By: Unipeg
Disclaimer: Buffy belongs to my God. Oh, yeah my God is Joss Whedon. Plus 20th century Fox, Mutant Enemy, and Co. The song belongs to Tapping the Vein. It's called "Fingertips".
Authors Note: This story is based on the musical "Once More with Feeling". A song that Buffy should have sang. But, it's after Buffy and Spike are sleeping together. It's Spuffy.
Spoilers: Possibly anything Season 6. But definitely the Musical.
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Buffy is sitting on her bed thinking to her herself. She then
get's up and grabs a stake and walks down stairs.
"Hey, Buffy. Out to patrol, huh." Willow says cheerfully.
"Yeah. Would you make sure Dawn does her homework?"
Buffy says in a soft tone.
"No problem. Make those demons are dust, even singing ones."
Willow says and pats Buffy's shoulder.
"Yeah, I will." Buffy says and slightly smiles then
goes out the door.
Buffy walks through the graveyard quietly looking for something
to fight. She passes Spike's crypt and decides to avoid going
in there this time.
"I must not go to him." She says quietly to herself
and walks off.
A voice in her head says 'I just want to feel him'. She stops
at a gravestone and sits on it twiddling her stake and music starts
playing and she's looking at Spike crypt in the distance. Buffy
Sings:
*Although it's warm outside
I feel cold inside my skin
I really could have used fair warning
Then maybe I'd survive this hell I'm in
This is easy
This is easier*
Starts walking around again in the direction of Spike's crypt.
Still singing. she stops in front of there.
*If I could heal myself
Where would I begin?
I really wish I'd had a shoulder
I'd try and climb from this hole I'm in
This is easy
This is easier
Locked in all alone here
Fate is in my fingertips
There isn't anyone that can hold me here*
She turns away from the crypt and looks down at the ground. She
kneels down
*Do you think this is courage?
Does this make me brave?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made*
Spike comes out hearing the singing realizing it's Buffy. He just
watches and stays quiet.
*This is easy
This is easier for me
Than to pretend that this will ever get easier for me*
She gets up and walks away. Spike follows her still keeping his
presence unknown.
*Do you think this is Selfish?
Does this make me crazed?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made*
She stops and turns around seeing Spike standing there as she
finishes her song.
*This will never get easy
I don't think so*
She stares into his eyes and is crying. Spike walks up to her
and holds her.
"Shhh..Calm down. It's ok, I'm here." Spike says feeling
her shake with sobs in his arms while he rocks her.
"I just want to leave it all behind." Buffy says slightly
braking the embrace to look up at his eyes.
"You will make it through this. At least you told me. That's
a plus to moving on and then you sang it to your friends. I think
they took it alright." Spike said holding her shoulders softly.
"Yeah, I guess your right. Thanks for making me feel better.
How do you know me so well?" Buffy says looking in his eyes
like he might disappear.
"I know the one I love. Now don't say I don't. Because I
do and I care too." Spike says breaking the eye contact and
looks down. Buffy puts her hand on his cheek and has him look
at her.
"I know. That's why I wanted to tell you first." Buffy
says smiling lightly and goes to kiss him. He returns the kiss
and wraps his arms around her.
"Let's go to your place" Buffy says breaking the kiss
and starts walking.
"Are you sure? You shouldn't keep doing this to yourself."
Spike says grabbing her arm and she faces him.
"I want to. I want to learn to love you too." Buffy
says softly and looks at him with a small smile.
"Did you say you want to learn to love me?" Spike asks
not quite believing what he just heard.
"I want to know you like you know me. And maybe while I'm
doing that I can learn to love you. You might be the one that
can hold me here." Buffy explains and takes his hand walking
in the direction of his crypt. Spike smiles understanding her
and walks along with her.
The End
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