"Heaven holds a sense of wonder"
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
(I don?t know the title, but I would be happy if somebody could tell me, because this song is so great!!!)
Chapter XXVIII Is this really the same person?
As Hermione came back to her flat, everything was silent and empty.
She slowly walked over to the bedroom and looked into.
Draco lay there like she had left him, he looked so peaceful.
If someone had told her that this man had killed so many people,
destroyed so many families, she wouldn?t believe it by his looks now.
Almost angelic he lay there, his blonde hair spread on the pillow,
his chest rising and falling heavily.
She walked towards the bed and stood next to it and simply watched Draco sleep.
~Is this really the same guy I saw three years ago, killing my family?~
~Yes, he is.~
~He seems to have changed.
You have seen him when he came here.
He looked so vulnerable.
And I cannot imagine the old Draco being vulnerable.
Haven?t you seen the look in his eyes?
So kind and caring as he looked at me.
I can´t believe that he is still the same.~
~But he is, he is still the same cruel and heartless person.~
~And I fell in love with this guy?~
~Yeah, you did.~
~Tell me its just a dream, things like this just happen in movie or a third class book.~
~What are you going to do next?~
~I don?t know. Tell me, what "can" I do?~
~You could throw him out, after you "discovered" that he is a "Death- Eater"~
~No, I have to finish this mission.~
~But how will you do this?
Your heart is going crazy, loving and hating the same guy is never good.~
~If I throw him out, what then?
He won?t come back and fight for me.
He can have any woman he wants, so tell me, why should he come back for me?~
~because he loves you.
He came to you after he was injured,
he looked for help, you were the one who gave him strength.
He told you that.~
~I am nothing more than a simple woman, I need to be protected too.
So why the hell does no one care if I need somebody?
They just tell me that they need me, that I give them strength. I am the fuck tired of this!
I don?t want to hear anymore that I am the sense in the life of some guy!~
~It is not upon you to decide this.
It is not your choice what other people see in you.
Be happy that you are able to give someone strength.
You should be grateful that you can give something not everyone can give in this war.~
~I give nothing, not everyone can give.
If I give Draco strength to fight, this is anything bit good for the Order,
if I give Fred strength, this is a bit of a use to them.
But in the end, I do nothing good to the Order.
Malfoy is so much stronger than Fred, so please stop this stupid thoughts.~
~But the fact is, that you can change this war, even if you don?t want to be it true.~
Hermione stood up, and walked through her apartment.
Her steps were quick and restless.
She opened all windows, hoping that they would save her from suffering.
Although she knew that she wasn?t suffering because of the loss of air.
She suffered form her thoughts.
~This is killing you. You have to quit this mission.~
~No, I am not going to give up, I gave up once, but this time I will beat them.
Voldemort took almost everything away from me.
I want to see him be destroyed.~
~Then you have to go on, if your well-being depends on this.~
~It does.~
She walked back into her bedroom, taking a seat on the edge of her bed, next to Draco.
Returning to watching him sleep again.
Letting her thoughts flew back to old times, let herself think of Oliver, Harry, Ron, Ginny and Lily.
She hoped it would stop her loving the man in front of her.
But she knew, it wouldn?t.
****************************************
Hermione slowly sat up.
She looked around, the sun stand high on the sky.
She glanced at her alarm clock and groaned.
It was past twelve.
Hermione looked around and saw that Draco watched her through half open eyelids.
"Hey,"
His voice was sleepy.
"I see you are awake."
He tried to seat himself, but gasped as the pain in his rips was too strong.
Collapsing back onto the bed he made a face.
"I hate it to be so weak in front of a beautiful woman."
Hermione blushed.
"How long have you been awake?"
"Long enough to watch your sleep."
"Why didn?t you wake me up?"
"You seemed so tired and looked so peaceful sleeping there."
He slowly and carefully rolled to his side and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
Hermione frowned.
"As I see you feel better."
He nodded,
"Thanks to your spells."
He pulled her down to him, so that her face was just inches away from his.
"Kiss me, Fee."
"I don?t know if you are healthy enough for it."
Instead of an answer he pressed his lips onto hers.
He gently sucked her lower lip until she groaned and gave him access to her mouth.
Draco?s tongue slid over hers and massaged it gently.
Pulling her even further down,
she had to place her hands next to his face if she didn?t want to fall over him.
He opened his eyes and watched her face.
His hands quickly wandered down to her waist.
One of them got even further and cupped her bottom.
"Draco,"
she moaned into his mouth.
"I love when you do that."
"Do you what?"
She broke the kiss and brought herself back in a more seating position.
"I love when you moan my name."
Her lips, still swollen from their kiss, formed a slight smile.
"We can?t do that now,"
"Why?
It makes me feel better, and the doctor has to do as the patient wishes."
"But,"
Hermione tried to answer, but was silenced by Draco kissing her passionately.
