"Heaven holds a sense of wonder"
AN: FF.net is running again, so I can finally post the twentieth chapter!!!!!!
Chapter XX Understanding the truth
For there in the middle of that waiting hall
Should be standing the one that I love best of all
If he is not there to meet me when I get to town,
I´ll stand on the side-walk with tears rolling down.
For he is the one that I love to look on.
The acme of kindness and perfection.
He pressed my hand and says he loves me,
("Calypso", By W.H. Auden)
Hermione quickly closed the door behind her.
She was glad to be alone.
She sank down, her back against the door.
~Fuck, why does it feels so good to be kissing him?~
~Because you are in love with him.~
This time her inner voice wasn't angry or sarcastic.
~?????~
~Shall I repeat? You, or both of us are in love with Draco Malfoy.
The Murderer of your family and friends, son of Lucius Malfoy and Death- Eater
and a very good kisser.~
~But this cannot be.
This is not right.
I am a former Auror and I work for the Order,
plus, in his eyes I am nothing, I am a Mudblood.~
~In his eyes, you are Felicitas Hewitt, the girl he kisses like mad and is crazy after.~
~This is nothing but a lie.
Nothing of all this is real, if he is falling for me, good, but I have to keep my head clear.
I can't give into those romantic thoughts,
I have a family and friends, dead, but in my head screaming for revenge.~
"I need to write a letter to Tonks and Molly,
I need their help, if I want to seduce Malfoy and destroy him successfully."
Hermione smirked, but not in her usual nice and kind way,
this time her smirk was cold and cruel.
But it was nothing else than a mask to hide her true feelings toward Draco Malfoy.
**************** Grimmauld Place ****************
Tonks, Molly, Fred and George sat around the kitchen table,
when Remus stormed into the kitchen.
"Hey guys,"
he seemed to be very excited.
"You won't believe what I have here!"
"Another dead friend?"
George wasn't in a good mood, his wife was at the doctor,
and he wanted to know how she was.
"George, didn't sleep well last night?"
"Sophia, his wife didn't want him to come with her to the doctor.
She said he would make her nervous, for he has not the good nerves she has."
Fred grinned widely at his brother.
Remus stood at the door and looked questioning into the kitchen.
He shrugged,
"Ok, then you don't want to hear what Hermione writes."
He grinned as he saw the expression on Fred's face.
"Hermione wrote?
Is she alright?"
"I have no idea, Fred.
I haven't read the letter."
"Why? Give it to me,
I want to read it."
Remus grin grew wider.
"No, it is for Tonks and Molly."
Fred's face fell, as he saw Lupin handing the letter to his mother and Tonks.
Now it was George's turn to tease Fred.
"Oh, that is hard if the woman of the heart just writes to your "mom" and not to you."
"Shut the hell up."
******************
"Molly,"
Tonks voice was anxious,
"please, let me read her letter too."
Molly's face wore a worried expression.
"Read it, and after reading please throw it into the fire."
Molly had made the guys leave, after reading the first sentences.
Tonks took the paper from Molly's hand and read it.
She was glad to see Hermiones handwriting again.
"Dear Tonks and Molly,
I really need your help.
Draco Malfoy is falling for me!!!
Isn't it great?
This is the perfect way to get information.
Yesterday, we've met his father, but it wasn't as bad as I thought.
L.M. is buying my ID and he invited me to a ball he is going to give.
I beg you, please help me with the ball-thing.
I have to look stunning if I want Draco to give me everything we need on information.
Answer me as soon as possible!
Via muggle post.
It may take more time, but it is safer.
Hermione"
"That sounds really bad."
Tonks said, throwing the letter into the fireplace.
Molly just nodded.
"This is too dangerous for her, a ball at Malfoy Manor, this is going to end bad."
"Tonks, please be so nice and tell Dumbledore that we really need to speak with him.
This is a way to high for us."
***********************
Hermione opened the door to her flat and step out into the floor.
She was on her way to the St. James park.
Draco wanted to meet her there.
At least he had said he wanted to.
But when Hermione stepped out of the door,
she suddenly had an immense bouquet of roses directly in front of her nose.
She heard Draco´s low voice through the roses.
"Good morning My Lady."
She couldn´t help but smile.
"hey, that wasn't necessary."
"I know, but I wanted to see your smile again."
He pulled the roses aside and kissed her softly on her lips.
She quickly gave into the kiss and soon it became more passionately.
He let the roses fall and wrapped his arms around her waist, lifting her up a bit,
so that her feet were a few inches above the ground.
Hermione pulled away breathless.
"mmm, I´d like to be kissed like this more often."
She smiled at him and he rested his forehead against hers.
"I could do something in this subject, I think."
He grinned as he kissed her again.
This time it took both of them more time to pull away from each other.
