OKAY. I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THAT IT'S ALMOST OVER, AND IT IS. I JUST HAVE TO
COVER ALL THE ASPECTS OF IT BEFORE ENDING. ANYWAY REVIEW PLEASE.
It had been almost six months since Buffy and Spike got divorced. Anya and Spike had started a real relationship and Buffy was happy being single. She wasn't feeling well though for the past couple of days. She didn't know what was wrong, but something didn't feel right. Something in her head kept telling her to go to the doctor. She had decided a few days ago that if she didn't feel better in a couple days that she would go, and now here she sits in the doctor's office waiting. 'At least I know I can't be pregnant' she thought, looking on the bright side of things.
"Buffy Summers" the nurse called and Buffy got up and followed her back into a room.
"The doctor will be right with you" she said.
"Thanks" Buffy said. Ten minutes later the doctor came into the room.
"Hello, I'm doctor Trifler" the doctor said.
"Hi' Buffy said.
"All right, what seems to be the problem?" the doctor asked.
"I'm having some pains in my side here" Buffy said and pointed to her side.
"All right, let's see" the doctor said. "Lie down please." Buffy did as the doctor told her and he pushed lightly on her side. "Does that hurt?" he asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said flinching.
"Okay, well we're going to do an ultrasound all right, to see what's going on in there" he said.
"Fine with me" Buffy said. About five minutes later they were ready for her and they wheeled her into the ultrasound room. The nurse did the ultrasound. Buffy could see the concerned look on the lady's face, but she was too afraid to ask what was wrong. They wheeled her back into her room and the nurse gave the doctor the pictures.
"Oh" the doctor said.
"What? What's wrong?" Buffy asked.
"Um, one moment, uh. . .it says here that you had some problems a about a year ago, giving birth to your second child?" he asked looking at the chart.
"Uh, yeah, I almost died" Buffy said.
"And your doctor was doctor Helen?" he asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said.
"Okay, one moment" the doctor said and left the room for about fifteen minutes and came back with dr. Helen.
"What's going on?" Buffy asked.
"Buffy, I'm afraid that we have some bad news" dr. Helen said.
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Spike walked into his apartment. He had since the divorce got a place and now had half custody of the children. Monday through Thursday Buffy had the kids and then Friday through Sunday Spike had them. Today was Saturday and Spike had the kids. He set them down and went into the kitchen to put away the groceries. After doing that he decided to watch some TV with Robbie and Charley.
"Okay nibblits , what do you want to watch?" Spike asked.
"Winnie a pooh" Charlotte said. Spike smiled at the little girl. He should of known the answer to the question before he asked it. Winnie the Pooh was always the movie she picked.
"All right, Winnie the Pooh it is" Spike said and popped the movie in the VCR. Suddenly the phone rang and he answered it. "Hello?"
"Spike, it's Buffy" Buffy said.
"Hey, what do you want" Spike asked.
"W-we need to talk, now" Buffy said. He could hear the fear in her voice.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Can I come over?" she asked him.
"Yeah, sure" he said. "Buffy what-" he began, but she hung up the phone. He hung up too. He waited for her to come. It took her twenty minutes to get there. She rang the doorbell and he answered it.
"Hey" she said.
"Hey" he said back and let her in. "So, what do you want to talk about?"
"Uh, can we talk in private, I don't want them to hear this" Buffy said, looking towards the kids who were glued to the TV.
"Sure, Charley, you stay here all right, do not move from this couch."
"Okay daddy, mommy!" Charlotte said.
"Hey baby" Buffy said.
"Mama" Robbie said and smiled.
"Hi sweetie" Buffy said. Spike took her hand and led her into his bedroom.
"Okay, what do you want to tell me?" he asked.
"Spike. . .I went to the doctor today, because I was feeling sick, they found out what was wrong. . .Spike the tumor's back" Buffy said.
"What?" Spike asked.
"The tumor, that they operated on, it's back. . .and this time, this time they said that. . ." Buffy said and began to cry. "They said it was terminal ."
"Wh-what! No, no it-it's been almost three bloody years!" Spike said and Buffy began to sob. Spike moved closer to her and held her.
