look forward to in the day, the only thing I've ever had that really gives me joy! Hopefully this will go on forever . . . all I need . . . is Kurama by my side, for me to be truly happy.
I don't want to leave him . . . but I cannot stay with him and maintain who I am, or who I pretend to be. One day . . . I might have to leave you . . . unless I have the courage to stay, and let you know how I feel.'
And then the next day or so . . . he added something else . . . while he was staying with me.
'If I still love you . . . somehow I will let you know . . .'
He really did like being with me . . . everything I did to him that I thought he would hate he- . . . he loved. And he had loved me for a lot longer time than I did him . . .
My eyes started to tear up and I started to blush a lot I know it.
I started to pick up the pace. I wanted to get home before I started crying. But then it dawned on me . . . he would let me know? But how?
I didn't do a good job with the crying part, but I did make it home. Luckily my mother was still at work, she didn't have to see me like this.
I ran up to my room, it still was a mess from earlier I had to clean it.
I opened the door and found it was already done . . . it looked good. Everything had been put away where it belongs . . .
Then I saw on my desk another piece of paper . . . writing on it in many different languages. Hiei had done this . . .
I walked over slowly and read the paper . . .
'If I had only told you when I had the chance. If I only could have swallowed my pride and came right out with it, I would have been with you. I would have loved with you. But I drove you away . . . I didn't say anything to you, but maybe that's what did it.
If only told you that I felt the same way . . . why didn't I!? I feel so incomplete and lonely. I never felt such pain before you, or such joy. I now know exactly what you meant to me. All I can do is take what knowledge I have of this human langue and perhaps maybe one day you'll 'hear' these thoughts, these feelings. I love you . . .
I must find courage within myself so that you will know. I can't say what I feel . . . but I need you to hear my words. I can only pray that you find my words soon. We will be happy then . . . if you still wish to have me.
Being with you all that time . . . I've gotten to know the real you, the same you claimed you'd done with me. How could I have been such an idiot not to see it until after I had walked away? Those deep feelings whispering to my heart "You love him . . ."
If there was anything I learned from you, besides learning to love, it was that the little voice that whispers to your heart things you can barely hear, is always right, and that you should always listen to it, no matter how inconceivable the things it tells you.
Why . . .? How could I have been such . . . an . . . idiot . . .? So blind to what I felt for you . . . although I could see it perfectly well. You loved me, and I loved you . . . but I just couldn't leave it at that.
So many things I made up to hide it from you. It wasn't right to do so . . . I should have just accepted happiness without questioning my reasons for it. But I lied to you . . . and you left me, without ever wanting to leave.
Attempting to hide it from you, how stupid that? If only I could have learned from what my heart taught me, from what you taught me. But maybe there is hope for me and for us . . . if you want there to be. Just come for me when you 'hear' my voice and my words:
I love you . . . and I will be waiting . . .'
"for you." I said out loud as I realized this was supposed to be place between page 37 and 38.
My little Hiei made things so complicated!
Oh god . . . he- . . . he still loved me . . . WHERE THE HELL IS HE I'VE GOTTA FIND HIM!!
I jumped up, almost going for the window but decided that I wanted to be able to walk when I found Hiei, so I headed downstairs and for the door.
On my way out it, I crashed into my mother who had just gotten home. I had a mental picture of what I looked like right now . . .
Watery, wide eyes, an extremely red face, and a look that seemed to read that I was really . . . umm . . . how to put it . . . ready to share something?
I started to blush even more.
"H-Hello mother . . ." I said trying to sound as normal as ever . . . oh yeah GREAT job Kurama! I sounded like in heat rabbit mixed with laughing gas.
"Shuichi . . . are you alright?" She asked taking a step inside.
There's that stupid question . . .
"Oh yes mother . . . um . . . I was just . . . going to go out for a while." I said still very nervous.
"With Hiei?" She asked with a smile.
"AHH!!! . . . Huh? OH YES!" I was losing it . . . a face first crash into interrogation.
"So . . . what exactly are you two planning to do?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
She could just see some of the naughty ideas I had running through my mind of what I planned to do when and if I found Hiei written all across my face . . . that mixed with other things like the fact that I was sweating uncontrollably and taking an incredibly long time to answer what should be a very easy question . . .
"Um . . . well I'm very hungry so-" Oh shit that was the wrong thing to say!! "I MEAN WE'RE HAVING DINNER!!!" I said quickly.
"Oh okay . . . don't stay out too late now. Is Hiei coming back with you?" She had a sweet smile one her face . . . thank god.
