"Heaven holds a sense of wonder"

Chapter XII Nightly thoughts

Deliver me,

out of my sadness.

Deliver me, from all of the madness.

Deliver me,

courage to guide me.

Deliver me, strength from inside me.

All of my life I've been in hiding.

Wishing there was someone just like you.

Now that you're here,

now that I've found you,

I know that you're the one

to pull me through.

("Deliever me" by Sarah Brightman)

Hermione didn't want Draco to bring her home. So she tried to hell him carefully.

"This was a really nice afternoon."

She began.

He looked at her.

"But I have to go now."

"may I bring you home?"

She could see in his eyes, that he hoped for a yes. And perhaps some things more.

"No. Its very kind of you, but I rather apparate."

"Are you sure? I mean London is not that safe at night."

"I said I would apparate. I doubt that someone would harm me in this short period of time."

She smiled, but her voice was strong and firm.

He looked disappointed, but just for a second, then his normal face returned.

"I have to accept this."

He sighed.

"But our meeting for tomorrow is clear?"

"Do I have a possibility to refuse?"

"No."

She shrugged.

"Where shall I pick you up?"

She knew that he hoped to make her tell him where she lived.

But she was not that stupid.

"What about the "leaky cauldron"?"

He made a face.

"I better pick you up at Covent Garden. What do you think?

I know it is a muggle sight, but it is close to what I want to show you."

"Ok. What time?"

"Let´s say, nine a.m. Or is it too early for you?"

"No, it´s fine."

"Good, but please don´t have breakfast before we meet."

She looked questioning at him.

"Why?"

"Surprise."

She smiled.

"Ok, Then I´ll better leave"

He pretended to be hurt.

"Because I didn´t tell you why?"

"No, it is just late. And I want to go home. I have been up all day."

"It is not late, I really would like to bring you home. But if you don´t want me to....."

She shook her head.

"Indeed I don´t want you to.

And by the way, you would be disappointed,

for I would not ask you to come into my flat for a coffee."

"So that is how you see me? I am shocked."

"No, you are not.

See you tomorrow, Draco."

And she went out of the café.

He just sat there and watched her leaving.

After she was gone for a long time.

He murmured

"Till tomorrow, Felicitas.

I'll wait for you."

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Hermiones POV

~Did he change?~

~No, he is still the Death-Eater who killed you family and friends.~

~But he had been so nice.~

~Just because he wanted to shag you.~

~............~

~I am sure is will not be there tomorrow.~

~i don´t think you are right.~

~Fuck.~

~What? Why do you swear?~

~You don´t even notice it.~

~Notice what?~

~You are falling for Draco Malfoy.~

~No, I am not. I am just trying to gain information. And for this I have to get close to him.~

~Think what you want, i tell you, you are just lying at youself.~

Hermione walked through the streets of London.

The night sky was deep blue with a lot of shimmering stars.

She knew, this was a rare thing in a big city like this, such a wonderful night sky.

She had lied to Draco when she told him she would apparate.

She loved walking through London by night.

Here she felt a kind of peace.

She knew, that if she was at home now, she could not find sleep or rest.

So she walked through the streets of London.

Her mind was running.

Thoughts and pictures of Draco and her in the café flew through her mind.

She had had fun, even more fun than she had had with Fred.

Although she would never admit, she looked forward to tomorrow.

She somehow liked to play with the danger.

She knew, he was like an animal.

Or better, like his name, a dragon.

She played with the fire.

And she knew that very well.

But it made her feel alive like nothing else.

And it was dangerous.

She did not fear for her life, she feared for the Order and all the members.

People that were happy to be alive. Not so she.

Dumbledore knew why she was the right one for this mission.

She had lost everything, so she feared almost nothing.

Malfoy would not scare her, so she was a challenge to him.

And he would never give up, never.

****************************** At the same time, not far away *******************

Draco´s POV

~Who is this girl?

I just know her name, and she drives me crazy.

I want to have her, all of her.

The way her hair falls down on her shoulders.

The way she moves, the way she smiles.

She remembers me of someone, I just don´t know who.

It cannot be someone from Hogwarts, I mean she was never there.

Her eyes, I could vanish in them.

I could get lost in her skin, it so pale, she seems like a fairy.

And her name,

Felicitas.

It sounds like music in my ears.

It fits, I looked it up, it means fairy in German. It is perfect for her.

I can´t sleep, for every time I close my eyes, I see her beautiful face.

And it makes my heart beat like mad.

Perhaps she was the one to give my life sense.

To escape my life, my father and my whole existents.

Perhaps she is the one to guide me through all this.

~Are you in love?~

~NO, I Would never fall in love after just one meeting.~

~But you sound like you would be in love.~

~Never. I am a Malfoy.~

~But you didn´t tell her your name.~

~She didn´t tell me hers.~

~A Malfoy ever mentions his name.~

~Doesn´t matter. I see her tomorrow, I can tell her tomorrow.~

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Important AN:

I had to repost chapter XI for less than half of the real chapter was up!!! I don´t know how this could happen!!! I am really sorry!!!!

And ~........~ means thoughts or self talking. ;o)

In the lasts chapters it was not really clear, but Hermione discusses her situation very often with her inner self!!!!