A/N: Howdy!!! Well, I changed the summery. I'm hoping this might bring in more reviewers. SOOOO.....This is the next chapter of the story(obviously). I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but if any of you have any suggestions, TELL ME!!! Oh, and I feel really bad because one of the reviewers wanted me to email her, but I can't get the adress( I clicked on her name and it said in big bold letters WEB RESTRICTED.. im getting really mad with that by the way....) So, if any of you know the email adress to Lady Foxfire, then PLEASE PLEASE let me know what it is, or if you could tell her yourself that'd be great... and of course PLEASE REVIEW! I love to know what the readers are thinking.
"But, Professor Dumbledore. I don't understand. Why does he keeps blacking out and falling in and out of conciousness. And why can't he remember anything?" Remus was pacing the room of the headmasters office impatiently. These things going on with Harry worried him and everyone else.
"Remus-just Albus, please. And Harry's going to be like this for a little while. The pain that he went through-it's too much to take. I'm surprised that we only have to deal with blackouts and temporary memory loss. If everybody was to be put through what he has had to deal with his entire life, then most would go insane. Yet, Harry is dealing with it. His blackouts are necessary to his recovery. If he doesn't start getting the sleep he's been deprived of, then something terrible could happen." Albus Dumbledore looked older and more tired then usual.
"You mean he could have died?" Remus stopped pacing and placed his hands on the desk, his shoulders hunched. He stared into the old man's blue eyes and waited for a response. Dumbledore nodded and Remus sighed deeply. How could this have happened?
"But, Albus. There's something I still don't understand." Remus had resumed pacing nervously.
"What is it, Remus?" Albus looked at the man curiously who continued pacing for 10 more minutes before speaking again.
"I thought that if Harry was in trouble, you would be notified immediately I thought that you said if he ever wanted help those barriers surrounding his house would be set off immediately and you would be notified. Didn't you know?" Remus said wearily. At this the old man sighed and his lip twitched.
"No, Remus. I didn't know." Remus's heart sank. What happened to his hero he had trusted in since he had first come to Hogwarts?
"Then-the barriers aren't working?"
"No," Remus looked confused and he added, "It means Harry didn't want our help."
*~*
"Hello, Mr. Potter. How are you feeling?" Dumbledore asked the black haired boy. Harry hardly acknowledged the question.
The boys forehead wrinkled in confusion before he tilted his head to the side and began remembering.
'Dear Mr. Potter-'
'That's why Quirrel couldn't touch you.'
'Only a true Gryffindor...'
'I knew the moment he took you and I followed.'
'I need you to tell me what happened.'
Wormtail.
Screams...
"Harry?" the soft voice snapped him back into reality roughly. Harry shook his head violently. This is what he had escaped from. The tormenting memories were too much to handle.
"Harry, what's the matter?" It was Sirius. Only Sirius. No Wormtail. No Voldermont. No more Cedric. Had he really killed him?
"I remember now." Harry's green eyes bore into the light brown eyes in front of him.
"Remember what?" He lowered the gaze again and stared at his hands. They would never understand.
"Why I deserved everything." Harry felt a pair of hands seize him roughly. Harry's head snapped up in horror. The man released the grip a little and his face softened, but the grip was still firm.
"You didn't deserve anything that happened to you this summer. Do you hear me, kiddo? Nothing you could ever do deserves that." Sirius was keeping firm eye contact with the boy. He couldn't let him fall into those lies. Sirius had let himself believe them once and he was still believing them. Harry didn't need that burden.
"But, Sirius, I killed somebody." Sirius dropped the grip he had been holding but continued holding eye contact.
"Cedric?"
"Yeah."
"No. Voldermont killed Cedric. You know that Harry. Don't let Voldermont make you think you killed Cedric. You would never and you know I'm right," Harry couldn't argue with that. He had never wanted to kill anybody in his life. Not even the burning hatred for Draco or Vernon could persuade him to kill. So why would he want Cedric killed? It was a simple answer. Even if Harry hadn't wanted Cedric dead, Harry had been the one that Voldermont wanted. It was Harry that was suppose to die. Not Cedric. Never.
So, Harry didn't say anything and broke the eye contact with Sirius. He turned his head to Professor Dumbledore who smiled soberly.
"You came for something, didn't you Professor." Everyone in the room looked uncomfortable as Dumbledore nodded. It was then that Harry noticed the whole house was assembled in the tiny room and Harry felt something click inside his brain.
"You want me to tell you what it was like at my uncle's house? Do you want to know?" Harry's voice was colder then ice. This was the one thing he would never relive. He might push everything away for a while, but eventually, he would remember. But what happened at Vernon's house would stay away in a bottle locked inside his heart. It was too much to bare.
"We aren't going to make you relive any of it, Harry. But we do need your cooperation." Harry frowned and nodded for the man to continue. Normally Dumbledore would make him relive everything. Didn't he think reliving it would make it all better?
"We'll have to put you in a dreamless sleep, first. Then, we'll put a spell on you and it'll play back to us, your memories of your summer," At this, Harry griminced. None of them really understood the extent of it. They wanted to see the hurt that he went through and he knew they wouldn't take it easily. It was bad enough for one person to go through it. But now the people he cared about wanted to be put in his shoes and he didn't like the sound of it. He didn't want them to go through what he had gone through for most of his life.
