A/N: Hey guys. This chapters really weird, and I'm sorry that this took so long.... I had expected it to be up over the weekend, but it was just too messed up with everything that had happened.
*** This chapter is dedicated to all those who were aboard the Columbia and their families. I can't even imagine what they must be feeling right now. I just want them to know their in my mind and heart. ***
Harry choked in an effort to regain oxygen in his lungs, which were now burning for air. He coughed violently as he felt tears slide down his pale face. He flinched as he realized someone was holding him. He pulled his body away from the other person and drew his knees to his chest.
The air now was flowing steadily through his body as his heart started to beat rhythmically again. The beating of his heart pounded in his ears as he closed his eyes and blocked everything out in front of him.
Distantly, he could hear his godfather talking to him and he pulled his body away from everyone else to the window. He stared out at the scenery, tears still falling freely down his cheeks, no longer caring if anyone saw or not.
No matter how far away he was from the man that called himself his uncle, no matter how long it had been, he would be haunted for the rest of his life. He rested his head against the cool glass, his burning head piercing his skin.
He felt Sirius touch his shoulder and he didn't flinch this time. The boy turned around, eyes thoroughly defeated.
"What's the matter, kid?" Harry lowered his head onto Sirius's shoulder. Sirius stroked his hair quietly for a few moments before Harry lifted his head and stared straight into Sirius's eyes. He couldn't bear loosing him, he was like a father. And yet, at the same time, he couldn't make Sirius feel the pain he himself had. Nobody should ever have to feel like he did.
He looked away and pulled himself into a lonely corner. Why was everyone crowded into the room staring at him? He shivered.
"Are you cold Harry?" Mrs. Weasly's hand connected with his shoulder and he jumped away, eyes flashing. She immediately looked upset and he felt a burning rise inside him. A feeling he knew he'd never felt before. He glared at everyone in the room and his eyes connected with Dumbledore's. They looked at each other, comparing emotions. Dumbledore looked startled as Harry shot him a look to leave him alone.
He whipped around as Sirius walked up behind him. Harry felt a part of him crying out for someone to stop what was happening to him. A feeling of hate and pain surged through his body controling everything he was doing.
But a burning sound rang through his ears. The voice of Cedric that haunted his ears every time he closed his eyes for sleep. 'Murderer.'
"Stay away from me," he said loudly. His voice was filled with venom, hated pouring from every inch of his body. He hated himself more than anything at that moment. All the pain ever bestowed upon him has always been his fault.
"Harry stop-" But before Dumbledore could finish his sentence, Harry threw a hand out and with a wave, his headmaster was thrown into a wall.
Immediately, Harry regretted it. Guilt stung his heart and he reached out a hand as if wishing his headmaster was all right, but a voice stung him like a thousand daggers beside him.
"Don't touch him, murderer."
"Cedric?" Gray eyes, still lifeless as they had been after the graveyard, penetrated his soul.
"You heard me murderer. You've hurt enough people. Stay away from these people. Nobody deceives the pain you inflict upon people." Harry stared at him, disbelief written all over his face.
"Don't believe me? Well, you should. People are going to die because of you. People you care about, people that are innocent. People like me, that were too young to die and yet, we do. Because you don't save us. Why didn't you save me, Harry? Why did you hate me so much?"
"No-Cedric, please!"
"Murderer-"
"Cedric! I swear! I'm so sorry!" Cedric's voice echoed long after he disappeared. Harry shook, violent sobs shaking his whole body.
"It's all my fault, I'm so sorry."
And for the first time in his life, Harry wished he had never been born.
A/N: Thanks to those who reviewed last chapter.
Tiger Lily: thank you!!! and thanks so much for reviewing
Amy: thank you---and i'm gonna try to update sooner
LittleEar BigEar's Sis: *blushes* thanks, and i really do like your idea, and i can't wait to write it... unfortunatly, school takes up a lot of my time that i'd rather spend writing. your so lucky to be home-schooled!!!! LoL. Maybe you'll be the next contest winner.....
Sakura-Hikaru: Hehe.... I guess your glad for the H/Hr pairing?? I'm sorry this is all so confusing.....I hope I'm not scaring people off because it's so weird.... anyways, thanks for your review and hope you liekd this chapter
Jordyana: LoL. I tried! I really did, but it just didn't work out... Sorry, I'll try and update sooner.... thank you!!! Your reviews make me so happy :) Hope you liked this chapter
kat: thanks!! I know, I love Harry and Sirius in a father-like way... and now you know how Harry reacts... ;)
Centra-gal86: *cringes* A lot of people have been telling me their confused... I'm really sorry about that. I'm really gonna try to get the next chapter out... This is gonna hopefully stop all the confusion.... and it is H/Hr... ;) hope you liked this chapter
sew20001: thank you!! and I HAVE STARTED YOUR STORY!!! LoL. Just thought you'd like to know... I'm liking the way this is going, too. And if you haven't already seen, I've sent an email about some questions on the story....Just so I'm not confused while writing it.
HavenKane: ah, don't worry about signing in. LoL.... I can totally see how Hermoine and Snape weren't meant to be together.... *shudders* that just scares me when people put them together for some reason....Glad you like the story... :) thanks for reviewing!!
PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW!!!! THEY MAKE ME UPDATE SOONER!!!
*** This chapter is dedicated to all those who were aboard the Columbia and their families. I can't even imagine what they must be feeling right now. I just want them to know their in my mind and heart. ***
Harry choked in an effort to regain oxygen in his lungs, which were now burning for air. He coughed violently as he felt tears slide down his pale face. He flinched as he realized someone was holding him. He pulled his body away from the other person and drew his knees to his chest.
The air now was flowing steadily through his body as his heart started to beat rhythmically again. The beating of his heart pounded in his ears as he closed his eyes and blocked everything out in front of him.
Distantly, he could hear his godfather talking to him and he pulled his body away from everyone else to the window. He stared out at the scenery, tears still falling freely down his cheeks, no longer caring if anyone saw or not.
No matter how far away he was from the man that called himself his uncle, no matter how long it had been, he would be haunted for the rest of his life. He rested his head against the cool glass, his burning head piercing his skin.
He felt Sirius touch his shoulder and he didn't flinch this time. The boy turned around, eyes thoroughly defeated.
"What's the matter, kid?" Harry lowered his head onto Sirius's shoulder. Sirius stroked his hair quietly for a few moments before Harry lifted his head and stared straight into Sirius's eyes. He couldn't bear loosing him, he was like a father. And yet, at the same time, he couldn't make Sirius feel the pain he himself had. Nobody should ever have to feel like he did.
He looked away and pulled himself into a lonely corner. Why was everyone crowded into the room staring at him? He shivered.
"Are you cold Harry?" Mrs. Weasly's hand connected with his shoulder and he jumped away, eyes flashing. She immediately looked upset and he felt a burning rise inside him. A feeling he knew he'd never felt before. He glared at everyone in the room and his eyes connected with Dumbledore's. They looked at each other, comparing emotions. Dumbledore looked startled as Harry shot him a look to leave him alone.
He whipped around as Sirius walked up behind him. Harry felt a part of him crying out for someone to stop what was happening to him. A feeling of hate and pain surged through his body controling everything he was doing.
But a burning sound rang through his ears. The voice of Cedric that haunted his ears every time he closed his eyes for sleep. 'Murderer.'
"Stay away from me," he said loudly. His voice was filled with venom, hated pouring from every inch of his body. He hated himself more than anything at that moment. All the pain ever bestowed upon him has always been his fault.
"Harry stop-" But before Dumbledore could finish his sentence, Harry threw a hand out and with a wave, his headmaster was thrown into a wall.
Immediately, Harry regretted it. Guilt stung his heart and he reached out a hand as if wishing his headmaster was all right, but a voice stung him like a thousand daggers beside him.
"Don't touch him, murderer."
"Cedric?" Gray eyes, still lifeless as they had been after the graveyard, penetrated his soul.
"You heard me murderer. You've hurt enough people. Stay away from these people. Nobody deceives the pain you inflict upon people." Harry stared at him, disbelief written all over his face.
"Don't believe me? Well, you should. People are going to die because of you. People you care about, people that are innocent. People like me, that were too young to die and yet, we do. Because you don't save us. Why didn't you save me, Harry? Why did you hate me so much?"
"No-Cedric, please!"
"Murderer-"
"Cedric! I swear! I'm so sorry!" Cedric's voice echoed long after he disappeared. Harry shook, violent sobs shaking his whole body.
"It's all my fault, I'm so sorry."
And for the first time in his life, Harry wished he had never been born.
A/N: Thanks to those who reviewed last chapter.
Tiger Lily: thank you!!! and thanks so much for reviewing
Amy: thank you---and i'm gonna try to update sooner
LittleEar BigEar's Sis: *blushes* thanks, and i really do like your idea, and i can't wait to write it... unfortunatly, school takes up a lot of my time that i'd rather spend writing. your so lucky to be home-schooled!!!! LoL. Maybe you'll be the next contest winner.....
Sakura-Hikaru: Hehe.... I guess your glad for the H/Hr pairing?? I'm sorry this is all so confusing.....I hope I'm not scaring people off because it's so weird.... anyways, thanks for your review and hope you liekd this chapter
Jordyana: LoL. I tried! I really did, but it just didn't work out... Sorry, I'll try and update sooner.... thank you!!! Your reviews make me so happy :) Hope you liked this chapter
kat: thanks!! I know, I love Harry and Sirius in a father-like way... and now you know how Harry reacts... ;)
Centra-gal86: *cringes* A lot of people have been telling me their confused... I'm really sorry about that. I'm really gonna try to get the next chapter out... This is gonna hopefully stop all the confusion.... and it is H/Hr... ;) hope you liked this chapter
sew20001: thank you!! and I HAVE STARTED YOUR STORY!!! LoL. Just thought you'd like to know... I'm liking the way this is going, too. And if you haven't already seen, I've sent an email about some questions on the story....Just so I'm not confused while writing it.
HavenKane: ah, don't worry about signing in. LoL.... I can totally see how Hermoine and Snape weren't meant to be together.... *shudders* that just scares me when people put them together for some reason....Glad you like the story... :) thanks for reviewing!!
PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW!!!! THEY MAKE ME UPDATE SOONER!!!