Kiss Me Deadly
-M.L.-
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Disclaimer: Whoops...wait...didn't I forget a disclaimer in chapter one......hrm..oh well..what harm could come of it? *lawyers knock on her door* O_O;; Well, I might as well say it now, I dont own Tenchi. (muffled sob)
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"Ryoko...I've forgotten all about that. You should do.." you whisper. The tears are flowing freely now, my body aches with the memory of being one with you, of being complete. The pain seems too great now, like a hammer ramming repeatedly into my chest, knocking my heart off beat.
"I can't."
"Ryoko.."
"What did I do wrong?"
"I just don't feel anything for you..can't we be friends?"
"Liar." I cried out in pain. Don't tell me that Tenchi, please don't tell me that. Im nothing without you. If I could just be somthing in your eyes. If you would hold me like you use to...Tenchi.. "Liar.." It seemed like cotton was being shoved in my ears. My senses were growing dull. I couldn't hear you breathe, or talk, all I heard was the ear shattering scream as it escaped my body..
So this must be how it feels to die?
Everythings going black..
Do you even care?
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"Ryoko?"
My name.
Heh..It sounds so pitiful.
"Ryokooo."
So loud...
"RYOKO!"
Finally I opened my eyes. It felt as if my whole body was paralyzed. I couldn't lift my hand to block the blinding light from burning my eyes..
"So you're finally awake." Washu's large bushy head moved infront of the light, grinning.
"Why can't I move?" I muttered.
"You're strapped to the table. You wouldn't stop thrashing in your sleep.You fell off atleast three times, roughed your head up a bit."
"Washu..whats wrong with me?" I muttered. I felt cold all over. I never fainted without reason before.
Washu undid the straps holding me to the tableWas it just my imagination, or was she avoiding my eyes? Did she look...sad?
"Washu?" I repeated, sitting up, rubbing the red, irritated circle the leather band left on my wrists.
"Ryoko.." Washu said, sitting down. She looked like an old lady, her face suddenly lined with sorrow, "Ryoko you're dying."
"What?" I said, "I don't think I understood."
"You're sick, Ryoko. Im not sure with what, but Im sure its killing you."
"Washu, what do you mean your not sure? I thought you knew everything!" It sounded bitter. And I was. She was the one who gave me the news, hence, it was her fault.
"Im not sure. Its as if your body is waging war on itself. Your heart is giving out. Its growing weaker.Its as if it wants to die.."
I want to die.
Maybe I should be dancing with joy.
I bet you are.
With that little pinhead princess.
Up in your room.
The two of you.
Do you think I can't hear you?
At night.
She moans your name..
as you do hers.
Tenchi...
"Ryoko..the basic compound of your body was made from that one celled organizm that Ryo-ohki formed with. Its meant to carry out the host's wishes.."
"So?" I replied, callously. Im dying. So what? Its not like I haven't been killed thousands of times before. When you'd throw me *those* looks, or smile. Or when you announced the news over breakfast.
'Lady Ayeka and I..'
'Are to be wed.'
I died right then and there. And I wish you would have to. She can't make you happy! How could you ever think she would?
Its always been you and me Tenchi. We're two of a kind. We'll always be meant for eachother, and one day you'll see that. You'll come back to me..
I'd truly like to believe that...
I want to believe that..
"So if you want to die that badly.....then die you shall." Washu stated simply. "What has you so upset.."
Do you think I can't hear you at night?
When you're loving her, and every fiber of my body is screaming for your touch? When Im dying because I love you...and you couldn't care less for me?
"Ryoko...is he that important?" Washu said, taking my hand in hers.
"Without Tenchi..." I muttered.."Without him.....I can't be complete." Brushing away the small rivers streaming from my eyes, my hands began to tremble.
"Oh, Ryoko." Washu said, taking me in her tiny arms. It felt akward, this small hug from mother to daughter, but I'd take anything offered right now.
"How long do I have left?"
"I'd give you about two months, Ryoko..unless you can will it away."
"I'd rather just die."
"Ryo.."
But I phased away, appearing at the tree of light. Its funny..the tree of light seemed to the air about it as Tenchi did, so warm and refreshing. Maybe I should just lay here and die beneath the tree. Would you cry, Tenchi? Would you?