"Why? Why do you have to see what happened?" Harry was angry at them. Didn't they believe him? Wasn't that enough?
"It isn't a matter of trust, Harry." At this Harry looked uncomfortable. Dumbledore must have read his emotions. "We just need to know what happened so your uncle can be charged correctly."
If possible, Harry frowned further. Charged correctly for what? But he didn't say anything and nodded.
"As long as I don't remember."
"I promise you, Harry. You won't remember anything more then you do now," The old professor handed Harry a blue bottle of 'Dreamless sleep potion.'
"You just want to see what happened during the summer? Nothing more then that?" Dumbledore nodded, his face emotionless.
"Are you all going to watch?" Harry gazed uneasily at Ginny and Hermoine. He didn't want them to have to experience what he did.
"Unless you object, but they do want to see it. Nobody is here by force," Remus explained. Harry ran a hand thorugh his messy hair/
"I just don't know if you guys know what your getting yourselves into." And with that, Harry opened the bottle, avoided the stares, and drifted off to a much needed sleep.
A/N: Hey!!! I hope you liked that chapter.....Review and tlel me whatcha think, ok???
Thanks to all my reviewers!!
Sam and Sam: Aahhhhhh... It all makes sense now! ;). I knew u were just trying to confuse me.
I hope being emotional isn't too bad.......if it isn't a good idea, then maybe I should back off, huh?? Well, thanks for thinking it's interesting..!!! And thanks so much for reviewing!!!!!
Story Spindler: Hey! A new reviewer!!! Naw, I would never demand a certain number of reviews. I mean, i know how annoying that can be. Anyways, thanks for reviewing at all!! I don't mind that you didn't review first chapter. At least I had one review!!! It's better then none. I'm glad you think it's well written (though I'm not too sure myself) and I'm sorry it's so depressing.....Keep reviewing and tell me what you think!!! Thanks!
Broxs: WOw! My story, an obbsession?! Lol. Never really thought it would get that way. I'm SOOO glad you like it!!! And I'm really glad you did review again! Don't worry, I will make a sequal eventually. But I'm going to take Harry through the fifth year first... Hey, if you want to email me, maybe I can run some suggestions by you and you can tell me whatcha think????(Coriemonster13@aol.com) Thank you!
coconut-ice agent h/h: Hmmm... Interesting name...:) But thank you so much for your review! I know how much people hate Vernon.(which is why I don't want him off the hook). Wow, thanks!!!! And thanks for reviewing!!!!!
Lei Dumbledore: Thanks for reviewing and I'm going to keep up with the chapters as best as I can...
Again, thanks to all reviewers and I hope everyone will review for this chapter!!! Thanks!!!!
"But, Professor Dumbledore. I don't understand. Why does he keeps blacking out and falling in and out of conciousness. And why can't he remember anything?" Remus was pacing the room of the headmasters office impatiently. These things going on with Harry worried him and everyone else.
"Remus-just Albus, please. And Harry's going to be like this for a little while. The pain that he went through-it's too much to take. I'm surprised that we only have to deal with blackouts and temporary memory loss. If everybody was to be put through what he has had to deal with his entire life, then most would go insane. Yet, Harry is dealing with it. His blackouts are necessary to his recovery. If he doesn't start getting the sleep he's been deprived of, then something terrible could happen." Albus Dumbledore looked older and more tired then usual.
"You mean he could have died?" Remus stopped pacing and placed his hands on the desk, his shoulders hunched. He stared into the old man's blue eyes and waited for a response. Dumbledore nodded and Remus sighed deeply. How could this have happened?
"But, Albus. There's something I still don't understand." Remus had resumed pacing nervously.
"What is it, Remus?" Albus looked at the man curiously who continued pacing for 10 more minutes before speaking again.
"I thought that if Harry was in trouble, you would be notified immediately I thought that you said if he ever wanted help those barriers surrounding his house would be set off immediately and you would be notified. Didn't you know?" Remus said wearily. At this the old man sighed and his lip twitched.
"No, Remus. I didn't know." Remus's heart sank. What happened to his hero he had trusted in since he had first come to Hogwarts?
"Then-the barriers aren't working?"
"No," Remus looked confused and he added, "It means Harry didn't want our help."
*~*
"Hello, Mr. Potter. How are you feeling?" Dumbledore asked the black haired boy. Harry hardly acknowledged the question.
The boys forehead wrinkled in confusion before he tilted his head to the side and began remembering.
'Dear Mr. Potter-'
'That's why Quirrel couldn't touch you.'
'Only a true Gryffindor...'
'I knew the moment he took you and I followed.'
'I need you to tell me what happened.'
Wormtail.
Screams...
"Harry?" the soft voice snapped him back into reality roughly. Harry shook his head violently. This is what he had escaped from. The tormenting memories were too much to handle.
"Harry, what's the matter?" It was Sirius. Only Sirius. No Wormtail. No Voldermont. No more Cedric. Had he really killed him?
