Warning: A bit dark...
"Heaven holds a sense of wonder"
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
(so much more)
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
(I want to die)
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
(« Tourniquet » By ecanescense)
Chapter XXIV When a father loves the son
"My son, nice to see. It had been a while, hasn't it?"
"Yes, if you consider two days a while, then yes."
"Draco, sarcasm isn´t good for the skin, it makes it older."
His father smiled, and Draco wished to punsh him hard into the face.
"Lets leave the good manners aside."
Draco started.
"Why? Good manners may open you a lot of doors."
"Yeah, maybe, but I want to talk to you, about the woman, Felicitas."
"Ah," A smile hushed over Lucius´face.
But Draco was smart enough to know that this hadn´t been a real smile.
It had been faked, like almost everything about his father.
"What about her? Is she ready?"
His voice had been soft, but suddenly it became very hard and cruel.
"There are no diffuculites about her in anyway, aren´t there?"
Draco hesitated to tell his father what he wanted him to tell.
His mind was running.
~Hey, don´t be a coward. Tell him that you love her!~
~I can´t.~
~What does that mean, you cannot? Of course you can.~
"Draco, tell me what you wanted me to tell."
The voice of his father was now very near his ear.
"Be a good boy and tell your father."
Lucius had never been a good father.
But Draco had to much feared for his mother,
so he hadn´t resist him, when he did the things he was used to to.
Lucius´finger slid along Dracos jawline.
"My good son,"
Lucius lowered his head over Draco´s neck.
He could feel the hot breath of his father on his skin.
Draco shivered.
"You like what I am doing, don´t you?"
Lucius bite down on Draco´s neck.
"No,"
Draco spat out.
"I never did. I was just to scared for my mother.
But now, you have killed her, so there is no need not to be honest."
"You dare to speak to me like this?"
Lucius voice rose and he yelled:
"Crucio!"
Draco fell on the ground, the face a single mask of pain, but no scream escaped his lips.
~Think of Fee. Of her eyes.
Think of the way she feels under you.~
Draco almost smiled throug the pain.
He had found his weapon.
If he thought of her, the pain was not so strong.
"Ah, I see it doesn´t feel the way it should."
Draco heard his father yell.
Then his voice became low and dangerously again.
"I see I have to use another way to make you act nice."
~Fuck, not this way.~
Draco almost broke under the thought of what would happen next.~
~Fuck is really the right word to describe it.~
"Stupor totallis."
Draco felt that he was unable to move, like every time.
And like every time, his father had just left his brain and senses working.
~I hate him for what he does to me. And one day, I will kill him.~
Draco felt the undressing spell which Lucius used.
The stones were cold on his skin.
He thanked Merlin that he had removed the scratches Hermione had left last night.
"I have not much time, so you are lucky today. I will have to hurry."
Draco could do nothing as he father opened his pants and
he remained silent as Lucius stepped near.
He laid Draco on his stomach, the face on the stones.
"Feel,"
he whispered while he scratched Draco´s back brutally with his fingernails.
Draco couldn´t help but moan from the pain as Lucius licked the wounds he had made.
"Admit it, you like it."
He groaned in his son´s ear.
Draco wasn´t able to turn around and spit in his fathers face like he would have liked to.
He just closed his eyes and prayed for it to be over soon.
"Open your eyes"
Lucius demanded and performed a spell to keep them open.
He parted Draco´s ass and shoved himself forcefully into his son.
Draco gasped for air at the sudden pain.
Although this had happened so often to him, it still hurted.
"Be a nice son,"
Lucius gasped between two thrusts.
Draco thought of Fee as a much as he could.
The only thing he rembered before he fell unconcious,
was he father that left him there, naked on the floor,
just kicking him in the side before leaving the room.
Salted tears flew over Dracos cheeks.
~Fee, I need to see her.~
Then the darkness took over him.
************************* TBC *******************************
AN: Poor Draco, but this will explain some of his reaction in the rest of the FF.
I hoped that the FF. wouldn´t become so long, but I like writing too much, so I just cannot stop!! ;o)
Please review!!!!!!!
Tell me what you think!!!!!
I love review, I can´t live without them!!!!!!!!
DISCLAIMER: Same as last chapter...
