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Spike sat on the beach staring at the waves. A single tear trickled down his cheek. He couldn't believe that the baby his wife was carrying wasn't his own. He didn't know what he was going to do. He loved Buffy more than anything. She and his daughter were the most important people in his life. He didn't want to leave them, but he couldn't raise a child that wasn't his. His head began to hurt as he thought of the life ahead. He closed his eyes trying not to cry, trying not to scream. After Buffy had told him, even before that. Just seeing the look on her face he knew. He got in his car and drove away. He had to talk to someone, he had to talk to Xander.
Buffy had to talk to someone too. She called her friends and mother. She thought it strange that she talked to them more than Spike. She also thought it strange that she shared more with her mother now that she was on her own. As always they hurried over. Willow, now three and a half months pregnant was starting to show. Cordelia was almost three months and showing, but less than Willow.
"Honey, did you get the test back?" Joyce asked when everyone arrived.
"Yeah, the baby isn't Spike's" Buffy said quietly.
"Oh Buffy" Willow said sympathetically.
"I don't know what to do, Spike said that he couldn't raise a baby that wasn't his, but. . .I can't give my baby up, and as much as I don't want any part of Miller, it's a part of me too, I big part. . .I don't want him to leave me though. . .I, what am I going to do?" she asked in desperation.
"Sweetie we can't tell you what to do" Joyce said.
"Yeah you just have to follow your heart" Willow said.
"And what if my heart refuses to talk" Buffy said.
"It will, I'm sure it'll take time, deciding between your unborn child and your husband and it might be painful and there might be a lot of tears and grief and. . ." she stopped when she saw everyone looking at her. "I'm not helping am I?"
"It's okay, you're right. . .I am. . .I'm so, scared" Buffy said and Willow wrapped her arms around her and Buffy laid her head on Willow's shoulder and Willow stroked her hair.
"No matter what you decided sweetie, we'll be here for you" Willow said and kissed her on the head.
"Yeah, you can always count on us" Cordelia said.
"Always" Joyce said.
"Thank you guys" Buffy said.
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"So, the kid's not yours huh? Tough break man I'm sorry" Xander said. He Spike and Oz had gathered in his apartment.
"What are you gonna do?" Oz asked.
"I don't know, I guess it depends on Buffy" Spike said.
"Okay, if she keeps the kid?" Xander asked.
"I can't stay there" Spike said.
"So you're gonna leave her?" Oz asked.
"If the baby Willow was carrying wasn't yours, would you stay with her?" Spike asked.
"Well if she cheated on me no, but come on man she was raped, you can't blame her for that" Oz said.
"Look I'm not trying to be the bad guy here all right, I love her and Charlotte" Spike said.
"We know you do? But the question is, do you love her enough to stay with her through this" Xander said.
Spike arrived home later that night. Joyce, Cordelia and Willow had already left. Buffy was getting the baby ready for bed.
"Hey" Spike said coming into Charlotte's room.
"Hi" Buffy said.
"I suppose you hate me" Spike said.
"No, of course not" Buffy said and put Charley in her crib and kissed her goodnight. Spike came over and kissed her also.
"Goodnight sweetheart" he said to her and he and Buffy left and turned out the light. They went into their bedroom and started getting ready for bed themselves.
"Where did you go?" she asked.
"Xander's" Spike said and climbed into bed. Buffy undressed and put on her nightgown and climbed into bed also. "Look I've had a lot of time to think and I've come to a conclusion."
"And what's that?" she asked, afraid of his answer.
"I love you, and our love can stand anything, so. . .whatever you decided, I'll be here" he said and she smiled slightly.
"Really?" she asked moving closer.
"Yeah, so have you made a decision?" he asked.
"I. . .I want to keep the baby Spike" she said.
"Okay, as much as I don't like it, I love you, and hey maybe I can grow to love the baby, maybe" he said and kissed her before turning over in bed and shutting off the light and turning back to face her. "What do you say we connect?" he said with a seductive smile. She smiled also and kissed him.