"I don't know what I'm gonna do, I'm so scared" she said.
"Oh god, I . . .I. . .oh. . ." Spike said at a loss of words. He couldn't believe this was happening. "How long?" he managed to ask.
"They. . .they said. . .four months, five at the most" Buffy said.
"Oh god, no that's, that's not. . .it's not enough time" Spike said pulling away and looking at her. He now had tears in his eyes.
"Don't you think I know that!?" Buffy yelled through sobs and dropped to the floor. "I don't want to die.'
"Oh baby" he said sitting on the floor next to her.
"I don't. . .I'm not ready to die yet, I'm only twenty years old" Buffy whispered. "Oh god the kids, I can't tell them Spike I. . ."
"Shhh, I'll tell them luv, I. . .I don't know how I. . .oh god" Spike said holding her.
Buffy cried for almost an hour. She cried herself to sleep and Spike laid her in his bed. He walked out into the living room where his children were also sleeping. He picked them up and put them in their playpen. All of the sudden there was a knock at the door and he answered it and it was Anya.
"Hey" she said happily and kissed him.
"An, I. . .look this isn't a good time alright" he said.
"Why, I thought we could-" Anya began, but spike cut in.
"Buffy's here, she's in my room" Spike said.
"Oh. . .you're back together?" Anya asked.
"Not exactly, look I can't discuss this with you it's private, but, look I'm sorry but. . ."Spike tried to explain.
"You still love her" Anya said.
"I do, and she needs me right now" Spike said.
"Go get her" Anya smiled and kissed Spike on the cheek. "I always knew that you still loved her, that's why I promised myself that I wouldn't fall in love with you."
"I'm sorry" Spike said.
"Don't be" Anya smiled and left. Spike went back into his room and sat on the bed next to Buffy. He couldn't believe that this was happening. It was unreal. He sat there and just held her.
*Spike's memory*
Buffy: I don't want to die
*Spike's memory II*
Teacher: Class this is Elizabeth Summers Buffy: Buffy
*Spike's memory III*
Spike: Do you want to go out with me? Buffy: Sure
*Spike's memory IV, the thoughts get faster and faster in his head*
Buffy: Let's go upstairs
*Later*
Buffy: I'm pregnant
*Later*
Spike Will you marry me?
*Spike's memory V*
Dr.: It's a girl
Suddenly Buffy shakes him out of his thoughts.
"Spike, are you alright?" Buffy asked.
"Huh? Yeah baby I'm fine" he said. He looked at her and his eyes threatened to make more tears.
"Stop that" Buffy said.
"Stop what?" Spike asked.
"Stop looking at me like I'm some kind of fragile furniture that's going to break any second" Buffy said.
"I'm so sorry" Spike said.
"Spike I'm scared, I keep thinking, 'when is it going to happen, am I going to be in a store, a bank. . .at my child's birthday party'" Buffy said and began to cry again. "I don't want to leave them."
"I know" Spike said.
"No you don't, you have no idea what it's like to know that you won't be around to watch your children grow up, to watch them get married, have children, you don't know" Buffy cried. Spike hugged her and he held him tightly. She didn't want to let him go. "I love you." She whispered.
"I love you too pet" he whispered back. She looked at him and kissed him passionately on the lips. He responded by kissing her back with even more passion. He laid on top of her and she unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off, then she pulled off his t-shirt.
"I want you" she whispered. He kissed her again as we worked on her shirt.
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Buffy woke up and it was dark. Spike was lying in bed next to her. She smiled as she turned on her side. He was still asleep. 'I forgot how good this felt' Buffy thought as she played with his hair. She did love him, so much. She wanted to be with him. She was just sorry that she didn't find that out until it was too late. Until her life was. . .over. Spike stirred and then opened his eyes and looked at her.
"Hey luv" he said.
"Hi" she said quietly and scooted closer to him and kissed him.
"I should be happy right now, but I'm not, I'm losing you" Spike said.
