Five and a half weeks passed since Buffy and Spike finally declared
their love for each other. Their relationship grew strongly an emotional
level, but a physical relationship wasn't there. Buffy wasn't ready.
Although she loved him very much, she just wasn't sure what to do about the
physical desires they both had.
On Saturday Buffy woke up wanting to see Spike, to here his voice. After getting dressed she called him. When there was no answer at his apartment she dialed his cell. It rang a couple times and then Buffy's heard the strong English accent that she loved so much.
"Hello?" he said into the phone.
"Hi" she said smiling at the sound of his voice.
"Hey luv, what's the what?" he asked.
"Do you want to do something today?" she asked, anxious to see him.
"Sure, like what?" he said.
"I don't know, I don't care, I just want to see you" she said.
"Well, you could come to my place, actually I'm having a party tonight, do you want to come?" he asked.
"Are you sure you don't mind" she said. The tone in his voice seemed annoyed.
"Of course I'm sure, I want to see you too" he said.
"Okay, what time?" she asked.
"Uh, well the party starts at nine, but you could come over now and we could. . .have a little party of our own" he said. This made her very nervous. What did he expect from her?
"Okay" she finally said, still unsure of herself. After they hung up Buffy went downstairs to find her mom and Dawn eating breakfast at the dining room table.
"Hey mom" Buffy said.
'I sweetie" Joyce said back.
"Uh, mom can I go to Spike's?" Buffy asked.
"For what?" Joyce asked her.
"Just to hang out, he's having a party tonight and I'm going to help him get ready" she told her.
"Are you gonna be kissing?" Dawn asked jokingly.
"None of your business" Buffy said, but she knew the answer to her little sister's question. They would most likely make out. They were most famous for doing that.
"Okay, but be home in time for curfew" Joyce said.
"All right" Buffy said and left.
Buffy took her mother's car and drove to Spike's house. She was very nervous about being alone with him in his house. . . where his bedroom was. . . where there was a bed. . .and other things. She shook it off as soon as she got there and walked up the steps to and into the apartment building. She searched for his number, number 23 and when she found it she knocked on the door. There was no answer so she twisted the doorknob to see if it was locked, it wasn't so she went inside.
"Spike, baby are you here?" Buffy asked. There was no answer. She walked a little further so she could see outside and onto the balcony. What she saw devastated her. Spike and some girl were kissing. "Auh" she said quietly, but he still heard her and broke the kiss quickly.
"Buffy, luv. . ." he said and then looked at the woman. "No, I can explain, wait."
"Explain what? There's nothing to explain" she said and then ran out of the apartment. He followed, running after her.
"Luv, wait" he said as he grabbed her arm and turned her around to face him. Tears were now trickling down her cheeks.
"I thought you loved me" she said quietly, now starting to cry.
"I do lamb, you don't understand we-" he said trying to explain, but Buffy put up her hand stopping him dead in his tracks.
"Don't. . . don't try to make this right, you made your choice" she said looking away.
"Please just let me explain okay, please, I'm bagging you" he pleaded. She looked at the desperation in his eyes and calmed down so he could explain.
"Fine" she said, the anger growing in her voice. "Explain."
"Okay" he said, taking her hand and leading her to a bench that was nearby. They sat down, she still in shock of the sight of her boyfriend locking lips with another woman and he faced her. "All right, look luv it's not what you think, okay, yes we were kissing, but. . . it was an accident" he told her.
"No, bumping in to someone is an accident, spilling coffee is an accident, god even wrecking your car can be an accident, but not kissing someone, that you do on purpose " she said as tears of anger and hurt fell from her eyes.
"You don't understand, okay, she's my ex" he said.
"Oh, that's really helping your story" she said turning away from him.
"Hey, look at me" he said as he gently tilted her head towards him. "Look, we broke up because she was unfaithful to me."
"Oh, how ironic" she said.
"Bloody hell woman, you said you'd let me explain but you won't let me talk" he said growing annoyed.
"Fine, go" she said.
"We've been broken up for like a year and a half, and then when I got home she was at my place, I don't know how she got in, but she did, we started fighting and then she just kissed me."
"Like I'm supposed to believe that" she said standing up and walking a few steps away.
"Do you love me?" he asked.
"Of course I do, that's why this hurts to much" she said turning to face him. He stood up as well and walked up close to her. As he did she backed away.
