Chapter 8
Feelings?
Weeks passed by and the soldiers practiced harder than ever. Legolas alongside the others, but the only thing on his mind was Narawen. He wanted to protect her, make sure that she lived and had no clue why. It's not like they were lovers or anything, they were just friends, but as the weeks past he grew closer and closer to her wanting to know everything there was to know about her. He cherished their time together more than anything. He didn't understand the feeling he was having for he had never felt it before and this made him confused. The only thing that he didn't know was that Narawen was having the exact same feelings.
Never in her life had Narawen felt this way about anyone. She couldn't wait until they would go to the practice fields together and part of the reason that she even pulled herself away from her books to eat was so that she could see Legolas. In fact, she was disappointed when Eowulia invited her to dinner. She accepted not wanting her cousin to become suspicious. Narawen wanted to tell someone about how confused she was more than anything, but at the same time she felt that it was something she should figure out on her own. So, Narawen ended up going to visit her cousin for the evening, but when she accepted she didn't realize that Eowulia already knew about her 'crush' and they would be having dinner alone so that Eowulia could help Narawen sort out her confused mind.
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Narawen knocked on the door of her cousin's home wanting more than anything to be back at the palace eating dinner with King Thranduil and Legolas. She only had to wait a few seconds before Eowulia answered the door. She smiled and welcomed Narawen in to eat. Everything had already been prepared and was ready to eat.
So, they ate and talked, mostly about what Narawen's life had been like since she returned and when Narawen started to talk about Legolas Eowulia decided to ask her the question that had been on her mind ever since she had seen Narawen and Legolas at the practice fields together.
"Narawen," she said, "I have been meaning to ask you what you and Legolas are."
Narawen gave her a confused look for a moment and then she realized what her cousin was talking about. "We are just friends. Why do you ask?"
"I was just curious. Other than your relatives you have never actually gotten along with any men and I saw you two together in the practice fields when I came with Isal and it seemed odd that you would even be talking to a man outside your family, Prince or no," Eowulia said.
"I am probably even more confused than you are right now," Narawen mumbled under her breath, but Eowulia still heard.
"Why is that?" she asked. Narawen hadn't even realized she had said that out loud and when she did her eyes widened.
"Oh, no reason," she said trying to think up an excuse, but none came.
"Narawen, don't lie to me, I only want to help," her cousin said looking at her sternly. "Please tell me."
"It's strange really," Narawen replied not looking at her cousin. "I can't explain how I feel. I want to be with him all the time just to hear him talk and see him smile. I feel good around him and all I want is for him to be happy. But there are also times that he can get on my nerves and make me want to slap him."
Eowulia was quiet for a moment letting everything sink in and then she finally realized what had Narawen so confused. Her heart and mind were fighting against each other, trying to tell her the right thing to do and Narawen could do nothing except listen and still be confused. She wanted to follow her heart so much more, but she also wanted to listen to her mind that was telling her that it was dangerous to listen to her heart, especially at a time like this when they were at the brink of war. Listening to her heart during a time of war was a very dangerous thing to do. If your lover died during the war your heart would go with them and you would slowly die of the grief of losing your loved one. Eowulia didn't know what to say so she said the thing that was plaguing her mind most.
"That is how I felt about Isal and still do feel about him," she said trying to hint at Narawen what her feeling for Legolas were without directly saying it. Narawen looked surprised when she grasped the concept of what her cousin was saying.
"Are you trying to tell me that I love him? As more than just a friend?" Narawen asked her cousin. The only thing that Eowulia could do was nod and Narawen felt her confusion go away as her heart won in this matter. Still, she could faintly hear her mind telling her it was too dangerous to start a relationship at this point in time. It was yelling at her as loud as it could and she listened to everything that it told her, but as it did this, her heart was yelling even louder at her to start the relationship with Legolas no matter what the cost. The last thing her mind told her before she left to go back to the palace was that she didn't even know if he returned her feelings.
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Back in the palace of Mirkwood Legolas was still trying to figure out what he was feeling as his father tried to talk to him about the war. Finally the king asked what Legolas was thinking so deeply about and when Legolas told him what he was feeling the King was utterly speechless.
A/N: Few, that chapter is finished. Don't worry; they're not getting together yet. I still have a few more things that have to happen before that happens. I was only using this chapter to show how deep their feelings toward one another are. I hoped you liked it. Please review!