She gave into his kiss, and it seemed to last for hours.
As they pulled away, both breathless, he grinned at her.
"A kiss is the nicest way to silence somebody, remember that, Fee."
"I will."
She slid her hands over his chest.
He was well built, not to muscular, exactly the way she liked it.
"Fee, I want to ask you something."
"Hmm?"
"You will come to that ball, won?t you?"
She nodded.
Fuck, now you began it, you have to finish it.But how will she react if I tell her?
I mean, being a Death-Eater isn?t something like have been to jail or stuff like this.If she loves you she won?t care.But I "would" care if I fell in love with someone,
and this someone told me that she is in the Order.But she isn?t in the Order, by the way, why should she be?No, I don?t mean that she is in the Order,
I mean that she will probably care if I am a Death-Eater.Ok, then wait with telling her.I guess I have to wait for the right moment to tell her.The way her eyes shine when she smiles. I love it.
I live her too much to risk her to leave me.
I love her too much to tell her, for if I tell, she won?t be able to love me.If you lie at her, do think she can love you better with you hiding a part of?
Because that is what the Dark Lord is.
A part of you, you did so many things, just to please him, you did so countless crimes in his name.
If you hide that you belong to his league, you?ll hide almost your entire life.Is this really my entire life? Do I have really nothing else?What shall you have?
There is nothing, you are empty inside.
That is why you fell head over heels for her, she has life insider her body,
she is warm, where you are cold.
You want her to warm you with her love.
You want her to fill you up with feelings, you are tired of being the man who are.
You trust nobody so you desperately try to trust her,
You love nobody, not even yourself, you began to love her.
You didn´t felt a thing until you met her.......You know that I am right, don?t you?
"Fee, I thank you for helping me, but I have to leave now. Please forgive me."
Dracos voice was husky as he stood up and kissed her hard on the mouth.
His kiss was hungry and soft at the same time.
It almost felt desperate.
He released her and looked one last time at her before he stormed out of the door.
*********************** TBC **************************
AN: I hope you liked it!!!
Please review!!!!!!!!!
It doesn't?have to be long, but it makes me so happy if you review!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: I own nobody, J.K. Rowling does, She is genius and
I would give everything to own Draco or Oliver, (Fred is ok too. ;o) )
@ILUVRONWEASLEY: I know, I know, Fred is kinda in the way, but I couldn´t leave him out! Anyway, I like a complicated plot. ;o)
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
(I don?t know the title, but I would be happy if somebody could tell me, because this song is so great!!!)
Chapter XXVIII Is this really the same person?
As Hermione came back to her flat, everything was silent and empty.
She slowly walked over to the bedroom and looked into.
Draco lay there like she had left him, he looked so peaceful.
If someone had told her that this man had killed so many people,
destroyed so many families, she wouldn?t believe it by his looks now.
Almost angelic he lay there, his blonde hair spread on the pillow,
his chest rising and falling heavily.
She walked towards the bed and stood next to it and simply watched Draco sleep.
~Is this really the same guy I saw three years ago, killing my family?~
~Yes, he is.~
~He seems to have changed.
You have seen him when he came here.
He looked so vulnerable.
And I cannot imagine the old Draco being vulnerable.
Haven?t you seen the look in his eyes?
So kind and caring as he looked at me.
I can´t believe that he is still the same.~
~But he is, he is still the same cruel and heartless person.~
~And I fell in love with this guy?~
~Yeah, you did.~
~Tell me its just a dream, things like this just happen in movie or a third class book.~
~What are you going to do next?~
~I don?t know. Tell me, what "can" I do?~
~You could throw him out, after you "discovered" that he is a "Death- Eater"~
~No, I have to finish this mission.~
~But how will you do this?
Your heart is going crazy, loving and hating the same guy is never good.~
~If I throw him out, what then?
He won?t come back and fight for me.
He can have any woman he wants, so tell me, why should he come back for me?~
~because he loves you.
He came to you after he was injured,
he looked for help, you were the one who gave him strength.
He told you that.~
~I am nothing more than a simple woman, I need to be protected too.
So why the hell does no one care if I need somebody?
They just tell me that they need me, that I give them strength. I am the fuck tired of this!
I don?t want to hear anymore that I am the sense in the life of some guy!~
~It is not upon you to decide this.
It is not your choice what other people see in you.
Be happy that you are able to give someone strength.
You should be grateful that you can give something not everyone can give in this war.~
~I give nothing, not everyone can give.
If I give Draco strength to fight, this is anything bit good for the Order,
if I give Fred strength, this is a bit of a use to them.
But in the end, I do nothing good to the Order.
Malfoy is so much stronger than Fred, so please stop this stupid thoughts.~
~But the fact is, that you can change this war, even if you don?t want to be it true.~
Hermione stood up, and walked through her apartment.
