Buffy looked in the mirror. She had just taken a shower and she
hadn't dressed yet. She just wanted to check herself over. She didn't know
why Spike loved her. She didn't think she was pretty. Today was her
birthday and she thought that she should be happy, but she. . .it wasn't
that she wasn't, she just. . .she didn't feel like she thought she would.
She got dressed and went to wake Spike.
"Spike, come on baby get up" she said. Spike opened his eyes slightly.
"What?" he said a little annoyed, she smiled and kissed him on the lip lightly.
"Come on baby you don't want me to be alone on my birthday do you?" she asked, this made him get up.
"That's right, it is you're birthday isn't it" he said with a smile and went to the closet.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"Well the tradition is that you get presents on your birthday, and it is your birthday so. . ." he said and got out a large box and handed it to her.
"Wow, thank you sweetie" Buffy said and kissed him.
"Go ahead, open it" he said with a grin. She took off the lid to reveal a smaller box. She did this four more times before revealing the last box. It was dark blue velvet. She opened it and saw a diamond engagement ring.
"Oh my god!" she said and looked up at him.
"Miss Elizabeth Summers" he said as he took the ring from her and knelt down on one knee. "I. . .wasn't a good person before I met you, hell I was shallow. . .but you. . .make me want to be. . .better than I am, and for that I love you, you are really brave, asking me to marry you, but it should be this way, I'm on my knees asking you, will you be my wife?"
"I. . ." she said, trying not to cry. "Yes." He slid the ring on her finger and got up and took her in his arms, picked her up and swung her around. After 360 degrees he put her down and kissed her.
"I love you" he said with a smile.
"I love you too. . .Spike, when did you get this ring?" she asked.
"Well I've had it luv" he said.
"But I thought you said-" she began, but he put his index finger up to her lips to stop her.
"I know what said pet, see my great, great, great grandmother first got this ring from my grandfather, and she gave it to her grandson and so on, and so forth, and my father gave it to me, to give to the woman I wanted to marry" he told her. She smiled and snuggled against him.
"It's beautiful" she whispered.
"All right, we'd better get going, we don't want to be late for school right?" Spike said.
"Since when do you care about school?" Buffy asked playfully.
"Well I don't. . .but I don't think your mum would like it much if you skipped school luv" Spike said and Buffy's eyes went wide.
"Oh my god, my mom! I didn't call her and tell her I was staying here!" she said franticly and grabbed her purse.
'Where are you going?" Spike asked.
'Home, I'll see you at school baby okay, I love you bye" Buffy said and kissed him before she quickly left.
Buffy took the bus home. She thought it was stupid not to just have Spike drive her home. It would be so much quicker. Finally the bus stopped at Buffy's stop and she got off and ran home. 'Thank god I'm not fat yet' she thought as she opened the door to her house and entered.
"Buffy sweetie there you are" Joyce said.
"Mom. . .hi I. . .uh. . .I'm sorry I didn't. . .didn't call I was just so. . .so tired" Buffy said out of breath.
"Here, honey sit down, it's not good for you to run when you're pregnant" Joyce said and pulled a chair out for her daughter.
"Thank you" Buffy said, catching her breath. "So are you mad at me?"
"No, besides, you're eighteen now, you can do anything you want, I can't control you anymore" Joyce said, and then a smile came over her face. "But then again, I've never been able to really control you have I?"
"I'm sorry" Buffy said.
"For what?" Joyce asked.
"I never meant to hurt you mom, I love you, I'm sorry to disappoint you" Buffy said.
"Oh sweetie, it's okay, you didn't, well you sort of did, but I'm over it, and all I want is what's best for you and the baby" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom, oh look" Buffy said, remembering the ring on her finger.
"Oh my god! You're engaged, that's so great honey I'm so happy for you" Joyce said happily.
"Thank you" Buffy smiled.
"Okay, well you'd better get to school, tonight we'll celebrate you're birthday, since you don't want a party we'll just have you me, Dawnie and a couple of your friends, and of course your fiancé" Joyce said. That made Buffy smile. Hearing Spike being called her fiancé was wonderful to her. She loved him so much and now he was going to be her husband. She got her stuff and her mother drove her to school.
"Happy birthday Buffy!" Willow said happily as she hugged her friend.
"Thanks Will" Buffy said.