"Hopefully." I said returning it as I walked out the door and began to think about where he might be.
I didn't know where to begin!
I searched all over town for HOURS!!! Until I came to a conclusion . . . he . . . he just wasn't here. Maybe he'd left and changed his mind . . . he didn't want me anymore. Hiei . . .
I decided I'd just go someplace to be alone for a while . . . why not our old training ground? I liked it there anyhow.
I began my walk through the forest and trees until I came to the spot where we did training. I lifted my head to look around when I spotted sitting in the middle of the clearing a little fire demon in black!!! WHY DIDN'T I LOOK HERE FIRST!? IT WAS SO- . . . DUH!!!
"H-Hiei . . ." I started tearing up. I had really become a nervous wreck . . .
He looked up at me with that- that FACE! The really cute one . . . eyes wide, mouth to the size of a dot. Only with this one he was blushing!
He slowly stood and took a step closer to me . . . my eyes widened . . . all the things I wanted to say to him! I had had so much time to think it over what I would say to him, it was perfect! It wouldn't embarrass him or anything but- . . . all that came out was,
"You love me . . ."
It sounded a little conceded but when it got right down to it that was the truth of the matter.
Hiei lifted his clenched fist to his chest and a really lonely look came over his face directed at me. I was jolted with a deeper love for him than I had had before . . . for once he actually showed his feelings to me without a mask to hide his true intentions.
"Kurama I- . . ." He started but then ended his statement with a small nod.
I ran over and stood in front of him, I gazed down at him with loving eyes and grasped his clenched fist with both of my hands, never taking my eyes off of him.
With my touch, Hiei's tenses melted away and he released his fist and took my left hand in it.
All my blushing turned into just a soft, deep line of pink stretching across to both of my cheeks.
"Hiei," I started in a soft caring voice. "Don't ever leave me again . . . got that?"
A smile crept over my lips and a small one made its way onto Hiei's.
He shifted his eyes sideways and to the ground still with the little smile and the wide playful eyes.
"Hey fox . . . would this be a good time to tell you that you look really beautiful . . ." Hiei said starting to blush even more so as he moved his eyes upwards still avoiding looking at me in the eye.
He was just the sweetest thing!
I moved each of my hands onto both his cheeks and moved his head exactly in front of mine. His eyes slowly moved down and met with mine.
"Hiei . . . you really hurt me . . ." I started in a serious tone.
"I know, and I'm sorry!" He forced out of him quickly and moved his arms around me just as fast to pull me close to him for a hug. "I love you Kurama."
Hearing him say that with his voice just melted me! I dropped to my knees and Hiei dropped with me, his arms still warming my back with their touch.
"Hiei . . . I cannot even begin to tell you how happy I am to hear you say that. Hiei . . ." I said to him, a lot of . . . thoughts . . . coming back into mind.
Damn youko side . . . oh well.
I gently moved my head forwards a bit and kissed his ear softly. He responded by moving his hands up under my hair and behind to rest around the back of my neck. I pulled my head back and we stared into each other's eyes for the longest time, both enjoying it completely.
Then my more . . . sentimental side took over again. My mother had made a good point . . . we didn't need to sleep together now. We would be together forever, we had plenty of time for that later. When did we ever have the time to just be with each other? I felt so comfortable. Because I could have done anything I wanted, and he wouldn't object.
"Kurama . . . tell me, what were you really thinking last night?" He asked breaking the silence.
"I was thinking about how much I loved you . . ." I answered resting my chin on his shoulder.
"That sounds so strange to me . . ." He said starting to rub my back gently.
"Don't worry; you'll understand love soon I'm sure." I told him, softly putting my arms around him.
"Kurama . . . you're the best person, or anything, I've ever known." He said moving his arms down and his hands around my waist.
I pulled my head back and looked at him again. He had the sweetest most sincere look on his face, directed at ME. I smiled and started to cry. His kind face then turned to a worried one . . . again for me.
"Don't worry Hiei . . . I'm just happy . . . happy to be with you!" I said closing my eyes and moving my head close to his, aliening my lips to his. I slowly opened my watery eyes to see a needing look on Hiei's face. And with that I took his lips with mine and kissed him passionately.
He lifted his neck little and kissed back as he pulled me closer to him. I moved my hands to the ground and pushed him down underneath me.
Slowly I took my lips away from his . . . I looked down at him, it was all exactly as I had wished.
"Kurama . . . I still think it would be best if I didn't live in your house. Sooner or later your mother would find out about everything . . . and I just wouldn't feel comfortable." He said lifting his hand to rub my cheek.
