Chap 18 - Pregnancy



The next day Lane went to the hospital to visit Rory. When she opened the door Rory was lying in bed, with her hands on her stomach and her eyes wet and wild as if they had changed to a different shade of blue.

"Hey, I brought you some clothes and books to entertain you."

Rory just said "Thanks," without even moving her eyes from the empty spot that she was staring in to.

Lane sat besides her friend on the bed without a word. After some minutes of silence she decided she would have to tell Rory sooner or later, and sooner was better. "He called you," she paused and noticed that Rory didn't say anything so she continued, "he said things aren't what they seemed to be and asked you to call him." They spent another moment silence and then Lane lower her voice and said carefully, "You know, you're pregnant. And its his son or daughter. You'll have to talk; you'll have to tell him. No matter what. Ror, what are you going to do?"

Even the words being spoken in a small voice, almost a whisper, as if Lane didn't want Rory to hear them, they seemed to be yells to Rory and she squirmed at each word.

She started to cry herself again. "I don't know, I'm so scared," she sighed. "I don't want to talk to Jess. At least not now. I still can't believe what he did. About the baby" I will have it. Its my child. I know its his too, and I know it will remind me every second about him but" I love him. You know? I can't stop loving him from a moment to another. Even if it hurts like hell. And I still love him. I already love this child! It's 'us', even if there is no 'us' anymore".

Lane kissed Rory's forehead and hugged her friend with sympathy. "I'm sorry, Ror. I'm sorry it's all happening to you," Lane cried too. "What can I do? Tell me how can I help you"

"You're already helping Lane," Rory said crying on her friends hug.



An hour passed and the girls were calmer. Rory as still lying in bed and Lane was sitting in a chair next to the bed.

"Do you want to call him? Tell him what happened, that you're in the hospital?"

"No. I don't want him to know. Not yet" She thought for a moment, "I will come back Lane"

"What?"

"I will come back to Stars Hollow. There's my Mom, and it's safer to raise a child. And…"

"There's no, Jess," Lane offered.

"Yeah, that too," she said sadly.

"Okay, I will help you with whatever you want"

"Thanks. Could you pass me my cell, I will call my Mom"



* ring * ring *

"Independence Inn, Lorelai speaking"

"Hey Mom"

"Ror! Please, tell me you're okay!"

"I'm okay"

"Oh, thanks God. You have any idea about how many promises I made to hear you say this words?"

"No, but I have some news that can give you a heart attack, then you'll die and you wont have to pay any of this promises"

Lorelai sighted, "Tell"

"Are you sitting?"

Lorelai sat on the lobby's couch. "I'm sitting"

"I'm pregnant"

"WHAT?" Lorelai yelled.

"I'm pregnant," Rory repeated.

"How? When? Who? Why? Where?"

"Calm down, calm down. Breath," Rory paused, "I think you know how, when and with who. About why…well, its not like I planned it. I just am. And what kind of question is 'where' in this situation?"

"I don't know. I thought it rhymed"

"And there is more"

"Okay, you're really trying to give me a heart attack, aren't you?"

"I'm moving back to Stars Hollow"

Lorelai smiled and started jumping up and down, "Yay, she's moving back"

"Yeah, but I want it to be soon. I don't want to come back to my apartment. There are just…too many memories. So I was wondering if I can stay in your house for a while"

"Sure, honey. It's your house. It'll always be. You can stay there as much time as you want"

"Thanks Mom"

"Oh, hon, I hate to do this but I have to go. There seems to be a fire in the kitchen and I think Sookie really needs me"

"Okay. See you soon. Bye"

She hangs up the phone and looked at Lane with puppy eyes.

"Hey, I'm not a guy and you don't have to use the puppy eye on me. I'm here to help you"

"Good, because I need a really big favor"

"Which would be…"

"I need you to pack all my stuff. I will go to Stars Hollow tomorrow"

"But, what about work?"

"I will call Monica and tell her that I'm resigning"

"Are you really sure about it, Ror? Maybe you could wait a little longer"

"No, that's what I want"

"Okay then. I will go pack all your stuff now and tomorrow you'll be able to move out"

"Thanks. You're the best friend in the world"

"Forget it. Rest, okay?"



Lane left the hospital and went to Rory apartment. When she got there Jess was sat in front of the door, waiting Rory.

"Lane, where is Rory?"

"She isn't here"

"Yeah, I figured. I've been waiting here since forever. Where is she?"

"She doesn't want to talk to you," Lane said sternly.

"So, she told you"

"Of course she told me"

"Its not what it seems. Let me explain it to her"

"Didn't you listen me? She doesn't want to talk to you! She doesn't want to see you!"

