Author's note:
NORM: Again . Saiyuki not mine!
Hi people~
Sorry for the long wait, I had no time and inspiration for a period of time.. The calamity of the author's block has fallen on me.. ~DRAMATIC FLAIR~ !KABOOM!
Thanks to all who read and reviewed, very very nice of you to do so~ * smiles happily * It was good that you guys enjoyed the fic (It's afterall my very first saiyuki fic).
This chapter has yet to be properly edited therefore is kinda like a draft (I have tried, Ameko. reallly). hope it is not so disappointing for you people~ * prayed hard * (I have tried very very hard and used every ounce of my brain cells to come up with this)
Those "//.//" in the passages that you are about to read are thoughts of characters . just inform you people first.hehhee
Please read and review~ this author needs encouragement to strive on~~~~thank u~
Special thanks to all, reviewers, such as Yuki, Genjo Sanzo, Dark Fox, Namassuki, Chibi Onna, Monophobia, and proof readers such as Ameko and Shazuluca..
~Half buried Devil Doll~ +_+ presents ....~CHAPTER 7~
WARNING: VIOLENT LANGUAGE USED (YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED)
Chapter 7 - The Priest's Realisation
"OHAIYO!" Goku smiled brightly as he descended from the stairs, "What's for breakfast? I am very hungry!"
"Baka.," Sanzo mumbled while reading the newspaper, "It's already close to 12 noon, your room was locked and why the hell did you wake up so late!"
"Anyway, we already had breakfast without you.Sanzo wanted to set off early, but you were not down yet. Anyway, you took such a long time in coming down that Hakkai went off to double check our supplies" Goyjo snickered with a cigarette in his mouth.
"Gomen, Sanzo.I." Goku, turned sharply to look at Sanzo. He trembled and stumbled to give a logical explanation. He couldn't bear looking at the mirror this morning. He felt totally useless and vulnerable. He just sat up on the bed the whole night as he was extremely restless.
Sanzo looked at Goku's perplexed face and wondered
//What the bloody hell happened to him? His eyes seem to be tired and swollen as if he cried the whole night. Was it because of his burnt chocolates? He didn't have a chance to give them to his special little village lady tramp.is it my fault?//
Sanzo's fists clenched tightly at that thought. Bakasaru
Sanzo waved his hand nonchalantly, "What the fuck, I decided to postpone our trip from another day." He stood up and walk towards the door, "Since we have decided not to set off today, there's nothing more to say. See you idiots tonight!"
Goku widened his golden eyes in shock, "Sanzo! Are you out of cigarettes or beer? I can buy the cigarettes and beer for you! You don't have to go to the village by yourself" Goku stood up and tried to make his way towards Sanzo frantically.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP! I don't need you to tell me what I can do and what I can't do" Sanzo turned abruptly, narrowed his eyes and shot a bullet at Goku, leaving a slight scratch on Goku's left cheek, which was slowly oozing with little tickles of deep ruby-coloured blood. Goku was stunned at his tracks, unable to comprehend what had just happened.
"Oei. oei, MONK, you are getting out of line!" Goyjo stood up angrily and try to defend Goku. "It's not his fault for waking up late! You said so yourself that we are postponing the trip until tomorrow! Why are you bloody worked up for?!"
//Because I want him so badly that it hurts, I want to hurt him as much as he is hurting me now. Looking at him so upset and pining for somebody is not my cup of tea. He and his stupid charred chocolates! It's all his damn bloody fault! I wanna kill him and his village slut right here right now!//
Sanzo closed his eyes tightly and cupped his face with his free hand, breathing deeply and raggedly at the immerse force of these new thoughts flooding into his mind, engulfing his sanity to fire at his two travelling companions. "Let me be!" With that, Sanzo stormed out of the house in full rage. Goku stared blindly at the empty doorway, unable to feel his legs and collapsed onto the ground like a rag doll. Sanzo left him without a word. He couldn't be even a proper slave to his master, his sun. What use can he be when Sanzo doesn't need him. He stared numbly at the opened door and weakly touched the dripping crimson blood on his face with one hand, feeling his only light and its warm leaving him further and further away.
//Sanzo.If you're gone.from me forever. I will never see the sun.nor be able to live//
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Sanzo stormed out of the house and blindly ran into the route towards the village, as if trying to avoid the inevitable, but the thoughts wouldn't stop flowing through his mind. He staggered along the unpaved street and accidentally knocked into some of giggling (and irritating) village girls who were on their way to distribute their chocolates. He stared at their departing shadows coldly with his amethyst eyes and wondered which of these village hussies got Goku's love.
