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The air was cold, biting its fingers into Seishirou's skin, forcing him to wince slightly. Strange, for it was seldom he would feel the cold. With the wind whipping around him, he acknowledged that winter was soon arriving. He thought that Subaru would have more sense than that to ask him to meet him at all places, a park, just as winter was dawning.
Both men stood still, neither had said a word. Seishirou was just about to enquire the reason for the meeting when Subaru had astonished him with a speech. He had not known that there were so many things that Subaru was unhappy with. It was as if a dam had broken and all of Subaru's grievances had poured out like a waterfall.
Surprising himself, Seishirou had listened, taking in what Subaru was telling him. Sadness clouded his features, and he could only hang his head at the cruel words. Maybe not cruel, as Subaru was never cruel on purpose. But the fact remained, Subaru had faced too many disappointments and in his haste to get it off his chest, he had not really considered his words, hence the "so-called" cruelty of it all.
Funny, Seishirou had thought with an ironical smile upon his lips. HE was the one who was supposed to be cruel, yet it was the other way round. HE was the one who wasn't supposed to be sorry, or even guilty. Yet just those words of Subaru... he shook his head.
When he next lifted his head, ready to tell Subaru the truth, he had noticed the boy's emotions flitting across his face; it was that easy to read. Nothing was shielded; it was as if the confession that drained his ability to hide from Seishirou his innermost thoughts.
Subaru looked almost ready to flee, and Seishirou gently reached out and touched his fingers. Subaru turned his head back, cocking it to one side as he contemplated Seishirou's face.
Feeling the iciness of Subaru's frost-bitten fingers, Seishirou rubbed his fingers together with Subaru, taking his time to say what he did not want to say. However, circumstances were such, and he could not ignore it anymore, lest he lost the person most important to him.
"Well, since you've chosen such a dreadful and insane time to tell me what you think of me, I guess I have no choice but to answer your questions. Look at your expression; you'll think I'm just joking with you."
The joking tone changed abruptly, and was replaced with one more solemn, but nonetheless, still having a twinge of care free abandon.
"I supposed I knew, somewhat, of your feelings towards me. However, I guess I just liked teasing you, seeing your response towards my actions, it was fun. Evil though it may have seemed to you, to me it gave me purpose. Do you know that before I do something, I would ask myself, 'what would Subaru say to this?' Of course you wouldn't know, it's weird if you did, seeing how an expert I am at concealing my emotions.
You started out as a game, but it turned out to be something more. To put it simply, the seducer had become the seduced. Why would I kill you when I love you? Love, a rather strong word for me to use, one that I never thought would be in my vocabulary. Wonders of wonders, I do love you.
Who wouldn't? Your child-like innocence at first, then your maturity forced on you by cruel circumstances of fate. I've known your hatred for me and what I do, but it has always been over shadowed by your love for me. I've known that you think me a paradox, or rather, your feelings for me as a paradox. How can one love and hate the same person so much?
It's true. We're two people tossed together into the swirling tempest of fate. Like you, I believe that fate can be fought, can be changed. Perhaps you've made the first step to changing it by telling me the truth. You're more than a thing to me, you're the very life I live for. Don't question my words anymore, just accept that you matter.
I'm glad you understand my motivations, because we cannot change our past. I pray that since you've tossed caution to the wind, you've also come to the conclusion that I love you, but I cannot change what I do just for you. I am a killer at heart. But a lover for you."
Seishirou stopped, almost ashamed he had revealed that much. Silently, he brushed away the tear that flowed down Subaru's cheek. Whispering, he asked,: "I've hurt you... you never meant for me to say all that."
In response, Subaru merely pressed his face into Seishirou's neck, murmuring back: "No, you've told me what I had always wanted to hear. I love you for who you are, there is no need to change for me. I would never want that, never expect that. For to change but one thing of your personality, would be to change completely the person I love."
Seishirou ran his fingers down Subaru's back, caressing him gently. Lowering his mouth to Subaru's, he smiled, the truth didn't hurt, not like he had thought. It had instead, brought more rewards than he could have ever imagined. He then led Subaru out of the cold and into the warm comfort of his embrace.
-end-
Thanks to all those that reviewed, I know I left you with a cliffhanger, and I'm sorry about that. Talk about pressure to try to beat the previous chapter, I never thought it would be that touching (-.-;;), and since I am a fan of Seishirou and Subaru, fear not, I will never write an unhappy ending for them. Thankiesssssss... love you guys. Was wondering if I should continue with confessions of Fuuma and Kamui, maybe?