"But I have to talk to her, I need to"

"Sorry. Can't. And a piece of advice, she isn't coming back anytime soon, so don't even wait for her here"

Lane entered Rory's apartment and closed the door behind her. Jess waited in front of Rory's door for more an hour or so and then got out of there without a destination. He had no place to go, he was lost. He was just a half part and without his other half he didn't know what to do. It wasn't his fault what happened, but he felt guilt for letting her go, for not being able to stop her or tell her the truth.



Lane passed all day packing Rory's clothes and books, now it was night and she was packing her souvenirs. She had already called some company and arranged it to transport all her boxes. She had called Dave too, and told him she'd go to Stars Hollow with Rory and she would see him in New Heaven in about a week. Next day she went to the hospital and saw Rory wearing a jeans and T-shirt, ready to go to Stars Hollow again. The two friends left the hospital to the bus station with just a little luggage and in a few hours they were in Stars Hollow. Lorelai was waiting for them in the Stars Hollow bus stop with three cups of coffee. Rory's was decaf, of course. She led the girls to the Gilmore's house and they started chatting about random things. Rory wasn't ready to talk about her pregnancy. When the night came Lane went to her mothers house. Soon after Lane was gone Rory turned to Lorelai with a sad smile, "Thanks for letting me stay. You're the best"

"Don't be silly, it's your house. And besides Id never let you have and raise this child away from me"

"Thanks Mom. Well, I guess Ill take a shower before Luke arrives"

"Hum, about Luke…I told him my baby needed me and he agreed to stay in his old apartment for a while"

"Mom!"

"What?"

"You sent Luke away"

"No! We both agreed that it's be better if he stayed there just for now. He'll comeback eventually"

"I don't want to get in your way. This is his house too"

"Ror, Luke and I decided that it'd be better this way. You're not in anyone's way, okay? Now, go take your shower and then we can have a movie night with all junkie food that we deserve"

Rory went to Lorelai and hugged her, "I don't know what I would do without you." And went to the bathroom.



Rory was getting dressed in her room when she saw a little box with a note on her bed. She got close and recognized Lorelai's handwriting. She took it and read, 'A present to the baby of my baby. God, I'll be a grandma! We'll have another Gilmore to drink coffee at Luke's. You know, he'll try to get her addicted to orange juice and healthy food, but don't worry. If she's a true Gilmore she'll ask coffee. Damn, I'm rambling again. Anyway, hope you like it. Love Mom'

Rory opened the little box to find a pair of white baby shoes. They were so small. She read the note again and wondered if her baby would like junkie or healthy food. If it would be like its mother or father.

She sat down with the baby shoes in her hands. She stood staring at them and that's when reality sink on her. She was going to be a mother. She already was, she was pregnant. She started crying. Not just this really little being was hers for the rest of her life but she was his or hers for the rest of his or her life. It was her responsibility and she could never run from it. It's not like you can stop being someone's mother. She wondered if you could stop being a father. She never had a real father. Actually, she had. It was Luke. He took care of her and loved her like if she was his daughter. He was her father.

She tried not to, but couldn't help thinking if Jess would be part of this child's life. Would she let him? Would she tell him? Yeah, deep down she knew she would. It was his right. And long ago she had decided her child would have a father, differently from hers and Jess' case, no matter what. Now it hurts her so much to know that it would have to be in the 'no matter what' way. It would have to be in the way that they are separated. The tears drop fell from her eyes to the ground freely and she couldn't stop them even if she wanted to.

Lorelai heard her daughter crying on her bedroom while she was passing through the living room to the kitchen. She stopped and opened slightly the door to reveal Rory sitting on the floor crying like a little scared girl. She went to her daughter and sat by her side hugging her.

Rory looked up and asked sobbing, "What am I going to do now mom?"

"Oh, baby, I'm so sorry its all happening this way. I know how horrible this is. Believe me. I passed through all this and if I can you can too, okay? And hey, I think I didn't end up so bad," Lorelai said half smiling trying to cheer up and be positive telling something good that was true. "Don't worry, it'll be all right" Lorelai said stroking her daughter's hair.

And Rory kept crying in her mother's arms, thinking about all the good moments. It was all just a lie? He was just playing with her feelings? She couldn't believe in it. She couldn't believe she was going to have a baby of the man who broke her heart. But what she really couldn't believe was that she still loved him. And that hurts so much.



A/N: I'm so sorry it took me so long to update but I was really busy with school and stuff and a new fic that I'm working on. I'll probably post it when "Never Enough" is done which I think will be soon, like in three or four weeks. I hope you like this chap because it's REALLY long and it took me like forever to write it. Thank you to everyone who reviewed and a very specail thanks to Katie who is my beta reader, thank you SO much!

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