"So, eighteen, how does it feel?" Willow asked.
"It. . .surprisingly it doesn't feel really different, I mean I'm happy, I'm an adult now, and I can make my own decisions, it feels good" Buffy said with a small smile.
"Well I can't wait 'til I turn eighteen, not for another four months" Willow said.
"Okay, tonight, I'm not having a party, but just a little get together, you're coming right?" Buffy asked.
"Of course" Willow said.
"Good, have you seen Spike?" Buffy asked.
"Uh, no, but didn't you spend the night with him?" Willow asked.
"Yeah, but I want to make sure he's coming" Buffy said. Willow's eyes shifted to her left hand where her ring was.
"Oh my god, Buffy!" Willow exclaimed, which startled Buffy.
"What?" Buffy asked.
"You're getting engaged, when were you going to tell me?" Willow said.
"Oh, I'm sorry Will, but yeah, I'm getting married" Buffy said.
"I'm so happy for you" Willow said.
"Thank you, I'm happy for me too" Buffy said. Suddenly she felt someone tickle her from behind and quickly turned around to find Spike standing there.
"Hey" he said. She smiled.
"Hi honey" she said and he kissed her.
"Hey baby" he said.
"Spike, congrats on the engagement" Willow said.
"Thanks Wills" Spike said and took Buffy's hand. "Come on birthday girl, we have class" he said and pulled her away.
The day went quickly and soon it was the end of the day. Spike dropped Buffy off at home and went back to his place to get ready for tonight.
"So, how does it look?" Buffy asked her mom and sister. She was wearing a pink dress that was about one inch above her knee. She had on a pink lace top over the spaghetti strapped dress. On her feet were pink shoes to match.
"Buffy, you look a 21st century Cinderella" Dawn said and Buffy laughed.
"Thanks Dawnie" she said. Buffy looked down at the dress. It looked like a two-piece, but wasn't. on the top part were pink roses and towards the bottom were tiny little shiny diamond like beads, which were also pink. "You don't think it's too much pink do you? I mean I don't look like Pepto- Bismol do I?"
"No sweetie the dress is beautiful and you look beautiful in it" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom" Buffy said.
"Oh honey, your father wants to come tonight, will that be all right?" Joyce asked.
"No, I don't want my birthday ruined.
'It won't be, honey he's really trying" Joyce said.
"Why are you defending him?" Buffy asked.
"I'm not, but just give him a chance okay" Joyce said.
"Please Buffy" Dawn begged. The desperation in her little sister's eyes was enough for her to give in.
"Fine" she said.
"Good, I'll call him" Joyce said. Buffy went upstairs to finish getting ready. She curled her hair and put on some makeup. Finally it was six o'clock and everyone arrived. The first being Spike.
"Hey luv, you look wonderful" he said.
"Thank you" she said and kissed him.
"Here" he said and handed her a long rectangular shaped wrapped box.
"What's this?" she asked.
"It's your birthday gift" he said.
"Honey I though that this was my gift" she said and held out her hand.
"No, well sort of, but not really" he said.
"Well thank you" she said. Soon everyone else came, Willow, Oz, Cordelia and Xander.
"All right, present time" Joyce said.
"Wait mom, dad isn't here yet" Buffy said.
"Oh, well, we can start without him" Joyce said.
"Okay" Buffy said and Dawn handed her the first box. "All right this is from. . .oh Cordelia" she said and opened the it to reveal a lingerie nightgown that was black lace and partly see through. "Wow."
"Well, you can't have a wedding night without something like that so there you go" Cordelia said.
"Thanks Cordy" Buffy said.
"All right, me next" Willow said and gave her the gift bag. Buffy opened it and pulled out designer perfume and a gift certificate to a spa.
"Thanks Will, this is awesome" Buffy said.
"You're welcome" Willow said with a smile. Next went Oz and then Xander and then finally Spike. Buffy opened the box to reveal a gold heart shaped locket.
"Baby this is beautiful" Buffy said.
"You like it?" he asked.
"I love it thank you" she said and kissed him.
"Open it" he said. She opened it and inside was a picture of him on the left side and the right side wasn't filled. "See when we get the first picture of the baby you can put it there" he said and pointed to the empty spot. Buffy could feel her eyes filling with tears. She looked at Spike and she felt so lucky to be with him, to be having his child.
