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Chapter 9: Higher By Ansa
The pain that each of them had felt was excruciating, both physical and mentally, almost to the point of crippling. The physical therapy that was supposed to help them, caused more pain that it should, each night they went to bed aching to the verge of tears. Somehow, they found their way through it together, holding the others hand through all the pain so that they knew that they were together, and that anything one felt would be comforted soon. The dark veil of sorrow had lifted, and simple fact that they were together would be enough to pierce through it and shed light unto their world if it had not.
The days were spent together in pain, and night was spent together in love. Once again, several opportunities for them to make love had come up, sleeping in a single bed, but they had passed on each one. What they had would not be cheapened by that of physical desires; theirs was a love that rang true throughout all the odds against them and all the bad blood between them in the past. There they lay together, two kindred spirits finally together after a lifetime of separation. The sheets around them clung to their bodies as if they too wanted to be apart of this sacred bond. The rest had questions the fact of them sleeping together and not making love, and though they never really gave back an answer, they knew the reason in their hearts. In sleep ones body is vulnerable to many things, and to sleep with another is showing a great trust in them, trusting that your body will be safe in their embrace.
Under the covers, only the multiple bandages and bruises covered the skin left untouched by the clothing they wore under their outer layer. And even though their bodies were intertwined together, no pain came out of it, despite the multiple sore spots that would bring back the pain of the previous day. In sleep, they lay together, safe and serine in each others warm embrace, knowing that when one woke up the other would surely be there, and that gave them more joy then they ever dreamed possible. As the weeks went by, the bandages began to shrink in number, the bruises slowly fading away to the skins natural tone. Weeks formed months until the bandages disappeared completely, leaving nearly unblemished skin that was now free to glow with pride. And with each morning of those few months, Raven woke up to the greatest day of her life.
Winter was now upon them; small globs of white fell from the sky and hid the roof of the tower, and painting the corners of the windows with frost. Inside, color became much more abundant, making one feel like they were stepping out of a black and white 8mm film and into a full color Christmas special starring Bob Hope if he were to visit them. The tree stood proudly in the center of the room; the couch encircled it, developing a warm place to gather and look upon the symbol of peace and joy itself. The fire was always lit, both warming the room and adding to the already growing amount of color, large flickers of red light danced on the walls providing games of guessing what each flame resembled. For once, the kitchen was not full of tofu, most of the baking of the season being sweets and fruitcake there was no need for it. All of these things were recognizable for each day of the approaching holiday, as well as Raven and Beast Boy walking arm-in-arm down the halls.
Both had changed a great deal through their experiences, but neither had regrets. Raven had now begun to wear everyday clothing instead of her costume around the tower, the winter season bringing out a warm green sweater and black corduroys. She had also begun letting her hair out, letting it curl naturally at the ends as it reached her shoulder blades from its previous length. Beast Boy had become more mature somehow, if it was even possible for him. He still kept the charm and humor that had existed before their relationship, but now he seemed much more mature and caring. However one thing had not changed that had also become an issue with the group, something that was a regular topic of conversation.
"Comon guys, you don't need to hold back because of us. We're all friends here." Cyborg was usually the one who initiated it, always the same dumb smile on his face when he spoke.
"What? What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean man. You guys have been together for what, three months? Yeah, three months and not once have we ever seen you guys kiss." No matter how many times the topic came up, no matter how much she got used to having it being a part of everyday talk, Raven couldn't keep herself from blushing with the last delicate word.
"Will you give it up already Cyborg? You've been on them about this almost every day, now just let it go. When they're ready they're ready ok?" Once again, Beast Boy was saved from a moment of stuttering before an awkward exchange of a look between him and the one attached to his arm. Since they got together, Robin and Starfire had always been an excellent source of support, experience derived from their own relationship.
"It's not like I'm asking them to make out or anything."
"Its called tact man, get some." They all gave out a soft laugh, even though Cyborg was the only one alone and was constantly sticking himself in between their relationships, he was still apart of the team and still a good friend.
"Hey, I've thinking about something lately." Ravens voice came unexpectedly, breaking BB's concentration as he flipped through his comic books, sprawled out on the floor of his room; Raven perched on the edge of his bed looking down at him.
"Thinking about what?" Once again Ravens cheeks became that of roses blooming in the spring, barely able to let the words fall out of her mouth.