Spike sat on the beach staring at the waves. A single tear trickled down his cheek. He couldn't believe that the baby his wife was carrying wasn't his own. He didn't know what he was going to do. He loved Buffy more than anything. She and his daughter were the most important people in his life. He didn't want to leave them, but he couldn't raise a child that wasn't his. His head began to hurt as he thought of the life ahead. He closed his eyes trying not to cry, trying not to scream. After Buffy had told him, even before that. Just seeing the look on her face he knew. He got in his car and drove away. He had to talk to someone, he had to talk to Xander.
Buffy had to talk to someone too. She called her friends and mother. She thought it strange that she talked to them more than Spike. She also thought it strange that she shared more with her mother now that she was on her own. As always they hurried over. Willow, now three and a half months pregnant was starting to show. Cordelia was almost three months and showing, but less than Willow.
"Honey, did you get the test back?" Joyce asked when everyone arrived.
"Yeah, the baby isn't Spike's" Buffy said quietly.
"Oh Buffy" Willow said sympathetically.
"I don't know what to do, Spike said that he couldn't raise a baby that wasn't his, but. . .I can't give my baby up, and as much as I don't want any part of Miller, it's a part of me too, I big part. . .I don't want him to leave me though. . .I, what am I going to do?" she asked in desperation.
"Sweetie we can't tell you what to do" Joyce said.
"Yeah you just have to follow your heart" Willow said.
"And what if my heart refuses to talk" Buffy said.
"It will, I'm sure it'll take time, deciding between your unborn child and your husband and it might be painful and there might be a lot of tears and grief and. . ." she stopped when she saw everyone looking at her. "I'm not helping am I?"
"It's okay, you're right. . .I am. . .I'm so, scared" Buffy said and Willow wrapped her arms around her and Buffy laid her head on Willow's shoulder and Willow stroked her hair.
"No matter what you decided sweetie, we'll be here for you" Willow said and kissed her on the head.
"Yeah, you can always count on us" Cordelia said.
"Always" Joyce said.
"Thank you guys" Buffy said.
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"So, the kid's not yours huh? Tough break man I'm sorry" Xander said. He Spike and Oz had gathered in his apartment.
"What are you gonna do?" Oz asked.
"I don't know, I guess it depends on Buffy" Spike said.
"Okay, if she keeps the kid?" Xander asked.
"I can't stay there" Spike said.
"So you're gonna leave her?" Oz asked.
"If the baby Willow was carrying wasn't yours, would you stay with her?" Spike asked.
"Well if she cheated on me no, but come on man she was raped, you can't blame her for that" Oz said.
"Look I'm not trying to be the bad guy here all right, I love her and Charlotte" Spike said.
"We know you do? But the question is, do you love her enough to stay with her through this" Xander said.
Spike arrived home later that night. Joyce, Cordelia and Willow had already left. Buffy was getting the baby ready for bed.
"Hey" Spike said coming into Charlotte's room.
"Hi" Buffy said.
"I suppose you hate me" Spike said.
"No, of course not" Buffy said and put Charley in her crib and kissed her goodnight. Spike came over and kissed her also.
"Goodnight sweetheart" he said to her and he and Buffy left and turned out the light. They went into their bedroom and started getting ready for bed themselves.
"Where did you go?" she asked.
"Xander's" Spike said and climbed into bed. Buffy undressed and put on her nightgown and climbed into bed also. "Look I've had a lot of time to think and I've come to a conclusion."
"And what's that?" she asked, afraid of his answer.
"I love you, and our love can stand anything, so. . .whatever you decided, I'll be here" he said and she smiled slightly.
"Really?" she asked moving closer.
"Yeah, so have you made a decision?" he asked.
"I. . .I want to keep the baby Spike" she said.
"Okay, as much as I don't like it, I love you, and hey maybe I can grow to love the baby, maybe" he said and kissed her before turning over in bed and shutting off the light and turning back to face her. "What do you say we connect?" he said with a seductive smile. She smiled also and kissed him.