"Thank you" she whispered, intending it to be only for him. He moved his face so it was only inches from hers.
"You're welcome baby" he said and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"Okay, who wants cake?" Joyce asked, pulling Buffy out of her dreamy gaze at Spike.
"Ooh, me!" Dawn said happily.
"Me too" Willow said and followed Dawn and Joyce into the kitchen.
"I'm gonna go get cake too" Cordelia said and took Xander's hand.
"You guys want?" Xander asked Oz, Buffy and Spike.
"Sure, right behind you" Oz said.
"Me too" Spike said. "You coming luv?" he asked Buffy.
"In a minute" Buffy said.
"All right, you all right?" he asked.
"Yeah, fine" Buffy said. Spike and Oz and Xander and Cordelia went into the kitchen. Buffy got up off the carpet where she was sitting and went outside. She decided to wait for her dad out there. Even though she was very angry with him she did want him there. Deep down she always wished her dad wanted to be in her life all the time, she was just too stubborn to admit it. After about twenty minutes of being outside the front door opened and Spike came out to join her.
"Hey luv" he said and sat down on the steps with her.
"Hi" she said quietly with a sad look on her face. She knew that her father wasn't coming. The party was almost over and he was a no show.
"What's the matter per?" he asked.
"He's not coming" Buffy said.
"Who?" Spike asked.
"My dad. . .but I shouldn't be surprised, he just. . .it's what he does, he's the king at letting his daughters down, the story I told you a couple days ago wasn't the complete truth, you know the one about my parents. My dad was always absentee, he. . .he hid behind . . .he hid behind anything that would keep him away from us, it's always been that way, always" Buffy said.
"Well didn't you not want him here?" Spike asked her.
"I guess, but part of me hoped he'd come. . .am I a bad person?" she asked, looking at him.
"What, no of course not" he said.
"Well then why do I deserve this? Why does my dad only want to be in my life when it's convenient for him?" Buffy asked, tears starting to fall. "God, my life is like a soap opera."
"Honey, it's not your fault, if you're pop doesn't want to be in your life it's his loss, not yours" he said.
"No. . .you make a baby, you raise her, in those years of her growing up, when do you realize that you don't want this, that you don't care anymore? Where in my and Dawn's life did he realize, that he didn't want to be a dad anymore?" she asked. He moved closer to her and she leaned into him.
"Baby, it's your birthday, you don't deserve to feel sad" he said.
"I can't help it" she said.
"Come on, let's go inside" he said.
"Spike, can I come home with you tonight?" Buffy asked.
"Of course" he said. And they went back inside.
They party ended soon after that and everyone began to leave. They said their goodbyes and then left. Soon the only ones in the house were Joyce, Dawn, Buffy and Spike.
"Okay, mom I'm gong home with Spike tonight" Buffy said.
"Oh, well. . .all right, again?" she asked.
'Yeah, you don't care do you?" Buffy asked.
"No, I guess not" Joyce said.
"Okay, I'm gonna go get some stuff" she said and kissed Spike on the cheek before running upstairs.
"Excuse me for a moment" Joyce said and followed her daughter. "Buffy honey."
"Hey mom, what's wrong?" Buffy asked.
"Nothing, well. . .I'm sorry that your father didn't make it" Joyce said.
"Yeah, well I'm not surprised" Buffy said.
"Are you okay?" Joyce asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine, I don't' need him to love me, I have other people who do, you, Dawn, my friends, and Spike, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have him" Buffy said.
"Well you do, and you have everyone else too" Joyce said.
'I know" Buffy said as she finished getting her stuff together and her and Joyce went back downstairs.
"Okay pet, ready to go?" Spike asked.
"Yeah, all set" Buffy said and she and Spike left. On the way to Spike place Buffy thought of what her father abandoning her really meant. Was it her fault? Or did he just. . .no care about anything? She just wished that she had a normal life. She just wished her parents could get along. Finally she came to the conclusion that maybe some people weren't meant to have that life, some people just weren't meant to have the Rockwellian Portrait, the house, the two-car garage, the picket fence, the Golden Retriever, and the doting mum and dad. No matter how much she wanted it she knew that it would never happen. With that in mind she decided that her children would have all of that. She promised herself never to fall out of love with Spike and she didn't know how it was possible to. She loved him so much and she knew that she would for the rest of her life. As Spike pulled into the apartment complex Buffy sighed. Her life from now forward would be perfect.