"W-Well, I was wondering."
"Yeah?"
"Maybe we should try." Raven was so nervous, she found herself unable to even speak of it. "Maybe we should try doing 'it.'" Beast Boy nearly passed out, his heart came only inches from jumping clear out of his chest, his own face flushing red and a small drop of blood flowing out of his nose.
"W-WHAT?"
"Well, I've been thinking about what Cyborg said and."
"Cyborg? He talked you into this?"
"I mean, Robin and Starfire are." Beast Boy was going into conniptions, his mind desperately trying to grasp the situation.
"You're serious, you really wanna do. 'it'?" Raven, lowered her head a bit before nodding, a slight smile growing on her face as the flush became more evident. Beast Boy was beside himself, no sure what to do, starting to think out loud to himself. "Well, I guess we're ready, I mean if you really think we should. But I need to get some condoms though."
"CONDOMS????" Raven's head shot up, her face beet red at the sound of the word. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"
"Wait, you just said you wanted to do 'it'."
"I MEANT KISSING YOU IDIOT!"
"Oh!" Beast Boy secretly let out a sigh, relived that his only concerns at the moment was trying to get kissing right. Silence then filled the room whether it was trying to clear the awkward moment or actually considering the fact neither of them quite knew. "Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with that." Again silence.
"H-How is this supposed to work?" Raven had calmed down, her nervosa returning and turning her cheeks the same shade of red as before.
"I don't know I'm as new to this as you are." Beast Boy slowly rose to sit next to her on the bed, their hands by their sides looking nervously the other way as they pondered what to do.
"We almost did it back before the accident, so it can't be that hard right?"
"Yeah, you're right."
"So how do you want to start?"
"I dunno, maybe, hold hands I guess." As if it was some kind of signal, they each grabbed for the others hand, gently trembling in this delicate moment. Then, the words had left them, and their feelings took over. As they looked up into each others eyes, the same feeling of joy they felt in the morning returned to them like a rush of water flowing over their entire body. They were again one, kindred spirits, one soul shared in two separate feelings. Their eyes slowly closed shut as their heads tilted either way so not to bump noses. Leaning in was the hardest part, knowing it was coming, but not knowing what to expect, not know if they would be doing it right. However, the moment was soon broken by a hard bumping of foreheads. The two leaning in too far, sticking their heads out further than their lips, quickly shot back in embarrassment.
"Ow."
"Sorry bout that."
"It's ok, it wasn't your fault." Raven let out a soft laugh, her precious smile returning as she rubbed the point of contact. The two sat there for a moment, and then tried again, this time leaning in only in the slightest, making sure their lips would make contact before their heads. They could feel each other's breath blowing past them, warm and calming. Just then Raven let out an annoyed sputter as a large clump of hair fell from behind he ear and flew forward into her face. "Sorry."
"No problem." This time they both let out a soft bit of laughter, a bit humored by their troublesome attempts at affection they both desired to show each other. "Maybe we're rushing into this."
"You think?"
"Well, I know we've been going out for a while now, but that doesn't mean we have to start kissing by a certain time."
"Yeah, I guess."
"You ok?"
"Yeah, it's just that it's a bit frustrating that's all." Beast Boy placed a hand on her shoulder, giving her a warm smile of assurance as he held her close. "I just, for once I'd like to know what its like to show your love for someone." And with those words, Beast Boy quickly took her, taking the opportunity that caught them both off guard. Perhaps that was exactly what was needed because this time nothing stopped them. Raven swooned in his arms as he kissed her, his lips felt warm and soft against hers, not like anything she ever felt before. Quickly she came accustom to it, and learned to breathe through he nose, closing her eyes as she drank him in. She had received his affection and now she returned it, using her lips to open his mouth, making the experience more passionate, yet still just as gentle as before.
It was how she had always dreamed, however as quickly as it had come; she accepted it with full affection and pleasure. She was so overcome by joy she threw her arms around him, knocking him over on the bed so that she was on top of him, their embrace unbreakable. She felt everything she had hoped, care, love, joy, and yet she still felt sorrow, but not the sorrow she had once felt. In this passion, her sorrow was only fueled by the knowledge that it would eventually end. However real that reality would be, she knew that no matter what, she would always be there with him, and they would always be there for each other, to take each other one step higher.