The air was cold, biting its fingers into Seishirou's skin, forcing him to wince slightly. Strange, for it was seldom he would feel the cold. With the wind whipping around him, he acknowledged that winter was soon arriving. He thought that Subaru would have more sense than that to ask him to meet him at all places, a park, just as winter was dawning.
Both men stood still, neither had said a word. Seishirou was just about to enquire the reason for the meeting when Subaru had astonished him with a speech. He had not known that there were so many things that Subaru was unhappy with. It was as if a dam had broken and all of Subaru's grievances had poured out like a waterfall.
Surprising himself, Seishirou had listened, taking in what Subaru was telling him. Sadness clouded his features, and he could only hang his head at the cruel words. Maybe not cruel, as Subaru was never cruel on purpose. But the fact remained, Subaru had faced too many disappointments and in his haste to get it off his chest, he had not really considered his words, hence the "so-called" cruelty of it all.
Funny, Seishirou had thought with an ironical smile upon his lips. HE was the one who was supposed to be cruel, yet it was the other way round. HE was the one who wasn't supposed to be sorry, or even guilty. Yet just those words of Subaru... he shook his head.
When he next lifted his head, ready to tell Subaru the truth, he had noticed the boy's emotions flitting across his face; it was that easy to read. Nothing was shielded; it was as if the confession that drained his ability to hide from Seishirou his innermost thoughts.
Subaru looked almost ready to flee, and Seishirou gently reached out and touched his fingers. Subaru turned his head back, cocking it to one side as he contemplated Seishirou's face.
Feeling the iciness of Subaru's frost-bitten fingers, Seishirou rubbed his fingers together with Subaru, taking his time to say what he did not want to say. However, circumstances were such, and he could not ignore it anymore, lest he lost the person most important to him.
"Well, since you've chosen such a dreadful and insane time to tell me what you think of me, I guess I have no choice but to answer your questions. Look at your expression; you'll think I'm just joking with you."
The joking tone changed abruptly, and was replaced with one more solemn, but nonetheless, still having a twinge of care free abandon.
"I supposed I knew, somewhat, of your feelings towards me. However, I guess I just liked teasing you, seeing your response towards my actions, it was fun. Evil though it may have seemed to you, to me it gave me purpose. Do you know that before I do something, I would ask myself, 'what would Subaru say to this?' Of course you wouldn't know, it's weird if you did, seeing how an expert I am at concealing my emotions.
You started out as a game, but it turned out to be something more. To put it simply, the seducer had become the seduced. Why would I kill you when I love you? Love, a rather strong word for me to use, one that I never thought would be in my vocabulary. Wonders of wonders, I do love you.
Who wouldn't? Your child-like innocence at first, then your maturity forced on you by cruel circumstances of fate. I've known your hatred for me and what I do, but it has always been over shadowed by your love for me. I've known that you think me a paradox, or rather, your feelings for me as a paradox. How can one love and hate the same person so much?
It's true. We're two people tossed together into the swirling tempest of fate. Like you, I believe that fate can be fought, can be changed. Perhaps you've made the first step to changing it by telling me the truth. You're more than a thing to me, you're the very life I live for. Don't question my words anymore, just accept that you matter.
I'm glad you understand my motivations, because we cannot change our past. I pray that since you've tossed caution to the wind, you've also come to the conclusion that I love you, but I cannot change what I do just for you. I am a killer at heart. But a lover for you."
Seishirou stopped, almost ashamed he had revealed that much. Silently, he brushed away the tear that flowed down Subaru's cheek. Whispering, he asked,: "I've hurt you... you never meant for me to say all that."
In response, Subaru merely pressed his face into Seishirou's neck, murmuring back: "No, you've told me what I had always wanted to hear. I love you for who you are, there is no need to change for me. I would never want that, never expect that. For to change but one thing of your personality, would be to change completely the person I love."
Seishirou ran his fingers down Subaru's back, caressing him gently. Lowering his mouth to Subaru's, he smiled, the truth didn't hurt, not like he had thought. It had instead, brought more rewards than he could have ever imagined. He then led Subaru out of the cold and into the warm comfort of his embrace.
-end-
Thanks to all those that reviewed, I know I left you with a cliffhanger, and I'm sorry about that. Talk about pressure to try to beat the previous chapter, I never thought it would be that touching (-.-;;), and since I am a fan of Seishirou and Subaru, fear not, I will never write an unhappy ending for them. Thankiesssssss... love you guys. Was wondering if I should continue with confessions of Fuuma and Kamui, maybe?