"Spike, come on baby get up" she said. Spike opened his eyes slightly.
"What?" he said a little annoyed, she smiled and kissed him on the lip lightly.
"Come on baby you don't want me to be alone on my birthday do you?" she asked, this made him get up.
"That's right, it is you're birthday isn't it" he said with a smile and went to the closet.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"Well the tradition is that you get presents on your birthday, and it is your birthday so. . ." he said and got out a large box and handed it to her.
"Wow, thank you sweetie" Buffy said and kissed him.
"Go ahead, open it" he said with a grin. She took off the lid to reveal a smaller box. She did this four more times before revealing the last box. It was dark blue velvet. She opened it and saw a diamond engagement ring.
"Oh my god!" she said and looked up at him.
"Miss Elizabeth Summers" he said as he took the ring from her and knelt down on one knee. "I. . .wasn't a good person before I met you, hell I was shallow. . .but you. . .make me want to be. . .better than I am, and for that I love you, you are really brave, asking me to marry you, but it should be this way, I'm on my knees asking you, will you be my wife?"
"I. . ." she said, trying not to cry. "Yes." He slid the ring on her finger and got up and took her in his arms, picked her up and swung her around. After 360 degrees he put her down and kissed her.
"I love you" he said with a smile.
"I love you too. . .Spike, when did you get this ring?" she asked.
"Well I've had it luv" he said.
"But I thought you said-" she began, but he put his index finger up to her lips to stop her.
"I know what said pet, see my great, great, great grandmother first got this ring from my grandfather, and she gave it to her grandson and so on, and so forth, and my father gave it to me, to give to the woman I wanted to marry" he told her. She smiled and snuggled against him.
"It's beautiful" she whispered.
"All right, we'd better get going, we don't want to be late for school right?" Spike said.
"Since when do you care about school?" Buffy asked playfully.
"Well I don't. . .but I don't think your mum would like it much if you skipped school luv" Spike said and Buffy's eyes went wide.
"Oh my god, my mom! I didn't call her and tell her I was staying here!" she said franticly and grabbed her purse.
'Where are you going?" Spike asked.
'Home, I'll see you at school baby okay, I love you bye" Buffy said and kissed him before she quickly left.
Buffy took the bus home. She thought it was stupid not to just have Spike drive her home. It would be so much quicker. Finally the bus stopped at Buffy's stop and she got off and ran home. 'Thank god I'm not fat yet' she thought as she opened the door to her house and entered.
"Buffy sweetie there you are" Joyce said.
"Mom. . .hi I. . .uh. . .I'm sorry I didn't. . .didn't call I was just so. . .so tired" Buffy said out of breath.
"Here, honey sit down, it's not good for you to run when you're pregnant" Joyce said and pulled a chair out for her daughter.
"Thank you" Buffy said, catching her breath. "So are you mad at me?"
"No, besides, you're eighteen now, you can do anything you want, I can't control you anymore" Joyce said, and then a smile came over her face. "But then again, I've never been able to really control you have I?"
"I'm sorry" Buffy said.
"For what?" Joyce asked.
"I never meant to hurt you mom, I love you, I'm sorry to disappoint you" Buffy said.
"Oh sweetie, it's okay, you didn't, well you sort of did, but I'm over it, and all I want is what's best for you and the baby" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom, oh look" Buffy said, remembering the ring on her finger.
"Oh my god! You're engaged, that's so great honey I'm so happy for you" Joyce said happily.
"Thank you" Buffy smiled.
"Okay, well you'd better get to school, tonight we'll celebrate you're birthday, since you don't want a party we'll just have you me, Dawnie and a couple of your friends, and of course your fiancé" Joyce said. That made Buffy smile. Hearing Spike being called her fiancé was wonderful to her. She loved him so much and now he was going to be her husband. She got her stuff and her mother drove her to school.
"Happy birthday Buffy!" Willow said happily as she hugged her friend.
"Thanks Will" Buffy said.
"So, eighteen, how does it feel?" Willow asked.
"It. . .surprisingly it doesn't feel really different, I mean I'm happy, I'm an adult now, and I can make my own decisions, it feels good" Buffy said with a small smile.