"I. . ." Buffy began, but she couldn't talk. If she talked, the tears would start again. She couldn't tell him that it was okay. It wasn't, she was dying and there was nothing anyone could do. She just laid there and let Spike hold her.
It had been almost six months since Buffy and Spike got divorced. Anya and Spike had started a real relationship and Buffy was happy being single. She wasn't feeling well though for the past couple of days. She didn't know what was wrong, but something didn't feel right. Something in her head kept telling her to go to the doctor. She had decided a few days ago that if she didn't feel better in a couple days that she would go, and now here she sits in the doctor's office waiting. 'At least I know I can't be pregnant' she thought, looking on the bright side of things.
"Buffy Summers" the nurse called and Buffy got up and followed her back into a room.
"The doctor will be right with you" she said.
"Thanks" Buffy said. Ten minutes later the doctor came into the room.
"Hello, I'm doctor Trifler" the doctor said.
"Hi' Buffy said.
"All right, what seems to be the problem?" the doctor asked.
"I'm having some pains in my side here" Buffy said and pointed to her side.
"All right, let's see" the doctor said. "Lie down please." Buffy did as the doctor told her and he pushed lightly on her side. "Does that hurt?" he asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said flinching.
"Okay, well we're going to do an ultrasound all right, to see what's going on in there" he said.
"Fine with me" Buffy said. About five minutes later they were ready for her and they wheeled her into the ultrasound room. The nurse did the ultrasound. Buffy could see the concerned look on the lady's face, but she was too afraid to ask what was wrong. They wheeled her back into her room and the nurse gave the doctor the pictures.
"Oh" the doctor said.
"What? What's wrong?" Buffy asked.
"Um, one moment, uh. . .it says here that you had some problems a about a year ago, giving birth to your second child?" he asked looking at the chart.
"Uh, yeah, I almost died" Buffy said.
"And your doctor was doctor Helen?" he asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said.
"Okay, one moment" the doctor said and left the room for about fifteen minutes and came back with dr. Helen.
"What's going on?" Buffy asked.
"Buffy, I'm afraid that we have some bad news" dr. Helen said.
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Spike walked into his apartment. He had since the divorce got a place and now had half custody of the children. Monday through Thursday Buffy had the kids and then Friday through Sunday Spike had them. Today was Saturday and Spike had the kids. He set them down and went into the kitchen to put away the groceries. After doing that he decided to watch some TV with Robbie and Charley.
"Okay nibblits , what do you want to watch?" Spike asked.
"Winnie a pooh" Charlotte said. Spike smiled at the little girl. He should of known the answer to the question before he asked it. Winnie the Pooh was always the movie she picked.
"All right, Winnie the Pooh it is" Spike said and popped the movie in the VCR. Suddenly the phone rang and he answered it. "Hello?"
"Spike, it's Buffy" Buffy said.
"Hey, what do you want" Spike asked.
"W-we need to talk, now" Buffy said. He could hear the fear in her voice.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Can I come over?" she asked him.
"Yeah, sure" he said. "Buffy what-" he began, but she hung up the phone. He hung up too. He waited for her to come. It took her twenty minutes to get there. She rang the doorbell and he answered it.
"Hey" she said.
"Hey" he said back and let her in. "So, what do you want to talk about?"
"Uh, can we talk in private, I don't want them to hear this" Buffy said, looking towards the kids who were glued to the TV.
"Sure, Charley, you stay here all right, do not move from this couch."
"Okay daddy, mommy!" Charlotte said.
"Hey baby" Buffy said.
"Mama" Robbie said and smiled.
"Hi sweetie" Buffy said. Spike took her hand and led her into his bedroom.
"Okay, what do you want to tell me?" he asked.
"Spike. . .I went to the doctor today, because I was feeling sick, they found out what was wrong. . .Spike the tumor's back" Buffy said.
"What?" Spike asked.
"The tumor, that they operated on, it's back. . .and this time, this time they said that. . ." Buffy said and began to cry. "They said it was terminal ."
"Wh-what! No, no it-it's been almost three bloody years!" Spike said and Buffy began to sob. Spike moved closer to her and held her.
"I don't know what I'm gonna do, I'm so scared" she said.