Chapter 9: Higher By Ansa
The pain that each of them had felt was excruciating, both physical and mentally, almost to the point of crippling. The physical therapy that was supposed to help them, caused more pain that it should, each night they went to bed aching to the verge of tears. Somehow, they found their way through it together, holding the others hand through all the pain so that they knew that they were together, and that anything one felt would be comforted soon. The dark veil of sorrow had lifted, and simple fact that they were together would be enough to pierce through it and shed light unto their world if it had not.
The days were spent together in pain, and night was spent together in love. Once again, several opportunities for them to make love had come up, sleeping in a single bed, but they had passed on each one. What they had would not be cheapened by that of physical desires; theirs was a love that rang true throughout all the odds against them and all the bad blood between them in the past. There they lay together, two kindred spirits finally together after a lifetime of separation. The sheets around them clung to their bodies as if they too wanted to be apart of this sacred bond. The rest had questions the fact of them sleeping together and not making love, and though they never really gave back an answer, they knew the reason in their hearts. In sleep ones body is vulnerable to many things, and to sleep with another is showing a great trust in them, trusting that your body will be safe in their embrace.
Under the covers, only the multiple bandages and bruises covered the skin left untouched by the clothing they wore under their outer layer. And even though their bodies were intertwined together, no pain came out of it, despite the multiple sore spots that would bring back the pain of the previous day. In sleep, they lay together, safe and serine in each others warm embrace, knowing that when one woke up the other would surely be there, and that gave them more joy then they ever dreamed possible. As the weeks went by, the bandages began to shrink in number, the bruises slowly fading away to the skins natural tone. Weeks formed months until the bandages disappeared completely, leaving nearly unblemished skin that was now free to glow with pride. And with each morning of those few months, Raven woke up to the greatest day of her life.
Winter was now upon them; small globs of white fell from the sky and hid the roof of the tower, and painting the corners of the windows with frost. Inside, color became much more abundant, making one feel like they were stepping out of a black and white 8mm film and into a full color Christmas special starring Bob Hope if he were to visit them. The tree stood proudly in the center of the room; the couch encircled it, developing a warm place to gather and look upon the symbol of peace and joy itself. The fire was always lit, both warming the room and adding to the already growing amount of color, large flickers of red light danced on the walls providing games of guessing what each flame resembled. For once, the kitchen was not full of tofu, most of the baking of the season being sweets and fruitcake there was no need for it. All of these things were recognizable for each day of the approaching holiday, as well as Raven and Beast Boy walking arm-in-arm down the halls.
Both had changed a great deal through their experiences, but neither had regrets. Raven had now begun to wear everyday clothing instead of her costume around the tower, the winter season bringing out a warm green sweater and black corduroys. She had also begun letting her hair out, letting it curl naturally at the ends as it reached her shoulder blades from its previous length. Beast Boy had become more mature somehow, if it was even possible for him. He still kept the charm and humor that had existed before their relationship, but now he seemed much more mature and caring. However one thing had not changed that had also become an issue with the group, something that was a regular topic of conversation.
"Comon guys, you don't need to hold back because of us. We're all friends here." Cyborg was usually the one who initiated it, always the same dumb smile on his face when he spoke.
"What? What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean man. You guys have been together for what, three months? Yeah, three months and not once have we ever seen you guys kiss." No matter how many times the topic came up, no matter how much she got used to having it being a part of everyday talk, Raven couldn't keep herself from blushing with the last delicate word.
"Will you give it up already Cyborg? You've been on them about this almost every day, now just let it go. When they're ready they're ready ok?" Once again, Beast Boy was saved from a moment of stuttering before an awkward exchange of a look between him and the one attached to his arm. Since they got together, Robin and Starfire had always been an excellent source of support, experience derived from their own relationship.
"It's not like I'm asking them to make out or anything."
"Its called tact man, get some." They all gave out a soft laugh, even though Cyborg was the only one alone and was constantly sticking himself in between their relationships, he was still apart of the team and still a good friend.
"Hey, I've thinking about something lately." Ravens voice came unexpectedly, breaking BB's concentration as he flipped through his comic books, sprawled out on the floor of his room; Raven perched on the edge of his bed looking down at him.
"Thinking about what?" Once again Ravens cheeks became that of roses blooming in the spring, barely able to let the words fall out of her mouth.