I feel myself growing faint even now..maybe I do need a nap..
=---=
"Ryoko.."
Washu had been following me all day the next day.
"Ryoko, listen to me."
"Fine, Im in a good mood today, so I'll humor you."
"Ryoko, what you're doing is dangerous."
"What are you talking about Washu?"
"Tenchi."
"How'd you know?"
"How would I not know. I AM your mother, after all."
"Heh, fine Mother, why is it dangerous." I shouldn't have asked. I didn't *want* this perfect day to be ruined. I didn't want all these good emotions in me to collapse into nothing as they have so many times before. Tenchi and I had been together..what could ruin this moment?
"Lady Ayeka and Lord Tenchi were meant to be together. They're bound by royal blood."
"No." I refused to hear this. I gave Washu the back of my head.
"He will choose her."
"NO!"
"Don't let him play with you."
"TENCHI LOVES ME!" I screamed, covering my ears. Im not a toy. Im not.
"See things for what they are! You love Tenchi! But are you sure that he feels the same for you?"
"Im not a toy.." I am. And if thats what I have to be to get Tenchi's attention, Use me! Use me! Im a puppet, and willingly I'll give you the strings Tenchi. I'd die a thousand deaths, each more painfull then the last for you.
I didn't know how correct I was...
*Would you cry for me? My dear Tenchi..*
I wonder how its possiable that I fell so deeply in love with you Tenchi. I have already died a thousand times, when you smile, when you move, when I see you touch her. When she smiles and rejoices in your touch. You never touched me in publice, but I know how your hand feels against my skin, I know what it feels like to be complete. And when it boils down to it..In the end..Im glad I knew that feeling before I die. Even if I could go back, and stop it all from happening, I'd rather live with this pain.
I'd rather die with this pain..
Then erase the memory of your sweet touch from my body.
Is that what love is? Because I know I love you, but I cant explain this feeling. I know Im not a poet. I never have been. Maybe Ayeka is. Maybe she'll write you a beautiful epic poem, where I die, and you two live on, happily ever after. Would that make you happy or sad?
All I can say is it hurts a helluva lot to be in love.
Love is pain.
Extreme Pain..
(tbc)
-M.L.-
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Disclaimer: Whoops...wait...didn't I forget a disclaimer in chapter one......hrm..oh well..what harm could come of it? *lawyers knock on her door* O_O;; Well, I might as well say it now, I dont own Tenchi. (muffled sob)
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"Ryoko...I've forgotten all about that. You should do.." you whisper. The tears are flowing freely now, my body aches with the memory of being one with you, of being complete. The pain seems too great now, like a hammer ramming repeatedly into my chest, knocking my heart off beat.
"I can't."
"Ryoko.."
"What did I do wrong?"
"I just don't feel anything for you..can't we be friends?"
"Liar." I cried out in pain. Don't tell me that Tenchi, please don't tell me that. Im nothing without you. If I could just be somthing in your eyes. If you would hold me like you use to...Tenchi.. "Liar.." It seemed like cotton was being shoved in my ears. My senses were growing dull. I couldn't hear you breathe, or talk, all I heard was the ear shattering scream as it escaped my body..
So this must be how it feels to die?
Everythings going black..
Do you even care?
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"Ryoko?"
My name.
Heh..It sounds so pitiful.
"Ryokooo."
So loud...
"RYOKO!"
Finally I opened my eyes. It felt as if my whole body was paralyzed. I couldn't lift my hand to block the blinding light from burning my eyes..
"So you're finally awake." Washu's large bushy head moved infront of the light, grinning.
"Why can't I move?" I muttered.
"You're strapped to the table. You wouldn't stop thrashing in your sleep.You fell off atleast three times, roughed your head up a bit."
"Washu..whats wrong with me?" I muttered. I felt cold all over. I never fainted without reason before.
Washu undid the straps holding me to the tableWas it just my imagination, or was she avoiding my eyes? Did she look...sad?
"Washu?" I repeated, sitting up, rubbing the red, irritated circle the leather band left on my wrists.
"Ryoko.." Washu said, sitting down. She looked like an old lady, her face suddenly lined with sorrow, "Ryoko you're dying."
"What?" I said, "I don't think I understood."
"You're sick, Ryoko. Im not sure with what, but Im sure its killing you."