"So, what do you want to do today, My Lady?"
"What do you have to offer?"
Her voice was a bit husky from their previous encounter.
"What about flying?
I mean Quidditch? You said you liked it."
"I said I like watching it, but I can´t even fly!"
Hermiones voice became high.
"I am afraid of flying."
"Then I´ll have to teach you"
Draco looked at her seductivly.
"And there are a lot other things i could teach you too."
He kissed her again, this time with all his desire, which was a lot...
(AN: Oh, I am soooo jealous!!!!!)
"But you´ll take car of me that I don´t fall."
She looked at him with puppy eyes.
"i´ll take care of you, no matter what happens."
He pressed her closer to him and just held her in his embrace.
Hermione felt so good in his arms. Although she knew it was not right.
~I should feel like this in Freds arms. Not in Dracos.~
~Yeah, but love never thinks about who is on your side or not.~
~What would the others think if they could see me like this?~
~They would probably think how much they feel sorry for you.
They still think that it is hard for you to be with Malfoy.~
~But it isn´t. I love to be with him, however I deny it.~
~That´s normal I guess. But you mustn´t place him higher than your mission.
You may be in love with him, but just as long as you are needed here.
When the mission ends, you have to leave him here,
and you will leave for your own life and your own fight.
You mustn´t forget, that he fights for something and someone else.
You know that, don´t you?~
~Yeah, I do.
But as long as this mission continues, I may enjoy this feelings and follow them.
But when the Order tells me that we go into the final battle, t
hen you are right, then I will have to leave him here.
But this may take its time.~
She leaned closer to Draco and inhaled his male scent.
She snuggled in his chest and mumbled:
"Then teach me how to fly."
He caressed her back and nuzzled in her hair.
"But for this I´ll have to take you with me,
I know a fine place to practise."
"Fine, then take me away from here, Draco Malfoy."
And he aparated with her in his arms.
**************** TBC *********************
AN: Yuppy!! I finished Chapter XX!!!
Again I thank everyone who reviewed, it makes me so happy to see all m reviews!!!
I love them,
I need them,
I wait for them every time I check my mails!!!
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Disclaimer: Again, I have to tell you and myself that I don´t own Harry Potter. :o(
*Sobbing*
he still belongs to J.K. Rowling, the same thing for Hermione, Draco, etc.
(I mean, I don´t write about harry, so actually it doesn´t really matter that I don´t own him,
does it? *Smile*)
AN: FF.net is running again, so I can finally post the twentieth chapter!!!!!!
Chapter XX Understanding the truth
For there in the middle of that waiting hall
Should be standing the one that I love best of all
If he is not there to meet me when I get to town,
I´ll stand on the side-walk with tears rolling down.
For he is the one that I love to look on.
The acme of kindness and perfection.
He pressed my hand and says he loves me,
("Calypso", By W.H. Auden)
Hermione quickly closed the door behind her.
She was glad to be alone.
She sank down, her back against the door.
~Fuck, why does it feels so good to be kissing him?~
~Because you are in love with him.~
This time her inner voice wasn't angry or sarcastic.
~?????~
~Shall I repeat? You, or both of us are in love with Draco Malfoy.
The Murderer of your family and friends, son of Lucius Malfoy and Death- Eater
and a very good kisser.~
~But this cannot be.
This is not right.
I am a former Auror and I work for the Order,
plus, in his eyes I am nothing, I am a Mudblood.~
~In his eyes, you are Felicitas Hewitt, the girl he kisses like mad and is crazy after.~
~This is nothing but a lie.
Nothing of all this is real, if he is falling for me, good, but I have to keep my head clear.
I can't give into those romantic thoughts,
I have a family and friends, dead, but in my head screaming for revenge.~
"I need to write a letter to Tonks and Molly,
I need their help, if I want to seduce Malfoy and destroy him successfully."
Hermione smirked, but not in her usual nice and kind way,
this time her smirk was cold and cruel.
But it was nothing else than a mask to hide her true feelings toward Draco Malfoy.
**************** Grimmauld Place ****************
Tonks, Molly, Fred and George sat around the kitchen table,
when Remus stormed into the kitchen.
"Hey guys,"
he seemed to be very excited.
"You won't believe what I have here!"
"Another dead friend?"
George wasn't in a good mood, his wife was at the doctor,
and he wanted to know how she was.
"George, didn't sleep well last night?"
"Sophia, his wife didn't want him to come with her to the doctor.
She said he would make her nervous, for he has not the good nerves she has."
Fred grinned widely at his brother.
Remus stood at the door and looked questioning into the kitchen.
He shrugged,
"Ok, then you don't want to hear what Hermione writes."
He grinned as he saw the expression on Fred's face.
"Hermione wrote?
Is she alright?"
"I have no idea, Fred.
