Hey! Here is the next chapter; sorry it took a few days! I hope you enjoy it! Um at the end, there might be a hint of slash, but its not! It is a nice, fatherly somewhat way of showing love. No slash! Just they care for each other, like a father and son would. Got it. I don't do slash. Anyway, I don't own Harry Potter, J.K. Rowling does. Thank you for all the kind reviews!!!!

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Remus went up to Harry's room. He had thought he heard a banging noise coming from upstairs and was growing concerned. He left the Weasley's downstairs, telling them that Harry didn't know they were here, and it would be a shock to him.

Upstairs the banging noise was coming from Harry's room. He now could Harry's voice yelling at the top of his lungs, "LET ME OUT! I NEED TO BE LET OUT!" Remus took out his wand and opened the door magically. He braced himself as Harry ran out of the room and straight into him. Remus though with his werewolf strength did not intend to let Harry go.

"Calm down… calm down Harry." He spoke calmly in Harry's ear.

"Let me go!" Harry begged trying to free himself from Remus' grip.

"No Harry."

"You must let me go!" Harry yelled.

Remus was sure that the Weasleys could hear him from downstairs. Remus tried to quiet the struggling 16-year-old. "Harry, just calm down, everything is fine."

"No, its NOT!" Harry was tiring though. He stopped fighting suddenly, "Just let me go!" he begged.

Remus led Harry back into the room and to the bed. They both sat down. "Now what is so urgent that you have to leave?"

"I don't have to tell you!" Harry exclaimed.

"No you don't," Remus agreed with him, "but I'm asking you to. Harry, you opened up to me once before, please open up to me again."

Harry got off the bed. Remus watched him carefully, his eyes followed him around the room, if he made any movement toward that door, Remus had his wand ready. He was not going to lose Harry again.

Harry was by the desk. Without a word or warning he picked up the chair and slammed it against the wall. One of the legs broke and fell to the ground. Harry hit the chair against the wall two more times, and the other legs of the chair joined the first one on the floor.

"I'M SICK OF LOSING PEOPLE!"

Remus raised one eyebrow but did not say anything.

"SIRIUS! SIRIUS! WHY? I didn't mean to Sirius! I just wanted to HELP YOU!" With that, he slammed his fist against the wall and then fell down the wall tired and worn out.

Remus was at his side in an instant. "Sh, its all right Harry. I could sit here all day and tell you reasons why he shouldn't have died, but it won't bring him back. He's up in heaven with Lily and James he's happy, he's free. I know you want him, that you need him, and I need him too." Remus stopped and thought.

He continued, "Fate is a funny thing Harry; it always seems to take away the things we need most in life. You will see again though, not for many years though, he's waiting for you, with your parents. I promise you Harry. You can't give up hope Harry."

"I miss him, I want him back!" Harry started to cry in his hands. "I don't want to lose anyone else either. I don't want to lose you like I lost Sirius." His shoulders shook, his hands now gripped his hair and he cried into his knees, which were drawn up to his chest.

"I'm not going anywhere Harry."

"Yes… yes you are. Everyone… everyone is!"

"No Harry."

Harry got up suddenly, the tears were still coming down his face, and Remus wasn't sure where he got the energy to get up. "How do you know that? You don't know everything!"

Remus got up too; "Harry, your friends and I would never leave you."

"Sirius didn't want to leave me either! He didn't have too much of a choice though! Voldemort will kill everyone close to me! I've seen it happen! What about Cedric, or my parents, or Sirius? How do you explain their deaths? They died because of ME!"

"You have been dreaming of our deaths?" Remus asked.

Harry's face paled, "I know I've been wrong before, I know the consequences, and that is why I'm not taking anymore chances! When I had this dream, I knew I had to get out. I won't endanger anyone else!"

"What happened Harry?"

Harry turned his back to Remus for several minutes. Remus didn't press the matter, he busied himself with looking at the chair, and it was lying crumbled on the floor. He looked back at Harry, he felt pity for his best friend's son, no one deserved the life had had experienced.

"I was in this house, and Voldemort came. You were here, Sirius, the Weasleys, Hermione, Dumbledore, members of the Order, and my classmates. You all blamed me for killing you. The arch appeared, and Sirius fell through it again. He blamed me over and over for his death. Voldemort said they were all dead because you cared for me. I saw this dream over and over. I don't want to be responsible for any other lives, so I ran to protect you."

"First, I would never blame you for anything that happened to me, and neither would Sirius. He loved you Harry, and if something had happened at the Ministry and he had stayed home, he wouldn't be able to live with himself. He knew what he was doing, he knew the danger. He died protecting you, he died the way he wanted to."

"He didn't deserve to die!"

"No one deserves to die," Remus died.

"Bellatrix does," Harry said suddenly with his voice full of hate. "She and Voldemort."

Remus didn't say anything.

"I tried to Remus, I really tried, I wanted to so badly…" Harry choked the words out.

"You tried to kill her?" Remus asked confused.

"I tried to hurt her for what she did to Sirius, but I couldn't. She said I didn't mean I, but I did, I do hate her!"


Remus closed his eyes, he didn't hate enough. After everything he had been through, after living with the Dursleys for 10 years, after putting up with all the injustice of the world he didn't hate enough. It was a miracle, if anyone deserved to hate, it was Harry.

"It's no crime not to be able to perform an Unforgivable."

"She deserved it though! She killed Sirius!"

"When performing the Cruciatus, you have to mean it, you have to love the pain. You wanted to hurt Bella because she killed Sirius, you were trying to defend his honor. You don't hate enough Harry."

Remus sighed, it was like a victory. He didn't hate enough. "Albus and I had a long talk when I accepted the teaching position. He spoke so highly of you, and your triumphs. He told me that you asked about similarities between you and Voldemort. Why did you get into Gryffindor?"

Harry shrugged, "I asked to be put there."

"Your choice is different from Voldemort's and now so are your emotions. Voldemort is full of hate and greed, while you are full of good. Bella as would Voldemort doesn't understand why you couldn't perform the Unforgivable, she or Voldemort would never defend anyone's honor. You have great strengths Harry, never forget them or your friends."

Harry let out a deep sigh, his eyes were still red, "I'm not sure I can do this Remus."

Remus looked at him, with pride glimmering in his eyes, "With your friends by your side you can do anything."

"You won't ever leave me will you?"

"Never Harry… I will be by your side until my death." Harry gave Remus a bear like hug. "I promise you Harry, next year you will live with me. I will give you the home Sirius once offered you."

"I will have to go back to the Dursleys though next year, he will make me." Harry sighed he let go of the hug.

"Then I will stay with you, I won't abandon you," Remus promised.

"You would do that for me?" Harry asked astonished.

"We have to make your last time at the Dursleys interesting," Remus smiled much like a Marauder.

"Thank you Remus," Harry hugged him again.

"Now its getting late, but its still your birthday. We were going to have a surprise party for you. I'll go call Dumbledore though and he'll get everyone over here. We still have a few hours." Remus got up. "But for now, Ron, Mr. Weasley and the twins are downstairs. You might want to talk to Ron, he's been worried about you."

Harry sighed, "I think I need to talk to Ron too."

"I'll send him up."

Harry nodded. Remus went to the door.

"Remus?" Harry called to him. "I'm sorry for running away, I just didn't want to hurt you."

"I forgive you Harry." Remus nodded to him; "I love you Harry."

"I love you too Remus."