"Washu, what do you mean your not sure? I thought you knew everything!" It sounded bitter. And I was. She was the one who gave me the news, hence, it was her fault.
"Im not sure. Its as if your body is waging war on itself. Your heart is giving out. Its growing weaker.Its as if it wants to die.."
I want to die.
Maybe I should be dancing with joy.
I bet you are.
With that little pinhead princess.
Up in your room.
The two of you.
Do you think I can't hear you?
At night.
She moans your name..
as you do hers.
Tenchi...
"Ryoko..the basic compound of your body was made from that one celled organizm that Ryo-ohki formed with. Its meant to carry out the host's wishes.."
"So?" I replied, callously. Im dying. So what? Its not like I haven't been killed thousands of times before. When you'd throw me *those* looks, or smile. Or when you announced the news over breakfast.
'Lady Ayeka and I..'
'Are to be wed.'
I died right then and there. And I wish you would have to. She can't make you happy! How could you ever think she would?
Its always been you and me Tenchi. We're two of a kind. We'll always be meant for eachother, and one day you'll see that. You'll come back to me..
I'd truly like to believe that...
I want to believe that..
"So if you want to die that badly.....then die you shall." Washu stated simply. "What has you so upset.."
Do you think I can't hear you at night?
When you're loving her, and every fiber of my body is screaming for your touch? When Im dying because I love you...and you couldn't care less for me?
"Ryoko...is he that important?" Washu said, taking my hand in hers.
"Without Tenchi..." I muttered.."Without him.....I can't be complete." Brushing away the small rivers streaming from my eyes, my hands began to tremble.
"Oh, Ryoko." Washu said, taking me in her tiny arms. It felt akward, this small hug from mother to daughter, but I'd take anything offered right now.
"How long do I have left?"
"I'd give you about two months, Ryoko..unless you can will it away."
"I'd rather just die."
"Ryo.."
But I phased away, appearing at the tree of light. Its funny..the tree of light seemed to the air about it as Tenchi did, so warm and refreshing. Maybe I should just lay here and die beneath the tree. Would you cry, Tenchi? Would you?
I feel myself growing faint even now..maybe I do need a nap..
=---=
"Ryoko.."
Washu had been following me all day the next day.
"Ryoko, listen to me."
"Fine, Im in a good mood today, so I'll humor you."
"Ryoko, what you're doing is dangerous."
"What are you talking about Washu?"
"Tenchi."
"How'd you know?"
"How would I not know. I AM your mother, after all."
"Heh, fine Mother, why is it dangerous." I shouldn't have asked. I didn't *want* this perfect day to be ruined. I didn't want all these good emotions in me to collapse into nothing as they have so many times before. Tenchi and I had been together..what could ruin this moment?
"Lady Ayeka and Lord Tenchi were meant to be together. They're bound by royal blood."
"No." I refused to hear this. I gave Washu the back of my head.
"He will choose her."
"NO!"
"Don't let him play with you."
"TENCHI LOVES ME!" I screamed, covering my ears. Im not a toy. Im not.
"See things for what they are! You love Tenchi! But are you sure that he feels the same for you?"
"Im not a toy.." I am. And if thats what I have to be to get Tenchi's attention, Use me! Use me! Im a puppet, and willingly I'll give you the strings Tenchi. I'd die a thousand deaths, each more painfull then the last for you.
I didn't know how correct I was...
*Would you cry for me? My dear Tenchi..*
I wonder how its possiable that I fell so deeply in love with you Tenchi. I have already died a thousand times, when you smile, when you move, when I see you touch her. When she smiles and rejoices in your touch. You never touched me in publice, but I know how your hand feels against my skin, I know what it feels like to be complete. And when it boils down to it..In the end..Im glad I knew that feeling before I die. Even if I could go back, and stop it all from happening, I'd rather live with this pain.
I'd rather die with this pain..
Then erase the memory of your sweet touch from my body.
Is that what love is? Because I know I love you, but I cant explain this feeling. I know Im not a poet. I never have been. Maybe Ayeka is. Maybe she'll write you a beautiful epic poem, where I die, and you two live on, happily ever after. Would that make you happy or sad?
All I can say is it hurts a helluva lot to be in love.
Love is pain.
Extreme Pain..
(tbc)