@ ILUVRONWEASLEY: But this wasn´t too romantic, was it? *smile*
"Heaven holds a sense of wonder"
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
(so much more)
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
(I want to die)
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
(« Tourniquet » By ecanescense)
Chapter XXIV When a father loves the son
"My son, nice to see. It had been a while, hasn't it?"
"Yes, if you consider two days a while, then yes."
"Draco, sarcasm isn´t good for the skin, it makes it older."
His father smiled, and Draco wished to punsh him hard into the face.
"Lets leave the good manners aside."
Draco started.
"Why? Good manners may open you a lot of doors."
"Yeah, maybe, but I want to talk to you, about the woman, Felicitas."
"Ah," A smile hushed over Lucius´face.
But Draco was smart enough to know that this hadn´t been a real smile.
It had been faked, like almost everything about his father.
"What about her? Is she ready?"
His voice had been soft, but suddenly it became very hard and cruel.
"There are no diffuculites about her in anyway, aren´t there?"
Draco hesitated to tell his father what he wanted him to tell.
His mind was running.
~Hey, don´t be a coward. Tell him that you love her!~
~I can´t.~
~What does that mean, you cannot? Of course you can.~
"Draco, tell me what you wanted me to tell."
The voice of his father was now very near his ear.
"Be a good boy and tell your father."
Lucius had never been a good father.
But Draco had to much feared for his mother,
so he hadn´t resist him, when he did the things he was used to to.
Lucius´finger slid along Dracos jawline.
"My good son,"
Lucius lowered his head over Draco´s neck.
He could feel the hot breath of his father on his skin.
Draco shivered.
"You like what I am doing, don´t you?"
Lucius bite down on Draco´s neck.
"No,"
Draco spat out.
"I never did. I was just to scared for my mother.
But now, you have killed her, so there is no need not to be honest."
"You dare to speak to me like this?"
Lucius voice rose and he yelled:
"Crucio!"
Draco fell on the ground, the face a single mask of pain, but no scream escaped his lips.
~Think of Fee. Of her eyes.
Think of the way she feels under you.~
Draco almost smiled throug the pain.
He had found his weapon.
If he thought of her, the pain was not so strong.
"Ah, I see it doesn´t feel the way it should."
Draco heard his father yell.
Then his voice became low and dangerously again.
"I see I have to use another way to make you act nice."
~Fuck, not this way.~
Draco almost broke under the thought of what would happen next.~
~Fuck is really the right word to describe it.~
"Stupor totallis."
Draco felt that he was unable to move, like every time.
And like every time, his father had just left his brain and senses working.
~I hate him for what he does to me. And one day, I will kill him.~
Draco felt the undressing spell which Lucius used.
The stones were cold on his skin.
He thanked Merlin that he had removed the scratches Hermione had left last night.
"I have not much time, so you are lucky today. I will have to hurry."
Draco could do nothing as he father opened his pants and
he remained silent as Lucius stepped near.
He laid Draco on his stomach, the face on the stones.
"Feel,"
he whispered while he scratched Draco´s back brutally with his fingernails.
Draco couldn´t help but moan from the pain as Lucius licked the wounds he had made.
"Admit it, you like it."
He groaned in his son´s ear.
Draco wasn´t able to turn around and spit in his fathers face like he would have liked to.
He just closed his eyes and prayed for it to be over soon.
"Open your eyes"
Lucius demanded and performed a spell to keep them open.
He parted Draco´s ass and shoved himself forcefully into his son.
Draco gasped for air at the sudden pain.
Although this had happened so often to him, it still hurted.
"Be a nice son,"
Lucius gasped between two thrusts.
Draco thought of Fee as a much as he could.
The only thing he rembered before he fell unconcious,
was he father that left him there, naked on the floor,
just kicking him in the side before leaving the room.
Salted tears flew over Dracos cheeks.
~Fee, I need to see her.~
Then the darkness took over him.
************************* TBC *******************************
AN: Poor Draco, but this will explain some of his reaction in the rest of the FF.
I hoped that the FF. wouldn´t become so long, but I like writing too much, so I just cannot stop!! ;o)
Please review!!!!!!!
Tell me what you think!!!!!
I love review, I can´t live without them!!!!!!!!
DISCLAIMER: Same as last chapter...
@ ILUVRONWEASLEY: But this wasn´t too romantic, was it? *smile*