"Well I can't wait 'til I turn eighteen, not for another four months" Willow said.
"Okay, tonight, I'm not having a party, but just a little get together, you're coming right?" Buffy asked.
"Of course" Willow said.
"Good, have you seen Spike?" Buffy asked.
"Uh, no, but didn't you spend the night with him?" Willow asked.
"Yeah, but I want to make sure he's coming" Buffy said. Willow's eyes shifted to her left hand where her ring was.
"Oh my god, Buffy!" Willow exclaimed, which startled Buffy.
"What?" Buffy asked.
"You're getting engaged, when were you going to tell me?" Willow said.
"Oh, I'm sorry Will, but yeah, I'm getting married" Buffy said.
"I'm so happy for you" Willow said.
"Thank you, I'm happy for me too" Buffy said. Suddenly she felt someone tickle her from behind and quickly turned around to find Spike standing there.
"Hey" he said. She smiled.
"Hi honey" she said and he kissed her.
"Hey baby" he said.
"Spike, congrats on the engagement" Willow said.
"Thanks Wills" Spike said and took Buffy's hand. "Come on birthday girl, we have class" he said and pulled her away.
The day went quickly and soon it was the end of the day. Spike dropped Buffy off at home and went back to his place to get ready for tonight.
"So, how does it look?" Buffy asked her mom and sister. She was wearing a pink dress that was about one inch above her knee. She had on a pink lace top over the spaghetti strapped dress. On her feet were pink shoes to match.
"Buffy, you look a 21st century Cinderella" Dawn said and Buffy laughed.
"Thanks Dawnie" she said. Buffy looked down at the dress. It looked like a two-piece, but wasn't. on the top part were pink roses and towards the bottom were tiny little shiny diamond like beads, which were also pink. "You don't think it's too much pink do you? I mean I don't look like Pepto- Bismol do I?"
"No sweetie the dress is beautiful and you look beautiful in it" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom" Buffy said.
"Oh honey, your father wants to come tonight, will that be all right?" Joyce asked.
"No, I don't want my birthday ruined.
'It won't be, honey he's really trying" Joyce said.
"Why are you defending him?" Buffy asked.
"I'm not, but just give him a chance okay" Joyce said.
"Please Buffy" Dawn begged. The desperation in her little sister's eyes was enough for her to give in.
"Fine" she said.
"Good, I'll call him" Joyce said. Buffy went upstairs to finish getting ready. She curled her hair and put on some makeup. Finally it was six o'clock and everyone arrived. The first being Spike.
"Hey luv, you look wonderful" he said.
"Thank you" she said and kissed him.
"Here" he said and handed her a long rectangular shaped wrapped box.
"What's this?" she asked.
"It's your birthday gift" he said.
"Honey I though that this was my gift" she said and held out her hand.
"No, well sort of, but not really" he said.
"Well thank you" she said. Soon everyone else came, Willow, Oz, Cordelia and Xander.
"All right, present time" Joyce said.
"Wait mom, dad isn't here yet" Buffy said.
"Oh, well, we can start without him" Joyce said.
"Okay" Buffy said and Dawn handed her the first box. "All right this is from. . .oh Cordelia" she said and opened the it to reveal a lingerie nightgown that was black lace and partly see through. "Wow."
"Well, you can't have a wedding night without something like that so there you go" Cordelia said.
"Thanks Cordy" Buffy said.
"All right, me next" Willow said and gave her the gift bag. Buffy opened it and pulled out designer perfume and a gift certificate to a spa.
"Thanks Will, this is awesome" Buffy said.
"You're welcome" Willow said with a smile. Next went Oz and then Xander and then finally Spike. Buffy opened the box to reveal a gold heart shaped locket.
"Baby this is beautiful" Buffy said.
"You like it?" he asked.
"I love it thank you" she said and kissed him.
"Open it" he said. She opened it and inside was a picture of him on the left side and the right side wasn't filled. "See when we get the first picture of the baby you can put it there" he said and pointed to the empty spot. Buffy could feel her eyes filling with tears. She looked at Spike and she felt so lucky to be with him, to be having his child.
"Thank you" she whispered, intending it to be only for him. He moved his face so it was only inches from hers.
