I Lied To You

I'm sorry
I hate myself for it
No matter the reasoning
It's the same
I lied
And now I can't stop
I lied to you when I said
That I was fine
That nothing was up
That I don't die every time I have to lie to you
Especially when I have to lie
About loving you
I can't
I just cannot tell you the truth
That I can't love
That I can't love
That it destroys me every time I have to force a fake smile
When I'm crying inside
But please
I need you to lie to me
Tell me those things I need to hear
That you'll never leave
That everything's okay
That you honestly love me
So I can lie to you again.