"Listen luv, I'm telling you the truth, why would I invite you over if I planned this? I love you okay, 'you' that's all" he said.
"Passion doesn't need to be about love" she said looking straight into his eyes. "People do things everyday, things they regret, things they want to take back, people's passion takes them over, takes control, blinds them from seeing that it's wrong, you don't have to love somebody to get off Spike, sleeping with someone doesn't entail love, just passion, and god, not even that" Buffy said. "You live everyday and wonder, wonder what it would be like to be with someone else, to do wrong, to get away with it, and sooner or later you just. . . give in, believe me I've seen it too many times, I new I fell in love too soon." The look on His face limitedly made her regret her statement. He looked at her hurtfully and replied.
"That's not what's going on here pet, please you have to believe me, I love you, ever since I met you, I never believed in love at first sight until I met you. Hell I never loved before you so I didn't know it was love right away and not just lust, not until I met you. And yeah, it scared me to say it to you. I mean we only knew each other for two weeks, but people have fallen in love the first day and gotten married. I'm not asking for marriage here ducks, but I just. . . I don't want to lose you" he said and then the woman on his balcony came down to join them.
"Haven't done that for a while Spiky, it felt good didn't it?" she said with a seductive smile.
"You slut" Buffy said going after her, but Spike stopped her. He grabbed her by the waist and held her back.
"Just because you can't keep your man satisfied doesn't mean I can't" she said, still smiling. Buffy tried harder to get at the girl. She wanted to pound her into the ground, but Spike wouldn't let go of her, and deep down, she didn't want him to. She love him holding on to her.
"Get out of here Harmony, I don't love you, and I never will, so just get out of here," Spike said coldly to the blonde.
"Spiky-" she began, but was cut off by Spike.
"Go!" he yelled, still holding on to Buffy. She looked surprised that he turned her down and just walked to her car and drove away. Spike turned Buffy around so she was facing him. "See luv, I only have passion and desire for you." She looked into his eyes and kissed him, putting her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. The passionate kiss lasted for a very long time. When she broke it she took his hand.
"Let's go upstairs" she said leading him up to his apartment and into his bedroom.
"Are you sure about this pet, we don't have to-" he began, but she put her index finger up to his lips to stop his words.
"Shhh, don't. . . just kiss me" she said and he brought her into another passionate kiss.
On Saturday Buffy woke up wanting to see Spike, to here his voice. After getting dressed she called him. When there was no answer at his apartment she dialed his cell. It rang a couple times and then Buffy's heard the strong English accent that she loved so much.
"Hello?" he said into the phone.
"Hi" she said smiling at the sound of his voice.
"Hey luv, what's the what?" he asked.
"Do you want to do something today?" she asked, anxious to see him.
"Sure, like what?" he said.
"I don't know, I don't care, I just want to see you" she said.
"Well, you could come to my place, actually I'm having a party tonight, do you want to come?" he asked.
"Are you sure you don't mind" she said. The tone in his voice seemed annoyed.
"Of course I'm sure, I want to see you too" he said.
"Okay, what time?" she asked.
"Uh, well the party starts at nine, but you could come over now and we could. . .have a little party of our own" he said. This made her very nervous. What did he expect from her?
"Okay" she finally said, still unsure of herself. After they hung up Buffy went downstairs to find her mom and Dawn eating breakfast at the dining room table.
"Hey mom" Buffy said.
'I sweetie" Joyce said back.
"Uh, mom can I go to Spike's?" Buffy asked.
"For what?" Joyce asked her.
"Just to hang out, he's having a party tonight and I'm going to help him get ready" she told her.
"Are you gonna be kissing?" Dawn asked jokingly.
"None of your business" Buffy said, but she knew the answer to her little sister's question. They would most likely make out. They were most famous for doing that.
"Okay, but be home in time for curfew" Joyce said.
"All right" Buffy said and left.
Buffy took her mother's car and drove to Spike's house. She was very nervous about being alone with him in his house. . . where his bedroom was. . . where there was a bed. . .and other things. She shook it off as soon as she got there and walked up the steps to and into the apartment building. She searched for his number, number 23 and when she found it she knocked on the door. There was no answer so she twisted the doorknob to see if it was locked, it wasn't so she went inside.
"Spike, baby are you here?" Buffy asked. There was no answer. She walked a little further so she could see outside and onto the balcony. What she saw devastated her. Spike and some girl were kissing. "Auh" she said quietly, but he still heard her and broke the kiss quickly.