//A love that never can be mine. //
Sanzo drew a disgusted sigh .He was so shocked at his new found thoughts and feelings. He realised that he LOVES Goku with all his heart, being and soul. When did it happen? When did he allow someone to come so close and important in his heart since his mentor's death? It sucked big time, especially if the feeling was not reciprocated. May that monkey's soul burn in damnation. May all souls burn in hell for all he cared. The monkey loves another, who is he to blame for all this mess.
//No one except yourself, you let him through your fingers and now you have to suffer the consequences.//
Sanzo stumbled and leaned on a nearby tree stump along the river bay, trying to get his breath and rational thought back.
//YOU ARE A LOSER! YOU ARE A PATHETIC PRIEST. A SORRY EXISTENCE FOR A MAN.//
Sanzo took his last cigarette from the pack and lit it. He knew that at that moment, he couldn't control his emotions, especially when he saw sad state Goku was in. He flung the empty pack on the cold hard ground.
//Fuck, I am done for. //
//Anyone I cared about leaves me.No one cares about me. I am a rude, cold, emotionless man.totally unlovable.//
Sanzo closed his eyes tightly and inhaled deeply, thinking about himself for the first time in that manner actually hurt. He flicked the stump of cigarette aside into the river. Eyes downcast to the ground to gather his thoughts and shuddered.
// It will all pass, this must be another trick of that darn goddess. She is always trying to test me and taking me as some kind of freak show for her sordid entertainment.I know what is going on. that sadistic bitch . she is trying to make me lose focus of what I am supposed to do.going to the west to obtain the bloody scriptures. This must be all her doing!//
Combing his blonde hair bangs with his fingers to ease the tension, Sanzo picked himself up from ground and stared coldly at the glittering blue reflection of the river water.
//Darn goddess, you think you can make a mockery of me by playing with my emotions. Well, I'll play along with you, let's see who will have the last laugh//
To be continued ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
End note (some encouragement for comments):
How was it? Too hard to read? Doesn't flow properly?? Cringing away from the grammar mistakes and etc? No good or good? Please give feedback (nicely)~(means that I am very fragile. giggles and flutters eyelashes like a lunatic)
I am making Sanzo suffer abit now.. Just abit.. Wouldn't want to use my full potential~ HO HO HO HO..and to give poor Goku a break from all the heartache. why should Goku suffer alone... SANZO is on my next hit (torture) list _ * Squeaks in delight *
~Devil Doll crawls off to do chapter 8~
NORM: Again . Saiyuki not mine!
Hi people~
Sorry for the long wait, I had no time and inspiration for a period of time.. The calamity of the author's block has fallen on me.. ~DRAMATIC FLAIR~ !KABOOM!
Thanks to all who read and reviewed, very very nice of you to do so~ * smiles happily * It was good that you guys enjoyed the fic (It's afterall my very first saiyuki fic).
This chapter has yet to be properly edited therefore is kinda like a draft (I have tried, Ameko. reallly). hope it is not so disappointing for you people~ * prayed hard * (I have tried very very hard and used every ounce of my brain cells to come up with this)
Those "//.//" in the passages that you are about to read are thoughts of characters . just inform you people first.hehhee
Please read and review~ this author needs encouragement to strive on~~~~thank u~
Special thanks to all, reviewers, such as Yuki, Genjo Sanzo, Dark Fox, Namassuki, Chibi Onna, Monophobia, and proof readers such as Ameko and Shazuluca..
~Half buried Devil Doll~ +_+ presents ....~CHAPTER 7~
WARNING: VIOLENT LANGUAGE USED (YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED)
Chapter 7 - The Priest's Realisation
"OHAIYO!" Goku smiled brightly as he descended from the stairs, "What's for breakfast? I am very hungry!"
"Baka.," Sanzo mumbled while reading the newspaper, "It's already close to 12 noon, your room was locked and why the hell did you wake up so late!"
"Anyway, we already had breakfast without you.Sanzo wanted to set off early, but you were not down yet. Anyway, you took such a long time in coming down that Hakkai went off to double check our supplies" Goyjo snickered with a cigarette in his mouth.
"Gomen, Sanzo.I." Goku, turned sharply to look at Sanzo. He trembled and stumbled to give a logical explanation. He couldn't bear looking at the mirror this morning. He felt totally useless and vulnerable. He just sat up on the bed the whole night as he was extremely restless.
Sanzo looked at Goku's perplexed face and wondered
//What the bloody hell happened to him? His eyes seem to be tired and swollen as if he cried the whole night. Was it because of his burnt chocolates? He didn't have a chance to give them to his special little village lady tramp.is it my fault?//
Sanzo's fists clenched tightly at that thought. Bakasaru
Sanzo waved his hand nonchalantly, "What the fuck, I decided to postpone our trip from another day." He stood up and walk towards the door, "Since we have decided not to set off today, there's nothing more to say. See you idiots tonight!"