"You're welcome baby" he said and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"Okay, who wants cake?" Joyce asked, pulling Buffy out of her dreamy gaze at Spike.
"Ooh, me!" Dawn said happily.
"Me too" Willow said and followed Dawn and Joyce into the kitchen.
"I'm gonna go get cake too" Cordelia said and took Xander's hand.
"You guys want?" Xander asked Oz, Buffy and Spike.
"Sure, right behind you" Oz said.
"Me too" Spike said. "You coming luv?" he asked Buffy.
"In a minute" Buffy said.
"All right, you all right?" he asked.
"Yeah, fine" Buffy said. Spike and Oz and Xander and Cordelia went into the kitchen. Buffy got up off the carpet where she was sitting and went outside. She decided to wait for her dad out there. Even though she was very angry with him she did want him there. Deep down she always wished her dad wanted to be in her life all the time, she was just too stubborn to admit it. After about twenty minutes of being outside the front door opened and Spike came out to join her.
"Hey luv" he said and sat down on the steps with her.
"Hi" she said quietly with a sad look on her face. She knew that her father wasn't coming. The party was almost over and he was a no show.
"What's the matter per?" he asked.
"He's not coming" Buffy said.
"Who?" Spike asked.
"My dad. . .but I shouldn't be surprised, he just. . .it's what he does, he's the king at letting his daughters down, the story I told you a couple days ago wasn't the complete truth, you know the one about my parents. My dad was always absentee, he. . .he hid behind . . .he hid behind anything that would keep him away from us, it's always been that way, always" Buffy said.
"Well didn't you not want him here?" Spike asked her.
"I guess, but part of me hoped he'd come. . .am I a bad person?" she asked, looking at him.
"What, no of course not" he said.
"Well then why do I deserve this? Why does my dad only want to be in my life when it's convenient for him?" Buffy asked, tears starting to fall. "God, my life is like a soap opera."
"Honey, it's not your fault, if you're pop doesn't want to be in your life it's his loss, not yours" he said.
"No. . .you make a baby, you raise her, in those years of her growing up, when do you realize that you don't want this, that you don't care anymore? Where in my and Dawn's life did he realize, that he didn't want to be a dad anymore?" she asked. He moved closer to her and she leaned into him.
"Baby, it's your birthday, you don't deserve to feel sad" he said.
"I can't help it" she said.
"Come on, let's go inside" he said.
"Spike, can I come home with you tonight?" Buffy asked.
"Of course" he said. And they went back inside.
They party ended soon after that and everyone began to leave. They said their goodbyes and then left. Soon the only ones in the house were Joyce, Dawn, Buffy and Spike.
"Okay, mom I'm gong home with Spike tonight" Buffy said.
"Oh, well. . .all right, again?" she asked.
'Yeah, you don't care do you?" Buffy asked.
"No, I guess not" Joyce said.
"Okay, I'm gonna go get some stuff" she said and kissed Spike on the cheek before running upstairs.
"Excuse me for a moment" Joyce said and followed her daughter. "Buffy honey."
"Hey mom, what's wrong?" Buffy asked.
"Nothing, well. . .I'm sorry that your father didn't make it" Joyce said.
"Yeah, well I'm not surprised" Buffy said.
"Are you okay?" Joyce asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine, I don't' need him to love me, I have other people who do, you, Dawn, my friends, and Spike, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have him" Buffy said.
"Well you do, and you have everyone else too" Joyce said.
'I know" Buffy said as she finished getting her stuff together and her and Joyce went back downstairs.
"Okay pet, ready to go?" Spike asked.
"Yeah, all set" Buffy said and she and Spike left. On the way to Spike place Buffy thought of what her father abandoning her really meant. Was it her fault? Or did he just. . .no care about anything? She just wished that she had a normal life. She just wished her parents could get along. Finally she came to the conclusion that maybe some people weren't meant to have that life, some people just weren't meant to have the Rockwellian Portrait, the house, the two-car garage, the picket fence, the Golden Retriever, and the doting mum and dad. No matter how much she wanted it she knew that it would never happen. With that in mind she decided that her children would have all of that. She promised herself never to fall out of love with Spike and she didn't know how it was possible to. She loved him so much and she knew that she would for the rest of her life. As Spike pulled into the apartment complex Buffy sighed. Her life from now forward would be perfect.