"Don't worry Hiei I understand . . . but, would you just like to come for tonight? Then I could explain to my mother." I replied with a smile.
"Alright," He said relaxing a little on the grass.
"Hmm . . . Hiei . . . I'm hungry," I started but stopped when I saw his eyes go wide. "NO! What I meant was that well . . . I just thought that maybe we should go and get ourselves something to eat." I finished with a convincing look on my face.
"Okay . . ." Hiei answered sitting himself up.
I backed away a little and turned my back to him just for a moment to hide the wide, excited, slightly devilish smile that had over taken my face. I got a hold of it and then turned back around to see Hiei was standing up over me holding out his hand to help me to my feet.
I smiled lovingly at him and quickly took his hand. I couldn't believe how happy I was . . . I never knew you could feel this good.
"We can just go to my house, Shiori must be getting worried." I said starting to walk.
Hiei nodded and quickly came over to stand beside me.
He looked up at me and I smiled back with a pinkish color taking over both my cheeks. After seeing it, Hiei reached up with one of his arms and rested it around my far shoulder. He then leaned his head down on my upper arm and other shoulder. I felt so warm with him with me . . .
I put my own arm around him and started to rub his elbow.
We continued walking like this. Somehow I was then able to take my eyes off of Hiei and looked towards the sky. So many more stars were visible! Just like they had been last time . . . I felt the same way. So complete!
After a short walk we finally arrived home, neither if us really wanting our walk to end.
I opened the door and we both let go of each other and walked inside.
"Shuichi! Oh good you two are home! Well I know you two already ate but, would you like anything?" Shiori greeted us as she quickly hurried into the kitchen, followed by the both of us.
"Sure mother." I said to her with a smile.
Hiei and I took a seat at the table, next to each other.
"So did you two have a good time?" She asked as she began to make something that looked like spaghetti.
"Great." Hiei answered before I was able to say anything. The way he said it made me smile. So innocently.
"I'm glad you had fun." She said turning to look at us.
After our meal had been finished, which was really rather funny because I had to show Hiei exactly how to eat spaghetti without it seeming strange to my mother, I told my mother that we had to be off to bed. She nodded with a smile and said she would be two and she went to her room, as did we.
I closed the door softly behind us, took out my clothes and slowly started for the bathroom. (Hmm . . . I never minded Hiei watching me before . . . oh well)
"Hiei, if you want to wear something to bed there are clothes you can use in that drawer." I said to him before walking in to my bathroom to change. "Not that I expect you would wear nothing . . . I just meant-"
"I know fox." Hiei grunted with a laugh.
I smiled and closed the door behind me. I swiftly changed and walked out to find Hiei in some of my bright blue pajamas, which were a little too long for him, which made it look really cute.
Hiei let out a sarcastic laugh after seeing my expression. He then moved over to his little inflatable mattress and lied down.
"Night." He said quickly and sarcastically as he closed his eyes, folded his arms and put on a sleeping look.
I laughed a little and walked over to him.
I bent over him and he opened up one of his eyes and gave me a smirk.
"Hiei, you don't have to sleep on that thing if you don't want to, it is rather noisy and wobbly." I said to him with a certain smirk as I started to blush.
"Just what are you suggesting?" He asked still with his own smirk.
"C'mon Hiei . . . if it's your last night here we should spend it together." I told him smiling softly and lifting him to his feet by taking his hand.
"What if your mother finds us?" Hiei asked looking a little concerned.
"We'll explain something to her." I said pulling down my blankets and motioning for him to crawl in, which he did.
He lied near the center, crossed his legs and put his hands behind his head.
"Alright." He said blinking with a crooked smiled.
I slowly moved into my bed next to him and pulled up my covers over the two of us. I turned onto my side facing towards Hiei and gently wrapped my arms around his upped body and hugged close to me. He turned on his side to face me and he two wrapped his arms around me. Hiei moved a little lower so his head rested against my chest and my hands were placed softly on his shoulders. I smiled to myself and put my head on his and closed my eyes in pure peace.
"I love you Hiei . . ."
"I love you too Kurama. . ."
I pulled away and looked him in the eye, all my lights were turned out and I could barely see him but just knowing he was there warmed my heart.
I leaned my head towards his and kissed him gently. He warmly started to rub my back and then when the kiss finally broke he buried his head in my chest.
Something's were just so much better than words.
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Yugijouoh: I hope you liked the ending to that one ^^- Don't you just love it when they're together? Me too ^_^ PLEASE REVIEW!