"Oh god, I . . .I. . .oh. . ." Spike said at a loss of words. He couldn't believe this was happening. "How long?" he managed to ask.
"They. . .they said. . .four months, five at the most" Buffy said.
"Oh god, no that's, that's not. . .it's not enough time" Spike said pulling away and looking at her. He now had tears in his eyes.
"Don't you think I know that!?" Buffy yelled through sobs and dropped to the floor. "I don't want to die.'
"Oh baby" he said sitting on the floor next to her.
"I don't. . .I'm not ready to die yet, I'm only twenty years old" Buffy whispered. "Oh god the kids, I can't tell them Spike I. . ."
"Shhh, I'll tell them luv, I. . .I don't know how I. . .oh god" Spike said holding her.
Buffy cried for almost an hour. She cried herself to sleep and Spike laid her in his bed. He walked out into the living room where his children were also sleeping. He picked them up and put them in their playpen. All of the sudden there was a knock at the door and he answered it and it was Anya.
"Hey" she said happily and kissed him.
"An, I. . .look this isn't a good time alright" he said.
"Why, I thought we could-" Anya began, but spike cut in.
"Buffy's here, she's in my room" Spike said.
"Oh. . .you're back together?" Anya asked.
"Not exactly, look I can't discuss this with you it's private, but, look I'm sorry but. . ."Spike tried to explain.
"You still love her" Anya said.
"I do, and she needs me right now" Spike said.
"Go get her" Anya smiled and kissed Spike on the cheek. "I always knew that you still loved her, that's why I promised myself that I wouldn't fall in love with you."
"I'm sorry" Spike said.
"Don't be" Anya smiled and left. Spike went back into his room and sat on the bed next to Buffy. He couldn't believe that this was happening. It was unreal. He sat there and just held her.
*Spike's memory*
Buffy: I don't want to die
*Spike's memory II*
Teacher: Class this is Elizabeth Summers Buffy: Buffy
*Spike's memory III*
Spike: Do you want to go out with me? Buffy: Sure
*Spike's memory IV, the thoughts get faster and faster in his head*
Buffy: Let's go upstairs
*Later*
Buffy: I'm pregnant
*Later*
Spike Will you marry me?
*Spike's memory V*
Dr.: It's a girl
Suddenly Buffy shakes him out of his thoughts.
"Spike, are you alright?" Buffy asked.
"Huh? Yeah baby I'm fine" he said. He looked at her and his eyes threatened to make more tears.
"Stop that" Buffy said.
"Stop what?" Spike asked.
"Stop looking at me like I'm some kind of fragile furniture that's going to break any second" Buffy said.
"I'm so sorry" Spike said.
"Spike I'm scared, I keep thinking, 'when is it going to happen, am I going to be in a store, a bank. . .at my child's birthday party'" Buffy said and began to cry again. "I don't want to leave them."
"I know" Spike said.
"No you don't, you have no idea what it's like to know that you won't be around to watch your children grow up, to watch them get married, have children, you don't know" Buffy cried. Spike hugged her and he held him tightly. She didn't want to let him go. "I love you." She whispered.
"I love you too pet" he whispered back. She looked at him and kissed him passionately on the lips. He responded by kissing her back with even more passion. He laid on top of her and she unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off, then she pulled off his t-shirt.
"I want you" she whispered. He kissed her again as we worked on her shirt.
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Buffy woke up and it was dark. Spike was lying in bed next to her. She smiled as she turned on her side. He was still asleep. 'I forgot how good this felt' Buffy thought as she played with his hair. She did love him, so much. She wanted to be with him. She was just sorry that she didn't find that out until it was too late. Until her life was. . .over. Spike stirred and then opened his eyes and looked at her.
"Hey luv" he said.
"Hi" she said quietly and scooted closer to him and kissed him.
"I should be happy right now, but I'm not, I'm losing you" Spike said.
"I. . ." Buffy began, but she couldn't talk. If she talked, the tears would start again. She couldn't tell him that it was okay. It wasn't, she was dying and there was nothing anyone could do. She just laid there and let Spike hold her.