Goku widened his golden eyes in shock, "Sanzo! Are you out of cigarettes or beer? I can buy the cigarettes and beer for you! You don't have to go to the village by yourself" Goku stood up and tried to make his way towards Sanzo frantically.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP! I don't need you to tell me what I can do and what I can't do" Sanzo turned abruptly, narrowed his eyes and shot a bullet at Goku, leaving a slight scratch on Goku's left cheek, which was slowly oozing with little tickles of deep ruby-coloured blood. Goku was stunned at his tracks, unable to comprehend what had just happened.
"Oei. oei, MONK, you are getting out of line!" Goyjo stood up angrily and try to defend Goku. "It's not his fault for waking up late! You said so yourself that we are postponing the trip until tomorrow! Why are you bloody worked up for?!"
//Because I want him so badly that it hurts, I want to hurt him as much as he is hurting me now. Looking at him so upset and pining for somebody is not my cup of tea. He and his stupid charred chocolates! It's all his damn bloody fault! I wanna kill him and his village slut right here right now!//
Sanzo closed his eyes tightly and cupped his face with his free hand, breathing deeply and raggedly at the immerse force of these new thoughts flooding into his mind, engulfing his sanity to fire at his two travelling companions. "Let me be!" With that, Sanzo stormed out of the house in full rage. Goku stared blindly at the empty doorway, unable to feel his legs and collapsed onto the ground like a rag doll. Sanzo left him without a word. He couldn't be even a proper slave to his master, his sun. What use can he be when Sanzo doesn't need him. He stared numbly at the opened door and weakly touched the dripping crimson blood on his face with one hand, feeling his only light and its warm leaving him further and further away.
//Sanzo.If you're gone.from me forever. I will never see the sun.nor be able to live//
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Sanzo stormed out of the house and blindly ran into the route towards the village, as if trying to avoid the inevitable, but the thoughts wouldn't stop flowing through his mind. He staggered along the unpaved street and accidentally knocked into some of giggling (and irritating) village girls who were on their way to distribute their chocolates. He stared at their departing shadows coldly with his amethyst eyes and wondered which of these village hussies got Goku's love.
//A love that never can be mine. //
Sanzo drew a disgusted sigh .He was so shocked at his new found thoughts and feelings. He realised that he LOVES Goku with all his heart, being and soul. When did it happen? When did he allow someone to come so close and important in his heart since his mentor's death? It sucked big time, especially if the feeling was not reciprocated. May that monkey's soul burn in damnation. May all souls burn in hell for all he cared. The monkey loves another, who is he to blame for all this mess.
//No one except yourself, you let him through your fingers and now you have to suffer the consequences.//
Sanzo stumbled and leaned on a nearby tree stump along the river bay, trying to get his breath and rational thought back.
//YOU ARE A LOSER! YOU ARE A PATHETIC PRIEST. A SORRY EXISTENCE FOR A MAN.//
Sanzo took his last cigarette from the pack and lit it. He knew that at that moment, he couldn't control his emotions, especially when he saw sad state Goku was in. He flung the empty pack on the cold hard ground.
//Fuck, I am done for. //
//Anyone I cared about leaves me.No one cares about me. I am a rude, cold, emotionless man.totally unlovable.//
Sanzo closed his eyes tightly and inhaled deeply, thinking about himself for the first time in that manner actually hurt. He flicked the stump of cigarette aside into the river. Eyes downcast to the ground to gather his thoughts and shuddered.
// It will all pass, this must be another trick of that darn goddess. She is always trying to test me and taking me as some kind of freak show for her sordid entertainment.I know what is going on. that sadistic bitch . she is trying to make me lose focus of what I am supposed to do.going to the west to obtain the bloody scriptures. This must be all her doing!//
Combing his blonde hair bangs with his fingers to ease the tension, Sanzo picked himself up from ground and stared coldly at the glittering blue reflection of the river water.
//Darn goddess, you think you can make a mockery of me by playing with my emotions. Well, I'll play along with you, let's see who will have the last laugh//
To be continued ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
End note (some encouragement for comments):
How was it? Too hard to read? Doesn't flow properly?? Cringing away from the grammar mistakes and etc? No good or good? Please give feedback (nicely)~(means that I am very fragile. giggles and flutters eyelashes like a lunatic)
I am making Sanzo suffer abit now.. Just abit.. Wouldn't want to use my full potential~ HO HO HO HO..and to give poor Goku a break from all the heartache. why should Goku suffer alone... SANZO is on my next hit (torture) list _ * Squeaks in delight *
~Devil Doll crawls off to do chapter 8~