Weeks passed by and the soldiers practiced harder than ever. Legolas alongside the others, but the only thing on his mind was Narawen. He wanted to protect her, make sure that she lived and had no clue why. It's not like they were lovers or anything, they were just friends, but as the weeks past he grew closer and closer to her wanting to know everything there was to know about her. He cherished their time together more than anything. He didn't understand the feeling he was having for he had never felt it before and this made him confused. The only thing that he didn't know was that Narawen was having the exact same feelings.
Never in her life had Narawen felt this way about anyone. She couldn't wait until they would go to the practice fields together and part of the reason that she even pulled herself away from her books to eat was so that she could see Legolas. In fact, she was disappointed when Eowulia invited her to dinner. She accepted not wanting her cousin to become suspicious. Narawen wanted to tell someone about how confused she was more than anything, but at the same time she felt that it was something she should figure out on her own. So, Narawen ended up going to visit her cousin for the evening, but when she accepted she didn't realize that Eowulia already knew about her 'crush' and they would be having dinner alone so that Eowulia could help Narawen sort out her confused mind.
~*~
Narawen knocked on the door of her cousin's home wanting more than anything to be back at the palace eating dinner with King Thranduil and Legolas. She only had to wait a few seconds before Eowulia answered the door. She smiled and welcomed Narawen in to eat. Everything had already been prepared and was ready to eat.
So, they ate and talked, mostly about what Narawen's life had been like since she returned and when Narawen started to talk about Legolas Eowulia decided to ask her the question that had been on her mind ever since she had seen Narawen and Legolas at the practice fields together.
"Narawen," she said, "I have been meaning to ask you what you and Legolas are."
Narawen gave her a confused look for a moment and then she realized what her cousin was talking about. "We are just friends. Why do you ask?"
"I was just curious. Other than your relatives you have never actually gotten along with any men and I saw you two together in the practice fields when I came with Isal and it seemed odd that you would even be talking to a man outside your family, Prince or no," Eowulia said.
"I am probably even more confused than you are right now," Narawen mumbled under her breath, but Eowulia still heard.
"Why is that?" she asked. Narawen hadn't even realized she had said that out loud and when she did her eyes widened.
"Oh, no reason," she said trying to think up an excuse, but none came.
"Narawen, don't lie to me, I only want to help," her cousin said looking at her sternly. "Please tell me."
"It's strange really," Narawen replied not looking at her cousin. "I can't explain how I feel. I want to be with him all the time just to hear him talk and see him smile. I feel good around him and all I want is for him to be happy. But there are also times that he can get on my nerves and make me want to slap him."
Eowulia was quiet for a moment letting everything sink in and then she finally realized what had Narawen so confused. Her heart and mind were fighting against each other, trying to tell her the right thing to do and Narawen could do nothing except listen and still be confused. She wanted to follow her heart so much more, but she also wanted to listen to her mind that was telling her that it was dangerous to listen to her heart, especially at a time like this when they were at the brink of war. Listening to her heart during a time of war was a very dangerous thing to do. If your lover died during the war your heart would go with them and you would slowly die of the grief of losing your loved one. Eowulia didn't know what to say so she said the thing that was plaguing her mind most.
"That is how I felt about Isal and still do feel about him," she said trying to hint at Narawen what her feeling for Legolas were without directly saying it. Narawen looked surprised when she grasped the concept of what her cousin was saying.
"Are you trying to tell me that I love him? As more than just a friend?" Narawen asked her cousin. The only thing that Eowulia could do was nod and Narawen felt her confusion go away as her heart won in this matter. Still, she could faintly hear her mind telling her it was too dangerous to start a relationship at this point in time. It was yelling at her as loud as it could and she listened to everything that it told her, but as it did this, her heart was yelling even louder at her to start the relationship with Legolas no matter what the cost. The last thing her mind told her before she left to go back to the palace was that she didn't even know if he returned her feelings.
~*~
Back in the palace of Mirkwood Legolas was still trying to figure out what he was feeling as his father tried to talk to him about the war. Finally the king asked what Legolas was thinking so deeply about and when Legolas told him what he was feeling the King was utterly speechless.
A/N: Few, that chapter is finished. Don't worry; they're not getting together yet. I still have a few more things that have to happen before that happens. I was only using this chapter to show how deep their feelings toward one another are. I hoped you liked it. Please review!