"I remember now." Harry's green eyes bore into the light brown eyes in front of him.
"Remember what?" He lowered the gaze again and stared at his hands. They would never understand.
"Why I deserved everything." Harry felt a pair of hands seize him roughly. Harry's head snapped up in horror. The man released the grip a little and his face softened, but the grip was still firm.
"You didn't deserve anything that happened to you this summer. Do you hear me, kiddo? Nothing you could ever do deserves that." Sirius was keeping firm eye contact with the boy. He couldn't let him fall into those lies. Sirius had let himself believe them once and he was still believing them. Harry didn't need that burden.
"But, Sirius, I killed somebody." Sirius dropped the grip he had been holding but continued holding eye contact.
"Cedric?"
"Yeah."
"No. Voldermont killed Cedric. You know that Harry. Don't let Voldermont make you think you killed Cedric. You would never and you know I'm right," Harry couldn't argue with that. He had never wanted to kill anybody in his life. Not even the burning hatred for Draco or Vernon could persuade him to kill. So why would he want Cedric killed? It was a simple answer. Even if Harry hadn't wanted Cedric dead, Harry had been the one that Voldermont wanted. It was Harry that was suppose to die. Not Cedric. Never.
So, Harry didn't say anything and broke the eye contact with Sirius. He turned his head to Professor Dumbledore who smiled soberly.
"You came for something, didn't you Professor." Everyone in the room looked uncomfortable as Dumbledore nodded. It was then that Harry noticed the whole house was assembled in the tiny room and Harry felt something click inside his brain.
"You want me to tell you what it was like at my uncle's house? Do you want to know?" Harry's voice was colder then ice. This was the one thing he would never relive. He might push everything away for a while, but eventually, he would remember. But what happened at Vernon's house would stay away in a bottle locked inside his heart. It was too much to bare.
"We aren't going to make you relive any of it, Harry. But we do need your cooperation." Harry frowned and nodded for the man to continue. Normally Dumbledore would make him relive everything. Didn't he think reliving it would make it all better?
"We'll have to put you in a dreamless sleep, first. Then, we'll put a spell on you and it'll play back to us, your memories of your summer," At this, Harry griminced. None of them really understood the extent of it. They wanted to see the hurt that he went through and he knew they wouldn't take it easily. It was bad enough for one person to go through it. But now the people he cared about wanted to be put in his shoes and he didn't like the sound of it. He didn't want them to go through what he had gone through for most of his life.
"Why? Why do you have to see what happened?" Harry was angry at them. Didn't they believe him? Wasn't that enough?
"It isn't a matter of trust, Harry." At this Harry looked uncomfortable. Dumbledore must have read his emotions. "We just need to know what happened so your uncle can be charged correctly."
If possible, Harry frowned further. Charged correctly for what? But he didn't say anything and nodded.
"As long as I don't remember."
"I promise you, Harry. You won't remember anything more then you do now," The old professor handed Harry a blue bottle of 'Dreamless sleep potion.'
"You just want to see what happened during the summer? Nothing more then that?" Dumbledore nodded, his face emotionless.
"Are you all going to watch?" Harry gazed uneasily at Ginny and Hermoine. He didn't want them to have to experience what he did.
"Unless you object, but they do want to see it. Nobody is here by force," Remus explained. Harry ran a hand thorugh his messy hair/
"I just don't know if you guys know what your getting yourselves into." And with that, Harry opened the bottle, avoided the stares, and drifted off to a much needed sleep.
A/N: Hey!!! I hope you liked that chapter.....Review and tlel me whatcha think, ok???
Thanks to all my reviewers!!
Sam and Sam: Aahhhhhh... It all makes sense now! ;). I knew u were just trying to confuse me.
I hope being emotional isn't too bad.......if it isn't a good idea, then maybe I should back off, huh?? Well, thanks for thinking it's interesting..!!! And thanks so much for reviewing!!!!!
Story Spindler: Hey! A new reviewer!!! Naw, I would never demand a certain number of reviews. I mean, i know how annoying that can be. Anyways, thanks for reviewing at all!! I don't mind that you didn't review first chapter. At least I had one review!!! It's better then none. I'm glad you think it's well written (though I'm not too sure myself) and I'm sorry it's so depressing.....Keep reviewing and tell me what you think!!! Thanks!
Broxs: WOw! My story, an obbsession?! Lol. Never really thought it would get that way. I'm SOOO glad you like it!!! And I'm really glad you did review again! Don't worry, I will make a sequal eventually. But I'm going to take Harry through the fifth year first... Hey, if you want to email me, maybe I can run some suggestions by you and you can tell me whatcha think????(Coriemonster13@aol.com) Thank you!
coconut-ice agent h/h: Hmmm... Interesting name...:) But thank you so much for your review! I know how much people hate Vernon.(which is why I don't want him off the hook). Wow, thanks!!!! And thanks for reviewing!!!!!
Lei Dumbledore: Thanks for reviewing and I'm going to keep up with the chapters as best as I can...
Again, thanks to all reviewers and I hope everyone will review for this chapter!!! Thanks!!!!