"Buffy, luv. . ." he said and then looked at the woman. "No, I can explain, wait."
"Explain what? There's nothing to explain" she said and then ran out of the apartment. He followed, running after her.
"Luv, wait" he said as he grabbed her arm and turned her around to face him. Tears were now trickling down her cheeks.
"I thought you loved me" she said quietly, now starting to cry.
"I do lamb, you don't understand we-" he said trying to explain, but Buffy put up her hand stopping him dead in his tracks.
"Don't. . . don't try to make this right, you made your choice" she said looking away.
"Please just let me explain okay, please, I'm bagging you" he pleaded. She looked at the desperation in his eyes and calmed down so he could explain.
"Fine" she said, the anger growing in her voice. "Explain."
"Okay" he said, taking her hand and leading her to a bench that was nearby. They sat down, she still in shock of the sight of her boyfriend locking lips with another woman and he faced her. "All right, look luv it's not what you think, okay, yes we were kissing, but. . . it was an accident" he told her.
"No, bumping in to someone is an accident, spilling coffee is an accident, god even wrecking your car can be an accident, but not kissing someone, that you do on purpose " she said as tears of anger and hurt fell from her eyes.
"You don't understand, okay, she's my ex" he said.
"Oh, that's really helping your story" she said turning away from him.
"Hey, look at me" he said as he gently tilted her head towards him. "Look, we broke up because she was unfaithful to me."
"Oh, how ironic" she said.
"Bloody hell woman, you said you'd let me explain but you won't let me talk" he said growing annoyed.
"Fine, go" she said.
"We've been broken up for like a year and a half, and then when I got home she was at my place, I don't know how she got in, but she did, we started fighting and then she just kissed me."
"Like I'm supposed to believe that" she said standing up and walking a few steps away.
"Do you love me?" he asked.
"Of course I do, that's why this hurts to much" she said turning to face him. He stood up as well and walked up close to her. As he did she backed away.
"Listen luv, I'm telling you the truth, why would I invite you over if I planned this? I love you okay, 'you' that's all" he said.
"Passion doesn't need to be about love" she said looking straight into his eyes. "People do things everyday, things they regret, things they want to take back, people's passion takes them over, takes control, blinds them from seeing that it's wrong, you don't have to love somebody to get off Spike, sleeping with someone doesn't entail love, just passion, and god, not even that" Buffy said. "You live everyday and wonder, wonder what it would be like to be with someone else, to do wrong, to get away with it, and sooner or later you just. . . give in, believe me I've seen it too many times, I new I fell in love too soon." The look on His face limitedly made her regret her statement. He looked at her hurtfully and replied.
"That's not what's going on here pet, please you have to believe me, I love you, ever since I met you, I never believed in love at first sight until I met you. Hell I never loved before you so I didn't know it was love right away and not just lust, not until I met you. And yeah, it scared me to say it to you. I mean we only knew each other for two weeks, but people have fallen in love the first day and gotten married. I'm not asking for marriage here ducks, but I just. . . I don't want to lose you" he said and then the woman on his balcony came down to join them.
"Haven't done that for a while Spiky, it felt good didn't it?" she said with a seductive smile.
"You slut" Buffy said going after her, but Spike stopped her. He grabbed her by the waist and held her back.
"Just because you can't keep your man satisfied doesn't mean I can't" she said, still smiling. Buffy tried harder to get at the girl. She wanted to pound her into the ground, but Spike wouldn't let go of her, and deep down, she didn't want him to. She love him holding on to her.
"Get out of here Harmony, I don't love you, and I never will, so just get out of here," Spike said coldly to the blonde.
"Spiky-" she began, but was cut off by Spike.
"Go!" he yelled, still holding on to Buffy. She looked surprised that he turned her down and just walked to her car and drove away. Spike turned Buffy around so she was facing him. "See luv, I only have passion and desire for you." She looked into his eyes and kissed him, putting her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. The passionate kiss lasted for a very long time. When she broke it she took his hand.
"Let's go upstairs" she said leading him up to his apartment and into his bedroom.
"Are you sure about this pet, we don't have to-" he began, but she put her index finger up to his lips to stop his words.
"Shhh, don't. . . just kiss me" she said and he brought her into another passionate kiss.