I haven't read the letter."
"Why? Give it to me,
I want to read it."
Remus grin grew wider.
"No, it is for Tonks and Molly."
Fred's face fell, as he saw Lupin handing the letter to his mother and Tonks.
Now it was George's turn to tease Fred.
"Oh, that is hard if the woman of the heart just writes to your "mom" and not to you."
"Shut the hell up."
******************
"Molly,"
Tonks voice was anxious,
"please, let me read her letter too."
Molly's face wore a worried expression.
"Read it, and after reading please throw it into the fire."
Molly had made the guys leave, after reading the first sentences.
Tonks took the paper from Molly's hand and read it.
She was glad to see Hermiones handwriting again.
"Dear Tonks and Molly,
I really need your help.
Draco Malfoy is falling for me!!!
Isn't it great?
This is the perfect way to get information.
Yesterday, we've met his father, but it wasn't as bad as I thought.
L.M. is buying my ID and he invited me to a ball he is going to give.
I beg you, please help me with the ball-thing.
I have to look stunning if I want Draco to give me everything we need on information.
Answer me as soon as possible!
Via muggle post.
It may take more time, but it is safer.
Hermione"
"That sounds really bad."
Tonks said, throwing the letter into the fireplace.
Molly just nodded.
"This is too dangerous for her, a ball at Malfoy Manor, this is going to end bad."
"Tonks, please be so nice and tell Dumbledore that we really need to speak with him.
This is a way to high for us."
***********************
Hermione opened the door to her flat and step out into the floor.
She was on her way to the St. James park.
Draco wanted to meet her there.
At least he had said he wanted to.
But when Hermione stepped out of the door,
she suddenly had an immense bouquet of roses directly in front of her nose.
She heard Draco´s low voice through the roses.
"Good morning My Lady."
She couldn´t help but smile.
"hey, that wasn't necessary."
"I know, but I wanted to see your smile again."
He pulled the roses aside and kissed her softly on her lips.
She quickly gave into the kiss and soon it became more passionately.
He let the roses fall and wrapped his arms around her waist, lifting her up a bit,
so that her feet were a few inches above the ground.
Hermione pulled away breathless.
"mmm, I´d like to be kissed like this more often."
She smiled at him and he rested his forehead against hers.
"I could do something in this subject, I think."
He grinned as he kissed her again.
This time it took both of them more time to pull away from each other.
"So, what do you want to do today, My Lady?"
"What do you have to offer?"
Her voice was a bit husky from their previous encounter.
"What about flying?
I mean Quidditch? You said you liked it."
"I said I like watching it, but I can´t even fly!"
Hermiones voice became high.
"I am afraid of flying."
"Then I´ll have to teach you"
Draco looked at her seductivly.
"And there are a lot other things i could teach you too."
He kissed her again, this time with all his desire, which was a lot...
(AN: Oh, I am soooo jealous!!!!!)
"But you´ll take car of me that I don´t fall."
She looked at him with puppy eyes.
"i´ll take care of you, no matter what happens."
He pressed her closer to him and just held her in his embrace.
Hermione felt so good in his arms. Although she knew it was not right.
~I should feel like this in Freds arms. Not in Dracos.~
~Yeah, but love never thinks about who is on your side or not.~
~What would the others think if they could see me like this?~
~They would probably think how much they feel sorry for you.
They still think that it is hard for you to be with Malfoy.~
~But it isn´t. I love to be with him, however I deny it.~
~That´s normal I guess. But you mustn´t place him higher than your mission.
You may be in love with him, but just as long as you are needed here.
When the mission ends, you have to leave him here,
and you will leave for your own life and your own fight.
You mustn´t forget, that he fights for something and someone else.
You know that, don´t you?~
~Yeah, I do.
But as long as this mission continues, I may enjoy this feelings and follow them.
But when the Order tells me that we go into the final battle, t
hen you are right, then I will have to leave him here.
But this may take its time.~
She leaned closer to Draco and inhaled his male scent.
She snuggled in his chest and mumbled:
"Then teach me how to fly."
He caressed her back and nuzzled in her hair.
"But for this I´ll have to take you with me,
I know a fine place to practise."
"Fine, then take me away from here, Draco Malfoy."
And he aparated with her in his arms.
**************** TBC *********************
AN: Yuppy!! I finished Chapter XX!!!
Again I thank everyone who reviewed, it makes me so happy to see all m reviews!!!
I love them,
I need them,
I wait for them every time I check my mails!!!
So, please (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Give me more reviews!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Again, I have to tell you and myself that I don´t own Harry Potter. :o(
*Sobbing*
he still belongs to J.K. Rowling, the same thing for Hermione, Draco, etc.
(I mean, I don´t write about harry, so actually it doesn´t really matter that I don´t own him,
does it? *Smile*)