Her steps were quick and restless.
She opened all windows, hoping that they would save her from suffering.
Although she knew that she wasn?t suffering because of the loss of air.
She suffered form her thoughts.
~This is killing you. You have to quit this mission.~
~No, I am not going to give up, I gave up once, but this time I will beat them.
Voldemort took almost everything away from me.
I want to see him be destroyed.~
~Then you have to go on, if your well-being depends on this.~
~It does.~
She walked back into her bedroom, taking a seat on the edge of her bed, next to Draco.
Returning to watching him sleep again.
Letting her thoughts flew back to old times, let herself think of Oliver, Harry, Ron, Ginny and Lily.
She hoped it would stop her loving the man in front of her.
But she knew, it wouldn?t.
****************************************
Hermione slowly sat up.
She looked around, the sun stand high on the sky.
She glanced at her alarm clock and groaned.
It was past twelve.
Hermione looked around and saw that Draco watched her through half open eyelids.
"Hey,"
His voice was sleepy.
"I see you are awake."
He tried to seat himself, but gasped as the pain in his rips was too strong.
Collapsing back onto the bed he made a face.
"I hate it to be so weak in front of a beautiful woman."
Hermione blushed.
"How long have you been awake?"
"Long enough to watch your sleep."
"Why didn?t you wake me up?"
"You seemed so tired and looked so peaceful sleeping there."
He slowly and carefully rolled to his side and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
Hermione frowned.
"As I see you feel better."
He nodded,
"Thanks to your spells."
He pulled her down to him, so that her face was just inches away from his.
"Kiss me, Fee."
"I don?t know if you are healthy enough for it."
Instead of an answer he pressed his lips onto hers.
He gently sucked her lower lip until she groaned and gave him access to her mouth.
Draco?s tongue slid over hers and massaged it gently.
Pulling her even further down,
she had to place her hands next to his face if she didn?t want to fall over him.
He opened his eyes and watched her face.
His hands quickly wandered down to her waist.
One of them got even further and cupped her bottom.
"Draco,"
she moaned into his mouth.
"I love when you do that."
"Do you what?"
She broke the kiss and brought herself back in a more seating position.
"I love when you moan my name."
Her lips, still swollen from their kiss, formed a slight smile.
"We can?t do that now,"
"Why?
It makes me feel better, and the doctor has to do as the patient wishes."
"But,"
Hermione tried to answer, but was silenced by Draco kissing her passionately.
She gave into his kiss, and it seemed to last for hours.
As they pulled away, both breathless, he grinned at her.
"A kiss is the nicest way to silence somebody, remember that, Fee."
"I will."
She slid her hands over his chest.
He was well built, not to muscular, exactly the way she liked it.
"Fee, I want to ask you something."
"Hmm?"
"You will come to that ball, won?t you?"
She nodded.
Fuck, now you began it, you have to finish it.But how will she react if I tell her?
I mean, being a Death-Eater isn?t something like have been to jail or stuff like this.If she loves you she won?t care.But I "would" care if I fell in love with someone,
and this someone told me that she is in the Order.But she isn?t in the Order, by the way, why should she be?No, I don?t mean that she is in the Order,
I mean that she will probably care if I am a Death-Eater.Ok, then wait with telling her.I guess I have to wait for the right moment to tell her.The way her eyes shine when she smiles. I love it.
I live her too much to risk her to leave me.
I love her too much to tell her, for if I tell, she won?t be able to love me.If you lie at her, do think she can love you better with you hiding a part of?
Because that is what the Dark Lord is.
A part of you, you did so many things, just to please him, you did so countless crimes in his name.
If you hide that you belong to his league, you?ll hide almost your entire life.Is this really my entire life? Do I have really nothing else?What shall you have?
There is nothing, you are empty inside.
That is why you fell head over heels for her, she has life insider her body,
she is warm, where you are cold.
You want her to warm you with her love.
You want her to fill you up with feelings, you are tired of being the man who are.
You trust nobody so you desperately try to trust her,
You love nobody, not even yourself, you began to love her.
You didn´t felt a thing until you met her.......You know that I am right, don?t you?
"Fee, I thank you for helping me, but I have to leave now. Please forgive me."
Dracos voice was husky as he stood up and kissed her hard on the mouth.
His kiss was hungry and soft at the same time.
It almost felt desperate.
He released her and looked one last time at her before he stormed out of the door.
*********************** TBC **************************
AN: I hope you liked it!!!
Please review!!!!!!!!!
It doesn't?have to be long, but it makes me so happy if you review!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: I own nobody, J.K. Rowling does, She is genius and
I would give everything to own Draco or Oliver, (Fred is ok too. ;o) )
@ILUVRONWEASLEY: I know, I know, Fred is kinda in the way, but I couldn´t leave him out! Anyway, I like a complicated plot. ;o)