Author's note

Saiyuki does not belong to me. etc etc etc. *half dead from pain*

Special thanks to Shazuluca, Ameko and all those wonderful people who reviewed. * tears in my eyes * Really thankful .sorry about English grammar mistakes and all. ME NOT PERFECT. LOL.

Sorry for the late update ~_~

Edited Chapter 3 ~TA~TA~TA~DA~ Enjoy and please review~*flutters eyelashes continuously*

Kaisuki * worming away for food-HUNGRY*

Chapter 3- {Outside the Lodge}

Outside the lounge, Goku heaved a deep sigh and looked at the starless sky. He laid down on the grassy hillside, silently thinking that he was trying really hard to make his feelings known to Sanzo. But with each scolding and beating he got from the blond made him less confident and unsure if his feelings would be accepted.

Today was the lowest that Goku had ever felt. Goku had been traveling with the others for numerous months to the West and, along the way, passed through villages while celebrating different festivities together, experiencing and relishing the strong bond that held the four of them together (although none of them would admit it). Goku's feelings for Sanzo got stronger and stronger as time passed. However, finding new ways to communicate the message plainly to Sanzo was troubling Goku endlessly.

"What day did Gojyo called it? Ahhh, yes, St Valentine's Day," Goku thought, lazily heaving a sigh while reflecting on the recent events.

A few days ago, Gojyo was talking about today being a special day about lovers and friends exchanging and renewing their feelings for each other by presenting chocolates and presents. All the villagers were excited about that day, especially the village girls who have prepared chocolates for their loved ones. Goku thought of telling a certain blond person his feelings on that day and bashfully asked the village girls (who readily helped cute, cute Goku) on how to make chocolate "hearts" for Sanzo.

Goku's frequent meetings with the village girls had led to Sanzo's stern disapproval as he said that they were going to move on their journey and it's best if Goku didn't get fresh with anyone. When Goku heard the news, he wanted to scream loudly at Sanzo that the only person Goku would want to get "flesh" with was Sanzo himself. (My, my, Goku's thinking has really gone awry, and so has mine *grins crazily*) Goku also knew that if the villagers realised that he is a youkai, it would mean serious trouble for the group due to the current crisis of youkai losing their self-control and going on massive human killing sprees, hence the humans, distrust of youkai.

Deciding to make the chocolates a day earlier without anyone's knowing, Goku bought the ingredients with the money he earned secretly by running errands for the village girls two days before Valentine's day. Unfortunately, he had eaten the day before and had fell asleep while eating, and it was only after he woke up later in the afternoon that he realised his mistake and dashed into the kitchen in a hurry to get started in hope that Sanzo and the others were still out to get the supplies ready for their trip.

When Goku put on that embarrassing lacey white apron (a special gift from the villagers) and started to melt the chocolate, Gojyo had returned earlier than the rest and started to make fun at him. Oh, it's all Gojyo's fault when the latter started to mimic how Goku looked and behaved like a blushing girl in front of Sanzo, giving chocolate "hearts". Goku couldn't control his anger then and had flung a bag of flour at the redheaded guy, a fight ensued, and the usual bickering began.

Seeing Sanzo's angry expression was bad enough, but Sanzo's beating had left a burning mark in Goku's heart. Why Sanzo can't understand that the whole "mess" was for him, the lacy apron-wearing was for him, the... "badly burnt-whatever"-chocolates were for him. Goku swallowed a bitter sob and tears cascaded down his cheeks as he hugged his knees. Maybe his affections will never be appreciated by Sanzo. Never, ever to be made known to the only person who set him free from his dreadful imprisoned existence,the only person who he loves and cherish for all eternity.

(To be Continued)