"W-Well, I was wondering."
"Yeah?"
"Maybe we should try." Raven was so nervous, she found herself unable to even speak of it. "Maybe we should try doing 'it.'" Beast Boy nearly passed out, his heart came only inches from jumping clear out of his chest, his own face flushing red and a small drop of blood flowing out of his nose.
"W-WHAT?"
"Well, I've been thinking about what Cyborg said and."
"Cyborg? He talked you into this?"
"I mean, Robin and Starfire are." Beast Boy was going into conniptions, his mind desperately trying to grasp the situation.
"You're serious, you really wanna do. 'it'?" Raven, lowered her head a bit before nodding, a slight smile growing on her face as the flush became more evident. Beast Boy was beside himself, no sure what to do, starting to think out loud to himself. "Well, I guess we're ready, I mean if you really think we should. But I need to get some condoms though."
"CONDOMS????" Raven's head shot up, her face beet red at the sound of the word. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"
"Wait, you just said you wanted to do 'it'."
"I MEANT KISSING YOU IDIOT!"
"Oh!" Beast Boy secretly let out a sigh, relived that his only concerns at the moment was trying to get kissing right. Silence then filled the room whether it was trying to clear the awkward moment or actually considering the fact neither of them quite knew. "Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with that." Again silence.
"H-How is this supposed to work?" Raven had calmed down, her nervosa returning and turning her cheeks the same shade of red as before.
"I don't know I'm as new to this as you are." Beast Boy slowly rose to sit next to her on the bed, their hands by their sides looking nervously the other way as they pondered what to do.
"We almost did it back before the accident, so it can't be that hard right?"
"Yeah, you're right."
"So how do you want to start?"
"I dunno, maybe, hold hands I guess." As if it was some kind of signal, they each grabbed for the others hand, gently trembling in this delicate moment. Then, the words had left them, and their feelings took over. As they looked up into each others eyes, the same feeling of joy they felt in the morning returned to them like a rush of water flowing over their entire body. They were again one, kindred spirits, one soul shared in two separate feelings. Their eyes slowly closed shut as their heads tilted either way so not to bump noses. Leaning in was the hardest part, knowing it was coming, but not knowing what to expect, not know if they would be doing it right. However, the moment was soon broken by a hard bumping of foreheads. The two leaning in too far, sticking their heads out further than their lips, quickly shot back in embarrassment.
"Ow."
"Sorry bout that."
"It's ok, it wasn't your fault." Raven let out a soft laugh, her precious smile returning as she rubbed the point of contact. The two sat there for a moment, and then tried again, this time leaning in only in the slightest, making sure their lips would make contact before their heads. They could feel each other's breath blowing past them, warm and calming. Just then Raven let out an annoyed sputter as a large clump of hair fell from behind he ear and flew forward into her face. "Sorry."
"No problem." This time they both let out a soft bit of laughter, a bit humored by their troublesome attempts at affection they both desired to show each other. "Maybe we're rushing into this."
"You think?"
"Well, I know we've been going out for a while now, but that doesn't mean we have to start kissing by a certain time."
"Yeah, I guess."
"You ok?"
"Yeah, it's just that it's a bit frustrating that's all." Beast Boy placed a hand on her shoulder, giving her a warm smile of assurance as he held her close. "I just, for once I'd like to know what its like to show your love for someone." And with those words, Beast Boy quickly took her, taking the opportunity that caught them both off guard. Perhaps that was exactly what was needed because this time nothing stopped them. Raven swooned in his arms as he kissed her, his lips felt warm and soft against hers, not like anything she ever felt before. Quickly she came accustom to it, and learned to breathe through he nose, closing her eyes as she drank him in. She had received his affection and now she returned it, using her lips to open his mouth, making the experience more passionate, yet still just as gentle as before.
It was how she had always dreamed, however as quickly as it had come; she accepted it with full affection and pleasure. She was so overcome by joy she threw her arms around him, knocking him over on the bed so that she was on top of him, their embrace unbreakable. She felt everything she had hoped, care, love, joy, and yet she still felt sorrow, but not the sorrow she had once felt. In this passion, her sorrow was only fueled by the knowledge that it would eventually end. However real that reality would be, she knew that no matter what, she would always be there with him, and they would always be there for each other, to take each other one step higher.